The first week of college was absolute hell. I hated being away from Jared I hated that the pain that seems to have developed in my chest with every breath I take. If it wasn't for the daily calls and text from Jared I don't think I could make it. I am going to transfer to a college closer to home. I couldn't do this for four more years. I wasn't giving up my dreams but adjusting them. The only thing I enjoyed is actually getting to know Alice better. We actually have about half of the same classes and she is easy to talk to.
"Bella I know it is hard to be away from your boyfriend, " she said exasperated, "but you really need to think about what you are giving up if you don't continue here."
She doesn't get it. She doesn't feel the tugged I feel to run back and be with him. She couldn't understand. Hell, I barely understand it. and to be honest part of me hate it. I feel as if my choice in the matter has been ripped from my hands. I was no longer in control of my life anymore.
"Bella," Alice was waving her hand in front of my face to get my attention, " Are you listening to me?"
I sighed and smiled at her, "I'm sorry got a little distracted. What were you saying?"
She huffed in annoyance and rolled her eyes before giving me an award-winning smile. "We are going to get drunk."
"No, we are not." Was she crazy not only were we underage I just didn't want to?
"Yes, we are," She beamed and grab my hands, "Come on you need to pack a bag you will stay at my place this weekend and my brothers are going to provide the booze."
"Alice I don't think this is a good idea," I chewed on my bottom lip.
"Stop over thinking we are young," She pleaded with me, "Please Bella it will be fun.
"Fine I'll come over but I'm not making any promises that I will drink," I conceded after all what else would I do other than hole up in my room.
She squealed. I winced. So we headed to my room and packed a bag for the weekend. She was so happy it was hard not enjoy my time with her. What wrong with a weekend of fun but only after my assignments due Monday were done. I told her that and she agreed. even if I'm going to transfer I refuse to let my grades drop. I called Jared and let him know I was staying by Alice for the weekend. I didn't mention the drinking that may or may not be happening. I also didn't mention her brothers would be there. I was positively living on the edge by my standards.
I guess in a way I was taking charge of something in my life. I was proving the imprint wasn't deciding what I can and can't-do. I never realized how much it bothered me until I was away from the pack. Until I was away from Jared. Not that he intentionally holds me there. But I never wanted to stay in Forks. This was supposed to my escape, and yet I want nothing more than to run back to him.
Alice's place was bright and full of energy like she was. I expected nothing less. She showed me to the guest room so I could put my stuff down. I sat on the bed and took a deep cleansing breath. I pulled out the books needed to finish my assignment and went to meet her in the kitchen. We finished in record time and not too long after her brothers arrived.
"Bella," She sang spinning around, "This is my brothers Edward and Emmett." She pointed to the girl coming in after Emmett, "That is his girlfriend Rosalie and that's her brother Jasper."
She winked at me and made a fanning motion. I guess this the
famous oh so dreamy Jasper she is consistently talking about.
"Are you ladies ready to get drunk," Emmett said with a shit-eating grin plastered on his face. Rosalie reached up and slapped him on the back of his head. He rubbed the back at his head and smiled at her, "I'm just playing around Rosie."
He reminded me of Quil and his lack of censor button. Jasper reminded me of Sam and Embry in his quiet ways. And Edward reminded me of Jared. I was really enjoying my time with these guys and even took a drink. It wasn't until almost half past ten when I realized that I never called Jared to let him know I got here safely.
I grabbed my phone and saw ten miss calls. Nine from Jared and one from Jacob. I called Jared first and got his voicemail. He was probably patrolling I left him a message that I was fine and that he shouldn't worry and for him text me when he was done patrolling. I called Jacob who answered on the first ring.
"Bella where are you?" He asked in a rushed tone, "Are you alright."
"I'm by my friend Alice. I'm spending the night here."
"Why weren't you answering you phone Jared has gone all wolf he thought something happened to you, " He said I could hear the disapproval in his voice.
"I didn't answer the phone because it was in the room charging there is no reason for him to go crazy I told him were I was going to be," I said anger bubbling up in me. Jared overreacted. That wasn't my fault.
"Bella stop being selfish you know this is hard on him."
He was like he threw a bucket of cold water in my face. "What do you mean stop being selfish? This is hard on me to Jacob Black," I snapped, "Jared isn't the only one suffering."
"It doesn't sound like you are suffering," Jacob growled, "It sounds like you are having a good old time."
"You don't get to judge me," I could fill tears coming, "I never wanted any of this."
"then you shouldn't have accepted the imprint."
He hung up on me. That asshole. All of sudden I was the bad guy. Jared overreacts and I'm the one wrong. That just wasn't fair. I didn't ask for some stupid wolf mojo to fall on me. I stared down at my cup and frowned. I was having a good time. Wasn't I allowed to have a good time? I'm not going to stop because Jacob Black disapproved. My phone rang again in my hand and it was Jared calling me. I rejected the call. Tonight I'm going to enjoy myself like I would have if I wasn't imprinted on. Tonight I'm going to be a normal human.