Chapter five: Darker
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Once again, I attempted to contact Sans through…unethical means. And once again, I have to pay the price for it. Sans still refuses to help or listen to me, leaving me to slowly but surely lose the battle for Frisk's memories. Despite my best efforts, I can hardly hope to help her on my own.
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Again, I apologize. I am merely repeating what I have already told you. But due to my lack of strength, I will remain disadvantaged in the battle against the Entity, leaving Frisk at its mercy – or rather, its current absence thereof.
Of course, I could attempt to contact Papyrus instead. My connection to him is as strong as my connection to Sans, after all. However, seeing how I accidently disturbed the latter through these attempts, I doubt the former would react differently. The result may even be worse; he is more sensitive than his older brother. I refuse to put him through that.
And…well…I believe you may already know this, but they knew about me many years before Frisk's first arrival to the Underground. When they were younger, I inadvertently became the ghost that haunted their lives.
Sans' resurfacing fear for me is hardly significant compared to how Papyrus may react. His distress when Sans informed him of my reappearance was already too much for me to witness.
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But I am unsure of what to do now. I was only able to contact Sans because of my strong connection to him. The only other person in the Underground to whom I can reach out is Frisk. But…there is a reason why she has not heard from me.
Because I have no connection with her like the one I have with the skeleton brothers, contacting her would mean completely averting my attention from the battle – if only for a moment. During that moment, the little protection I can provide will be severely weakened, if not removed altogether. The Entity will exploit this window of time to cause the most extreme breakdown thus far: a breakdown unlike anything Frisk has already experienced. It would likely scar her deeply.
This is something I would rather not do. My defenses are weak as it is, but they are at least able to provide some protection.
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That being said…I see no other way to save her. I may eventually be compelled to approach her as I have approached Sans. But the Entity's power is growing, making it progressively more difficult to contact Frisk as time passes. I will be honest: I am unsure whether I would be able to contact her now without the Entity launching its next attack against her first.
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I will have to think about this, but my decision cannot be delayed for much longer. It is still getting darker here.