Future

Okay…you know how I said the whole suddenly falling in love with Smallville about a year ago was the weerdest thing that has ever happened to me? Well, I takle it back. What's just happened to me is so strang…I don't even know how I can explain it. It's definitely got me all worcked up…I can tell already this partiqular blog full of typos. But I don't really care. I have to talk about this to someone…might as well be you.

So…I'm on my way to kill Smallville who leaves me with the kids and steals the Mayor's press conference right from under me. I should have seen it sooner…that the Smallville I was looking at with Jonny and Sara wasn't really Smallville. I know…I know it sounds nuts but let me explain. First of all, my Smallville doesn't wear glasses, hornrimmed or otherwise. Second, yes Clark is known for his fashion mizsteps but even he wouldn't be caught dead wearing a trenchcoat, black vest, and a fedora. Third…the way he was holding Jonny and Sara was like they were somehow supporting him upright. Which, to me, was an obvious indication that this man is their father. But on the other hand the similarity of my Smallville's and this Clark's face was uncanny. Same strong bone structure. Same tousled black hair…wait I take that back my Smallville would never wear his hair flat and in a side part…he'd sooner have a jerry curl. Anyway…I wish I would have noticed these small differences before I went over to talk to Clark. There's a chance things could have gone a lot smoother…but instead they went like this.

"Clark" I say while he's still hugging and kissing the kids "Where the hell have you been? Why did you leave me with Jonny and Sara? I didn't think that getting ahead was so important to you but apparently it is!"

When he see's me…it's almost like a light goes off. He smiles my favorite brilliant smile…the one that reaches his clear blue eyes. He let's go of Jonny and Sara and beings to walk towards me…staring in pure joy and wonder.

"Lois" he breaths so quietly it's almost inaudiable

Then…he. No, I can't say it! I won't! I can't. It so…I just…oh damint Lois just grow a pair and say it already! He kissed me! Right there in the bullpen with EVERYONE watching! I wanted to scream…I wanted to bit his tongue so he would take it out of my mouth! But at the same time…I wanted the kiss to last. I never wanted his lips to ever leave mine. And in that moment all the things that went on in my mind…just flew out the door. It was unlike any kiss I have ever experienced. Well, okay that's not true when I kissed Green Arrow two years ago the feelings I felt were powerful as well and oddly familiar. But there was something about this kiss that just…I don't even know how to explain it. I forgot everything for a moment. Yet I felt everything. I felt my heart race…his mouth tighten slightly as I bit lightly his bottom lip…how it felt so right to be held in his armz.

When our lips separated my mind was a whirlwind. A mesh between figuring out what just happened and if I was still breathing. Not sure exactly what to do…because I was in such a daze…I did the only thing I knew would "wake me up" so to speak. I punched Clark in the face.

Clark didn't say anything…he didn't even seem to be in pain. He just lifted his head and placed his palm on his check. He looked at me, not in confusion, but in recognition and understanding.

"What the hell was that for?" I demanded armgily

"Is it a crime to kiss my wife?" the Clark look-a-like questioned

"Wife!?" I swear my hert skipped a beat

"Daddy!" Sara quickly interjected "Miss. Lane and Clark Kent are NOT together. They are just work partners"

"Really?" the look-a-like was in disbelief "What time is it?"

"How about time for you to answer some questions!" I yelled…loudy

"I will Lois…I promise I will. But first I need to know the time"

I looked down at my phone and told him the time of day.

"No, Lo, I mean what is the year?"

"Clark…it's November 3, 2008" the small grimmance on Clark's face did not go unnoticed "What does that have to do with what the hell is going on!"

"Lois I know that the General raised you that way but when you are in front of our children could you please not swear"

Everything froze when he said those two words.

"Our children" I silently repeated

"Sara honey" Clark turned his attention over to his little girl "why don't you take Jonny over to the car…it's just outside. I'll be right there"

"No! Daddy I donwanna!" Jonny screamed tears rolling down his cute chubby checks

"Jonathan Samuel Kent" Clark sternly stated, "Go with your sister…I'll be there in a moment"

And with that they went up the stairs and there were Clark and I…left in the middle of this small space surrounded by so many people.

"Samuel" I whisper, "I bet the General was happy about that one"

"Estatic" Clark gave a small laugh "He smoked a Cuban when he heard about his namesake"

"Was he as happy at the wedding?" I don't know why I asked that…but before I could stop my self it was out there for him to hear

"Yes…he was very pleased when we finally tied to knot. It took us a long time to get there"

"Why? Did we break up or something?"

"No…both of us were very much ready to marry eachother…we just were…busy"

"Sounds like something we'd be. God…what am I saying? I'm talking as though this is normal. Like it's already happened"

"For me it has. When I'm from…you and I have been married 15 years. We have two beautiful children…with a third on the way"

"I'm PREGNANT?!" too much information…too fast

Clark slowly nodds

"You told me you would never be able to have children? Was that a lie you told me to get you off your back?"

"No" Clark's voice is full of sincerity so ofcourse I trust him "At the time, Lois, I firmly believed that I would never be able to have children"

"But not because you have an insufficient sperm count"

"Nothing gets by you" he laughs and his eyes start to crinkle

"I'm a reporter. If anything got by me I'd be out of a job…which would make Tess very happy"

"Ah Tess…" and for a brief moment there's a sadness in his face and then it's gone, "Lois, you have to trust me. There are somethings I can't tell you right now. These questions you have about me will be answered. But the present me isn't ready to share them with you…yet. You have to give me time. You have to be patient"

"Yea…that's not really my strong suit"

He laughs…a deep hearty wonderful laugh and pulls me close to his chest. There's something different about this man. He's Clark…except he's not. He's more…confident? No, that's not the right word. I can't put my finger on it but there's something about him that's changed…and I tell him as much.

"We both have" He tells me "There was a time when I couldn't stand to be in the same room as you and now…the thought of being with out you makes me sick to my stomach"

"You love me" it sounds so strange but somehow I know it's true

"Very much"

He kisses me again…but it's different from the first kiss. Gentler, tender, is somehow warm. And for a moment…I can see a future with this man. A life where I have three kids and is married; such a concept used to seem so absurd, but now I'm not so sure.

"All the questions you have will be answered in time" he explains softly, "Just do what you do best and keep prying your nose into other people's business and I will see you real soon."

"You're leaving?" my voice in questionable shock and disbelif

"It's time for us to go home…my wife is having a cow right now. Worrying about Jonny and Sara. But like I said…I'll see you soon. Come on…why don't you say goodbye to the kids before we go"

I don't know why this upsets me so much. I mean of course he has to go back…so why am I feeling so crappy?

"It's not like I'm really going anywhere…I'll be walking into the bullpen in 5 minutes" Clark explains

"But you don't…" I'm to embarrassed to finish my sentence

"I do…trust me I do. I just don't know how to show you yet. But I will and once I do everything will make sense"

And without another word he takes my hand, reassuring me of what will happen somehow, and pulls me up the stairs. There they are, my beautiful children (oh my GOD that is SO strange to say), waiting to go home.

That's possibly the hardest part. Saying goodbye…I've never been good at those. Sara stares at me…with her father's big blue eyes…with a look that seems to say 'you don't need to be afriad'…which of cours, I am. I mean…they're expecting me to not only believe I am their mother, that I am MARRIED to Clark Kent, and somehow they're from the future. What's next? They're going to tell me they're actually from outerspace? It's a lot to ask someone to believe in…if it were any other person I probably wouldn't believe. But it's Clark…the most honest man I know. And though I know it's impossible, something tells me that he's right. That in someway that will be my life. And knowing that makes saying goodbye even harder.

I hold onto Sara so tightly I start to wonder if she can even breath. I kiss Jonny on the forehead and try to hide the small tear I can feel run down my face. Finally I see Clark…my furture husband. He pulls me in close and wraps his arms around me. Surrounding me with warmth and strength.

"I love you" he whispers softly in my ear

"I love you too" I admit for the first time and let it hang in the air. It feels nice to finally admit it…even if it's not really to the right person.

As Clark and the kids wave goodbye I somehow find myself turning my back for a second and just as quickly as they came into my life…they're gone. I return to the bullpen…in a haze. Not sure really how to comprehend what just happened. I'm just staring at my computer when Smallville finally shows up.

"Lois…what are you doing?" he has the gaul to question

"My job, Smallville" I answer icily "Which is more than you can say. Where they hell were you? I called you like 9 times. Honestly Smallville what's the point in having a cell-phone if you don't even use it?"

"I was at the press conference…someone had to cover the story and someone had to watch the kids"

"We agreed that I would do the press conference and YOU would watch the kids remember?"

"Well…something came up and I had to go okay? Just drop if Lo! By the way…where are the kids?"

"They're father finally came…he took them home" I replied…I mean it is the truth

And that was pretty much my day. I don't know guys…I didn't realize such crazy shit would be happening. Screw coffee…I'm going to the Ace of Clubs for a beer. I'll talk to you guys soon…that is ofcourse if you all are still reading this. Give you more info about what's up with Smallville in a few days. See ya later

LL