JD watches her slowly lose herself too the guilt of helping kill three of her friends. JD listened too her song too the coffins of Kurt and Ram.
"Dear diary, I'm going steady. Mostly she's awesome if not a bit too rock'n'roll. Lately she's bumped off three of my classmates. God have mercy on my soul. They were just seventeen. They still had room to grow. They could have turned out good, but now we'll never know." She looks like she's going too cry again.
"You know..." JD starts sounding genuinely guilty about hurting her. "There has been a distinct lack of girls coming in my bedroom window." She joked humorlessly. She was actually worried about Veronica.
"Take the hint!" She spat angrily, and turned around before she could see the look of hurt cross JD's face.
"I get it." JD said understanding her feelings perfectly.
"No! I don't think you do!" She yells turning too her and closing the distance between them. "Ich luge bullet! You lied to me!" She shouts angrily moving away from her again.
"I told you I was going to kill them." She said softly and chuckled mirthlessly. She locked eyes with Veronica. "You were lying to yourself. You wanted them dead too." JD says knowing she was lying to herself, but trying so hard to keep the illusion up. Her eyes were filling with tears as Veronica shies away from her afraid.
"I did not." Veronica said firmly and completely seriously.
"Did they make you cry?" She asks stepping towards her.
"Yes..."
"Can they make you cry now?" She asks genuinely feeling she's doing what is best.
"No, but you can." She tells her looking at her trying not to cry.
"Why don't you see the good that's comes from this?" She asks in frustration.
"What good could possibly come from this?" She asks angrily and stepping closer too her. They were an arms length apart now.
"Call me an optimist." She almost shouts and walks away angrily.
"Dear diary, my teen angst bullshit has a body count." She says too herself and the curch starts too fill with people. JD continues to walk away and gets on her bike going to the 7/11. The girl at the counter smiles and waves in greeting.
"You sure do like those Slurpies." She says when JD reaches the counter. She doesn't look her in the eyes and nods wiping away her tears angrily. 'Veronica will understand I'll make sure of it.' She thinks before walking out her Slurpy in hand.
She sits on her bike and looks at the Slurpy in disgust and throws it in frustration. 'Veronica is the only thing that can make me feel better right now.'
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She walks into the school and hears them talk about the Kurt and Rams father's words and the kiss they shared. 'You love your dead gay son huh? What if he was a limp wrist with a pulse?' She rolled her eyes at herself and walks over too Veronica.
"What is that I smell in the air?" JD asks looking at the shocked Veronica. "Inclusion? Tolerance? Love?" She asks proudly. 'I didn't even need to force it myself!' "Ah, I say it's a good day in Sherwood, Ohio. Your welcome town!" She says happily.
"Well, you don't have to be so smug about it!" She says in frustration.
"Your love keeps me humble." She says lovingly and moves closer to her. She knew killing these people was hurting Veronica, but she also knew it was for the best. It would keep her safe. "So who's next Heather Duke? She started that three way rumor." A murderous look passes over her face. "I've taken the opportunity to jot down notable passages in her copy of Moby Dick." She explains sounding angry about the girl's lack of respect for Veronica.
"No!" She yells in terror. JD looks at her both confused and worried. "I do not accept this! Three people are dead! Okay? That's enough!" She says firmly, and frantically. "This ends right here right now." She says softly.
"Or what?" JD asks curiously.
"Or I'm breaking up with you." She says confidently. JD visibly stifffened at the words.
"You wouldn't?" She asks afraid. "Just because this is hard doesn't mean it's not worth fighting for." She says firmly. "We can't just let those evil pricks keep hurting people. They hurt people everyday!-"
"JD!" She calls stopping her rant. JD freezes looking at her. "How did your mom die?" Veronica's voice was quiet and understanding. She always seemed to understand why JD did the thing she did, even if she didn't agree.
"You want too know?" She asks softly her voice emotionless. "Dad said it was an accident, but she knew what she was doing. She walked into a building two minutes before he blew it up." JD said angrily and moved away from her looking pissed. "She waved at me out the window. Then... ca-boom." She made an explosion with her hands. JD stared off into space reliving the moment once again. "She left me." She says her voice breaking with emotion.
"I'm so sorry." Veronica said moving to touch JD.
"It's okay." She says stepping away from Veronica trying to distance herself from her girlfriend. "The pain gives me clarity." She says smiling lovingly at Veronica. "You and I are special. And we have a lot of work to do." She turns and walks away.
"What work?" Veronica calls as she follows her.
"Making the world a decent place for the decent." She tells her happily turning to the first person she's trusted since her mom's death. She was walking backwards.
"When does it end?" Veronica yells angrily.
"When every asshole is dead." She said resolutely. Veronica pushed her, hard. She's sent stumbling backwards trying to find her footing.
"Fine! We're damaged. Really damaged, but that does not make us wise!" She shouted as angrily tears formed in her eye. JD stares at her confused. 'How did I hurt her so bad?' "We aren't special! We're not different. We don't choose who live, or dies." Her voice got progressively less angry as her eyes overflow with tears. She wipes them away angrily. JD moves forward to hold her. 'I made her cry...' "Let's be normal: see bad movies, sneak a beer and watch tv. We'll make brownies, or go bowling." She has tears streaming down her face now her voice full of emotion. "Don't you want a life with me?" She asks. Her voice was so broken. JD wiped away her tears looking ready to start crying herself. "Can't we be seventeen? That's all I want to do. If you could let me in. I could be good with you." She says clinging to her arms trying to keep her distance. "People hurt us."
"Or they vanish." JD adds locking eyes with her.
"And you're right it really blows, but we let go."
"Take a deep breath." JD says understanding finally what she's doing is wrong.
"And go buy some summer clothes." She tells her lovingly. "We'll go camping." She pulls away and steps back. She turns and starts walking back down the way they came.
"Play some poker?" She asks not really sure what teenagers do. She wasn't allowed to be a kid after her mom died. She follows her like a lost puppy know the less.
"And we'll eat some chilly fires." She turns her head to her asking. "Maybe prom night?"
"Maybe dancing." She answers with a smile. They locked eyes and JD feels all the love Veronica has for her.
"Don't stop looking in -my eye."
"-you eyes." They say together. They want so much to be together. "Can't we be seventeen? Is that so hard to do? If you could let me in. I could be good with you. Let us be seventeen. If we've still got the right."
"So what's it gonna be?" She asks turning away from her. "I wanna be with you."
"I wanna be with you." She says nodding and moving to hold her again.
"Wanna be with you-" Veronica starts.
"Tonight!" They both finish sounding so in love it was almost scary. They kiss hard at the end of the note and they cling to each other afraid if they let go the other would disappear.
"Yeah, we're damaged." She looks up at JD tears in her eyes.
"Really damaged." She says they locked eyes both tearing up.
"But your loves too good to lose." They say clinging to each other.
"Hold on tighter." Veronica says, and JD does as she's told.
"Even closer." She whispers in her ear.
"I'll stay if and when you choose." Veronica pulls her closer.
"Can't we be seventeen?" JD says almost afraid.
"If I am what you choose." Veronica says nervously.
"If we still have the right." JD said cupping her face.
"Cause you're the one I choose." Veronica tells her lovingly.
"You're the one I choose." JD sings putter big their foreheads together. They clinging to each other.
"You're the one I choose." They sing together closing their eyes and letting the moment wash over them.
"And they lived happily ever after." Heather Chandler's ghost said snidely and the both glared at her for ruining their moment. "Aw, you really believe that?" She asks Veronica. "You think it all goes back to normal? Oh don't give me that wounded look." She says frustrated. "You know exactly what she is. Oh and you love it." She rubs up her legs in a sexual way.
"Stop talking." She said. JD looked at her ghost angrily.
"Only a true dead best friend would give it to you straight." Chandler said with a laugh.
"Veronica!" Martha yells running towards her. JD kisses her on the top of the head.
"See you later." She says glaring hard at the ghost. She mouths at ghost. 'Leave her alone.'
"She can see me?" Chandlers ghost asks confused.
"I need your help..." She moves out of earshot and goes to class. 'Can I protect her without killing these people? I'll have to try." She thinks to herself.
Class was boring and she barely paid attention to anything her teachers said. She sat quietly in the back of the classroom hating herself for hurting Veronica. 'I'll make sure to keep her happy from now on. I can kill those evil pricks without her knowing... She'll know it's me faking all the suicides though...' She sighs heavily unsure of what to do. 'I just have to find a way to convince her they deserve too die. I'll get MacNamara to spill all her feelings out and watch Heather Duke go after her. Everyone will join in and Martha will be the only one, other then Veronica, I try to save. Martha has never been a bully. She can live.'