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WARNING! MENTIONS AND SONGS OF ABUSE! I WILL GIVE WARNING BEFORE THEY COME UP!
Normal pov...
Early that morning the men left the house. This confused Ironhide. Shouldn't they take care of Anna and Amy?
Later the girl's came out and Amy got on her motorcycle. She watched Anna get into Ironhide and they drove off to school.
That became normal except Optimus came to drive Anna a lot more. For a couple of reasons unknown to them.
...A few weeks later...
Optimus's pov...
I was walking through the hall when I heard Anna talking with Raf.
"I'm scared Raf. I don't want to lose her." Anna said softly.
"I know, and you won't," Raf replied. "Let's go find Bee so we can relax before tonight." That was a clue to what they were hiding. I vented and headed back to the main room. So something was going on that made Anna fear for her sister.
Amy and Miko had a concert tonight. So most of us are going.
"Hey, Optimus?" Anna asked. I looked down at her.
"Yes, Anna?" I replied kneeling down.
"Your coming tonight right?" She asked.
"Of course," I replied. She smiled.
"Sweet! I can tell you everything you wanna know! Cause I'm not in this one." She explained. I gave a small smile.
"Sounds splendid. Now Anna, if something was wrong would you tell me?" I asked. She frowned.
"Um, I-"
"Anna? You ready to go?" Amy said glaring at me. I still didn't understand why she glared so often. It was clear she did not trust us.
"Yeah," Anna said.
"You may ride with whoever you want. I'll talk to you after. Come on Miko" Amy said and kissed Anna's forehead before getting on her motorcycle Miko got on behind her and they left.
Amy's pov...
I rode from base heading off to school. I had a concert with Miko and a few others.
"Thanks for giving me a ride," Miko said when we arrived. We had gotten along a little better so it wasn't as tense around each other.
"No prob. Let's go." I said and we went backstage to get changed and ready.
I put on black leather pants and a red top with my combat boots. Miko came out wearing, ripped Blue jeans, a light blue shirt, her sneakers, and her hair was down.
"Hey um Amy will you do my hair?" She asked slightly hesitant. I nodded and Braided a small section then brushed the rest. With mine, I pulled it all over my right shoulder and used a hair clip in the back to keep it that way. Its curls caught the light making it shine slightly.
"I could hear people coming in and taking their seats.
"So remind me again what this concert is for?" Miko asked.
"Its to get kids to go to teachers about stuff that bugs them and all that, you know like feelings," I explained. She nodded. Miko picked up her guitar pulling the strap over her head. I was given a microphone. After a teacher went on stage to explain why we were doing this concert and if any of the students wanted to talk they were there for them. I rolled my eyes it was so weird that they do this but they don't stop the bullying in school.
"Now put your hands together for Shooting Stars!" The teacher said. Miko looked at me and the other girls and guys that just got here. I led the way onto the stage as the applause roared to life. They immediately started playing. I sang out making my voice go low for this song.
WARNING: SONGS AND MENTIONS OF ABUSE STARTS NOW.
"Alyssa Lies"
My little girl met a new friend
Just the other day
On the playground at school
Between the tires and the swings
But she came home with tear-filled eyes
And she said to me "Daddy, Alyssa Lies"
I had been called a lier before and it hurt so I stopped talking to people. They all thought I was lying to them.
[Chorus]
I had the worst night of sleep in years
As I tried to think of a way to calm her fears
I knew exactly what I had to do
But when we got to school on Monday I heard the news
My little girl asked me why everybody looked so sad
The lump in my throat grew bigger
With every question that she asked
Until I felt the tears run down my face
And I told her that Alyssa wouldn't be at school today
She doesn't lie
In the classroom
She doesn't lie
Anymore at school
Alyssa lies
With Jesus
Because there's nothing anyone would do
Tears filled my eyes,
When my little girl asked me why Alyssa lies
Daddy tell me why
Alyssa Lies.
When that song ended about 4 kids got up. I made eye contact with Anna just as the next song started. Mike was the other singer as I rapped.
Optimus's pov.
I frowned deeply, that song was clearly talking about Alyssa being hurt. That couldn't be it... could it? If Amy was being hurt why didn't she get help?
"Hopeful"
Oh-oh-oh
Yeah
Please help me God, I feel so alone
I'm just a kid, I can't take it on my own
I've cried so many tears,
Yeah, writing this song
Trying to fit in, where do I belong?
I wake up every day, don't wanna leave my home
My mamma's askin' me why I'm always alone
Too scared to say, too scared to holler
I'm walking to school with sweat around my collar
I'm just a kid, I don't want no stress
My nerves are bad, my life's a mess
The names you call me, they hurt real bad
I want to tell my Mom but
She's havin' trouble with my Dad
I feel so trapped there's nowhere to turn
Come to school
Don't wanna fight I wanna learn
So please mister Bully
Tell me what I've done
You know I have no Dad
I'm livin' with my Mom
I was very surprised at Amy I had no clue she could 'rap' as they called it. She was rather good at it. She was amazing at what she did singing with Miko on that stage.
'Cause I'm hopeful, yes I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay
Just be hopeful
Why do you trip at the color of my skin?
And whether I'm fat or whether I'm thin
You call me a loser, you call me a fool
I ain't got a choice I gotta go to school
I wish I had an angel to stick by my side
I'm shaking with fear, I'm so scared inside
Doesn't really matter if I ain't got the looks
Why do you always hurt me and destroy my books?
She had glanced in my direction for a second but she didn't meet my gaze she was memorizing up there the light lit her hair up making it look like it was glowing.
'Cause I'm hopeful, yes I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay
Just be hopeful
I give you all my money every single day
I didn't ask to be born but now I have to pay
I ain't got no food, you take all I have
When I give it to you, you search through my bags
I wrote this song for you to see
We could've been friends, yeah you and me
Mister bully, take a moment please
Every single day you bring me to my knees
'Cause I'm hopeful, yes I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay
'Cause I'm hopeful, yes I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay
Just be hopeful
What I wear is all I have
We lost our home, I'm living from a bag
Yo mister bully, help me please
I'm flesh and blood, accept me please.
That song was true Anna and Raf I heard got bullied but Amy would always step in. Amy was their guardian angel.
Amy's Pov
Several more students got up after the song and I took a breath and as the next song started Anna looked down and I knew why. She was scared that this song would one day be my life story.
Ironhide's Pov.
"Concrete Angel"
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
I frowned this song was about someone hurting another. I did not realize people did that. I know they bully each other but hitting their own sparklings whas unheard of on Cybertron.
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late
When morning comes? Does that mean this angel was killed by a parent? Why would they do that?
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel
I noticed Anna had a tear roll down her cheek as she watched her sister.
Optimus's pov.
That song also was referring to child abuse. Something unheard of on Cybertron. I watched Amy closely as she moved singing the next song. She almost sounded desperate.
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Is someone preventing her from speaking? Is someone hurting her so much that she refuses to get help?
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Did Amy grow up in a broken home?
Amy's Pov.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I acted slightly emotionally as I sang the next couple lines running a hand through my hair.
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
I held a hand over my heart as I acted the part.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
Optimus's Pov.
I felt Amy was saying the truth. Something bad was happening and if I didn't find out and put a stop to whatever it is, something worse could happen.
"Baby Don't Cut"
She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her.
She hates school because the people there discredit her.
Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems.
But every day she just gets lowered with her self-esteem.
He lets her know that every night will have a brighter day,
She even tried to overdose and take her life away.
She's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed,
Then he takes his hand and places it beside her head.
He tries to hold her but with every touch she still resists,
And then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrists,
She's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask her, "Why?"
She says this way she has control of the pain she feels inside.
He's asking her, "How long it's going since you've felt this way?
Because you got me here, just feeling so damn helpless."
She says, "It's been a while. I guess I needed better luck."
And then he screams at her and tells her, "Baby, never cut!"
Amy didn't like being touched I noticed. She would always pull away from anyone. Was she hurting herself? Was that where those scars came from?
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen, pretty lady, you don't have to be alone.
So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
The next day at school she's feeling better than the day before.
Even cracked a couple smiles as she walked the corridor.
But all that seemed to end: she dropped her books when she walked into class.
And every student in the room just seemed to point and laugh.
She couldn't take it anymore, she sent her boy a text.
She said, "I love you with my body, heart and soul to death."
He thought nothing, typed "I love you", then he sent it.
By "death" he didn't know that she had literally just meant it.
She ducked the next class, ran home into the bathroom.
Thought to herself she wouldn't break her promise that soon.
One cut... two cuts... three cuts... four
The blood just started dripping from the tub to the floor.
Her boyfriend had a feeling in his stomach that he hated.
He followed it right down to her house he never waited.
The front door was open, he heard the water running.
He stormed into the bathroom and his heart just started running.
My spark clenched tightly this song was talking about self-harm and Amy sang it like she was doing it to herself or pleading with others to not hurt themselves.
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone.
So baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
He puts her arm around his shoulder, he's just tryna lean her back up.
Yelling out her name as he lays her beside the bathtub.
Feels his whole world just took a hit from a big avalanche.
Screaming out so heavily, "Somebody call an ambulance!"
Feeling mad angry like somebody's led her onto this.
Her eyeballs are rolling, drifting out of consciousness.
Thinking to himself why the hell did she just stop at will.
The tears just keep on rolling as they head to the hospital.
Anna had tears rolling down her cheeks so I wrapped an arm around her shoulders and she leaned into my side.
Paramedics rush her in, the doctor calls emergency.
She's lost a lot of blood the place looks like a murder scene,
An hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face,
And says, "Excuse me for the words that I'm about to say.
I'm sorry for your loss," the boy just starts collapsing.
His own world, his own girl just took a crashing.
Saying to himself that it's his fault and that he let it up.
"Baby, I thought you made a promise you would never cut."
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone.
So baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise baby you won't cut.
At least 15 kids have gone back to teachers by the end of that song, it was progressing at least.
I hoped Amy wasn't hurting herself.
"Faded"
You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us?
Another start
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alive
Where are you now?
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now?
Another dream
The monster's running wild inside of me
I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
Amy's pov.
I felt faded, I feel like I drown every day but I will not tell anyone. I refuse.
The next song started and I felt numb as I sang. It hurt so much because I didn't have to pretend to act with this song.
"Stolen Innocence"
I find it funny how a smile can hide a broken heart,
And how the masking of your feelings is a secret art.
Would you have seen it coming? I know she hides it well;
The whole world is really under this girl's tragic spell.
Thinking nothing of the glare in her big brown eyes;
Little do they know, they're a great disguise.
She wakes up, watches the sunrise,
Starts reeling off the bucket loads of sad lies.
"Are you alright?"
"Yes," she replies.
I always did say I was alright. I always said I was fine. But why? So I wouldn't get hurt even more. So no one else would take advantage of me.
No one can hear the scream of her internal cries.
She thinks there's no hope and no faith left to give.
Feels no reason and no purpose for her soul to live.
How could you take this girl, and make her feel secure?
Then go grab your mates, and make her feel impure?
'Cause now she's damaged forever and her thoughts are stained;
With every memory you gave her you should be ashamed.
He never made me secure. but I wanted him so I wanted to be safe in his arms but that will never happen.
Did you like it when you heard her screaming out in pain?
I bet the thought of it, is driving her insane.
One of the worst crimes that you could commit;
And for what? Just for your own selfish benefit.
And now she's thinking, "do I even deserve to live?"
'Cause what you did there is no way she could forgive.
She was so innocent, until that event,
You made an indent, on her presence.
Now she's forced to travel down her life on this path.
Guess you really didn't think of the aftermath.
Was it intentional?
Are you delusional?
Did you understand what you were doing at all?
What a waste of such a precious girl I will admit.
You took advantage of her and now you've ruined it.
And I just hope that one day she will recover;
And a genuine smile she will discover.
Sometimes the outside, it don't mean a thing.
'Cause this girl she's beautiful when you start digging in.
And I'll admit that, there's nothing left to say.
But I promise that everything will be okay.
And just remember that I'm here for you whenever.
It's gonna be that way with us forever.
'Cause you know that I'm never really very far.
And when you hear this song, you'll know who you are.
So I hope you cherish the words that I wrote for you.
And I admire you for everything you've been through.
You are stronger than you'd ever know I promise you,
Just think back at all those awful things, you know it's true.
You're still standing here, healthy and alive,
And if you truly believe I know that you'll survive.
Optimus's pov.
I froze. That better not be true. I hope that wasn't true, but all the evidence...
I watched the curtains close. Slowly the other got up. Anna took my hand and we walked out to the parking lot to wait for Amy and Miko.
Amy's pov.
I finished doing my backstage stuff and went to the parking lot. Anna and the others were waiting for Miko and me.
"You did great," Anna said she had been crying. I frowned but nodded to her.
"Great job girl's but those songs were rather... sad." Jazz stated frowning.
"They're supposed to be," I stated.
"Any way You ready to go Bulk?" Miko asked.
"Sure thing, let's go." He said. They left.
"Hey Raf, Anna still sleeping at your house?" I asked.
"Yeah, you ready Anna?" Raf asked. They both gave me a hug Anna and Raf were frowning.
"I'll see you tomorrow," I told them and they headed off. I got on my bike and started it up but Prime stepped in the way.
"How come Anna is always spending time with Raf?" He asked.
"That's what friends do." I snapped and turned and drove off.
Optimus's pov.
"Something is wrong. I will ask them both about it tomorrow." I thought.
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