Mature rating for this chapter… don't get butt hurt over the "adult content"

"Oh god I've waited so long for this." You laid on your back, your hair spread over his pillow and your shirt discarded somewhere on the floor. You and Sans had been… more than friends, for a few months, but tonight you were going one step further.

"I'm not really sure what to do…" He just smiled at you and caressed your face.

"Let me handle it babe. I'll make sure you're comfortable." You return his smile, a little less nervous. He trailed his hands down your sides, taking in how you shudder under his fingers.

He gently unhooked your bra and let it slip off, flinging it onto the floor to join your shirt. His breath ghosted over your breast and you inhaled deeply. You had been looking forward to this for a while, but it almost seemed unreal that it was happening.

From the very beginning he would make flirty comments and lewd jokes, just to see you blush, but now you were about to go into a whole separate level of your relationship.

Cold fingertips gently brushed you through your underwear and you jolted slightly. He continues his ministrations and you let a small whimper escape your lips. He grinned and let his eye glow blue. It was silent for a moment before the glow traveled to his lower jaw. A glowing tongue slipped from his teeth. He knew what you liked.

His tongue licked your bottom lip and you opened your mouth to let him in. He hummed as he kissed you the best he could. His fingers slipped into your underwear and dipped into your warmth. You jolted and moan into his mouth.

"S-sans…" Hearing you moan his name made his hips jerk forward.

"C-can I…?" You saw the lust in his eyes, and nodded. You felt something nudge your thigh and you closed your eyes. You never understood how he managed to make his magic dick, but you never questioned it. As he began to push in, you got a jolt of fear.

You didn't want to do this anymore. You opened your mouth to say so, but you saw the love and adoration in his face and stopped. He really wanted this. You couldn't take this away from him. He pushed in little by little, moaning your name like a prayer to a god. A tear worked its way from your eye, partially from the pain and partially from your reluctance.

"Oh god… I love you so much." He growled into your ear as he slid all the way into you. You cried out, not trusting yourself to speak. He took your cry as something lustful and carefully began moving. He pulled out slowly and pushed back in just as slow.

You mind screamed at you to make him stop. To make this stop, but your body betrayed your thoughts. You could feel yourself getting wetter as he started to move faster and faster. Moans and yelps worked their way from your mouth despite the tears running down your face.

"You're so beautiful. I love you so much. You're so perfect. I l-love you." Sans mutterings became less and less understandable as his thrusts became more and more erratic. You felt the pressure building and knew you couldn't last much longer. He hit a particular place inside of you and you broke, clenching hard around him and screaming his name. Sans couldn't handle it, and came inside of you, crying out loudly. He collapsed on top of you, placing soft kisses on your forehead and whispering praises into your ears.

Like always, the cum disappeared with his magic and the room was left in darkness. He quickly fell asleep, but you were wide awake. You felt yourself shaking and knew you had to get to a bathroom, fast.

You slipped out from under his warm weight and rushed to the bathroom, retching into the toilet barely able to close the door before spewing up your dinner. It wasn't just your hands that were shaking anymore. Your whole body was trembling violently.

You turned on the shower and turned it to the hottest setting before stepping in. You let the scalding water burn your back as you let the tears fall. You sobbed into your hands and found you couldn't stop.

The hot water washed away all physical evidence of what happened, but the pain in your hips and your head proved it was more than real. You bit your knuckle hard enough to draw blood, trying to muffle the pained sobs. You were such an awful person.

Why did you suddenly want to stop like that? He loved you, and you loved him. So why weren't you able to enjoy your first time with him? Another wave of sobs hit you and you fell to your knees. The hot water scalded your scalp but the pain didn't distract you.

You could feel every more, every face Sans made burned behind your eyelids. You felt… filthy.

The hot water finally ran out, so you decided you had been in the shower long enough. Your fingers and toes were beyond shriveled and the steam was so thick it was a little heard to breath. You wrapped the towel around yourself and slipped into Sans' room.

He was sleeping peacefully, a soft smile on his face and a faint blush on his cheeks. He was muttering something, and you took a step closer to hear what he was saying.

"…love you so much…" You felt another stab of guilt, but refused to cry again. You gathered up your clothes and changed as quick as possible. You had to get out of here.

Leaning over your sleeping lover, you went to kiss his forehead. Just as your lips were about to touch his skull, you flinched away. Afraid of your reaction, you stepped back and ran from the room, not bothering to leave a note.

You had to get out, and you knew exactly where to go. You pocketed your phone and left the house.

"W-what are you doing here so late?" Undyne rubbed her one good eye sleepily. You didn't realize just how late it had gotten, but you didn't know what else to do. You went to explain yourself, but the only thing that comes out of your mouth is a choked sob. She immediately wakes up and ushers you inside. She sits you down at the table and began brewing your favorite tea.

"Now spill human. Why are you at my house at three in the morning, crying hysterically?" Though her words were a little harsh, she really was worried for you. You shakily explained what happened.

"S-sans wanted to… go all the way tonight." Her eyes widened a fraction but didn't say anything. "It was going good at first, but as he was about to…. Do it…. I didn't want to do it anymore. B-but he wanted it s-so badly and I d-didn't want to t-tell him n-no… I feel so f-filthy!"

You sobbed into your hands, feeling your sins crawling along your back. She sat in silence for a few seconds, just listening to you cry as she absorbed the information.

"H-hey… there's no need to cry, you hear me? It's okay. Everything is fine…" She didn't know what to do. She's never face this before. She sent a quick text to Alphys, hoping the scientist would be able to help more than she could.

Undyne knelt next to the chair you were sitting in and wrapped her arms around you. You burry your face into her shoulder and cry more.

"H-how am I ever g-going to f-face him again? I just l-left afterwards. No n-note, no n-nothing. He's g-going to h-hate me now!" You were inconsolable. A light knock was the first thing you really processed since you told Undyne the whole story.

She stood and answered the door, letting in the knocker. You were all cried out, staring at the wall and sniffling sadly every few seconds.

"Um… h-hey there. Undyne called me over. Is s-something wrong?" You turned your head slightly to see Alphys and Mettaton standing by the table, almost as of afraid to get any closer. You numbly shake your head. You couldn't explain again.

Undyne pulled them aside and spent a few minutes whispering to them. You closed your eyes, wanting to block out everything that's happened tonight. Suddenly, a pair of arms wrapped around you and pulled you up into their chests.

"Oh Darling… no one should ever have to go through that." Mettaton seemed the most broken up about what had happened. He held you, his arms trembling with emotion. "Sex should be something enjoyed by both sides. It's beyond traumatizing when something like this happens."

"Mettaton… maybe you should um… give her some space?" His arms loosened slightly.

"She needs support now more than ever dear Alphys." You let your arms wrap around the robot's waist.

"Come one human. Let's move to my bedroom. It's more comfortable than this dumb kitchen." You were picked up and carried across the small house. You had only been in Undyne's room once before.

You were placed on the bed, and you just wanted to go to sleep. Wanted to forget about all of this for a little while. The three of them sat on the bed with you, talking about random things in hopes to get your mind off of what happened.

After a few hours, Alphys began drifting off. It was almost five in the morning, and everyone was yawning and rubbing their eyes. Finally, Mettaton wrapped his arms around you and pulled you into a cuddle. Undyne and Alphys ended up next to each other. Everyone finally drifting off to sleep and not waking up until late that morning.

"Where is she?" Sans was frantic, running around the house like a madman.

"Brother please calm down. She probably just stepped out for a moment."

"No bro. The bed was cold and the towel was almost dry. She must have left a while ago and she hasn't come back yet!" Tears were making their way down his cheeks. Where were you? Why did you leave him?

"I'll call Undyne. Maybe she's seen the Human." Papyrus pulled out his phone and dialed the first contact. "Hey Undyne! Oh… did I wake you? But Undyne it's almost noon… anyway I was wondering if you've seen the Human. Sans has been absolutely frantic looking for her-" He cut off and stared at Sans with shock. "Um… Undyne I don't think I… alright…. Okay…. Yes I believe I can do that…"

He hung up the phone with a click and hung his head. Sans was watching with apprehension, jumping when the call ended.

"Well?" Papyrus cleared his throat.

"It seems the Human is well. She is over at Undyne's." As expected, Sans was already shrugging on his jacket and heading towards the door. "W-wait Brother!"

"What is it Papyrus? I have to go get her now!" Papyrus placed a hand on his brother's shoulder.

"Actually Brother… Undyne asked me to keep you away from her house for a while." Sans face contorted in betrayal and confusion.

"B-but I have to…"

"I would follow Miss Undyne's advice and stay here, at least for today." Sans' shoulders slumped in defeat and he threw himself onto the couch. He scratched at his skull, frantically trying to think of what was wrong.

Of why you didn't want to see him.

"U-undyne! I could have talked to him!" You were shocked at how brash the woman was on the phone.

"Yeah, the way you started shaking when I said his name really proved to me you would have been able to handle talking to the runt." You couldn't argue. You did start shaking a little when she said Sans' name.

"I have to face him eventually." You really just wanted to leave. While you were so grateful for your friends trying to comfort you, they were becoming a little too much. You felt smothered. You decided after lunch you would go back to Snowdin.

Lunch went by smoothly, Mettaton leaving as soon as he finished eating and Alphys following soon behind. Apparently he had been at her lab for a checkup and they both rushed right over when she got Undyne's call.

"Thanks Undyne. For everything. But I have to go face the mess I made."
"You sure Human? I don't mind you takin up space in my house for a few more days." You give her a big smile and a hug.

"Thank you, but this is something I need to face head on."

"Good luck girlie. Call me if anything goes wrong." You smile at her again and nod.

"I promise I'll call if anything goes wrong." Her grin faded a little and she hugged you one last time.

"Stay safe, or I'll kick your butt!"

"Bye Undyne. I'll see you around." The walk through Waterfall was very calming. It gave you time to rehearse what you were going to say.

"Hey Sans. Sorry I ran out. I um… needed some air… I had some errands to run?" You shook your head. You had no excuse for what you did. Unfortunately you found yourself back in Snowdin sooner rather than later. Your hand reached out to take the knob, but you hesitated. What if he was angry at you?

Before you had much time to dwell on that thought, the door flung open and strong arms pulled you inside. You head him before you saw him, Sans crying into your shoulder. You manage to pry him off of you and were finally able to understand what he was saying.

"Oh god I was so worried are you alright did anything happen why did you leave oh god I was so worried." He was crying, and you felt a thousand times worse. He reached a hand out to touch your face and you flinched away without meaning to. He also flinched, but because he was shocked by your reaction.

"W-what's wrong?"
"It's nothing S-sans." You mentally curse at yourself for stuttering.

"Come on. Something's wrong. Please tell me."

"…" You look away, not able to hold eye contact for more than a few seconds.

"Was it about last night?" You clenched your eyes tight and refuse to answer. "Oh god… it is isn't it…" His hands began shaking.

"If… if I had said no, would you have stopped?"

"Of course!" He practically spit the answer. "I would never do anything you weren't willing to do…"

His eyes widened, as if your refusal to look at him and your flinching away from contact was enough to explain the whole situation. He fell back, his knees giving out. He fell and barely caught himself on the arm of the couch. He clenched his shirt and stared wide eyed at you, tears leaking from his sockets.

"Please… please don't tell me… please don't tell me…" Your silence was all he needed. "Oh god… I'm so sorry. I'm so s-sorry. I had no idea…"

"Sans…"

"I would never do anything to hurt you. I would never, ever try to hurt you. Do you believe me?" You nod your head, but refuse to look at him. You knew he would never purposely try to hurt you.

"It's fine…"

"It's NOT fine! If you had told me…. I'm so sorry…" You wrapped an arm around him and let him cry into your shoulder. Part of you found it slightly amusing that not five hours ago you were in this same position.

"If we ever do that again, tell me if you don't want to continue." The uncertainty in his voice startled you.

"If?"

"I won't do anything unless you're comfortable with it, and after last night I don't know if you'll ever be comfortable with me again…" You wanted to deny that, wanted to promise him you'll be right as rain in a few days, but you didn't want to lie. Just him sitting this close to you on the couch made you anxious, and you hated it.

"Just… give me some time." He nodded sadly and sat in silence for a second, collecting his thoughts.

"W-what… what happened? Were you against it from the beginning? Or…?" You took a deep breath and gripped your pants in your fists.

"I was f-fine at first… but when you were about to actually do it…" Your cheeks burned with shame and embarrassment. "I was scared. I wanted to stop, but you looked so… you're face had so much love in it, I didn't want to make you stop. I know how much it meant to you, and how much you were waiting for it…"

He took a sharp breath and tensed up.

"That early into it… you didn't tell me to stop because… because of me?" Even his voice was shaking. You felt awful, you made him feel guilty.

"N-not like that…" He placed his head in his hands and shook for a little bit.

"This is all my fault."

"No! It's my fault for wanting to back out halfway through…" His head shot up and he looked at you with absolute horror.

"This is no way your fault. I should have stopped. Would… could you ever forgive me?" You take his hand in yours and place a light kiss on his knuckles.

"I could never blame you." He moved to hug you, but you moved away again. He froze and moved back to the farthest part of the couch.

"I love you… and I'm so sorry. I don't think I can ever express how sorry I am."

"I love you too… please. Just give me some time." He kissed his fingertips and placed them on the back of your hand.

"As much as you need."

Alright. I apologize… this is the third chapter I started writing but the first one I actually finished. I started writing one about starving and another about work related stress and anxiety. Neither are turning out the way I want them too.

I feel like it got kind of wishy wash at the end, because my own experience wasn't quite like this. Unfortunately, my (Ex) boyfriend would try to push me farther and farther, then act guilty and upset when I finally backed down. Similar to a point, but not enough for the actual emotions to come though.

Do you guys think I'm expressing the emotions well enough in these chapters? I kind of feel like I'm skirting around certain things. If you have any suggestions on how to get those emotions across stronger, please let me know!

A huge, gigantic, heartfelt thanks to everyone who reviewed, favorited and followed. I see all the reviews of people thanking me for writing these, but really guys. Thank you for reading and supporting me…

With how my motivation is slowly dwindling, I don't know how soon I'll be able to post something that isn't complete crap…

So until next time

~Starlight