"So now I know must of what happened... But I can tell you guys are hiding something." It was the next day. Alice, Lily and I were all sitting in our dorm room, each still in our pajamas. They had been telling me everything that happened after I stopped remembering and things went dark.
Apparently, everyone that we passed in the hallway payed for my pain that I refused to feel by drinking the medicine. One girls robes were ruined since I decided it was a good idea to get sick on them. Yum. Another guy is now apparently scared for life when I ripped his tie from his neck and shoved him into the wall laughing just because I felt like it.
I now feel like the joke of the whole school.
"...and it gets... Worse..." Lily said shyly.
"I don't know how much worse it could possibly get after everything I've already done." I grumbled, leaning back against my bed post.
" We'll let's use say that you possibly, might have, maybe-"
"You kissed Remus!" Alice blurted, and now I understood just what the word worse meant.
"I... I what?"I stared stunned at my two friends.
"Look, he knows you were drunk off that crappy medicine. He not going to take it seriously!" Lily rushed to say.
"I kissed my best friend! My life is over!" I Banged my head against the bed post with each word I said, "I won't get past this! Things are now forever awkward between us!"
" You guys will move past this! I just know it!" Lily really was doing her best to make me feel better, but it just wasn't working.
Suddenly a sharp knock came from our door and I placed my head in my hands, just knowing who it was.
As Alice opened the door, I took a second to gather my thoughts. I'll just pretend I don't know anything, that I just forgot and Alice and lily didn't just take the time to fill me in.
At least that's what I thought was gong to be my story.
"She knows everything that happened. We told her everything!" It was like lily just wanted to ruin this for me.
Remus stepped into the room and gave me a shy smile. Alice and lily then decided they were going to leave the room, leaving ,me alone with the one person that. Really didn't feel like seeing right at that moment.
"So... You know everything." He asked, nervously brushing his hair back with his hand.
I sighed and said, " yeah Remus. I know what I did." He let it a breath of air like he was preparing to give a long speech. I stood and leaned my whole body against the bed post, mentally getting myself ready for whatever he was planning on saying.
"Look, Ellie... I..." He rubbed his palm over his face and sighed again. "I like you Ellie. A lot."
and there it was. Something I've been trying to Denise for awhile. The fact that my best friend liked my as more than, well, a best friend. Remus crossed the room and took my hand in his. I fought the urge to pull away, but not because I didn't like it. Because I was scared that I did.
"Look, I think that kiss between us meant something, and-"
"Remus." I said a little more sharply than necessary, "I was drunk! I didn't know what I was doing!"
A look of hurt shot over his face and he immediately dropped my hand. My fingers felt cold from the loss of his skin.
"I... I don't want to talk about this." I didn't have the courage to meet his eyes as I said, "I think it would be best if you left now..."
I saw him nod his head from the corner of my eye and listened to his foot steps as they left the room. They paused before crossing through the doorway thoug, as Remus said, "it's up to you what happens next. I just want you to know that I care about you, and I don't think I could ever be use friends with you again."
And with that he was gone, leaving me with an unfair ultimatum and a feeling of anger. Who was he to tell me we were friends or nothing! I wasn't ready t be anything else! A least, not yet anyway.