"Of course I do," she replied. "Of course I like you what kind of question is that?" she sheepishly laughed off the question. She realized she had made a big mistake.
She stared at a photo of diamonds that hung on a wall across from the table booth they were sitting in. She would have much rather looked at Sharrkan, but her eyes wouldn't allow it.
"No, but I mean as in like a romantic way?" He felt his heart tug for a few seconds. He didn't want to hear her response. He noticed she looked away from him. Probably to avoid his awkward question.
She lifted her head off his shoulder and turned away her face from him slightly. "What would you do if I said I did?" she asked in a hushed tone.
He felt time freeze when she said that. She liked him! And not just as a friend! As something more! This was what he wanted. Except this wasn't the feeling he was expecting. He thought this moment would be happier and lighter if it were to happen. But he felt a weird mix of anxiousness and excitement. He had no idea what to do.
"I uhm,"
"Forget it." She shook her head and he watched as the waves of her blue hair softly bounced side to side. "I probably made you uncomfortable," she said, her voice cracked. She got up and shuffled over him to leave.
This was it. She was going to get turned down, and what's worse she made the stupid decision of confessing her feelings in an enclosed space. An R.V. which she couldn't escape from (well she could if she barrel rolled out of the moving vehicle, but a bruised heart is better than broken bones). And to add to that she had to be with him the whole break. The whole break was going to suck because she couldn't keep her big mouth shut.
She really thought that she changed enough to deal with the answer. And it seemed that way too. She had evolved into a better, easier going version of herself. Yet when she saw his horrified face she knew. She knew no matter how much she would change she could never deal with that kind of rejection. Yes, she knew he would still be her friend, that wasn't even an issue at this point. It was the fact that this feeling had stung so much more than she had anticipated.
"Wait." He grabbed her hand just as she was about to step another step.
Her face turned back to him and she tugged her hand. "You don't need to say anything I understand." Her voice cracked more. Her face was getting redder by the moment.
"I'm pretty sure you don't, judging by your expression." He pulled her in closer.
She pulled away. "Don't grab me again I'll scream and tell everyone it was your fault."
Sharrkan laughed. A little too loudly, but it eased the tension- at least for him anyways. "You are really awful at dealing with rejection aren't you?"
"Why are you laughing?" A tear streamed down her face she was going to start sobbing soon. "If this is funny to you then-"
"Sorry, I just can't believe that I have become attached to such a brat," he said. "I mean, really you thought I was rejecting you and you storm off- and to top it off you were planning to storm off to a bathroom, not really dramatic really."
Her face lit up."What was that? Did you say you were attached to me? As in you like me?" She wiped her face.
"I can't believe I had to tell you, I mean it was so obvious."
She sat next to him. She was sure her heart grew larger. "What? No it wasn't! You were so nice to me- but you're so nice to everyone else!" Her tears had evaporated.
"Yeah, and that's how I saw you too. I thought that it was natural that you were being so friendly with me."
"What do we do now?" she asked.
"I would definitely kiss you among other things, but seeing as we are in a moving vehicle only a few steps away from our sleeping friends that's not exactly a good idea."
She smiled at him. "Well, then can I ask you a question?" she said sweetly.
"You can't have my credit card information." he said bluntly.
"No," she giggled. "I meant when did you start liking me?"
"Liking you?" He scratched the back of his head. "I think I always liked you."
Fireworks went out in her head. This was truly the best feeling she had ever experienced. She smiled at him like an idiot. She cupped her hands in her face and studied him longingly. It was almost as if she had turned into a cartoon.
"I really started liking you about a few months back actually, and I couldn't explain why, but there was just something about you that just made me always want to be with you." He shrugged and turned away to hide his blushing face.
The rest of their night was filled with them chatting away about everything and anything. They talked about school, clothes, food, conspiracies, booze, hobbies- and not once did they feel bored or hold back their voice. They were awkward, yes, but they trusted each other.
They held hands underneath the table and wished that time would stop.
It was all too perfect. The gentle whir of the R.V., the dim lights that peered through the window ever so often, the sound of their hearts fluttering. They cherished every moment.
"I'm glad you decided to be spontaneous," Sharrkan yawned, he was too tired to speak normally, yet too excited to fall asleep.
"Me too," she said as she squeezed his hand tighter. "Me too."
Writer: they are awkward, but still kinda cute haha. Tried to convey a realistic talk between them, without giving it unnecessary drama. Please review thanks again!
