A/N: I know it has been a while since I updated and I am so sorry. I had the hardest time writing this chapter and I couldn't even begin to tell you how many times I have started this chapter only to erase it and start all over. I finally just allowed it to flow and go with what came out. I hope it's up to par. Most importantly I wanted to thank everyone for sticking with me during all my gaps.
Olivia carefully guided Alex up the stairs and into her room. She slowly turned around to face Alex taking a deep breath as she stared into her crystal blue eyes. She could see the fear in them and the fact that Alex was trying hard to mask it broke her heart even more.
"Alex you have nothing to prove."
"I know." Alex whispered as she struggled to swallow pas the lump forming in her throat.
"Good, then let's go back down stairs and find a movie to watch and just relax for the rest of the evening."
"I don't want that, Olivia." Alex answered reaching out and stopping the retreating brunette "I know I have nothing to prove and we can stop at any moment. The fact that I know that you are willing to stop no matter what makes me want you that much more."
Olivia turned and took a step toward Alex smiling when she watched her swallow hard. She stopped within arm's reach and reached out to gently caress her cheek, closing her eyes when Alex leaned into the touch.
"Any time." Olivia managed to choke out.
"I know." Alex said smiling as she connected with Olivia's brown eyes that were so black with desire.
Olivia nodded as she shakily reached forward and slowly began to unbutton the shirt that Alex was wearing. She tried to steady her breathing as she undid the last button and trailed her eyes up Alex's toned upper torso as she slowly removed Alex's shirt.
"Detective if you don't take a deep breath and calm your breathing you're going to pass out."
"I feel like a virgin again I swear." Olivia said laughing allowing the shirt to fall from her fingers.
"I feel like every time is our first time." Alex answered as she closed the gap between them.
Olivia pulled Alex into a loose embrace and trailed her fingers up and down Alex's slender back enjoying the feel of goose bumps that erupted on her skin. She pulled back when she reached the clasps on her bra and double checked on Alex before undoing the bra.
"You are so beautiful." Olivia whispered as she allowed the straps to fall down Alex's arm.
Alex blushed at the complement and looked away.
"Hey." Olivia said her voice slightly deeper than normal as she carefully turned Alex's head back around so she could look in to her eyes "You are beautiful. There has never been and will never be a woman as beautiful as you on the face of this earth. The fact that someone as gorgeous, beautiful and intelligent as you want to give me a chance is so mind blowing that there are times I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming.
Alex casted her eyes downward unable to keep Olivia's gaze and the intensity she felt from it.
Olivia gently took Alex by the hand and led her to the bed. She was about to sit down when Alex quickly spun them around and sat on the bed leaving Olivia towering over her.
"You always sit on the bed allowing me to tower over you." Alex explained "A way to show that I am still in control without out right telling me. Tonight all that changes you are in control."
"Alex…" Olivia started to say but stopped when Alex shook her head no and quickly slipped out of her pants and underwear before shimming back further onto the bed.
Olivia unable to grasp any logical thought to stop what Alex was doing quickly shed her clothing and crawled up the bed till she was hovering over Alex. She smiled down at the blonde before slowly leaning down, making sure to leave a gap between their bodies and gently kissing Alex.
Alex wrapped her arms around Olivia and pulled her tight against her body, she loved how she felt pressed against her despite some of the fear she felt from it.
Olivia pulled back and ran her hand up and down Alex's side as she smiled once again at the blonde below her. "Are you sure Alex?"
Alex nodded as she skimmed Olivia's back with her nails becoming wetter hearing Olivia hiss at the feel of it.
Olivia began to slow kiss her way down Alex's neck, skimming her teeth against her skin from time to time till she was met with a taunt and begging nipple. She flicked her tongue across it moaning herself when Alex screamed out and arched her back begging for more. She pulled back smirking up at Alex before taking the bud in her mouth and sucking on it hard.
Alex screamed when Olivia began to suck hard on the already sensitive bud. She was starting to believe if Olivia didn't let up soon she was going to come without ever being touched.
"Liv please, please." Alex begged as she tried to push Olivia down to where she wanted her.
"I told you I would have you begging." Olivia whispered as she moved to the other breasts.
"Yesss" Alex screamed out as Olivia grazed her teeth across the other nipple.
"And screaming too." Olivia mumbled before flicking her tongue across the nipple and then blowing on it.
"Please please."
Olivia hummed as she took the straining bud in her mouth and sucked on it. Glancing up and seeing Alex's head thrown back in passion was almost caused her to lose control and take her as roughly as she wanted to at that moment. She released the nipple knowing that she had to take a step back and slow it down so not to send Alex into a flashback.
"Please don't" Alex almost sobbed when Olivia pulled away from her body. She was starting to think that if Olivia left her on the edge like she was she would truly die.
"Alex you're with me." Olivia said as she quickly made her way up her body so she could look into her eyes.
"I know" Alex cried "Please Olivia please" she chanted as she took her hand and trailed it down her opening to where she so desperately needed and wanted her.
Olivia's whole body shuddered when she felt how wet Alex had become. She had to close her eyes and take a deep breath in hopes of calming herself some before she hurt Alex, which was working until Alex whispered fuck me please in her ear.
Alex cried out when she felt Olivia enter her with two fingers and began a rough but steady pace in and out of her.
Olivia tried her best to keep control of herself but was finding it harder and harder to do the more that Alex met her thrust for thrust and begged for more. She knew that if she didn't send Alex flying over the edge soon she would likely end up hurting the blonde.
Alex could feel that this orgasm would be like no other that she had ever had before and it wouldn't be long before she would be flying over the edge. That fact was cemented when she felt Olivia circle her clit causing her hips to buck.
"Come baby." Olivia whispered in a hoarse throat "Come for me."
"YESSSSSSS" Alex screamed as she felt the first wave hit her.
Olivia slowly and carefully brought Alex back down when her inner walls clamped down on her fingers preventing her from moving.
"God." Alex finally breathed after a few minutes when she was able to get her bearings.
"You ok." Olivia asked as she slowly and carefully removed her fingers from Alex.
"No." Alex whispered smiling "I'm perfect."
Olivia smiled as rolled over and pulled Alex tight against her fighting back tears when she felt Alex snuggle in closer to her and sigh. She knew what that sigh meant she felt safe and after years of working with victims she knew what it took for them to feel that way again. To know that she was able to allow Alex to once again feel safe in the arms of a woman, her arms to be exact, was a feeling that she would never be able to put into words or describe. A feeling that she hoped she could forever make Alex feel.