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»I was stupid and I let them walk all over me, especially Edward and Alice.« She sighed. »I don't even know when it started. It was small things at first, like Alice bought me clothes only the color Edward liked on me. Then my old clothes started to disappear from my closet and being replaced with Alice approved ones.«

»Then there was the food. I had to have a proper breakfast instead of the Poptart I was used to have.« She felt so stupid now.

»You know after the whole Phoenix fiasco my body was broken. Seriously, there wasn't a place on my body that didn't hurt.« Bella snorted. »Even my hair hurt.«

Victoria's face was full of guilt. She was really sorry she wanted to kill Bella. Just two hours ago that was all she thought about. But now talking to her, listening to her talk about her life she felt guilty.

Guilty about her thoughts, guilty for what James did to her. It wasn't right of him to play games like that.

»It's okey.« Bella soothed her. She sat on the bed next to her. »It doesn't matter anymore.«

When Victoria nodded Bella continued her story.

»Those assholes made me go to the prom! All broken and shit.«

Victoria looked at Bella incredulously.

»Yeah, I know!« Bella exclaimed.

»Alice came with this blue dress and a fugly jacket. And I never wear dresses. She did my hair and then Edward came to pick me up. I didn't even know where we were going.«

»He took me to prom!« She was seriously pissed off. »The prom I never wanted to go to in the first place. Much less with a broken leg.«

She stood and paced in front of Victoria.

»The same shit happened with the fucking party!«

»I didn't want the party. I wanted to spend a day with my dad, or just Edward. But they pushed and pushed and before I knew it I was at the damned party.«

»There was cake! Cake and a million crystal plates. Seriously, it was an accident waiting to happen.«

»Wait!« Bella just thought of something. »What if they did know?«

»How would they know?« Victoria asked.

»You know how some vampires have gifts?«

Victoria nodded. »Yes. I have the gift of enhanced self-persevation.«

»Huh, that must be handy.« Bella wanted to know more, but she forced herself to stay on topic.

»Well, Alice saw the future.«

Victoria gaped.

»I know.« Bella felt the same way when she found out about that particular power, it was so easily abused.

»She saw the future based on ones choises. Alice sees flashes of the future possibilities coming from the choices they've made. But if they make different choices, it becomes a whole new future.«

Victoria waved her hand to show she was following.

»But the party was already decided. They already decided they will wrap my presants and not put them in a gift bag or something.«

»You have already made the choice to kill me, so you stalk me. Yet Edward decides to break up with me in the woods. And Edward can read minds, if you were so close that you could listen to the conversation, he could probably hear your thoughts«

Victoria is taken aback. The girl was right, that can't be a coincidence. »You may be right.«

»No.« Bella corrected. »The more I think about it the more it all comes together, like a puzzle. There's no way they wouldn't know.«

»Even in Phoenix, when I escaped Alice and Jasper.«

Victoria raised an eyebrow. »You escaped two vapires?« Her voice full of disbelief.

»You, see. There's no way that should be possible, right?«

Bella already knew she was right, but she wanted validation.

»Well, if they're burning…« Victoria trailed off.

It was impossible for a human girl to escape one vampire, let alone two.

Bella felt like a huge rock was in her stomach.

»Wow.« She breathed. »I was an idiot.«

It was all a lie.

Esme, the mother figure she never had – all that mothering, Bella always thought she was so sweet. Lie.

Carlisle, the loving father she always wanted. Bella loved her dad, she did. She just wished he would hug her or something once in a while. Lie.

Alice, Bella's first best friend. Well, if she's being honest her first friend ever. Lie.

Emmet, the brother she always wished she had. Bella had wanted a big brother since she could remember. Someone to take care of her, to protect her. Lie.

Jasper and Rosalie. Bella can't say much about them, she never knew them.

Rosalie because she was a bitch. And Jasper was never allowed near her.

And then there was Edward.

Her first boyfriend, her first love. All lies!

But Edward didn't love her, he didn't even care about her. All he cared about was a girl he created. A girl who never stood up to him, that always did what he wanted. Edward couldn't love Bella, he didn't even know her.

And maybe Bella didn't love Edward either.

»Holy crap!« Victoria looked at Bella.

»What's wrong?« She asked Bella.

The human was smart, Victoria wondered what she figured out now.

»I just realized something.« Bella told Victoria. »I realized I never loved Edward. I loved the idea of Edward.«

»What do you mean?« Victoria was shaking her head. Humans confused her.

»I loved what Edward represented. I liked the idea of being in love and having a big loving family.« Bella smiled dreamily.

She wanted a family of her own one day. How stupid she was, thinking of throwing her life away for a boy.

»I remember I begged him to turn me at the prom.«

»Do you want to be turned?« Victoria asked her. »I could do it.«

And she would, but only if Bella wanted. She liked the girl.

»No.« Bella declined. »But thank you for the offer. I was just thinking that I would like to have kids some day.«

Victoria could see that happening. Bella would be a good mother some day, she certainly had enough practice.

»You don't know how much it means to me that you offered to turn me.« Bella told Victoria. »Edward never wanted to, he didn't want to damn my soul or something like that. Not that I'm not grateful he didn't –now. At the time he just made me feel unwanted.«

»Eh, I like you.« Victoria shruged. »I could get used to you. Especialy now that I'm alone.«

For a second, before Victoria interupted her Bella felt sorry for her.

»Don't feel sorry for me.« Victoria told her. »I'll be fine.« She walked to Bella. »And you'll be just fine too. I'm gonna go to the Cullen house and see what they left there and what I can sell. Whatever I sell, the money I get from it I'll give to you.«

»No.« Bella tried.

»I don't need money, Bella. But you deserve something for your time and heartache.«

Bella couldn't help herself, she hugged Victoria.

»It really is a shame we haven't met in different circumstances, I believe we could be friends.« Victoria told Bella as they were embracing.

Bella nodded, the Cullens robbed her of a lot of things. They took so many first from Bella, she can't even count them.

But there is something Edward never wanted.

Bella reached a hand up to Victoria's red hair and pulled her down by her hair.

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