A Choice to Make

Grey's Anatomy

Setting: After 13x24

Characters: Meredith Grey, Alex, Maggie, Cristina, Nathan

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Chapter Eleven

"Do you want to stop?" Cristina asked Meredith.

a few hours before:

They were in the car, they just had lunch and they were now headed back to the hospital. Meredith held a cup of coffee in her left hand while she rested her head on her right. She looked out the car window at the sunny day. There were a few clouds in the sky and the grass was a beautiful clean green. The trees gently swayed back and forth while the birds chirped. Meredith had been up for hours, she was so tired and all she wanted to do was sleep. But she knew sleep was not going to happen until she told Nathan her secret. Meredith shifted her body to look forward, she soon realized that they had passed the hospital and they were now headed into rural area.

"Where are we going?" Meredith asked quietly.
"A few places."
"Cristina...I need to go to the hospital."
"You will, I just think you need to visit these places real quick."
"Okay, but I think i'm ready...to tell Nathan."
"Good, you will be even more ready after we finish."

Cristina kept driving, Meredith soon recognized where they were going. This was the way to get to the dream house. Ever since she sold the house she had never been back, she always felt that she wasn't ready. Cristina turned onto a little dirt path that would lead then to the house. The path had once been decorated with bird feeders, children's toys, and colorful flowers. Now everything was over grown and weeds had taken the place of he flowers. Meredith kept her eyes forwards. Seeing this path made her sad and disappointed, she thought the new owner would take care of the land, but instead it seems like they had neglected it. When they reached the house she saw that everything was now covered in vines and weeds. The patio Derek had build was nearly rotting and the play-set they had bought was broken down. Cristina stopped the car and Meredith slowly opened the car door. She placed one foot in front of the other, she walked up to the house and looked through the window. She saw the fireplace she loved and the room where she told Derek about Bailey. This made her smile only for a second. Meredith then walked around the house to see the view that Derek and her loved. This also made her smile, but again only for a second. She then made her way back to the car. Meredith got into the car and she nodded. Cristina then turned on the car and they left the land.

"Have you planned what you're going to say?" Cristina asked.
"No, not really...i've been too distracted. I've been trying to work this out as smoothly as I can, especially with Zola. You know she's getting older and I am worried about her and what she will think." Meredith said softly.
"Yeah, I definitely get that. Alright well we have one more spot to visit, if you want to." Cristina said as she glanced over to look at Meredith."

They kept driving and Meredith then realized this was the way to the cemetery. Meredith looked down to her lap and she realized her hands were sweating. There was silence. She then grabbed her phone out from her pocket to check if she had been paged. She kind of hope she had been but when she looked at her phone all she saw was five missed calls. Three of them were from Nathan, one from Maggie, and one from the hospital. She listened to them in order. Nathan was wondering were she was, it was very nice of him to call so many times. It showed that he really did care about her. Maggie was wondering if she could scrub in on a surgery and the message from the hospital was nothing. Meredith then looked back up and turned to Cristina.

"Do you want to stop?" Cristina asked.
"Yeah but first can we get some flowers. It's been a long time." Meredith said gently.
"Okay."

They then turned into the parking lot to buy flowers. A few minuets later they came back with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. They continued to the cemetery. When they got there Cristina parked the car.

"Are you coming?" Meredith said looking back at Cristina.
"Do you want me to?" Cristina responded.
"Sure. I mean if you want to."
"Alright let's go." Cristina said confidently.

She took Meredith along with the flowers. They walked over to the grave and there Meredith stood there in silence. She couldn't move, she couldn't speak, until Cristina turned to her.

"Meredith? Meredith. Meredith!" Meredith quickly jerked her head to face Cristina. "Are you okay? Are you sure your ready?" There was silence but finally Meredith nodded her head yes. "I'm going to go wait over there. Meet me there when your done?" Meredith nodded her head. "Good."

Cristina walked away. She would hear her footsteps getting quieter and quieter. Soon she knew it was just her. She looked down at the grass and then her hands, and then the flowers they had bought. She gently kneeled down and placed the flowers next to the stone. Tears were now flowing down her face in a constant stream. She couldn't stop the tears but she gently brushed them away. She began to un-freeze and she opened her mouth, but nothing came out. She tried again but her tears took over. She tried for a third time, this time words did come out.

"Derek. Derek? Derek!? I...I..." She said trying to push through the tears. "I have something to tell you." She paused. "I don't know if you can see or if you are watching down on us but I wan't to let you know that we are okay and that...um...i'm pregnant. I'm sorry I didn't mean to spit it out like that. I just felt like I needed to tell you, it's Nathan's." More tears formed in Meredith's eyes, she could barley keep it together. "Derek? What should I do?" Meredith stood there with a tissue in one hand and the other wiping her tears. She waited, she was waiting for a sign or something, she wasn't quite sure. All she knew is that she wanted him back. She wanted to pretend that Nathan was Derek and that she was telling Derek about Bailey. She knew this wasn't going to happen but at least it provided some comfort. She had already lived and survived through so much she knew she was going to be okay. She lightly touched the tomb stone and she slowly backed away. She simply said: "Thank you."

She turned around and walked to Cristina. They got back into the car and Meredith knew she had to tell Nathan, she had to tell him now.