((EDIT: I WROTE THIS AND TOTALLY DIDN'T NOTICE I HIT 1,000 WOOOO! Lol))

So it's a good day to write, but I don't want to waste Here I Am on this unhappy mood I'm in right now. So you might want to turn around or skip this one, because I think this one's going to be sad and have character death in it. (I think this is the …third? story I've ever written that doesn't have a happy ending, to let you know the rarity of this…)

So yes, Roxel forever, I might use your upcoming birthday points AND your sister's birthday points on this one, because I don't like sad :p But you've caught me at that perfect time, and loathe as I am to see myself hit 1k on a sad story, we'll just celebrate later…;)

This will most likely be short.

What If…

Roxas dies after giving birth?

((as suggested by Roxel forever for a birthday present))

"Axel."

Axel sat on his bed with his head in his hands.

"Axel."

"How did this happen?" he whispered softly.

"Axel."

Axel looked up. "How did this happen?" he repeated to Roxas, who stood in the doorway.

Roxas sighed and came to sit next to Axel on the bed. "I haven't looked at it yet," he said, gesturing to the pregnancy test in his hand. "We could be completely wrong."

"How could we be wrong? You've been sick so much and the weight you've gained…" he looked away. "How did this happen?" he whispered.

"It's impossible, Axel," Roxas said as he reassuringly put a hand on Axel's shoulder. "Not only am I male, we're Nobodies. We shouldn't be living; we're built completely different than humans!" He looked down at the pregnancy test.

"It's blue," he whispered quietly. He laughed to himself. "Well, I guess we're built a lot more differently than humans…"

Axel stared at the positive pregnancy test before lashing out against the opposite wall.

"How did this happen?"

-((aw here we go))-

A few hours later, Roxas was hooked up to an ultrasound in Vexen's lab.

"I don't even want to guess why you have this," Roxas joked lightly. No one responded.

"It would definitely appear that you are pregnant," Vexen said as he located the baby's heart rate on the machine, "Although I cannot begin to fathom how. You are definitely male, but there is definitely a fetus attached somewhere…I don't know how you can have an ectopic pregnancy when you shouldn't even be able to conceive," he clarified.

"Clearly a Nobody is more mysterious than we thought," Roxas replied.

"Ectopic?" Axel questioned.

"An ectopic pregnancy is when a baby grows outside of the uterus. It simply latches on to something and starts to grow. It is very dangerous," he explained darkly.

Silence filled the room. "How do we make it stop?" Axel whispered.

"I don't think that we can. Under normal circumstances, one simply removes the fetus; however, because this area is completely unknown, the attempt would most likely kill both Roxas and the fetus. If we took Roxas to a hospital, they would ask questions and make too many discoveries. Our only option is to wait until the fetus grows more so it will be easier to remove," Vexen explained.

"But then you'll be killing a child," Roxas said.

"Rox, we won't even know if this thing comes out as a child, let alone a human," Axel replied.

"We're still not going to give it the chance to grow only to take it away," Roxas said firmly.

"There is a chance that the baby will live if it is carried long enough," Vexen said.

"Would Roxas survive the birth? How can there even be a birth?" Axel questioned.

"It would have to be a Cesarean. However, if the fetus does not tear apart Roxas' insides, it is possible they will both live," Vexen said bluntly.

"Possible," Axel whispered.

-((all aboard the sad and depressing train!))-

Roxas rolled over for what seemed to be the millionth time to throw up in the trash can next to the bed. There was no way to do it quietly; Axel awoke and rolled over to rub his back as he tossed his cookies.

"I could sleep in my own bed so you can sleep," Roxas said between heaves. "You still have to go on a mission tomorrow." The Superior had put Roxas on bed rest until this ordeal was complete; he did not want to lose a Keyblade master.

"Nonsense, Rox, don't worry about me," Axel said tenderly as he gently pulled Roxas back down to bed and tucked the covers over them. "I just want you to get better."

A few moments passed of quiet before Axel whispered something unintelligible.

"What?" Roxas whispered back, already half asleep.

"I'm sorry."

-((a few months later))-

Axel returned home from his missions, collapsed into his computer chair, and shut his eyes. Roxas, who had a pregnant belly now, was napping in bed, and he didn't want to disturb him.

A quick search on Google determined that it is possible for a baby to live if he or she is born at 24 weeks, although it is extremely risky. Roxas agreed that they could try to deliver the baby at that time. He had just entered week 14 and tried to leave the room as little as possible so he did not startle the baby or his insides.

Three more months, Axel thought hopefully, just three more months and Roxas will be safe again. We might even have a child… Axel wouldn't dare to let himself even think about that future, or a future without Roxas. Suddenly, Axel eyes shot open as he felt a pressure of lips against his neck.

"Axel," Roxas whispered as he kissed a path down Axel's neck. Axel stood abruptly and pulled Roxas in front of him.

"Rox no," he said hoarsely as he pulled Roxas back to bed. "We can't, it's too dangerous…"

"But I want to, Axel, I want you so badly…" Roxas said with tears brimming in his eyes, "please?"

Axel hesitated. Roxas seized the opportunity to capture Axel's lips in a fierce kiss while pulling him completely down to the bed. Roxas' hands were everywhere, tracing paths along Axel's chest, back, and shoulders before Axel gained his senses and captured them with one hand.

"Roxas," Axel whispered, "I'm scared…"

"Don't be," Roxas replied, "the pregnancy books say this is normal…"

"But this isn't normal at all Roxas!" Axel exclaimed. Roxas, clearly hurt, turned away on the bed. Axel sighed, angry with himself. "Well, if we can't do it like we normally do," Axel said as he crawled tentatively closer to Roxas, "I suppose I can think of one or two things we could try instead," he said, eyes glinting.

Roxas smiled happily. "That's my Axel…"

-((fast forward two and a half months))-

This might just turn out all right, Axel thought as he walked down the hall to his bedroom. Both Roxas and baby were healthy and well, and soon they would try to deliver the baby. Axel even felt the baby kick yesterday.

"It's not going to hurt you," Roxas had said before putting Axel's hand on his stomach. "This baby's going to be the luckiest one in the world, having us for parents."

Just a couple more weeks, Axel thought with a twinge of hope, a couple more weeks and this will all be over, he pushed open the door to his room as he smiled to himself.

Roxas lay on the floor, coughing up darkness.

"Fuck."

-((here it comes))-

Axel held Roxas' hand in a death grip as he and half the Organization piled into Vexen's lab gone maternity ward. Every possible gadget that could be required for a birth was brought into his lab for the occasion. Vexen worked fast as Roxas lay on the table, unconscious.

"Get it out!" Axel exclaimed, angry and frustrated that he was so powerless.

Vexen made a few incisions and there was darkness everywhere. Vexen swore and went to work, trying to deliver a viable baby and save Roxas in the process. Axel couldn't watch what was going on; he simply stared at Roxas' sleeping face.

"Please wake up," he whispered.

Vexen had the baby out and handed her—a girl—over to Marluxia, the impromptu nurse. He worked to resuscitate the baby, who was not breathing, while Vexen tried to save Roxas. All machines were beeping and screeching while they worked. Axel closed his eyes. He heard one of the machines start beeping solidly, while the other flatlined.

"Please," he whispered as he opened his eyes. A small cry was heard from a far off table, and Roxas lay unmoving.

"The baby had attached to his intestines; they burst and I couldn't save him," Vexen said quietly.

Axel didn't hear him. "Please wake up," Axel said softly as Roxas dissolved into darkness.

-((three months later))-

Axel walked into the lab turned NICU to see his baby. He watched her with blank eyes as she kicked in her high tech incubator, designed to help her finish developing. She grew strong rapidly over three months; Axel could only put his finger through the glass to touch her.

"You still haven't named her," Vexen pointed out as he watched her through the glass.

Axel didn't respond. He didn't speak much lately.

"You can hold her today," Vexen said, walking over to the incubator, "she's strong, this little one."

"What?" Axel said as he was pushed into a chair and given the child. He automatically held her close and cradled her head, looking down into the face that took away his love.

Piercing, big blue eyes opened beneath the tufts of bright red hair, looking up into stunned green ones. The baby reached out a hand and wrapped it around Axel's finger, staring at him. Axel stared back and began to rock her gently.

"It's just you and me isn't it, baby," he whispered to her, waving his finger that she held. "It's you and me…Roxanne."

-((End))-

EPIC PILE OF SADNESS. That was also longer than I thought. If I didn't write it myself, I would have cried. Let me know if you do, lol.

SO WE NEED HAPPY IDEAS YESYES. XD

R and R, how did I do?

Last one: Reincarnation!

"So does that mean the carrot thing that Marluxia was telling me about was true?"

Demyx blushed. "No it does not!" Zexion laughed at him.

~freakyhanyou