a/n: this story is really playing with me I can't see to make a chapter I like. Anyway here it goes read and review it helps trust me. And if you recognize it then I probably didn't create it.

Reality has a way of slapping you in the face. I got a call today from my adviser at Harvard. He was just making sure I was able to get everything I needed for the upcoming fall. I pushed my hair from face with a sigh. I wanted to call Jake and tell him. I wanted to call by the advisor and tell him I changed my mind un-enroll me. I wanted … I didn't know what I wanted. When I'm with Jared it's like I'm in a little bubble and the world can't seem to get to me. The book I had to read was in my hands and I couldn't bring myself to open it. This was really a first. A book Isabella Swan didn't want to read.

But it felt as if I opened to book I was agreeing to let Jared go. It was stupid. I admit it. And I know the book wasn't what the issue was. The issue was myself. Because whether I was ready to admit it or not. I was still going to Harvard and I was leaving Jared behind.

I picked up my phone and texted Jared. I wanted to make sure he was still there. He called me back instantly.

"Bella?" his gruff voice filled my ears. I savored the sound of him let it wash some relief over me.

"Hello?" he asked again after a few seconds.

"Um hi," I stuttered out.

"Are you okay?" his voice urgent.

"I'm fine I just…" wanted to hear your voice. But I didn't want to say that. I didn't want to come off that way.

"Where are you?" he asked.

"I'm home."

"I'm coming over," he said I could hear rustling going on around the background.

A smile was on my face. It had been there since he answered the phone. This was what I needed. I needed to be with him. I couldn't go to Harvard. I couldn't leave this.

"I'll come to you," I said suddenly feeling the need to be as far away from any reminder of Harvard as possible.

He paused I could hear his breathing as if he was contemplating the idea, "Are you sure?"

"Yeah," I had to get out of my house, "You're parents won't mind will they?"

"I eh…" he cleared his throat, "I live on my own."

"Oh."

"I'll just come there don't worry about it," he said.

"No its fine… it is fine," I assured him, "Where is the house?"

He gave me the details. And I told him I would be there in half an hour. I threw on a pair of jeans and a shirt. I was escaping from my reality the only way I knew how to. I was in my truck before even I realized it. My heart was racing but each mile I passed I was getting more and more excited.

My heart was practically beating out of my chest when I turned on to the rev. I was close to him. I followed his direction to the tee. I think I made it to his house in less than twenty. I jumped out the truck and had to restrain myself from running to his front door.

"Bella?"

I turned wondering who was really trying to get in the way of my escape from reality. Jacob Black that's who.

"Jake?" I tried to keep my annoyance out of my voice but judging by his expression. He was a reminder about Harvard. He was the one who pushed me to apply the one who was excited when I got in. Jake was really the last person I wanted to see right now.

"What are you doing here?" his eyes were looking behind me. I knew he was staring at Jared's house. Oh god. I hadn't considered running into him. I could tell what he was thinking.

"I just came to visit nothing is happening," I rushed to explain myself.

He nodded and walked away. Right a break. I wanted to call him back but bit my lip. He wouldn't understand. And I didn't want to deal with it at all right now. No all I wanted to do was go into Jared's house and let him kiss me senseless.

I turned and made my way to Jared's door. He had the door open before I could knock. He must have been watching me and Jake. He didn't say a word but move back so I could enter his house. We stood space between us. And this wasn't how I wanted it.

"Will it always be like this?" he asked never meeting my eyes.

"What do you mean?" Dread began to fill in the pit of my belly.

"Will he always be a shadow on our relationship?"

Jake. This was about Jake. Even though I knew this would eventually come up it still shocked me. His body was trembling slightly. And I knew my escape was long gone. I had two option. Either I woman up and deal with this now or I walk out the door and go back to facing Harvard.

I moved closer to him and embraced him. I didn't know what to say to him. I was still trying to figure this out. Would Jake be a shadow in our relationship? Will he come between us? They were useless question because I already knew the answer. I had made my choice. And my arms were currently wrapped around his neck my lips currently placing soft kisses on his hard jaw. He wrapped his arms around me. Drawing me closer to his body. I inhaled softly letting his scent play with my senses. I loved the way he sent.

He kissed my forehead I know he understood all I was trying to convey. But right now I was touching him and nothing else mattered. He leads me to a couch and sat me down. His lips crashed onto mine turning me into a harlot. I grabbed a fistful of his hair pulling him closer to me. Bringing his body down onto mine causing both of us to hiss with desire.

"I think we rushed things a little bit," Jared chuckled kissing my nose.

"You think," I joked drawing small circles with my fingers tips on his chest.

"Let's go out or something," he said his wiggling his eyebrows at me.

"Wow so much for romance."

"Woman go change your clothes right now… we're going out," he jerked up putting distance between us, "How's that for romance?"

"Even Quil could do better than that," I chided lightly smiling.

His body was on my before I could comprehend that he had moved. His muscle pressed against me and I was buried in a vastness of heat and desire. His eyes dark with lust the same lust that was currently running through my veins. And everything was alright in the world. Because when Jared was touching me everything made sense. It was like I didn't realize he was missing in my life until he came into it. I wanted to bury myself into him and never let go. Harvard was looking like a distance dream now. Already I was looking at closer colleges.

"Could Quil do better than this?" his husky voice washing over me. I could feel his arousal pressed against me and it only my blood run hotter. My sex was on fire.

A thousand butterflies danced around my stomach. I was on cloud nine and I just knew it. Jared's hand was wrapped around mine. His body pressed against mine. And all I could think about was him. Excepting the imprint was the best thing I've done all summer. He played with my fingers running the tip of his index from the tip of my longest finger to my wrist.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered kissing my forehead.

"I think your confused," I chuckled I was a plain Jane compared to him.

"Never doubt your worth Bella," He said turning my face so he could look into my eyes, "You are more then you give yourself credit for."

"You ever wonder what we are doing here?" I asked him after a pause placing a small chaste kiss on lips.

"I think it's pretty obvious what we are doing here," he said cocking an eyebrow up.

"I know that ass," I gritted at his eye roll poking him at the side, "I meant with life."

He sighed and rubbed his face with his hands, "You know before this I had dreams."

He was silent for a while. I rubbed his back with the tips of my fingers hoping to entice him to indulge in more information. It was rare to hear him speak of his life before phrasing. Actually it rare for any the pack to talk about it. He kissed my cheek and pulled me closer to him or bodies messing together perfectly.

"Bella I can't have any of those dreams now," he stroked my cheek with his fingers, "All I have now is the pack and you."

"What did you dream about," I asked curious of the man he was before the change.

"I had a full scholarship to collage," he laughed, "One of the first boys of the Rev to get one the last person well persons were Rachel and Rebecca Black. I wanted to get out of here. Make a name of myself."

He gave me a hollow smile, "I look at you Bella and think about all the opportunity at your finger prints and sometimes I get so jealous and then sometimes I'm so proud. And then I think about you leaving in the fall and I want to do nothing more than try everything in my power to make you reconsider and stay closer."

His breathe was a slightly ragged as he kissed my forehead. I let his words run through my mind. I think about how many times I myself considered giving up Harvard to be closer to him. How each time I started to consider it he would crush that idea.

"The imprint is for life, Bella don't let it stop your dreams," he whispered into my ear before getting up, "Even if it means being away from each other for a little while."

He kissed me. I ran my hands through his short here taking the passion he was offering me. Would talk more on the subject but right now I was content on letting it go for now.

"Go get ready I'm going to check in with the pack I'll be by to pick you up around six…. sound good?" he winked at me when I nodded at him still stunned by his kiss.

I wrapped my arms around my knees bringing them closer to my chest. Everything with Jared was so intense. So surreal. The more I learned about him the more I wanted to know. I glanced over to the clock noticing it was half past four Charlie should be home soon. I better go if I wanted to get dinner started for Charlie. Besides it was time Charlie and I had a long over due chat before Jared came to get me. The man has been downright avoiding me lately and I would like to know what's going on.

Dinner was almost done when Charlie walked through the door. He nodded to me before making his way upstairs to shower and change. When I heard his heavy footsteps coming back down I made him a plate, and placed it at the table.

"Bella I ah thought maybe I could watch the game and eat dinner tonight," he grunted out upon seeing both our plates on the table.

"I bet you did," I said with a smile, "Sit down Dad let's talk."

He cleared his throat I could clearly see him weighing his options, "Is everything okay?"

"Sit down Dad."

He sat. Grumbling the whole time. "Well if it's really that big of a problem to send time with your daughter then go head and watch your game."

He popped up grabbing his plate, "Thanks…"

"Sit down;" I rolled my eyes at him, "I was kidding."

He sat down. I watched him play with his food. Charlie was avoiding me, and I'm going to figure out why. We ate in silence for a while I let him simmer. He kept glancing up at me wincing every once in a while.

"What is going on with you?" I asked him taking in his twitching eyebrow, shaking leg, and his inability to look me in the eye.

"What do you mean?" he looked like a deer caught in the headlights.

"Dad."

"Bella," He cleared his throat, "I've met someone."

"Okay…." Well I wasn't expecting that one, "Who?"

Charlie face was quickly turning the color of a ripe tomato. He seemed so uncomfortable telling me this. He shifted in his seat pushing his plate away from him.

"You don't really know her she is new to town," he cleared his throat once again rubbing his face, "Look kiddo I know this is a lot to take in…."

"Are you kidding me this is great," I smiled, "When do I get to meet her…. Better yet lets double."

"Double what…"

"Maybe we could have Sam and Emily along also," I added enjoying the slight of him squirming before me.

"Sam and Emily?"

"Dad keep up but your right that probably is to many people," I said taping my finger against my chin, "Perhaps we should just keep it to me and Jared and you and your new girlfriend what is her name any way."

"Jill," He said, "Now Bella I don't know if that's a good idea that just yet."

"Nonsense it's a great idea I'll call Jared now and tell him and you call Jill," I stood up quickly grabbing both of our plates placing them in the sink before grabbing the house phone.

I barely made it upstairs before my laughter came pouring out my mouth. Jared was going to have a field day with this. I heard Charlie downstairs babbling on the phone most likely with Jill. I'm glad he found someone.

An: so let me know what you think. Thank you.