"Elena…" I thought I heard Sebastian's voice.
"Mmm….?" I groaned, turning around in my sleep.
"Are you feeling better?" But when the voice spoke again, it didn't sound like his voice.
"Sebastian?" I knitted my brows together, still having my eyes closed.
"No. It's Lance."
I immediately opened my eyes as they quickly adjusted to see clearly. "L-Lance?" His face peered over mine.
"Yeah, Lance. You fainted due to the heat outside." Lance informed me. "So when I searched for you, you were passed out on the ground. I brought you inside my place to rest until you woke up."
"And you didn't do anything to me, did you?" I stared at him seriously because I didn't want to think that I was violated in my sleep.
"No! No, I didn't!" His eyes were popping out from his eyes socket. "I promise you that I didn't do anything to you!" His hands were up as his voice changed to defend his innocence.
It was hard to tell if he was lying or not. My lips scrunched up as I thought about forgiving him. "I…" I was suddenly cut off as someone came in, slamming the door opened with a big bang.
"Elena!"
My eyes widened as I knew who it was. "Sebastian?!" I quickly jumped out of bed and ran to him. He picked me up and twirled me around. "Oh god! How much I missed you!" I inhaled his smell and it smelled flowery. "Sebastian, why do you smell different? It smells like a woman's perfume." I was going to take in another smell, but he quickly pulled a kiss to my lips.
"The women who watches the shows have a lot of perfumes on them, Honey. I'd-" I cut him off.
"I'm not stupid, Sebastian." I pulled his collar down to meet him eye to eye. "Let's go!" I dragged him with me and out of Lance's estate. I didn't bid my farewell to him since I forgot to because of Sebastian.
I was in the carriage, sitting by myself as Sebastian was controlling the horses. "Sebastian!" I yelled his name. "Stop the horse and come inside the carriage with me!" I demanded. I was going to interrogate him if he was cheating on me or not, because I know Sebastian doesn't wear perfume or cologne. He has a natural scent of death.
The carriages stopped moving. "Yes, Elena?" He opened the carriage's door and closed to behind him as he sat across from me. I straddled and pulled him by his collar again, our faces were close that I could feel his hot breath and I could even kiss him…but I wasn't going to. "What are you doing, Elena?" Sebastian gulped without hesitation. His voice was calm, not hinting any other emotions.
I didn't listen to him as I was busy pulling down his tie. He chuckled, "Elena...what are you doing exactly?" He observed me carefully. I fiddled with his tie that I couldn't take it off. "Let me help you." He saw my struggle and removed my hands to undo the necktie. "There, you happy?" He smiled down at me, but I wasn't reciprocating a sweet smile back to him.
I went back to business by ripping the necktie to the ground and quickly unbuttoning his dress shirt. "Why so hasty? I'm not eager, but if you're feeling it, I'm going to turn it down." The way he said it so smoothly got me flustered as my cheeks reddened.
"I'm not asking for it. I'm seeing if you have any marks on you." I undid all of the buttons on his shirt that his bare chest was in full view. "I see you don't have any marks on you." My hand ran around on his pale chest and neck.
Sebastian smirked up at me, immediately cupping my face with his white gloved hands. "Look at me." He tilted my face up so I could look at him. "I'll confess that all the men and women in the circus fawned over me because I was so talented."
"Yeah, because you're a demon that's good at everything. Isn't that why you always say 'I'm one hell of a butler'?" I placed my hands on his forearms and looked straight into his eyes.
"Yes. But since I was on a mission I had to get information out of the circus people. So…. I seduced an important circus woman."
"So you mean you had sex with her?" I pushed myself back from him and sat back down on my seat, across from him. I felt my heart crumbling when he nodded his head. Disappointed I was at him, I didn't know what to do or say. "Did you…" I inhaled sharply before continuing my sentence. "Check if she was pregnant…?" My voice cracked as I couldn't take in the flooding memory of when I had a fling with Sebastian. He only used me and I ended up being here because I chased after him.
"Elena." His hand reached out to touch my face but I slapped it away.
I covered my face with my hand and quickly climbed out of the carriage. My eyes were hot and watery. I was so disappointed in Sebastian. I thought he would learn from his own mistake.
"ELENA!" Sebastian shouted, as I heard him get off from the carriage and ran over to me.
"I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU!" I retorted back, rushing up my speed. I wiped down the newly wet tears over and over again.
"Elena! I know you are mad! I know you think I should've learned from my mistake but I still love you and always will!" He rushed over with his demonic speed and stopped me from walking any further.
I have to make a decision. I've been through shit with Sebastian. Good and bad. Now I don't know where my heart lies with him. He's a demon and I'm a human. We should have never crossed path. I should have never been so nice and open to him when I met him. Right from the start, Sebastian was only here because of the baby and not for me. I could leave him or stay with him and not forgive him. Will I be happy leaving him? I could go back to my hometown and stay there until the baby comes out. Or I can hold a grudge against him for sleeping with another woman to get information, and just holding that grudge is another reminder of why I'm here living in this manor.
"Elena, please look at me." He propped my face up. "Look at me." I didn't want to look at his red demonic eyes. I shifted my eyes to the side.
The heart wants what it wants. "I'm going back home. I know that I should've realized it that we are two different people living in the same world at the same time….but I can't do this no more. When the child arrives, come take him or her." I made eye contact with him one last time before departing.
"Elena! Please rethink of what you are saying!" Sebastian pleaded, not wanting me to leave at all.
"I don't want to." I stopped in my tracks. "If I stay… I'll be sad and will hold a grudge against you for doing that to another woman." I clenched my fists. "So I thought it would be the best if I leave."
"And everything we've been through? Was it all just a little game for you?"
I spun around to look at him with a warm yet pleasing smile. "Sebastian, you gave me many emotions that I've never felt before. And I thank you for making me feel happy, sad, mad, loved, and many more." A warm tear rolling down my face. "Maybe this is my turn to spin the table on you, but this is my last goodbye. I'm not returning to the manor. I'm going straight home." With that said to him, I turned back to walk home. I don't care how long it'll take me to go home but I'll make it there. My feet will give up on me, but my hopes are strong. I'm leaving this place and never coming back. I'll be returning to my old life before I ever met Sebastian. "Goodbye my love…" I whispered as the harsh wind blew before us.