Alex woke up and felt the panic rising in her. She was trapped and unable to get free. She tried to take a few deep breaths to calm herself but was unable to.

"Alex it's just me" Olivia whispered when she felt Alex began to shake wanting to tighten her hold on her but scared it would frighten her even more.

"The blanket can't move." Alex said through panicked breaths.

"Ok" Olivia said as she rolled off the bed and threw the blanket back and off Alex "Better?"

Alex nodded as she took some deep breaths trying to calm herself now that she was able to move.

"Can I lay back down next to you?" Olivia asked

"Please."

Olivia smiled at Alex as she carefully stretched back out next to Alex loosely laying her arm across Alex. She took a deep breath and released it when Alex grabbed her hand and pulled it tight around her and snuggled in tighter to her embrace.

"I'm sorry." Alex mumbled as she brought Olivia's hand up to her mouth and kissed it "I woke up and was pinned by the blanket I couldn't move or break free."

"Hey it's ok" Olivia whispered as she kissed her head "I didn't think about that. I got to hot and rolled out from under the covers but you started shivering so I tucked the blanket around you and curled up against you. I didn't want you to be cold."

"I wouldn't have been shivering if my personal heater had stayed next to me under the covers." Alex said sighing.

"Well excuse me princess." Olivia said laughing as she tickled Alex "But your personal heater was starting to sweat."

"Well" Alex said rolling over to face Olivia moving Olivia's arm so that is was under her and Olivia could still hold her tight against her. "I guess I can forgive you this time but don't let it happen again."

"I promise you Alex" Olivia whispered as she pushed a few stray strands of hair out of her eyes "I won't tuck the blanket around you like that again ok."

"I meant you not staying by me." Alex said smiling at Olivia "Just because you were getting to hot was no reason to get out from underneath the covers."

"Yes ma'am" Olivia said with laughter in her voice as she pulled Alex tight to her.

Alex sighed as she buried her head into the crook of Olivia's neck and kissed her neck before closing her eyes. Why couldn't she have met Olivia before Jess? Why couldn't she have experienced so much love and safety and never know the terror of being tortured on a daily basis? It would have been nice real nice.

"Alex are you ok?" Olivia asked feeling the tears against her shoulder.

Alex shook her head and took a deep breath willing the tears to stop.

"Baby talk to me." Olivia said pulling back to look down at Alex "Please don't shut me out now."

"It's nothing." Alex mumbled trying to unsuccessfully roll away.

"If you're crying it's not nothing at least not to me. Now please tell me what's wrong?" Olivia said taking a deep breath before continuing with the question she dreaded the answer to "Do you regret last night?"

"What" Alex said sitting up quickly grabbing the blanket to cover herself "I can never and will never regret last night."

"Then talk to me. What is bothering you? Did I hurt you in some way? Do you want me to leave? What is it?"

"Olivia" Alex choked out as she turned to face Olivia "You didn't hurt me. Last night was the best night of my life and possibly the best sexual experience I have ever had."

"I hear a but coming" Olivia said closing her eyes hoping to calm the dread she was starting to feel. She knew she should have stopped and not proceeded but the need that was showing through Alex's eyes told her everything she needed to know. Shall she say at least she thought it did? Thinking back now maybe she had read all the signs wrong. If that was the case she wanted to crawl up in a hole and die.

"There is no but, well maybe a small one." Alex said pulling her knees up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them in a protective gesture.

Olivia swallowed hard and fought to keep her emotions under control. She had to keep them under control until she made it out of the room at least. The last thing she ever wanted was for Alex to think that she had hurt her or worse that she regretted it. Lord knew the last thing Olivia wanted was to look over and see the pain she knew was waiting for her in Alex's baby blue eyes.

"You know Alex" Olivia said in what she hoped was a calm voice even though she could tell it wasn't."It's ok. I understand more than you know. I'm going to go take a shower."

"I don't understand" Alex crying.

"Alex I'm giving you the out here." Olivia said with her back to her "I'm going to go take a shower. It will give you time to leave and I can meet you downstairs in about an hour." Olivia hung her head hating to say the next words that were about to come out of her mouth "If it helps you, or makes it better, we can just pretend that last night didn't happen."

"I don't understand" Alex cried as she reached out and stopped Olivia "Why couldn't I have met you before her? Why did I have to suffer through everything? It's not fair."

Olivia quickly pulled Alex against her and rocked her gently as her body was racked with sobs.

"Shh its ok I promise you." Olivia whispered as she gently kissed her head "It will all be ok."

"Why? Though why?"

"I don't know Alex. I wish I did. I wish I knew what turned people into the monsters that I deal with daily. If we could figure it out then I wouldn't and you wouldn't have to know the terror. Maybe just maybe we could stop it before it happened and spare everyone the pain. Until that happens we will always ask why."

Alex nodded against Olivia's chest as slowly gained control of her emotions. She couldn't help but think this was probably the last way Olivia wanted to spend the morning after. Hell it was the last way she wanted to spend the morning after and she started it.

"Come on baby just rest some more" Olivia whispered as she felt Alex's breathing start to calm and pulled the blanket up around them.

"For the record detective" Alex said as she tightened her hold on Olivia sighing "I will never regret last night."

A/N: Not the morning after you expected? I have to keep you on your toes. I was looking over this story and have to say wow. Over 827 reviews I don't say it enough but thank you so much for reading my stories. You guys are the greatest I swear.