I didn't want to step out from this room I live in. I wanted to die or kill this baby. I hate myself. Why couldn't I stay back home than chase after this demon? I was scared to have this baby…

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

My skin jumped out from my body. I felt the chills running up on my arms and neck. I walked backwards to the corner of my bed.

"You can't hide, Elena. You made your choice coming here," Sebastian knocked on the door as I heard his voice through the wooden door.

"Can't you transport this baby to other host if I kill myself?!" I yelled.

"No because I won't let you kill yourself." He twisted the door knob.

"I want to go home!" My heart was pounding because I feared to have this child and being around Sebastian who didn't even like me.

"This is your home and our child's home." He reassured me in a caring voice to lure me over, but I ain't falling for that. I know in the inside, he's a cold monster who kills people.

I quietly made my way to the window that was in my room. I carefully unhooked the lock and opened the window with little movements. This time I'm going to kill myself. I'm giving up on life. I hastily pulled myself into the window, holding onto the window frames. I moved my head down to look at the height that I will die. My arms shook as it was losing strength to balance my body from tipping over.

Will it be worth it at the end? Am I doing something very stupid? My family is going to miss me…

I was having trailing thoughts as I stayed in my position of falling off the window, or if I should just live my life and deliver the demon baby.

I sharply exhaled as I made my decision. "I'm going to do it." I mumbled, closing my eyes to release my grip onto the window. I did not scream from the height of my room floor to the ground floor.

"Why are you so crazy?" Fate didn't come my way. It led me back to his arms once more than I anticipated he'd let me go to die… "I have high senses. You can't fool me with your crazy suicidal antics. I'm here-" I didn't want to hear his babbling much more.

"For the baby not me. I know, Sebastian." I rolled my eyes at him. I'm not clueless...I got his hints on day one. "You don't have to remind me. It's carved into my brain real deep. Why keep me if you can even express your kindness to me? I wouldn't mind if you show me a good side of you than the shitty side you bring to me." I pushed myself off from him and landed on my two feet.

As I was about to walk away, his large hand gripped firmly around my small wrist, stopping me to move any further. "Where are you going?" I could hear the tension in his voice, but it was strained a bit. I bet he didn't want to scare me off.

"Can I not walk around town?" I snapped in irritation. "I need- no, I want some time for myself. I'm not going to work today." I ripped my wrist away from him.

"Ele-"

"Shut up, Sebastian! I heard enough of your bickering!" I stormed out from the manor to town.

I was roaming around town with a calm mind and body. Just getting away from the manor lighten up my spirit. I wasn't surrounded by my own negativity or even Sebastian's. I felt at peace more than ever, and that made me happy.

The bright blue sky wasn't turning grey, the birds were chirping, people were chatting, and I was at awe to see this beautiful site before my eyes. Why couldn't my life be all happy like theirs? Women laughing with their husbands or friends, but I, on the other hand, is living the torturous life…because of this demon baby I carry and my stupidity of trying to find Sebastian…

I was so clouded with thoughts that I bumped into someone. "Oops! Sorry!" I quickly apologized, looking at a tall handsome white haired man. He was beautiful like an angel fallen from heaven or even grace. I could feel the redness forming on my cheeks as heat was getting to me.

"No, it's okay. I was the one who bumped into you." His smooth voice apologized to me. He was unbearable to look...I felt ashamed to even glance at him.

I lowered my eyes from him. "I-if you say so… I must go," I hurried and scrambled away from his presence.

I turned around to see if I was far away from him, and indeed I was. I turned my head to look straight and there before my eyes, I was surrounded by an unfamiliar place. "Shit…" I cursed under my breath. I must've ran too far and wasn't looking at where I was going.

I heard a horse whine from the back, and I quickly turned my head back to see who was riding it. It was a royal carriage. "Well, they ain't going to help me…" I muttered quietly, knowing that royalty doesn't mess with peasants.

"Madam," I heard a familiar voice called. I ignored it because I didn't think it was for me. I started to block out sounds around me because I guess and I know I won't be saved. I placed my hands over my little little bump that was forming. I didn't feel hungry for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm still full from...from the souls that Sebastian fed me.

"Madam," I felt a touch on my shoulder bringing me back down to reality.

I jumped and turned around, "S-sorry! I was just zoning out." I apologized to the person, moving my eyes up to see...it was the man that I encountered not that long ago. "Oh! It's you!" I stared in disbelief.

"Yes it is. Do you want to come along so I can take you home? I'm Ash Landers, who serves the Queen." He bowed.

Oh...he's so elegant. I wish Sebastian was someone like him. He's such a gentleman. Sebastian is, but not to me because he's an asshole who hates my guts.

"I'm Elena Mirren," I returned a shy smile at him, slightly blushing.

"You shouldn't be out here by yourself." He placed a hand on my shoulder blades and with less force, he pushed me to move forward and I followed. "A lady like you would be endangered."

"Y-yeah that's dangerous of me to do that." I didn't know why that slipped out from my mouth.

"You can sit in the carriage with the Queen." He suggested and I looked at him in surprised.

"No no no! I can not accept! I'll sit outside on the carriage with you because you're the one who controls the horses right?" I nervously said. I was getting very nervous around him. My palms were sweating.

He still held his angelic smile. "You seem like a stubborn type of woman. Well if you want to, then you can."

He helped me up on the carriage as I sat next to him with a large gap between us. I was quiet because it's a man that I met and it hurts to look at him for some reason.

"Lady Elena, how was your day?" He started a conversation with me.

"Oh, umm, fine." I shrugged my shoulders.

"Are you uncomfortable because of me?" He inquired, sensing my uneasiness that I was projecting.

"A-ah…yes," I nodded, not looking at his handsome features.

Looking at this beautiful angel is breathtaking, but I still stray from looking at him. This will only be a one time thing.

"Don't be tensed. Just relax, I am a gentleman. I won't do anything." He reassured me. "Don't be shy, scoot closer." He gestured at me, staring at me then back at the bumpy road.

I scooted a centimeter, only a centimeter because I still feel uncomfortable with getting close to him. "I don't want to get too close. I don't know you that well to be very comfortable. Sorry if I offended you in some sorts."

"I understand."

Throughout the ride, he was making some conversation with me. I wasn't sure if he was doing that out of kindness to get to know me, or he's just forcing himself to stop the awkward silence between us.

"We arrive at the castle." Ash got off from his seat and had his hand out towards me. I was hesitant to take it. "Let me help you," his Prince Charming smiling was beautiful to stare at.

"Thank you," I took his hand into mine as he helped me down the carriage.

He smiled then turned to the carriage's door to open up for the Queen. I didn't want to be a bother after what he did for me.

"Thank you very much, Ash. I'm going to walk him now." I bid him farewell, turning away to leave.

"You mustn't leave at this time of day." He quickly grabbed my arm as I suddenly jerked from his quick motion. "Night is almost falling. I can't let a woman go out in the dark. Come and stay in the castle for tonight. The Queen wouldn't mind,"

I wanted to leave, but he's also being persistent about my leaving and wants me to stay until tomorrow. "I wish I could, but I really do need to get back home." I frowned at him.

"Stay for tonight, miss. Ash will attend to your needs." The Queen kindly spoke to me, making me rethink my decision. I knew I lost this point because now the Queen is even telling me to stay…

"Fine, I will." I mustered up a pleasant smile.

I looked around me as everything inside the castle was amazing to see in person. The colors were vibrant, matching curtain colors, object colors, just to make things stand out or fit in.

"The interior design is breathtaking." I said to Ash who was next to me, escorting me to my assigned room for tonight.

"It is indeed," he agreed with me.

Ash opened the door to my room and I walked inside. I love the decoration of the room, everything was just perfect for me. The materials, furniture, colors, etc. it was like I was in heaven, unlike the room I have in the manor.

"Breathtaking?" Ash leaned over to me.

"Yes," I vigorously nodded my head.

"Are you hungry?"

"No, I'm not. I'm good." I shook my hands in front of me. He's so kind to ask about my wellbeing.

"You need to eat. Not eating isn't good for your health. I'll bring you a sandwich to eat and tea." He implied, before leaving the room.

I swear he was too nice to me. I didn't like taking people for granted with their unconditional kindness.

"I'm back," he called out, pushing a trolley inside the room. On the trolley had the sandwich and tea placed neatly.

"The sandwich looks delicious." I commented, staring at the food. I didn't know if I should eat it or not since what happened to me eating human foods.

"Here you go," he gave me the plate that had the sandwich.

"Thank you," I stared at the sandwich and then up at Ash, who was staring at me with his smile that he always had on. It felt weird that he was staring at me.

"Are you not going to eat it?"

"No, it's not that. I was just over thinking if it's going to taste different from other sandwiches I have eaten before." I lied.

"It's all up to your taste. Eat, you need to be stuffed with food so you won't starve."

I slowly opened my mouth to nimble on the piece of bread, then the whole sandwich. Chewing the sandwich wasn't bad, but I had an urge to throw up.

"Are you okay?" He could see my expression changing.

I couldn't hold it in, so I ran to a trash can to throw up the sandwich that I couldn't bare to eat. "Lady Elena! Are you okay?!" He ran to me, patting my back.

"Yeah, maybe my baby wasn't craving some sandwiches." I ensured him that I was totally fine.

"You're pregnant?" He looked at me in disbelief, taking a step back from me to give me space.

"Yes, but you don't have to worry about anything-" I was cut off by Ash.

"Your husband would worry about you!"

"Sadly, I don't have a husband. This baby was just a one night stand because I was naive and stupid." I turned away from him, knowing that no one would want to face a person who's pregnant with a random man's baby.

He placed a hand on my shoulder. "Don't feel ashamed that you did that. We all learn from our mistakes, don't we? Raise your child how you want to raise it. You will find love, don't worry."

He was too good for my heart.

"Look at the time." He stared at the clock in the room. "It's already nine. Are you tired?" He asked me.

"Yeah, I am. It's been a long day for me."

"Goodnight, Lady Elena." He bowed, closing the door as he left me in the dark room.

I crawled into bed thinking about my life. "What if I met Ash first…? Would my life be this crazy?" I stared at the window that was illuminating the room.

I didn't worry much about Sebastian since he doesn't care much about me anyways. I'm coming back tomorrow so he doesn't have to worry about anything.