Chapter 11 The day I told to everybody/ If I had to choose between breathing and Loving you. I will use my last breath to say I love you.

"What were you about to tell me, London?" I asked.

For the first time, London took a good look at me. She noticed how pale I was and the dark circles under my eyes. She looked me up and down. "Zack, you're not using again, are you?"

"No, London I'm just sick with something. Now please try to not change the subject. Tell me already please!" I was trying to stay calm, but I was getting desperate.

"I'm pregnant..."

The entire world stopped for a split second. My heart is pounding loudly in my ears. Once I realized what she really said I felt ecstatic and devastated She is pregnant and I have cancer. I looked at her. "I-I'm the father, right?"

"Of course it's you Zack. You are the only one. A-are you okay with it? Y-you are not going to run away, right?"

The smile on my face was bigger than ever. I was going to be a father. "London, I will never do that...I love you and oh my God I can't believe your pregnant!" I said happily. I hugged her tightly. We kissed deeply. I held her close to my body, never wanting to let go again. to her while hugging her tight. "How long?" I asked.

"1 month and 2 weeks. I wanted to tell you the day we fought over the phone. That was the other reason why I cried so much when you were gone. I thought you didn't love me anymore."

I hugged her again. "I will never stop loving you."

Dizziness swept me again as my common headache started to form again. I was going to be sick again. "Go ahead and let Cody and Bailey in. I need to go to the bathroom really quick."

London nodded. I ran fast to the bathroom. My chest was hurting so bad I thought I was going to pass out. I fell to my knees and vomited all I could. I clutched onto the rim of the toilet tight. You would think I would be used to this by now, but it was still just as horrible as ever.

Weakly I rose to my feet and looked into the mirror. I stared at my gaunt face. This is just the beginning of cancer, Zack. Keep your calm. After washing my mouth, I left the bathroom. I was determined to act as normally as possible.

I joined London, Cody and Bailey in the living room. Cody and Bailey were hugging London tightly. I noticed that all three of them had tears in their eyes. They all missed each other. "I missed you, London," Cody said emotionally.

London smiled. "I missed you too." London noticed the small baby in London's arms, and Jacob who was hiding behind Cody.

"Oh my gosh your son is so adorable!" she knelt down to Jacob's level. "Hi, I'm London. What's your name?"

Jacob looked at his father hesitantly at first. Then he turned to London. "Jacob."

London smiled again. "Nice to meet you, Jacob." Then she turned to the baby sleeping in Bailey's arms. "What's her name?"

Bailey hugged the baby close to her. "This is my little Paola."

"She's gorgeous." London looked at Cody and Bailey nervously. "Guess what?"

"What?" Cody and Bailey asked in unison.

"I'm Pregnant!"
Cody stared at her in shock. I almost laughed. I bet he thought I would never go that far with her. They didn't realize that I was in the room. I wrapped my arms around London from behind. "Yeah. I'm going to be a father!" I kissed London's cheek.
"Congratulations London" Cody and Bailey said happily.
The baby started to cry. Bailey patted Peola on the back. "Sorry," London whispered. Cody and Bailey just sighed with a smile.

Later that night all six of us sat to a scrumptious dinner of turkey and salad. My hand clutched London's soft one gently. It was nice to catch up on old times.

For the first time in a while my mind was off the cancer and the fear of London facing her pregnancy alone. In fact I was pretty sure this was the most I've smiled in a while.

"This turkey is delicious, London," Cody comment. "I had no idea you were such a great cook."

"Yeah. Did you take a cooking class from Cody or something while we were on the ship?" Bailey joked. She and Cody shared loving looks.

London laughed softly. "Just lucky, I guess."

Cody and Bailey started telling us about what they had been doing the past couple of years. I tried to listen, but my ribs were starting to hurt again. Really bad. I clutched my chest and let a groan escape. The pain had never been this bad.
I coughed violently, my chest heaving fast. I struggled to keep breathing as the coughs continued to escape. London looked at me in concern. "Are you okay, babe?"

"I'm fine." I said with a fake smile; Trying to look the most normal possible.

Cody studied me carefully. He was a doctor, and I knew he was trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I avoided looking at my twin, though I knew that my appearance was giving myself away. I was so pale, and I still had my jacket on even though we were inside.

I continued to shiver from still being cold. I knew Cody was going to figure out the truth of my illness. I just hoped that he wouldn't tell London. I didn't want to upset her.

London whacked me on the back a couple of times to ease my coughing. When I finally managed to calm down, they were all staring at me. "So, Zack," Cody said. "You told me when you got back from the doctor that you were sick, but you never told me what it is. I'm a doctor and I can help you."

I continued to avoid his gaze. "It's no big deal, Cody. Excuse me."
I hurried from the table and back to the bathroom. The dizziness was starting to become more frequent. It took me a bit longer to return to the table.

I started to eat again. Everyone was staring at me. My body continue to shiver. Dots appeared in my vision. I was still feeling very dizzy.

"Zack are you using drugs?" Cody asked sharply.

I started at my twin. London must've told him. I was too sick to be angry with her. Besides, he had the right to know. My ribs seared in agony once more.

"I used to use them, Cody. Not anymore. Why do you ask?" I force myself to look at him.
"Well, you found Bailey and I after not speaking to us in three years. You apologize after all this time for everything you did to us. I figure you must have something big. Yet you won't tell us."

"Maybe I just missed my little brother. Maybe I just wanted to make things right." I struggled to keep my voice calm. I was going to keep my illness a secret, even if it killed me.

Then London spoke up. "Zack, you never want to kiss me when you are feeling sick. Please tell us what the doctor said."

I was aware of everyone staring at me harder than ever. The pressure was too much. I couldn't take it anymore. I slammed my fists against the table.
SLAM!

"Fine! You guys really want to know?! I have f***ing cancer! Lung cancer! Is everyone happy now?!"
The entire room was silent. I refused to make eye contact with everyone. My heart was pounding hard in my chest. I didn't want to see the look on London's face. I felt devastated, angry, and guilty at the same time. I stood up from the table. "I didn't want to tell you guys, because I knew you guys were going to treat me like an invalid. I would never be treated the same again, and I just don't want that!"

I left the table and ran from the scene as fast as I could. I didn't pay attention to where I was going. Once I thought I was far away enough, I realized that I was in a room with a gray bed spread. I was in the room I shared with London. I collapsed on the bed. I buried my head in my hands and began to cry.
For the first time in years, I sobbed. I knew that I was growing weaker. I prayed with all my heart that I would live long enough to see my baby's face before dying. I wanted to keep London happy for as long as I possibly could.

Nobody's POV

Everyone was in shock. Even thought they knew why It happen to him.

Especially his brother and London.

Just imagine; the day she told him that she got finally pregnant with him, He told her that he has Lung Cancer.

It was just sad for her. Cody stood up and take London with him, They go to the living room. Bailey stayed at the table having sad feelings for her friend but the baby was crying so she was trying to finish finding the baby. So she wipe her tears away and keep fiding the baby with a smiley face.

In the Living room With Cody and London

He hug her and asked "Can I talk to my brother first?" Was a stupid question but he anyway wanted to ask her just in case.

London hug him back and nod a 'yes' . She pull away and let tears out; Cody leaved the room. Cody knew this was tough for London and he felt sad and angry somehow with his brother. So he keep his straight face and go to the bedroom were Zack was.

With Cody and Zack

He without knocking he opened his brother door and saw him with red eyes, Holding his inside pain about how much he was hurting them. But his brother just asked "This is a bad joke right?! Because you have your girlfriend back there crying! " Cody didn't want to believe that his brother as cancer. so he thought that maybe was a bad joke of his brother like when their were little he said he's mouse died and Cody cried the entire week but then he show it the mouse! and told him it was alive all the time.

Zack look at him with 'Are you talking serious?' face.

"Cody you are a doctor! you are my brother, How could I been lying about this?! I was a drug addict, I smoked, I was an alcoholic guy! and you think this is just a bad JOKE! In fact I wish this was a joke! I have for real lung CANCER! is it so hard for you to belive?" Zack was now angry. How could his brother just ask that to him, but Cody knew what he was doing it. He care about his brother.

In the other side on the table with Bailey and the kids.

They hear Zack yelling at Cody. Jacob was scare and run to his mommy. "Mom, why uncle Zack is yelling and reapiting he had Cancer? and what is Cancer mom?"

Bailey run his hands trough Jacob hair and said "Cancer is a very bad disease"

"He won't die right?"

Bailey take a deep breath and said "No, he won't die Jacob" she told him just to not upset his child now. Jacob even he is a little boy he understood everything, and he smile at his mother and hug her.

Back with Zack and Cody

Cody was just trying to block his own mind. He just wished this was a joke. He didn't want to hear again, the word cancer again from Zack mouth but Zack Finally convince him saying.

"You think I would make my wife cry in misery just because of a joke Cody? Well you totally wrong cause I love her and I won't lie about that! I just don't want to see her sad because of me...That why I didn't want to tell her" He sounded more sad each time he spoke.

"I'm sorry brother...I just..." Cody said looking at his brother eyes. Zack pat his Cody's back and nod him an ok look. But then his brother asked " How many months you have left?"

Zack sat again on the bed and said " eight months, and I can't believe that London is going to have a baby now that I have cáncer... I hope I see my baby face before dying"

Cody walk over to him and hug him. Zack chuckle, Cody only hug him in specials days like their birth day. But this was just that he wanted to hug his brother.

"Yeah so now you hug me uh? Because I'm going to die?"

Cody pull him away and said "Zack, I'm a doctor, I can help you with this and I don't think you will die"

Cody was saying this, just to feel better his brother; So Zack don't get more upset and have more hope for his family. After that he leave the room and nod at London so she could now came to Zack and console him.

Cody walk over to Bailey who was now on the living room and hug her "Are you ok?" She asked he sigh and said "I will be I'm just in shock now"

With Zack and London

Zack stood up quickly when hear the door closed and saw London. He hug her tight and said in her ear "I'm sorry London" She hug him back and said "Don't worry you will be fine" she smile. She run her hand through his hair and he smile and kiss her pull away and smile and asked "Can Bailey and Cody stay here? Is already night and I don't want them to drive this Long distance to their house" He chuckle and said "Is your house London"

"Oh right..." She said playing. She leave the room with Zack. She was trying to be strong for his boyfriend all the time even it hurts.

With Cody, Bailey, London and Zack at the living room.

Cody and Bailey were in the couch with the kids on their lap with alfsleeping faces. Then London and Zack show up and Cody put at straight face and Bailey too. "Cody and Bailey you want to stay here for the night at least?" Zack asked in low voice.

Cody look at Bailey and she look him back and nod "Well we are four, you guys have at least another room for us to sleep?" Cody asked and London said pointing. "Ofcourse, is over there" They stood up Bailey hold the baby on her arms. Cody accidantelly wake up Jacob when he move out the couch so Jacob was now sleep walking, holding Cody hand.

They enter to the other bedroom and London and Zack gave them blankets and pillows. Jacob was in sleepy tone but he came to Zack and said "Well goodnight sir hope you get better" Zack chuckle and said to Cody and Bailey with a smile "I just Love this kid, he is so sophisticated" But then he look at the kid with a Little blue blanked and knelt and said "You too buddy" he pat his shoulder and smile. Then Bailey took the sleep walking Jacob and put him on the bed.

"You will sleep with mommy and daddy tonight Jacob" Bailey said and Jacob asked with his eyes now closed. "What about Paola?" His little sweet voice of Jacob said.

"She will sleep on other bed Jacob" Cody just said. They all took their places on the bed and Zack stood up and look London with a smile. They both smile at the family and London said "Well, good night guys, sweet dreams"

London's and Zack bedroom

London was on the bathroom washing her face, I put my white shirt and a pajama pants and laid back on the bed. I could not stop thinking about our future.

A few minutes later I heard the door close. My head lifted from my hands to see London. She didn't say a word, just stared at me. I could tell that she was also thinking about our future and our bundle of joy growing inside of her. I made a decision. I was going to make sure that I would make London happy until I drew my last breath.

I took her by the hands and led her to the bed. Together we laid on the bed. "Everything is going to be okay," I kissed her hands. She touched my face. Tears were in her eyes. "How can you be so sure?"

I swallowed my nerves. "Because I know who I want to spend the rest of my days with, and that makes everything okay." London hugged me tightly. I reached in my pocket. As I pulled away, I showed her the 14 caret white gold diamond ring. It had cost me all the money I had, but for London, it was worth it. I smiled at her and she smiled back.

"Zack...What is that?" London asked.

"A ring," I said simply. I took her hands again and made the speech I had practiced over and over again.

"London, as time goes by and the older we get, the more life becomes a challenge. The changes that we've gone through these years have made me realize that I am nothing without you, that I have nothing if I don't have the best; your love and company in my heart. That's why I want my years pass by your side, my eternal love. I want to spend to spend my last few months of my life next to my family, friends and next to you."

"And a year late is worthier than an empty century, my love and it's more valuable to have the heart filled to the brim. That's why I want your love to always be At its strongest in my mind. Even if we're far away or even if we're nearing the end"

"Come on Love, I feel weak when I'm without you, and I only go stronger when you are here next to me. Without you I don't know what live means anymore. You are the light to my dark tunnel London. That's why I want you to be my wife."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "I love you, London. Will you marry me?"
London gives me a look. "The way we've been living together, I figured we already were married," she joked.
I looked at her in confusion. "Is that a yes?"

She thrusts herself on top of my chest. "Yes! YES!" We kissed tenderly. She stroked my face. "I've never felt more loved than when I'm with you, Zack. You make me feel like I have a real family now."
I rub her belly lovingly. "You do have a family, London. Don't think about your past family. Think about the beautiful family we will make, starting with the baby inside of you."

I sat up and wrapped my arms around London, who sat on my lap. She nuzzled my neck. This is the London I knew and love. "I love you, babe," a I kissed her passionately. "I love you, too."

We relaxed on the bed. For the first time all night, I didn't feel sick. The only thing I had to deal with was the horrible headache I had for the rest of the night. But I knew in my heart that things were about to get better. I couldn't wait to tell Cody and Bailey that I couldn't wait to marry London as soon as possible.

Three Days later...Wedding day

It was a beautiful fall morning. I stood at the gazebo, my brother by my side. He was the one who was given permission to marry us. My parents were sitting in the audience, looking on proudly. I had changed my life and was finally happy. The illness was getting stronger, but I was determined to not let it ruin the best day of my life. I watched as London walked down the aisle.

She looked beautiful in a long lace white dress. Her hair was curled down her back and lavender flowers in her hair. I felt my heart leap to my throat. Soon she was going to be my wife.

Once London was in front of me I took her hands gently in mine. Cody did his opening speech, but I was barely listening. I was too mesmerized by London. Cody turned to me. "Do you, Zachary Martin take London Tipton, as your wife. Will you take care of her and protect her until death do you part?"

"Yes I do" My smile got bigger.

He turned to London. "London Tipton, do you take Zack Martin as your husband. Will you take care of him and protect him until death do you part?"

London giggles softly. "Yes, I do."

I place the golden wedding band on her finger and she does the same on mine.
Cody grinned at the both of us. "I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss your bride."

"About time bro" I said looking at him. Cody rolled his eyes. I took London into my arms and kissed my bride. She was finally mine.

After the ceremony, I dance with London a slow song after it finish. All the people were staring at us, I was face to face to London and I kiss her. Then it was time for Mother and son dance. I get surprised to see my mother on the stage with a microform. London was next to me but she kiss my check and went to other part. As I stay there in the center of the dance floor decorated with very delical lavanda flowers on the floor and on everery were. The lights get low and the music began to sound. Hearing some soft instrumental music and my mother delicate sound she was singing for me.

"This is for you Zachary..."My mother said as she took a deep breath and sing.

"Heart beats fast Colors and promises How to be brave How can I love when I'm afraid To fall, But watching you stand alone. All of my doubt Suddenly goes away somehow"

"One step closer..." She walk out the stage and walk over to me, at the same time singing.

" I have died every day waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid I have loved you, for a Thousand years. I'll love you for a Thousand more..."

"Time stands still beauty in all she is" She said that looking at my wife with a sweet smile.

"I will be brave I will not let anything." My mother was now In front of me. I was trying to hold back my tears.

" Take away What's standing in front of me Every breath, Every hour has come to this" I could tell my mom was trying to hold her tears too.

"One step closer..." Mom was with watery eyes now that she touch my hand.

"I have died every day Waiting for you. Darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a Thousand years, I'll love you for a Thousand more"

"And all along I believed I would find you Time, has brought Your heart to me I have loved you for a Thousand years; I'll love you for a Thousand more"

"One step closer One step closer..." Mom hugged me tight. "I'm so proud of you, Zack honey." Tears welled in her eyes. I could tell what she was thinking. "I can't believe my baby is dy-." she said whispering as the instrumental music finish.

I cut her off. I didn't want to ruin the moment. "Thanks Mom, but don't worry about me. I'm finally happy."
She kissed my cheek lovingly. "I just want you to know that Mommy has always loved you and that will never change. I just.."

I kissed her forehead. "It's okay, Mom."

"Let me finish Zack, I did not know where were you all this time, you got me worried all this years... You never call me I thought I lose you and now I got an invitation of your wedding with London. My heart is beating so fast Zack, Mommy missed you a lot and I want you to always contact me for everything please" Mom said that really honestly with watery eyes.

"Mom, I'm really sorry. I will contact you, I love you mom I just did not want you to be upset about be because I was an drug addict and I didn't want to get you in trouble for me" I let it all out for the reason I did not wanted to contact her. Just for her to be safe.

"It's ok honey, Thanks for saying that" she kiss my check.

Mom turned to look at London, who was now next to me holding my hand. "And you, London. I'm so sorry for all the times I said bad things about you. I just want you to know that you are always welcome. I also wanted to thank you for helping my son. Can you forgive this old woman in front of your eyes?"

London quickly hugged Carey. She was also crying happy tears. "Carey, I know why you did it. I forgive you. And thanks for accepting me into the family."

I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned to see my father. For the first time I could tell that he was proud of me. "I can't believe my son is married, and to London Tipton. After all, you said you thought she would never return your feelings. I'm so proud of you, son." He placed a hand on his chest and I can tell he was trying not to cry.

I grinned at him. "Don't worry, Dad. You will still grow old and single, " I said jokingly.
"Well, son. I keep getting older each day and my glory days have gone out the window." He hugged me tight. "Live your life, son, and don't waste it. Be happy." He touched my shoulder."
"I will."

Cody approached me next. He hugged me tight. My grip was just as tight. No matter what happened, he would always be my twin. We pulled away. "What's your speech about, little bro?"
He grinned at me. "Well, I was going to start about how I thought you would end up in jail to be honest." I grinned back.

"I never thought that you would marry London and start a family with her."
Cody squeezed my shoulder. "You have really turned your life around, and I'm so glad you did. I'm glad you're going to be starting a real family, and not a family in prison. I'm so proud of you, bro."

"Wow Cody. That must be the nicest thing you ever said to me. Thanks man." I said. We hugged each other again
We pull away. Cody gave me a serious look. "Call me anytime, bro."

I could tell he could see the redness in my eyes, and it wasn't just from the happiness of the wedding. "I will."
Bailey was the last to greet me. "Congrats Zack! You are finally married." She hugged me, which I returned. I didn't get the chance to thank her, for I was feeling sick again. I hurried to the bathroom to once again throw up.

Bailey must've told my wife what had happened, for the next thing I knew, London's hand was on my back. She was still wearing her beautiful wedding dress. "Let it all out, Zack. You don't need to hold back anymore." When I finally had the courage to look at her, I could tell she knew I was holding back my pain.
I washed my mouth. I hung my head sadly. "I just wanted this day to be the most special day for you to remember. Now the only thing you will remember is your new husband puking. That's not a good memory."

London pulled me into a hug. "This day is perfect, Zack. I will cherish every memory because I love you. I don't care about the other things."

I caressed her cheek. "You know? I was wondering to myself if I made the right decision marrying you today. Now I know that it is worth it, but I don't know if you feel the same way, London." I swallowed the lump in my throat. "I don't know if you're ready for what's going to happen next. I don't want you to be sad or exhausted for me. I just want you to be happy."

Well I think she knew that I was holding back my pain.

"Zack, I'm absolutely happy and in love with you. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I don't care what will come next. I will do what I have to do. I will take care of you, Zack. Nothing will change that. Not even you."
She kisses me tenderly. I felt myself melt into her kiss. "I feel better. I'm the luckiest guy to have you by my side forever. I really feel that way, London. I really love you."

"If I had to choose between loving you and breathing London. I will use my last breath to say I love you" I said looking at her in the eyes.

"Aww Zack you are so sweet" London hugged me tight. I was unable to hold back the pain. "Ow."
She gave me a sad smile. "Sorry."

Months later

It was the day of the baby shower. London was seven months pregnant. It was a joy to watch her belly grow as days passed by. Being married is just as awesome as Cody said it was. Being with London and our growing child has kept my mind off the increasing pain inside my system.

The cancer was getting worse. I started wearing ball caps to hide the hair the fell out. I knew that I looked worse than ever. I was so afraid to fall asleep at night. What if I didn't wake up in the morning? The only thing that was keeping me going was the immense desire to see my baby's face before I die.

London was chattering happily as we opened our gifts. I knew she was having a great time and that's all that mattered. I, however, was having a hard time breathing. I kept the broad smile on my face so that they didn't know how I was feeling inside.

I will live long enough to see my child. I thought fiercely to myself. I will!
Breathing was becoming almost impossible at this point. I stood up unsteadily. I needed to lie down. The weight in my knees gave way. I hit the ground with a thud. I vaguely heard the gasps around me. I struggled to keep breathing. My body was shaking so hard. London screamed my name.

"Zack!"

Through my blurry vision I saw my beautiful wife; her hand protectively on her protruding belly. My eyes shut. Then everything went black.

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