My Soul for For Wish
Disclaimer: I own nothing, but if I did we all know PLL would have been a hell of a lot better.
AN: Can I just say how much I absolutely hate Paige, she's a psycho crazy bitch and she needs to stay away from Emily before the girls give her a proper smack down! Anyway seeing as in the show Maya is nowhere to be seen; pretty much everything will be stemming from my own twisted imagination. Enjoy, R&R xXx.
"No dad, she's completely out of control, I only just now got my phone back and Maya still isn't allowed in the house. She's being ridiculous!" Emily complained.
Wayne sighed on the other end of the phone, "Look I'll try talking to her later tonight okay? I'll see what I can do, but don't expect much, you know how your mother is…at least she's trying Emmy, give her some credit."
Emily groaned, "I know, I know…it's just frustrating that I have to go through all these loop whole just to spend some time with my girlfriend. Maybe I'll take Mrs. St. Germaine's offer and have her sit down and talk with mom."
"I think that's a great idea! Just make sure you tell mom about it beforehand. She doesn't do surprises." Wayne chuckled.
Emily grinned despite herself, "Believe me, I know. Anyway, I'll let you go now, just don't forget to talk to mom. I love you."
"Don't worry, I won't forget. Love you too, Emmy." He responded and hung up. Emily shook her head and pocketed her phone just as Hanna approached her and sat by her side on the bench.
"Hey girlfriend, was that you're mom on the phone?" She smiled, past Emily as she spotted Caleb.
Emily turned, rolling her eyes when she spotted the bad boy, "Nope, my dad. I've convinced him to talk to my mom about lifting the 'No Maya' band she has on the house."
Hanna sucked her teeth, "I can always go talk to her…I have pamphlets!" she cheered retrieving said pamphlets from her purse.
Emily raised a brow, "'How to support your friend coming out.', 'So your little girl wants to be with a girl?', 'PFLAG! Cleaning the closet after your child has come out of it.'…Hanna, why do you carry around pamphlets about being gay?"
"Oh these are just the ones I keep handy, I have way more at home; every week they have new ones." She shrugged.
Emily frowned, "Who's they? Where did you get these?" to say she was confused would be an understatement.
"The GSA group at Sheridan Prep, it's about twenty minutes outside Brookhaven." Hanna smiled a little shyly.
"Since when do you go to GSA meetings?" Why the hell did she not notice this?
Hanna grinned, laughing lightly, "Please all those 'shopping' trips, come on even I can't shop that much…well I would if I could afford it. Anyway, every Thursday after school I drive the two miles up to Sheridan Prep and go to the meetings, I've been going for like three or four months now, since you started freaking out about Maya, thankfully you came out of denial. I just kept going; someone had to be informed enough when the shit hit the fan."
"Han…" Emily was speechless as tears sprang up in her eyes. "I…I can't believe you'd do that for me."
Hanna rolled her eyes, "Don't you start, it was totally best friend duty that made me do it, besides having hot girls fawn over how good of a friend I am did nothing but boost my ego. The girl that runs it is pretty cool too, and she makes this fabulous jewelry, so it's a win-win." She shrugged as if it was no big deal.
"You're kind of amazing, you know that?" Emily bumped her shoulder with a small smile playing on her lips.
"Uh duh! But it's nice to her you say it." Hanna smirked, standing up. "Now if you'll excuse me, that hottie over there is totally begging for my attention." Emily just laughed as she watched her best friend strut over to Caleb; poor guy didn't stand a chance.
"So you can't come to the dance tonight?" Emily pouted over the phone.
Maya sighed, "I'm lucky that I'm even talking to you right now and not off at some boot camp talking to the bears." She tried joking.
"Don't try to make me laugh…I'm so mad at you right now." Emily frowned, silently thanking the dry-cleaners and shouldering the dress for tonight's dance.
"I know, I know. It wasn't like I was planning on getting into trouble…it just happened?" She tried, wincing. 'Okay even I do not believe that one.' She chided herself. "I'm really sorry that I messed up our plans…you think you can forgive me, Baby?"
Emily smirked despite herself, "Oh no, don't you dare think you can just 'Baby' me and this will be all better. You are in serious trouble St. Germaine."
Maya winced once more, 'Bringing out the last name…great.' She groaned in defeat, "How much trouble are we talking here…like a couple days of groveling?"
Emily placed the dress into her car, her smirk firmly in place. "A couple days, no, think more like a week at the least. Oh and you can totally kiss 'girlfriend privileges' away."
Maya gasped into the phone, "What, you've got to be joking! It's not like I killed someone…I just got suspended for two days and from the dance…that's it."
"Which you still won't tell me the reason behind…right?" Emily rolled her eyes; "If it wasn't such a big deal then why won't you tell me?" her agitation was making itself known.
Maya felt bad, like horribly bad for not telling Emily, but she knew that there was a big chance that Emily would be even madder at her if she knew the reason behind the suspension. "It's not a big deal…" She mumbled quietly.
Emily scoffed, "Right…well then I guess it's not a big deal that you're officially grounded...from me." she hung up the phone. Ok, so maybe she was overreacting just a little bit, it wasn't like Maya was flat out lying to her…but she was keeping something from her and to Emily this was just as bad.
All her past relationships were lies, hell she'd been the liar in the last one and she hated it. She thought that this thing between her and Maya was above all that, 'I guess not.' She thought bitterly to herself.
At the dance…
"Ok, so wait…she won't tell you why she got suspended?" Aria frowned.
"You grounded her from 'girlfriend privileges'!" Hanna screeched at the same time, Aria rolled her eyes.
"Han." Aria chided, Hanna just looked at her innocently, mouthing a 'What?' for good measure.
"She's being really sketchy about the whole thing." Emily frowned. "I mean what could be so bad that she refuses to tell me about it?" Hanna for her part shrugged nonchalantly, picking nonexistent fluffy from her dress.
Aria and Emily share a look, "Han…do you know something?" Aria asked.
Hanna scoffed. "What? Pft no…why would I know anything?"
The girls' eyes widen, "Hanna!"
She groans and stomps her foot dramatically, "Ok so I know…but I can't tell you, I promised Maya that I wouldn't. But you should know that she so does not deserve to be 'grounded'." Hanna quoted with her fingers.
Emily's eyes narrowed, "Well how about you tell that lovely girlfriend of mine that she can plan on being 'grounded' for much, much longer." Emily said sweetly before stomping away.
"Really Han, why can't you just tell Emily?" Aria sighed rubbing her forehead.
Hanna pouted, "I promised Maya that I wouldn't. I wouldn't be a very good 'bro' if I broke that promise…I don't even know why she doesn't tell Emily. I just saying if someone did what Maya did for Emily for me, I'd totally give them extra privileges, not take them away." The blonde stated plainly walking away as she typed on her phone.
"Bro?" Arai questioned to herself, trailing after her friend.
'Oh it's just Maya…again, fourth time already, must be a record. Silence.' Emily mocked as she sent Maya's call to voicemail yet again. Needless to say, she was very pissed with her girlfriend at the moment, 'Maybe I should just go home…or answer the phone, no I'll just go home.' She stomped over toward the coat closet.
Sweeping through the coats she stopped as Hanna's purse swung out from underneath her coat, curious, she took a peek. 'Hmm…a bit of liquid courage eh Hanna?' she smirked as she took the shiny metal flask and left the room.
Plopping down next to her friend, Hanna groaned, "Ugh, scoot over. God my feet are killing me…are you ready to go? I just want to crash, like seriously…I wonder where Aria and Spencer are." She sighed out pouting at her friend. "Em…Emily, did you hear me?" she asked after getting no response from her friend.
Then she noticed the flask, "Hey that's mine!" she whispered, snatching the object away from the quiet girl. 'Shit its empty…' Hanna groaned internally, "Damn…Emily this was full." She laughed disbelievingly.
"Well it's not anymore." The girl pointed out with a barely held back sneer.
Hanna frowned, "Come on you're not still mad at me, are you?"
Emily glared drunkenly, "Now why would I be mad at you? Oh wait! Because you and my girl-girlfriend are keeping sssecrets from me, you're right Haaan, that's no reason to be mmad." She slurred her way through.
Hanna rubbed her forehead in dread, "Emily, we're not keeping secrets…Maya will tell you eventually, it's not my place to tell you." She tried explaining, but she knew from experience that there was no use trying to reason with a drunken person.
"Ha!" Emily exclaimed harshly. "You know I aactually thought that sshe was different you knoow. Like, different from A-Alison, but no, she's the ssaame. I just can't g-get away from her, sshe's everywhere. Why can't I bee happy Hanna? I just want to be happy, that's nnot to much, is it? To be happy? And Maya's perfect, and sexy, aaand…awesome, not like Alison. She was meean and, and cruel. Alison's a biiiitch!"
Hanna laughed softly in pity for her friend, "Is this drunken stupor about Maya…or Alison?" she asked carefully.
Emily stared at the ground harshly, "I don't knooow…both, they're the saaame, aren't they?" she paused looking up at Hanna and frowned in confusion. "Han…why aaare there twoo of you? Did youu buy a clone?" Emily grinned stupidly, drunkenly.
Hanna shook her head with a chuckle, "I think it's time for us to go Em." She smiled amusedly as she typed out a message to their friends.
Emily just nodded, "I think you'rrre right…both of youuu."
"Ok no, she's totally not driving, here Hanna take her keys and drop her off at home. I'll follow behind you and we'll go back to mine." Spencer said trying to hand off the keys to Hanna.
"Oh hell no, if her mom finds out that it was my flask I'll be the one in the woods talking to the freaking bears." The blonde protested.
"You can talk tooo bears?" Emily frowned.
Aria sighed, "No honey, Hanna's just being…dramatic." She glared at the blonde. 'What'd I do?' Hanna mouthed back, Aria just shook her head.
"Wait!" everybody jolted back, Aria running into Emily's back as Emily jerked to a stop on the school steps. They waited. Emily cocked her head in confusion, staring ahead, "Has that tree always been there?" Aria and Spencer sighed, moving the girl forward as they glared at the blonde to keep her mouth shut. Hanna, for once, listened.
Hanna stood in the dimly lit room of Spencer Hastings as she corralled, the slightly less drunk, Emily into bed. The girl flopped back onto the pillows, turning so that she could still see Hanna; thankfully she had sobered up some on the way over. "Does Maya love me?"
The whispered, heartbroken, question threw Hanna. "Hunny, of course she does. Why would you ask that?" Emily shrugged, picking lint of the pillow. Hanna sat close on the bed, "Em, why would you ask that?"
Emily's teary eyes locked onto Hanna's, "Alison said she loved me…but she didn't, she lied to me all the time and now, now Maya's lying to me so…" she trailed off as a tear streaked down her blushed cheek.
Hanna's heart broke for her friend, "Emily listen to me…are you listening?" she waited for the girl to nod. "Maya is nothing like Alison, you know that. Alison is a bitch, remember?" she smirked down at Emily making the girl crack a small smile, "Maya loves you, Em."
"You promise?" Emily whispered in a small voice.
"Yea Em…I promise." Hanna confirmed, reaching to turn off the light. "Now get some sleep drunky." She chided into the dark room before closing the door, her fingers already speed dialing. "Hey, yea it's Hanna…I know it's late but just listen…Emily got in my stash…yea she's pretty wasted…look I know it's late, but we're at Spencer's…yea I think you should, she needs you right now…she's just really confused about things…yea, I think you should tell her…alright, see you in a bit." She hung up.
Tiptoeing into the room, Maya sighed as she found her girlfriend cuddled up in bed. 'Even drunk she's completely adorable.' She carefully crawled into bed, smiling as Emily cuddled closer even in her sleep. "Oh Em…how could you ever possibly think that I didn't love you?" she whispered to the air.
She didn't expect Emily to answer back, "Because you don't trust me enough to tell me the truth." Emily whispered back.
Maya sighed and shuffled lower so that they were eye to eye, "Is that what you think?" her voice laced with disappointment.
Emily's gut churned, "What else am I supposed to think when you won't tell me what's going on?" she threw back, Maya flinched. Emily kept going, "Up until you, my relationships have been nothing but lies and I thought you were different…that we were different. Am I wrong?" she asked desperately.
"No, no of course not! We are different Emily, Emily I love you…I'm in love with you! I would never hurt you or what we have; you mean more to me than anything." Maya countered.
"Then why would you keep things from me?" Emily seethed. "This little thing has become this huge problem between us just because you won't tell me the truth! God Maya, it's such an unimportant little detail and yet you are keeping it from me and it's making me feel as if I'm this psycho controlling girlfriend who wants to know every little thing that happens and that's not who I am. What's going on?" she finished desperately.
Maya was at a loss, she didn't mean for this to blow up like it had. "I don't want to lose you." She whispered.
"What? Why would you lose me?" Emily was thrown at the sudden turn in Maya's demeanor.
Her eyes filled with tears, "I didn't tell you because I knew you'd be angry with me and I didn't want to lose you. God I can't lose you Emily." She whispered urgently.
"You not telling me almost made you lose me." Emily whispered back just as greatly.
Maya nodded and swallowed thickly, "I got into a fight at school…and the principal walked by and heard me threatening the person I was fighting with, so he expelled me."
"Wait…what…why would I break up with you over that?" Emily was beyond confused at this point.
Maya grimaced, "It was Jenna…I know you told me to stay away from her, but she was at my locker and she kept saying all these things about you and me and…Alison, I just lost it. The only reason I didn't get expelled was because Hanna was there and told him that Jenna started it, which she kind of did. I know I should of told you, but I was afraid that you wouldn't want me anymore because I'm not good like you, I mean this is the second time I've gotten into a fight over you and I'm really not some crazed jealous girlfriend, I swear I'm not." She pleaded.
Emily laughed and cupped the girl's cheeks, silencing her with a soft but firm kiss. "You silly girl, don't you know you're my knight in shining lip-gloss? I could never be mad at you for defending me, protecting me. I just expect you to be honest with me…and to love me as much as I love you." She smirked.
Maya grinned madly, and kissed her girlfriend eagerly, "I love you more, so much more. You're my heart Em…before you came into my life…I didn't know that I was already missing you."