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Chapter 14

Raven's POV

I didn't know what to do. How many times have I envisioned killing Jonathan, enjoying the look on his face when the life slipped from his eye. Torturing him in every way he hurt me, slowly and painfully let him die, and making sure it will last.

I wanted to kill Jonathan so bad, I wanted to make sure he suffered. I just wanted him to feel what I've felt. But a part of me wants him to remember, I want him to have that guilt hanging over his head for the rest of his life. I want him to know he took everything from me, he took the chance of having a good life, he took more than he can believe, and I want him to hurt. I want him to just hurt so bad that he can't live with the pain.

I sat on the floor of my room thinking about what to do. But it didn't matter, there was one thing I wanted to do. It was kill Rebecca, I knew that for sure. The world will be a better place if she's gone. I got off the floor and walked down the stairs. Everyone looked up at me expecting my answer.

"I'm going to help him."

I saw Paul's face twist with rage.

"Why? After everything he's done to you your going to help him! He'll just lie and kill you RAVEN! What the hell is wrong with you? Is it that hard to understand that he's going to take everything from you."
I knew he was only yelling at me because he didn't want to lose me, but I didn't like being told what to do.
"What other choice do I have Paul! What other choice do I have? Do you really want to leave that bitch alive Paul? She tried to kill you! I don't want the chance of losing you in the back of my mind. I'm tired of living in fear. I don't care if you want to help or not, I will do this."
He set his jaw not knowing what to say. I watched carefully, I didn't want him to get more angry. His hands were shaking violently but he didn't do or say anything. I stepped towards him cautiously knowing he might phase any second.

I put my hand on his and looked up at him.

"Please Paul, trust me."
He took in a shaky breath in the trembling stopped.

"Alright."

I smiled brightly and tackled him in a hug. He wrapped his arms around my waist hugging me back.

"But if he does anything that I think may hurt you, I will end him."

I pulled away and nodded.

"I know, but that was part of the deal... He said I could kill him."

Jacob's head snapped towards us.

"Are you going to do it."

I stayed quiet.

"Of course she is."

Paul said, Emmet nodded his head in agreement. So did the rest of the Cullen's, everyone except Esme, Reneesmee and Alice.

"If you don't mind I would like to state my opinion."
Esme said politely. Whenever she had to say something I always tended to listen to her ideas, she was very smart and usually right.

"Of course Esme."

She smiled.

"I believe that you shouldn't kill Jonathan. I understand that he's done very wrong things in his life. But is killing him really the answer? Do you want to live with that guilt? As much as you hate him, you do realize he is the only thing that you have as a family besides Sam and us. Killing doesn't just take a life, it takes part of you with it Raven. Keep that in mind, once you end his life, it will take something from you. A piece of you will be lost, because of their life. If you really want to kill him, there is nothing I can do to stop you. But just think about it Raven, maybe you should forgive."

I set my jaw.

"I don't think I'm capable of forgiveness. He took everything from me."

I looked away not meeting her eyes. I was confused about this already and she just made it so much worse.

I looked at the time and sighed.

"I'll call him, we have a vampire to track."

I was running through the woods in wolf form with Jacob and Paul on either side.

"Are you sure about this Raven?"

Jacob asked. I nodded and continued running, we stopped in front of Jonathan. I changed back behind a tree, but Jacob and Paul remained in wolf form.

"Where is she?"
I asked.

He tilted his head to the left and there was a small cottage.

"Doesn't she smell us?"

He shook his head.

"No, she went hunting. She said she'll be back by night fall."

I nodded staring him down, he stared back challenging. Nothing has changed.

"Be ready by then."

He said.

I nodded and turned motioning for Jacob and Paul to follow. We waited for a few hours and saw her coming, she smelled us. I ran out and bit her neck. She lifted her hand and threw me into a tree.

"I thought I killed you!"

I got back up and snarled at her. Paul lunged at her and she grabbed him by the leg and snapped it. I growled in outrage and charged at her.

"Want me to take the wolf away again little girl?"

I slowed down but continued running towards her."

" Jonathan handle this."
He stood still like he was in shock.

"Jonathan? Are you alright?"
I took the chance it bit her neck, Jacob came and pulled off her arm. Jonathan pulled her leg and threw it. Paul took her other leg and I took her other arm. Jonathan started the fire and burned her. Her screams filled the air and I was glad they did. He looked at me and opened his arms out.

"Go ahead, do what you want."

I saw Paul and Jacob looking at me carefully.

I stepped back and lunged... for his throat.

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