Scott peered in rear-view mirror to check on Holly snuggled in her car seat behind him. She was dozing peacefully, with no idea on how important her day had been.

Scott had kept his word and taken Holly to see her mother at New Oak Haven. It had been a supervised visit, Dr Stanhope observing from the corner and a large orderly sitting conspicuously by the door.

Madison had been fine.

She had been happy to see Holly; keen to hold her in her arms; delighted to chat and play with her.

She was full of question for Scott. Much more talkative than she had been on any of his last visits. It seemed that seeing Holly in the flesh had reminded her of all the things she had missed.

"Is she talking yet?"

Scott was convinced that Holly had taken to calling him 'Moo-gagh!' but as it wasn't really a word he said no.

"Is she eating solids yet?"

The answer to that was yes, and if Scott left her to try and feed herself Holly would often end up wearing her food as well.

"How was potty training going?"

Scott had to admit she was too young for that.

"Was she walking?"

No but she was crawling around at a fierce pace and Scott now had to watch where he put her down as she was often at the other side of the room doing something she shouldn't before he knew it.

Madison laughed at his stories and Scott could see in her eyes that she was genuinely sorry that she missed it all.

This was the Madison that Scott knew as Holly's mother.

But at the same time Scott was aware of the hulking orderly waiting to charge in the moment anything went wrong and when it was finally time to go, Madison kissed the baby and while whispering her goodbyes called her Sarah not Holly.

Those were the moments when it didn't feel right.

…

Dr Stanhope had walked Scott back to his car.

"Thank you for today." the doctor said. "That was a huge step for her and she's come much further than I hoped."

"But she called her Sarah." Scott protested.

"I know… We'll work on that before your next visit…" Dr Stanhope happily patted Scott's shoulder. "… Don't worry you'll have your family back together before you know it!"

…

Holly gave a cry from the back seat.

Scott glanced in the mirror again. Holly had woken up but she was only making happy noises to herself.

"Almost home." he called.

Holly 'bah-bah-gamm'-ed back at him in a chatty way.

Scott smiled at her cuteness but then his thoughts turned to Madison again. He didn't want to hurt her and he didn't want to be the bad guy… But he couldn't get Dr Stanhope's words out of his head.

"Don't worry you'll have your family back together before you know it!"

Right now it felt like his family was already complete with just him and Holly… Right now he wasn't ready to have Madison home; he doubted he ever would be.

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