I had decided it would be best if I kept quiet about the note and dream from last night. My friends had enough to worry about, with school, Hogwarts drama, and protecting me from Fuego. By now, they all knew about my nightly nightmares and were doing their best to be supportive, but sometime their pity got on my nerves. Everyday when they first saw me, they would immediately ask how I slept, if I got enough sleep, if I wanted them to cover for me in classes. But everyday I told them the same thing. I'm fine, I'm not tired, and I'd love to go to class. It was getting very annoying, very quickly.
But Last night was the first night in ages that I could say that, and it would be true.
After the weird dream that I was still trying to sort out in my mind, I had no nightmares. The first time in weeks. I was relived. I needed to start saving up my energy for the full moon in two weeks. Usually by now, I would have started to feel the usual symptoms. Sore limbs, dark under eyes, and overall grumpiness. But I wasn't feeling that much. And I think I have Remus to thank. He was the perfect distraction away from the coming moon. With him around, I felt like nothing was going to happen to me ever, and that all time stood still. Then, of coarse, I would get the shock of a life time whenever I realized I had stayed in the common room with him hours later then I had meant to.
But at least I was happy.
Our friends had basically completely gotten over the fact of me and Remus being together. Now they had just taken to pointing out how adorable we were, every second of every day.
"Oh look at the lovely lovebirds!" James squealed in his most girly voice. Remus and I had just entered the Great Hall hand and hand, deep in conversation about a book we had just both finished. Now, instead of Remus and I reading separately, we would sit in the common room and depending in who was more tired, one would read to the other. When we did that, I felt like I could listen to his voice forever, or I could just read on and on for the rest of my life.
He gently squeezed my hand as we sat across from James and Sirius. Lily and Alice were using every spare second they could to finish a potions project for tomorrow. One that Remus and I had finished last week.
"Shut up James. You're just jealous." I teased while pouring some pumpkin juice unto my cup.
"Not for long! He has a-" Sirius was immediately cut off by James hand slamming down on his mouth.
"You promised you wouldn't tell!" James whined, looking nervously between Remus and I.
I laughed and said, "James, we will find out eventually. You might as well just tell us."
He sighed, removing his hand from Sirius' mouth and looking suspiciously at the students around us. Once he was satisfied, he whispered to us, "I've got a month plan that will make Lily as good as mine." He grinned at us while I just laughed and shook my head.
"I don't want to hear it. That way, if Lily asks, I can truthfully say I don't know anything."
"Good plan." James winked at me and placed some eggs on his plate.
The four of us talked about nothing important for awhile, just chatting about anything that came to mind. I was resting my head comfortably on Remus' shoulder when our breakfast was rudely interrupted by an annoying voice.
"well look here. Aren't you to just the cutest thing I've ever laid my eyes on."
We turned to see who was talking, and saw a large group of Slytherines standing there. The one who had spoken was a girl named Narcissa, Malfoy's new toy.
"Lay off, Narcissa." James glared at the intimidating group, putting his hands on the table looking like he was ready to stand at any moment.
"James they aren't worth the time." I grumbled, refusing to make eye contact with either Narcissa, Malfoy, or Regulas, the three leaders of the crowd dressed in black and green.
"Well, obviously you have a pretty messed up sense of time if your willing to spend it hanging off of this loser here." Regulas said, gesturing to Remus.
"Now you listen here-" Remus began.
"Stop." I said, placing my hand on his arm. He began to rise from his seat, ranting about how it's none of Regulas business who I decided to spend time with.
"You no longer control-"
"Stop!" I said again, this time with a little more force.
"I'm tired of this!" I almost shouted, but didn't, since I wasn't interesting in gaining the attention of the entire large room.
"You need to stop!" I said, pointing angrily at Regulas. "Bullying me and my friends isn't going to get you anywhere. It's not going to compensate for your lack of personality. Or your lack of true friends."
He cast his eyes down, and I knew I had hit a soft spot. Malfoy and Narcissa were doing a very poor job of hiding their giggles behind their hands, leaning into each other as to keep themselves from falling to the ground in laughter.
"And you two!" I shot a signature glare, shutting them up instantly. "I don't care what you do, who you see, who you even shag! I just don't want you anywhere in my life! Just leave me alone!" I had gathered the attention of a handful of people around us, but I was done caring.
"I've got enough to deal without adding a stupid ex boyfriend and a straight forward bitchy couple to the mix!" I went to walk past the Slytherines, but Remus grabbed my hand. I spun around, the anger starting to make my head spin.
" And you guys." I said, looking at Remus, Sirius, and James, softening my expression a little, but leaving enough anger so they knew I was serious. "You really need to stop following me everywhere. And stop constantly asking how I am! I know I have a lot going on, but I don't need to be guarded every second of my life!" I let my face give off a slightly apologetic expression as I turned and walked out of the room, aware of every single eye on me.

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I had gone through my classes for the day, quietly doing my work and meeting no ones eye. I had apologized to my friends, telling them that for today, I just didn't want to be talked to. They all seemed to understand, even Lily and Alice, since they weren't there for the breakfast scene.
I went through my day finished my work, read some books. It was a nice, relaxing day. One that I felt I truly thought I deserved.
After classes, I decided to immediately get into PJs (picture) and read. After changing my clothes, braiding my hair and removing the small amounts of makeup from my face, I curled up on my bed, grabbing my book from the side table.
After opening to my page and removing my bookmark, I noticed that my usual book mark had been replaced.
What should have been an adorable photo of two puppies running around a yard, was now a small piece of parchment.
I gasped as I took in the logo in the top right corner. The blue flames. Whoever they were, they must have known I'd noticed and now didn't even try to hide the mysterious drawing.
The writing was again short and simple. That didn't mean it wasn't confusing as hell.
"Love
courage
trust
betrayal
loss".
I was confused. Not only do I not know who sends me these things, I can't even imagine what they're writing about!
I stood up, deciding that if I was going to tell anyone about this, it was going to be Dumbledore. Wow. I bet some of you were hoping it was Remus. A lot of romantics, you are.
But Dumbledore was someone who could really help me, not just give me a shoulder to lean on.
But as soon as my feet hit ground, my head spun and I was overwhelmed with the feeling of exhaustion. I lay back down on my bed, laying my head gingerly on my pillow, and almost immediately passing out.