A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah.

It was Super Bowl Sunday and Derek and Meredith decided to throw a party and show off the new theater they had built in the basement of their dream home. Derek had worked on it throughout the summer and fall and it was finally complete, and it resembled an actual theater, equipped with the comfy la-z-boy chairs and a huge projector that made everything depicted look like your were in the actual scenes. It was beautiful and the perfect place to host a party such as this.

They had invited most of their friends from the hospital, at least the ones not on call, the others would eventually show up after their shifts were complete. It was suppose to be a rare opportunity where the doctors of the hospital could kick up their heels and relax for at least a couple of hours, drink some beer and eat some game day food without having to worry about the state of the hospital for at least a little while.

They had a lot to celebrate besides the game, life was good, they had a wonderful family with healthy kids and a stable marriage, maybe both Derek and Meredith had to juggle the amount of time they spent in the OR, but it was all worth it knowing that they got to go home to their kids at night. At least thats what Derek thought, but sometimes he wondered if Meredith ever regretted having the family that they created together, he often contemplated if she was still jealous of Cristina, of how she was able to dedicate her life to her craft, spend so much time in the hospital and win two Harper Avery Awards back to back and then a third one. Though their feud had mended a couple years ago, right before Cristina got offered an opportunity that she couldn't refuse. Derek knew there was still so much resentment and anger that lingered, they had grown apart, somewhere, somehow, they had chosen two different paths, and the choices they made did not allow for them to see eye-to-eye any longer, thats how Meredith described it to Derek.

He thought that was a crock of shit, Cristina and Meredith were joined at the hip, soul-sisters and they loved each other more then anyone else, but their own inner demons within themselves caused them to lash out at each other because you only hurt the one you love. Now two years later, they kept in touch by email and an occasional phone call here and there, he knew Meredith longed to have her best friend back and he only wished that somehow they would find common ground, and hopefully one day Cristina would be back, because he probably missed her more then Meredith did, it was getting impossible to play the husband and best-friend, he finally realized how important Cristina's presence in both their lives were.

Meredith couldn't connect to anyone like she connected to Cristina, she tried but it wasn't the same, it felt awkward and forced, if it wasn't for Alex, she wouldn't know what to do, since he kept in contact with Cristina, she would try to pry information off of him, almost living vicariously through her. She had heard that she was traveling with UNICEF and other organizations and helping orphan kids, out of all people, lending her surgical skills to save unfortunate babies, how ironic. Meredith wished she could be the one heading her own department and traveling the world performing surgeries for the underprivileged on her spare time. She wondered when Cristina ever slept? Did she even have a social life anymore? When did she have time to breathe? It seemed like all she did was work, work, work. She had truly become exactly what she set out to be, and Meredith couldn't help but wonder how she was able to do it and Meredith couldn't.

Meredith knew that Cristina had made many sacrifices to get where she was at, some that she could never comprehend because even if it seemed that Meredith chose the harder life, the one with a husband and kids as well as juggling a career, it was really Cristina who had chosen to walk under fire. She had chosen the road less traveled by, the road that only has room for one person and no other distractions, a lonely existence. Meredith wanted to feel sorry for her sad and lonely life but what she really felt was a longing to be just like her until Colin Marlowe came through Grey-Sloan and told them about Cristina's new vision of life and her want to adopt. Imagine everyones surprise when they found out just how much Cristina Yang had changed, Cristina was now a mother, something Meredith could of never envisioned, something so out of her character and her dreams that it almost seemed surreal. Meredith thought about the way Cristina interacted with her daughter and how much her daughter seemed to idolize her mother, she wanted to call Cristina and catch up, wanted to be okay with her choice to adopt and most of all mend their tumultuous relationship and have her best friend back figuratively and literally, she needed to bring Cristina back to Seattle.

The crowd started pouring in and admiring the new addition to the house. Callie and Arizona arrived first, followed by April and Jackson and then the rest of the guests arrived, Miranda and her family, Richard, Alex and Jo and finally Emma and a somber looking Owen.

It was half-time and all the men were enjoying watching the game while the women looked forward to the famous commercial breaks, when right after the new Chrysler ad came on, another commercial about a new medical based docu-series began playing across the huge screen and peeked everyones interest, especially when Cristina Yang's voice and face appeared on the screen.

"No freaking way, is that really Yang?" Callie said exasperated while wiping her mouth with her sleeve after nearly choking on the beer she was nursing.

"its called "Massachusetts General", Alex explained, "She's apart of the cast, its a medical documentary series on Discovery Health, it follows Harper Avery and his team of surgeons."

"You knew about it?" Meredith asked with a peeved look on her face.

Alex let out a sigh, "Yes, I knew about it but I couldn't say anything, Yang is under contract and if I said anything she would of been fined and sued, the only reason she told me is because I'm her heath proxy and part of the series followed her on the trip she took to Korea after she left Cleveland Clinic, Harper Avery gave her an option to join his hospital as head of cardio and be apart of the series." He felt very uncomfortable talking about Cristina in front of Owen and Meredith and it showed.

Owen didn't know what to feel or how to act, Cristina was blossoming in the most wonderful ways and his heart longed to be apart of her life, to share in her joy and achievements and stand by her side, he knew he had to do something but he didn't know what, he just hoped that what is meant to be would be and that the universe would bring them together again. If she was part of his destiny

and fate, than no matter how hard they fought it or how much mistakes they made in the past, they would find their way back to each other.

Everyone was now talking about Cristina and how successful her life was becoming, Emma always got uncomfortable at the mention of her name and this incident wasn't any different, she felt the shift and distance between her and Owen and his longing for his ex-wife didn't escape Emma. Deep down she knew the end was coming, but Owen wasn't ready to tell her and she wasn't ready to accept it.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh, yeah, yeah

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, its only you and me

She had never sold the firehouse, for some reason Cristina never got the courage to, by keeping it, she was able to keep a part of Owen and thus she never found the strength to let the sentimental declaration of her love for him be bought by anyone else. Now after what felt like ages she was back in Seattle, and had accepted the job as head of cardio when her fellow board members decided to pitch her an offer she just couldn't refuse. The whole board had voted unanimously to offer her the position and had lobbied hard for her to come back to Seattle.

She stood outside the firehouse and surveyed the surroundings, it was still as beautiful as ever and all that needed to be done were some smaller renovations, she couldn't be bothered with looking for a new place to live and this house was paid off and vacant, plus it was in downtown Seattle and very close to the hospital. Tatiana and her would make this place their home. Cristina was happy to get away from Boston and prying eyes, Harper Avery's series had become very successful and offered lots of opportunities for Cristina, it enabled her to go to Korea and documented her journey that would later be used on the first season, she had just recently completed the third season which would air next year and was ready for a change. She was very thankful for what the past few years offered to her professionally but she loved her privacy and life with Tatiana and didn't want her daughter subjected to the media, especially since the series had become so popular after just a few episodes.

Now she was back with Meredith and her kids helping her unpack after the cleaning crew had left and small renovations were made, the firehouse looked like a juxtaposition of new and old, it was the same but yet different, Cristina was unable to put he finger on it but something still felt like it was missing even after the packing was complete.

"Thank God we're finished!' Meredith said as she plopped herself on the sofa and let out a tired sigh. "I'm getting too old for strenuous physical activity." She added while setting her feet on the coffee table.

"Your not even 40 yet Mer, stop acting like an old man." Cristina pointed out while adjusting a frame on the wall.

"Its easy for you to say, your a year and a half younger than me, that makes a difference." Meredith explained while closing her eyes and laying her head back.

Cristina knitted her eyebrows and rolled her eyes, "That does not make a difference, you just need to exercise a little and build stamina."

"I chase after two kids all day long, thats my exercise."

"Wine?" Cristina asked while holding up a bottle of Merlot.

"Oh God yes."

"I don't know how you do it with two kids, I have one and its tiring." Cristina poured two glasses and sat next to Meredith on the sofa.

"It isn't easy but I'm also not alone, I have Derek, so it alleviates half the responsibilities." Meredith replied before adding, "Do you ever think about having another one?"

Cristina let out a long sigh and a big gulp of wine before answering, "Honestly, yes, sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be pregnant, to have a baby inside me, I would love to know what its like to have a boy, but I think my ship has sailed, its too late now."

"Why do you think its too late?, your still able to conceive and bring a baby to term."

"I can't imagine myself finding anybody who I want to have a baby for, who I want to raise Tatiana with me and to conceive another baby with."

Meredith surveyed Cristina, she knew her very well and knew there was something more to her reasoning that she wasn't sharing.

"I'm glad your back, I'm happy we're "us" again, I love you very much Cristina Yang," Meredith held up her glass of wine, "Here's a toast to the future, the return of the twisted sisters, the possibilities of tomorrow and finding solace in the present, and most of all here's to you finding the love of your life, or maybe re-finding what you thought you lost." She finished with raised eyebrows as they clinked their glasses together and sipped on the wine.

"I love you too, Meredith." Cristina smiled.

"Wow, you have changed a lot haven't you?"

"Yeah, I think I have."

"Owen is going to be so ecstatic to see you, he doesn't say it but I know he misses you very much, actually, I know he still loves you very much."

Cristina's heart skipped a beat at the mention of his name.

"I will always love him as well but life is complicated and cruel, I wish things could of been different, I wish I could of given him what he wanted when we were together but nothing happens in order for me, now I just have to accept that he's married and happy and will probably start his own family soon."

Meredith didn't know if it was her business to let Owen's business be made public but this was Cristina, she had a right to know and if Meredith had her way, she would help push them back together again.

"There was no wedding, and their will be no wedding, at least not between Owen and Emma, he called it off awhile ago."

"What?" Cristina asked stunned, her stomach turning into knots and her heart beating outside her chest.

"He still loves you." Meredith re-iterated, "If you still truly love him then you have to do something about it, don't let this opportunity slip through your fingers, there is a list of nurses and doctors prying to get their hands on him who would gladly have all his babies, if you still think he is your soulmate then do something about it, this is the perfect time and perfect place, you both want the same things, you both still love each other, this is your time, don't pass it up."

"You should of seen the look in his eyes when he saw you and Tatiana while you gave your speech, he longs to be with you and to be apart of you and Tatiana's life, he would be such a great father to her and you can create another baby together, give him back what you took away years ago, make him feel alive again and show him that he can have a happy ending with you."

"I still love him, I never stopped, I just don't know where to begin again, I'm scared." Cristina admitted.

"What are you scared of? Your the apple of his eye, Cristina."

"I'm afraid he holds resentment, I'm afraid he hates me because I killed his baby and then left him after telling him I'd never change my mind, and then I go and adopt a baby while he calls off his wedding and still doesn't have what he wanted so bad, what I stole from him, I went back on my word, I have a baby and he doesn't." Cristina admitted, "I don't want him to hate me."

"He doesn't hate you, he loves you and you have the opportunity to turn a wrong into a right, he's been waiting for you, his heart never gave up hope, he called off his wedding for God's sake because deep down he knew you would be back, his heart knew you would eventually give him everything he wanted and needed even when his head told him to move on, he couldn't because he was still waiting for you." Meredith explained. "You start work tomorrow, everything is in your hands, give him the family he dreamed of with you, he chased after you of so long, its your turn to fight for him."

Everything I know, and anywhere I go (oh whoa)

It gets hard but it won't take away my love (oh whoa)
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love, whoa, oh, oh

I'm here without you, baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you, baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you, baby

But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me