"Stabler" Elliot answered on the second ring.

"Hey El it's Abby." Abby said as she hailed a taxi "You need to get over to Alex's immediately.'

"What why?' Elliot said sitting up and reaching for his clothes mouthing Olivia and Alex to Kathy

"I have never seen Olivia that violent or angry. I'm afraid for Alex and I've called for a sector car to come over till you make it there."

"Oh god what did you do?" Elliot asked mouthing to Kathy to call Cragen

"Me?"

"Yes you what did you do or say to Alex where Olivia perceived it as a threat. The only time Olivia becomes that violent is when she perceives a threat to Alex. Believe me I speak from experience when I say she doesn't care what she does to protect Alex."

"I told her she should tell Olivia before court otherwise she would find out during court when Olivia tried to leave from the table. Olivia stopped me but when I insisted she lifted me off the floor and forced me into a wall. Saying I will not force Alex into anything and if I did she would kill me. El I've seen Olivia angry but this was a new one on me. Alex says she's never laid a hand on her but its only a matter of time till that anger gets directed to Alex."

"I take it since you're still in one piece that Alex was able to calm her?"

"Yes but still."

"No buts as long as Alex can calm her we're good." Elliot said as he grabbed his shield and gun before heading out the door "I'm heading over there but I have to stop the sector car before it arrives otherwise Olivia will kill the cops when they enter the apartment. The amount of protectiveness she has over Alex is astonishing."

"Alex please open the door and let me talk to you." Olivia pleaded from outside Alex's locked bedroom door.

"Olivia there's nothing to say." Alex called out. "Please just leave its best I promise."

Olivia closed her eyes and took a deep breath she could hear the tears and pain in Alex's voice. If she wasn't so hell bent on making sure that Alex was ok and understood that she didn't care she would personally hunt Abby down and beat her, until she knew that Alex was ok though that would have to wait.

"Alex I'm coming in" Olivia called out as she slid the credit card between the door and frame "I'm not going to hurt you. We need to talk and you know I have to see for myself that you're physically ok."

"Olivia please I beg you." Alex cried as the door slowly opened and Olivia stood in the doorway. Taking a deep breath she slowly raised her eyes to meet Olivia's knowing she would see nothing but hate and disgust in them. What shocked her and took her breath away was the half smile she got when she looked at her.

"Alex you know about my conception and how I was raised but what you don't know is before I joined SVU I would go out to the clubs regularly and pick women up from there as well." Olivia started to say as she shoved her hands in her pants and leaned against the door frame not making a move to come any closer than she was at the moment "Most times I didn't know their name when they left my bed in the morning. There were times we never made it out of the bar either. To be honest I have christened more bathroom stalls then I would like to admit."

Alex looked at Olivia with disbelief written all over her face.

"Didn't think I was ever like that counselor?" Olivia asked raising one eyebrow.

"NO." Alex said shaking her head.

"Surprise everyone has a past and it's not all roses. If a woman said no I stopped and I have never raised my hand to a woman either. Let's get that straight right now. I have had multiple partners at the same time as well. There were a few times that the multiple partners included a man. I have gone to an underground sex club as a client and let's just say they are open to try anything. None of this I am proud of and would quite frankly like to forget I ever did but I can't."

"Why are you telling me this?" Alex asked as she took a seat on the bed. She just knew Olivia would try to convince her everything was ok not suddenly tell her what her past was like.

"Because for some reason you seem to think I am some saint and lord knows I am far from that. You also believe that if I knew everything that she did to you I wouldn't want you. I wouldn't be able to stand to touch you. So I will ask you, now that you know how I was when I was younger does that change your opinion of me?"

"Olivia that was your past I won't judge you on that." Alex said sitting up straighter than she was to make sure she got her point across.

"Good" Olivia said as she pushed off the door frame and walked to Alex's side slowly sitting on the bed not wanting to scare Alex "I'm not judging you for yours."

"You turned that around on me." Alex said laughing.

"I did." Olivia said pushing a strand of hair out of Alex's eyes "I want you to know that I have not engaged in any activities like that for over four years now. I by the grace of god have a clean bill of health. I had one scare which is what straightened me up. After that I didn't do one night stands, bathroom fucks, or sex parties ever again. I seriously started dating and even then it would be months before I would consider taking it to the bedroom. Abby was the closest thing to my old way of life I got after that. The difference was that we knew each other and only accommodated each other if we both were single."

That sat there in total silence while Alex seemed to absorb everything that Olivia had just told her. Considering the picture Olivia just painted and the Olivia she knew today was like night and day it was extremely hard to. Even though she had a wild past and nothing really came close to touching hers she still didn't judge her for it. One thing for sure the detective seemed to amaze her more and more each day.

"Olivia I am so terrified that I am going to do something wrong and make you mad." Alex finally said so low that Olivia had to strain to hear her. "I keep waiting for that blow. I don't know how to stop that. I keep waiting for that moment where we're kissing and you get tired of waiting and take what you want like she did."

"That's a fear that only time will diminish. There's nothing I can say to stop that and I can only hope that my actions will change how you feel. Alex I wish I could take your pain from you so you wouldn't have to endure it. I wish I had met her first and she had gotten me not you. But she didn't. Now you had to live through a hell that no one should ever have to live through and continue to each and every day. I'd give anything to go back in time to change everything."

"You can't change the past" Alex said realizing that was the point that Olivia was trying to make all along.

"No, but I can change the future if you let me." Olivia said as she held her breath and her arms open for Alex to accept the invitation. She slowly exhaled her breath as Alex crawled into her lap and began to cry into her shoulder. She slowly ran soothing circles over Alex's back until she calmed down and fell asleep in her arms.