A/N: So… since I'm not sure if I will have the time "tomorrow" and since it's actually already after midnight where *I* am (over in Europe), here's already Chapter 16 – and like I said, it's a (very long) April/Alex Chapter… might even be a little bit surprising for some of you, but maybe not… ;-) The next 2 chapters will be full of Mark/Jackson, though, and there will even be a longer Arizona part in Chapter 18…
Enjoy :-)
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April Kepner POV:
April couldn't believe what she had just seen. And heard. God forbid. Heard. What she had heard was even worse than what she had seen. Not worse in the sense of something bad, but something she would have never expected of Jackson. Her best friend Jackson. Why hadn't she noticed that something was going on between him and Sloan? And why hadn't Jackson told her? Had he thought she would abandon him just because he was gay?
Was he?
April didn't know what to think about it anymore. Pictures of their time during the boards popped into her head. Pictures of her and Jackson sleeping together. They did have sex there, so Jackson couldn't be gay, right?
April's thoughts were running in loops and she was totally disarranged. She had been home to collect some stuff for her double shift, like fresh clothes and such, but when she had entered the flat and was about to move to her room, she had seen them. Jackson and Doctor Sloan. Literally making out.
"Once I was down to my boxers I would guide you to your knees. I would be so hard for you Mark, so hard for that mouth that can do amazing things"
Jackson's voice rang in her ears and she couldn't believe that she had actually heard those things.
Not that she never had heard anything like that at all, but not from her best friend. And not under those circumstances. What exactly were they doing anyways? They hadn't even kissed. At least as far as April did see from her perspective, but she didn't stay long after this.
She had rushed out immediately, almost dropping her key on her way out, and she was sure it had made a sound, but when neither, Jackson nor Sloan, had followed her, she assumed they had been too busy with themselves to notice her. Luckily.
Now she was back at the hospital, and actually, she should be with a patient in about half an hour to prepare her for a surgery, but she didn't know how to get down from her emotional rollercoaster after everything and do her job. She was literally shaking when she made her way to the rooftop, barely noticing that she passed by Alex. She just needed fresh air. Now.
She stormed out when she was at the rooftop and placed her hands on the banister, taking a few deep breathes.
"April?" a familiar voice asked behind her and April turned around immediately.
"Yes?"
Alex was standing there, looking at her with concern in his eyes. "Are you alright? I saw you rushing out, and I thought I'll check on you."
April closed her eyes and shook her head lightly. "No..." she whispered. "No, I'm not okay." She was still shocked. Not about the fact that Jackson was obviously dating a guy, more about the fact that he hadn't told her. She wasn't homophobic at all, and she thought he trusted her.
All of a sudden she felt Alex' arms around her, asking herself when he moved closer, because she was so lost in her thoughts that she hadn't even noticed.
"It's alright, I'm here," Alex said and his voice was really calming her down a bit. Or maybe it was his strong arms around her, so she started to respond to the embrace with hugging him, too, and pressing her head against his chest.
"Jackson and... Jackson and Doctor Sloan... they... they..." she started talking, but she couldn't even speak it out loud, because she didn't know how.
"What about them?" Alex asked softly.
April looked up at him; still holding onto him like her life depended on it. "I... I think they have an affair... or something like that..."
Alex looked a lot less surprised than April would have expected. "What makes you think that?" he asked calmly.
April tilted her head. "Don't tell me you knew about this all along?" She pushed him away and took a step back.
"I... I..." Alex stammered, scratching his head. "Don't be mad at me, but I promised Jackson not to tell anyone. Especially because he didn't know what it was himself at first. And he wasn't sure if it would last."
"How long?" April simply asked. It hurt her to obviously be the last to know.
"Not long. A couple of weeks maybe. April... really, it's not like he didn't want to tell you, because I know he did. He just didn't know how," Alex tried to explain.
April shook her head. "I'm his best friend. He should have known that he could talk to me."
"He did... it was just all so complicated between them. Especially with the plane crash and everything. But believe me, it's not that he doesn't trust you, it's just that after all that happened between you and him that he didn't know how to tell you that he's in love with a guy." Alex went on.
A sad smile appeared on April's lips. "So he's in love with Sloan?"
Alex nodded slowly. "Very much."
"And Sloan?" April wanted to know.
"I can't speak for Sloan, but I think he feels the same, even though he still needs some time to get used to the idea that he has a boyfriend now. You know how much of a playboy he had been." Alex replied, trying to smile.
"I still don't get it," April said, feeling so sad and shut out all of a sudden. Tears glistered in her eyes. "He could have told me. He could have said something. Or you... you could have said something. I trusted you both and neither of you dared to say a word." She shook her head. "I'm sorry, but I think I'll better go now," she said, trying to pass by Alex, when she felt him grabbing her hand and pulling her back. When she turned to look at him, she felt a blush crawling up her cheeks, and her heart beat faster immediately.
She didn't want to feel this way. She didn't want to be so in love with Alex Karev. She had tried to ignore her feelings and just be his friend, but right now, Alex was making it very hard for her. Especially considering the emotional state she was in. She didn't know what to do, so she just looked up at him.
Alex Karev POV:
Alex Karev was not a man who was good with emotion. Not his own and definitely not those of other people.
He had just left a patient's room when he saw April rush passed him and she looked about as un-April like as possible. The old Alex would just do his best to ignore it, but he knew that Alex was long gone and April had a part in that.
Finding her on the roof and helping her talk through her incident Alex found himself holding the girl close to him. She was hurt that Jackson hadn't told her, but she seemed as if she was starting to understand why. The whole friendship thing was pretty new to Alex. Up until Jackson he never really had somebody he considered a best friend.
Meredith and Cristina had travelled with him on his journey to being a surgeon. He doubted that if the three hadn't chosen Seattle Grace they would have ever met. He still loved them nonetheless, though.
Alex had a feeling someway and somehow he would have run into Jackson. Both men were exactly the same kind of fucked up to be a part of each other's lives no matter the circumstance.
But April.
April was like nobody Alex knew. She was all sunshine and cheeriness. She was everything that Alex really disliked in most people. It was always fake and once you got under it you found that they were just as screwed up as everybody else.
Not with April, though. She was who she was all the way to her core and try as he might he was drawn to it.
When he told April about knowing about Jackson and Sloan she seemed hurt and he felt awful. It was not his secret to tell, though. Telling her about the love Jackson had for Mark seemed to make things better.
"I'm sorry, but I think I better go now,"
"Wait April" he said as he blocked the girl from leaving. "Are you sure you're okay?" he looked her in the eyes and something was...different.
"You can talk to me, I promise" Alex told her.
"Not about this" she said "I don't even know-" she tried to say.
"Talk to Jackson" Alex put a firm hand on her shoulder "I'm sure he's sorry"
She still looked jittery and nervous.
"What could you have possibly heard that has you so freaked out, anyway?"
April gave a sarcastic laugh "Let's just say Jackson can be quite the colourful talker when he wants to be" Alex knew he shouldn't hear and he doubted the woman would even tell him, but damn his curiosity.
"Like what?" he asked.
"You don't want to know, trust me"
"I can't not know" Alex said and April looked almost amused "Fine, but don't say I didn't warn you" she responded.
"He was on the counter and Mark was standing in front of him" April said " he described exactly how he would push Mark to his knees and have him give Jackson the best blow-"
"No, you're right" Alex yelled "I don't want to know"
April had laughed the first real laugh since Alex had found her on the roof.
"Let's go so I can try to erase the last 5 seconds from my brain" Alex said and he put a hand on the small of her back to lead her towards the exit.
He felt her tense up immediately.
"April?" he held her by the shoulders and looked directly into her eyes.
"Alex I-" she said before cutting herself off.
"Talk to me" he pleaded "whatever is the matter-"
She kissed him. Unexpectedly and with much more force then Alex would have given her credit for. Had his shock not been in control of his body he would be thoroughly impressed.
When she broke away Alex looked completely stunned.
"I'm sorry" April said and she looked completely humiliated. She made a break for the door before Alex grabbed her hand.
Turning her around Alex pulled her close
"I'm not".
April Kepner POV:
"You're not?" April asked a little bit confused. She overstepped a line and she was afraid Alex and she could now never be friends again, even though she wanted so much more. But she had learned that the people she wanted - the men she wanted - usually didn't want her back. Especially Alex. They had built up such a strong friendship and she didn't want to destroy that.
"No..." Alex replied, gently putting some of April's hair behind her ear, before he leaned down and kissed her again. With much less force. It was just sweet and tender, and April was almost surprised about how he fondled her. Like she was fragile and he had to take good care of her.
She looped her arms around his neck and pressed her body against his, letting the kiss get more and more heated.
"Wow... April... you... you should..." Alex stuttered, once he was able to break apart for a second.
"I should what?" April asked, trying to look as innocent as possible.
"Maybe we... maybe we should stop." Alex breathed out, obviously not reallywanting to stop.
"Why? I thought you wanted this too," she said.
A smile appeared on Alex' lips. "I do," he admitted. "But we need to do a surgery soon, forgotten?"
April grimaced. "Yeah... to be honest I really almost forgot about that."
Alex cupped one of her cheeks and leaned down to brush his lips against hers once again. "You're adorable."
"I'm not." April said, just looking up at him and feeling really happy right then. She didn't even know what there was between them, but she could feel that there wassomething and that Alex seemed to have feelings for her as well.
A thought crossed her mind all of a sudden.
"Alex?" She said to get his attention, and he immediately looked her in the eye.
"Yeah?"
"Do you think it is my fault?" she asked, causing a very confused look on Alex.
"Is what your fault?" he asked back.
April shrugged. "You know... the thing with Jackson and Sloan."
Alex tilted his head. "Huh? How can this be your fault? I don't understand."
April felt embarrassed. She was sure her cheeks have turned a bright red by now. "Do you think I made Jackson gay?"
Alex let out a laugh. "What?"
Immediately, April detached herself from Alex and took a step back. "That's not funny."
Alex was still giggling. "Oh yes it is." He took a step towards April and grabbed her hips, even though she tried to get away first. "How can this be your fault? Are you kidding me?"
April blushed. "Well... I mean, I was most likely the last person Jackson slept with before... you know... he turned gay. Maybe... maybe I was so bad that he... that it turned him towards men."
Smiling, Alex shook his head. "I know that's not the cause. And if it was, Jackson would be the biggest idiot on earth. But actually, I think he was in love with Sloan for a while longer than he realized himself," he told April. "I mean, he was always talking about him and the way he talked about him was... different... there was so much emotion in his words. But I know this had nothing to do with you. Or the fact that you two had sex. But I mean..." His smile turned into a big grin. "I can test it, and I will tell you if you're bad afterwards."
April grimaced, before punching Alex on the shoulder. "This is serious. I am serious."
Alex cupped her face and leaned down. "I am serious, too. I would love to try it."
April swallowed hard, feeling her heartbeat quicken. "Oh yeah?" Only the imagination of sleeping with Alex sent shivers down her spine. She wasn't really experienced, but she was afraid to do something wrong. Of not being able to satisfy Alex. And she just knew it would be different than from what she did with Jackson. Because she was in love with Alex. It would actually mean something, and that scared her.
"Yeah. And if we didn't have this damn surgery..." Alex whispered close to her lips. "I would show you right here. Right now."
A smile crossed April's lips. "We're on the roof. Someone could see us."
"I don't care," Alex gave back. "And it's nice out here."
Just when he was about to kiss her again, his beeper went off and he let out a frustrated sigh, rolling his eyes. He grabbed it and looked at the display. "Oh..."
"Oh?" April asked, looking up at him.
Alex smiled. "Change of plans. Our patient seems to have a fever, so we can't operate on him."
"Means we have some time to kill?" April asked with a mischievous grin.
"Looks like it. Any ideas?" Alex asked back.
"Maybe." April replied and pressed a soft kiss on his lips. "Meet me in the fifth floor on-call room in five." And with those words she turned around and left the roof. She was still damn nervous and she was afraid she could or would disappoint Alex. And she didn't know when she had become so quick when it came to sex, but she wanted this. More than anything else.
Alex Karev POV:
Alex couldn't believe this was going to happen.
It was not as if he didn't want it to or even imagined it, but to have it actually come to fruition was a totally different story. He ran to the nearest bathroom and did his best to freshen up. He certainly didn't want to end things before they had a chance to really get going.
Alex couldn't lie to himself. He was nervous and he had to do something to quell that pit in his stomach. It had been a long time since he slept with someone that he had planned on seeing the next day.
He was the first person to make it to the call-room and as he waited for April he checked his breath one last time. Sitting down on the make-shift bed he gave a quick look around and realized exactly where he was.
The last time that he and April had almost went too far it was here. Still reeling from Izzie's departure he looked for comfort wherever he could find it and when April offered it, he gladly accepted.
It was a mistake and somewhere in the back of Alex's mind he knew that, but she smelled good and felt even better and Alex had been so lonely. April had also been a virgin and sacred, something that Alex didn't have the time or patience for. He took his anger out on her and punished the woman for all the 100 different ways he screwed up.
It had all happened in this room and now they were going to do it all over again. His nerves all of a sudden turned into a cold sweat. How could she walk in here and not be flooded with the memory of how horrible he was? April would never want to be with him once she remembered the kind of man he was.
He stood up and prepared to walk out when April opened the door. She let her hair down and, if possible, only looked more beautiful. Locking the door behind her she walked up to Alex and stood in front of him.
"Hi" she said shyly and Alex thought it was one of the most adorable things he had ever seen.
Leaning up April kissed him. Her tongue playing over his lips, wanting entrance and he gave it willingly. It had been so long since Alex had felt...this. He felt as if there was a fire raging inside of his chest.
Picking the woman up she wrapped her legs around his waist and he carried her to the bed before putting her down and lying on top of her.
He didn't want to go too fast, too soon. He knew she had to be nervous and Alex did not want to compound her fears by pushing the woman faster then she wanted to go.
"Alex" she moaned as he her fingers found the hem of his lab coat and then his shirt and pulled both off as quickly as possible. He returned the gesture by removing her shirt, revealing the pink lace bra she wore underneath.
She was so beautiful it made Alex bend down to kiss the girl's neck. Alex wanted her so bad he felt like the desire of it all was going to make him burst out of his skin.
Reaching down between his legs April grabbed a hold of his manhood. Impossibly hard and wanting her so bad it hurt. Her smile was one of confidence. This was her tangible proof that he wanted her.
"Are we going to do this or what"
Alex thought back to that last horrible instance. He couldn't help himself as he trailed kisses from April's neck to her chest.
"I don't have time to teach you how to do this" he yells at her and sees the crushed and shocked looked on her face.
Alex was trying to block it all out, but he already felt his erection deflating. He grabbed April around the hips and pulled their midsections together.
What in the hell was the matter with him? He had this beautiful woman in front of him and he couldn't get out of his own head.
April could tell something was wrong immediately.
"What's wrong?" April asked. Concern in her voice.
Alex couldn't do this here. Not in this room and not with this history it held for the both of them.
"I-I can't, April" Alex said as he hopped of the woman and he saw the same face he did during their first encounter.
"You can't be serious" April said as he sat up and began to button up her shirt. "I let you do this to me again, Alex" and now the man knew she was angry.
"It's not like last time" Alex said as he rushed over to the woman and tried to grab her hand, only to have her snatch it away.
"It sure seems like it to me" she told him.
Alex was going to mess this up again, but this time it was going to leave absolutely no hope of going forward from here. He had to be honest with her. Alex really sucked at honest.
"You deserve better then some random hook-up in an on-call room" he said and April stopped and turned to look at him.
"What?"
She looked angry, but willing to listen.
"I want this to mean something" Alex started "you're important to me and believe me there are very few people I can say that about" he walked up to her and this time when he grabbed her hand she didn't back off.
"This is special and I want it to be someplace where we don't have to finish before somebody has the exact same idea" pulling her hand to his lips he gave it a soft kiss.
April gave him a small smile and it made his heart beat faster.
"Just give me the chance to do this right for you...for us"
"I'd like that" she told him and kissed him like she believed he could be worth it all.
April Kepner POV:
April felt happier than she had in a very long time. She had been willing to sleep with Alex right there, but he really seemed to have learned from the last mistake. It wasn't like she could have blocked out all of her memories about what had happened there last time, but she was able to push them aside enough to concentrate only on Alex. And what they were about to do. Because she wanted it so bad. More than she ever thought. And this time she wasn't even a virgin anymore, so it would be different.
When April ended the kiss, she looked up at Alex' face, touching one of his cheeks softly.
"That... that means a lot to me, you know? Even though I really wanted it," she admitted.
"Me too," Alex replied and hugged her tightly. "Me too. I really want you, April, and I want to sleep with you. But... but not like this. Not when it's our first time."
April leaned into the embrace, feeling safer and secure than she had in a very long time. She held onto him as long as possible, but eventually she had to let go of him, but not before she placed another soft kiss on his lips.
"So we're okay, right?" She asked. Deep down she already knew the answer but she just had to hear it. She had to hear it from Alex.
"Of course we are," Alex smiled. "More than okay. I don't wanna mess this up, and I won't, I promise you."
A relieved sigh left April's lips. "Okay," she replied with a smile on her lips. "So what happens now?"
Alex grabbed her hips and pulled her close to him again, teasingly letting his hands slide up and down her back. "Now... now we take care of our patients and try to get over with our shift, so I can take you home and make love to you. With all the time in the world. With no rush. Just you and me together."
April felt herself blushing. "Sounds like a plan."
"Yeah," Alex smirked. "I just don't know how I'm gonna survive the next couple of hours thinking about what I'm gonna do to you once we're getting home."
April let out an amused laugh. "I guess you have to find a way not thinking about this. Or at least not imagining it. I'm sure you don't want our patients to know what's going through your mind. I've never been gladder to be a woman."
"Very funny!" Alex commented and pulled her closer again when she tried to get away from him. "But I'm sure it's gonna worth the wait."
Doubtfully, April bit her lower lip. "I... I hope so..." she stammered, feeling her insecurity built up within her again. It was still new for her to just sleep with someone, and it definitely was new if there were those kinds of feelings involved. She was in love with Alex and it would definitely feel different than it had with Jackson.
"Hey..." Alex tilted her chin so she would look up at him. "What's wrong? If you don't wanna do it... if you wanna wait, that's okay with me..." he assured her.
April shook her head. "No... No, that's not the problem."
"Then what is?" Alex asked curiously.
"I..." April felt her cheeks burning. "I am... I am afraid that... that..." She rolled her eyes, annoyed about herself. About the fact that she couldn't just say it.
"I'm afraid that you don't like to sleep with me. That I disappoint you. You had a lot of women and you have so much experience, and I... I..." she blurted out, only to be interrupted by Alex.
"You're adorable, April," he smiled and leaned down to kiss her. "I know I had a lot of women, and yes, I do know how to please them, but I mean, that can only be good for you, right? Because you can just enjoy and let me do the work. Let me make you feel so good. You won't regret it."
"But... but..." April started, but again Alex cut her off.
"No buts. It's gonna be okay. I can't wait to hear all the sweet sounds you're gonna make just because of me. Because I touch you..." Demonstratively he touched April's backside and stroked it gently. "...or because I kiss you," he went on and his lips found a very sensitive spot between April's neck and her shoulder blade that made her squirm and cling to him. Also, Alex could feel her breath quicken and a soft moan left her lips as she pressed herself into Alex.
April could already feel a wetness building up between her legs and she had to use all her willpower not to jump Alex right there, right then. It was almost too much already and what Alex did to her just now was incredible.
"I... I can't wait to have more of it," she whispered to his ear.
"Me neither," he said with a smile, once he really let go of her. "And I'm sure it's gonna be fine. I'm gonna love to be with you."
April returned the smile. "And I am gonna love to be with you too." She turned around and unlocked the room. "And now we should probably get back to work, before I change my mind and savage you."
Alex hugged her from behind and placed a soft kiss on her cheek. "You have no idea how adorable you are right now, but you're right. We better get going." he said, opening the door of the on-call room and slowly shoving April outside before he left the room himself.
Together, they made their way to the paediatric station and grabbed one of their charts. April was in a really good mood and she couldn't wait to get home to really do it with Alex. And tomorrow she probably would talk to Jackson about what she had witnessed. Not to accuse him of not telling her anything, but to show him her support. If he really loved Dr. Sloan, she was the last person who would stand in their way, and she just wanted him to know that.
Alex Karev POV:
Alex wanted to make things perfect for April.
So when Hunt asked to borrow her for the last 2 hours of their shift he agreed. He left work early and went back to the apartment to set everything up. Alex was never particularly good at romance, but he did have a few fail proof tricks.
Candles. Music. Atmosphere.
Those three things guaranteed a good night. Running into his apartment the first thing he did was shower and shave before dressing in one of his best silk shirts and dress slacks.
He still had an hour before April's shift ended and Alex could feel his stomach rumbling. It would be good to eat, it would help fuel him for the very long night he had planned.
Opening the fridge he saw a lot of things that could make a meal, but nothing that he could eat right now. Alex was just about to close the door when he saw the Tupperware and pulling it out he opened it up.
"Score" he said aloud as he took in the smell of the chicken casserole Jackson must have made. "Bless you and your freakish culinary skills" he said and opened it up to cut a piece off.
Putting his piece on a plate he stuck it in the microwave to heat up. As he stood in front of the appliance he heard the home phone ring.
Jogging into the living room he picked it up.
"Hello"
"Is there a Jackson Avery there?" the voice asked.
"Not right now" Alex said "who's asking?"
"The name is Lewis" he said "this wouldn't be Tyler, would it?"
"No pal, the name's Alex" he said to Lewis and now that he could smell the deliciousness coming from the kitchen he really wanted a piece of that casserole and this conversation was keeping him from it.
"You live with Jackson?" Lewis asked curiously.
"Yeah" Alex was getting clearly annoyed "do you want to leave a message or something?"
"No" Lewis told him "just let him know I called"
"Okay" Alex said and once Lewis hung up Alex quickly followed.
10 minutes later and Alex was enjoying one of the best casseroles he had ever eaten. Hearing the front door open he looked at the clock and began to panic before he heard Jackson's voice.
Continuing his meal he looked up when Jackson walked in the kitchen and began to yell.
"Alex, what the hell?"
"What?" Alex asked, mouth still filled with food.
"That was supposed to be for Torres" Jackson told him and ran over to see a huge chunk of his casserole missing.
"Why are you making Torres food?"
"It's-" Jackson started "not important" he sounded agitated, but resigned.
"Sorry" Alex said sheepishly "if it's any consolation it is really amazing"
"Thanks" Jackson said.
"It's still a lot in the bowl" Alex pointed a finger to the blue Tupperware.
"I'll just start over again tomorrow" Jackson said.
"So, I can have the rest of this?" Alex asked and Jackson rolled his eyes.
"Yes, Alex, you can have the rest of it"
"Thanks man" Alex was going to have dinner by candle light. April would have to be impressed.
"Why are you dressed up?" Jackson asked.
The question threw Alex for a loop "No reason, don't you have to be at the hospital in 30 minutes?"
"Shit" Jackson said and he was about to run up the stairs for a quick shower when Alex remembered the phone call.
"Oh, by the way someone named Lewis called for you" the remark stopped Jackson dead in his tracks.
"When?" Jackson asked him urgently and Alex knew the news wasn't good for the man.
"About 20 minutes ago" Alex said "something wrong?"
"N-No of course not" Jackson said with a smile. One that Alex didn't believe for a minute.
Jackson took his shower and ran back down the stairs and right before Jackson bolted out the door Alex yelled out to him.
"You'll tell me eventually, right?" Alex asked. His tone was serious and direct. Jackson looked like he wanted to brush it off, but realizing it would be a worthless task he just nodded.
"Yeah, I will" Jackson told him and then made his way out the door.
An hour later and April would be home any moment. He stood in front of the candle lit dinner. Two plates of casserole and some of the wine that April kept in the back of the cabinet that she thought neither he nor Jackson knew about.
When she walked into the apartment and he called her into the dining room he felt his palms start to sweat. Once she walked in and saw the room only lit by candles with Alex standing in the centre the smile she gave him made his stomach flutter.
"I wanted to do this right" he told her.
April Kepner POV:
April was literally speechless. She would have never thought that Alex was capable of being such a romantic. Of creating an atmosphere like that. She was still standing in the middle of the room, looking at him, when he moved towards her, taking her hands.
"Say something. Please," she heard him whisper and looked up at him.
She was so touched that she had to fight back some tears of emotion, but she managed to do that and instead lean forward and place a soft kiss on Alex' lips.
"It's... beautiful... I don't know what to say," she replied with all honesty, and now she was more than glad she took a shower in the hospital with great foresight. She knew 'it' would happen today, they had talked about it, but she hadn't thought it would be like that. With a Candlelight-Dinner and everything.
Alex gently touched her cheek and brushed some of her hair from her face, so he could look her in the eye.
"You like it?" he asked quietly.
April nodded. "I love it," she reassured him, before looping her arms around his neck and pulling him close. "It's... awesome. I can't believe that you did all this for me."
"Well..." Alex said, scratching the back of his head. "The food... is not really... I mean... I didn't make it," he admitted.
Smiling, April grabbed one of Alex hands and led him to the table. "I don't care... it's the thought that counts." She could smell that it was casserole and she already knew how delicious Jackson's casserole was. Most likely Alex had gotten Jackson to cook the dinner for him, and that was really sweet as well.
"Let's get rid of your coat first, and then we're gonna have dinner, and afterwards... we'll see..." Alex said with a smile while helping April out of her coat and hanging in up in the hallway, before returning to the table and gentlemen-like pulling the chair out to let April sit down.
April almost couldn't believe that this was the same Alex Karev who almost savaged her back then in the on-call room when she was still a virgin. He had changed so much since then and she just knew how important this whole dinner thing was for him. How important she was for him.
His eyes were on her almost the whole meal and little touches here and there showed her how much he wanted this night to be perfect for her. And she wanted the same.
When they finished eating, April wanted to get up to get rid of the dirty dishes, but Alex was quicker.
"Stay," he said while lifting the plates up and going into the kitchen to put them into the dishwasher.
Fortunately, it didn't take him long and when he got back, April got up from her sitting position and moved close to him. His hands landed on her hips while hers found a place around his neck and then she pulled his face close to hers. "Thank you, Alex. This was one of the most romantic evenings... no... the most romantic evening I've ever experienced."
"And it's not over yet," Alex replied with a smile, before lifting her up bridal style and carrying her to his bedroom, and if April had thought this was it already, she was proved wrong right then.
There were rose petals on the floor and some of them even on the bed and there were candles and there was music and April was speechless again. But only for a few seconds. "Alex... you... you did this all for me..."
"Yeah..." Alex said, and he was obviously a little bit embarrassed. "Told you I wanted this to be perfect. I don't want to mess this up again, April. You... you're important to me and I want you to feel good. To trust me."
"I trust you." April said when Alex softly put her down on the bed and leaned over her. "And now I want you to kiss me..." she whispered. "And touch me..." She grabbed one of his hands and placed them on one of her breasts, already feeling pretty nervous. "And make love to me," she said into Alex' ear before she bit his earlobe gently and causing Alex to let out a soft moan.
"April... are... are you sure?" he asked.
April touched his face so he was looking at her and nodded, smiling. "I've never been so sure about anything. Sleep with me." She could feel her heart beat and it felt like it wanted to jump right out of her chest. She was so fucking nervous and maybe a little afraid as well, but she wanted this so much. She wanted him so much. It was almost unbearable.
"You're beautiful," she heard Alex say and felt herself blushing, but she didn't have time to reply anything, because within seconds Alex was starting to kiss her. Kiss her like there was no tomorrow. If April was standing, he would have swept her off her feet with this kiss, because it was just everything. Gentle and sweet in the beginning, but more and more passionate with every second, and when Alex' tongue was licking between April's lips; she didn't even think twice and opened her mouth to let it in. She spread her legs and pulled Alex closer, so he was lying on top of her and she could already feel herself getting more and more excited.
One of her hands found the hem of Alex' shirt and she pulled it out of his pants before starting to unbutton it. "By the way..." she said breathlessly once they tore apart for a second. "You look hot in these clothes."
Alex let out a chuckle, looking at her amused. "And you noticed that just now?"
"No!" April replied immediately. "I just forgot to mention it."
Once the shirt was open, she pushed it off Alex' shoulders and watched him getting rid of it completely, before sinking down on her again, making her shiver. One of his hands slid underneath her shirt and when he started touching her stomach and sliding upwards, April's breath hitched.
"Alex..." she whispered oh so sweetly, squirming underneath him. When Alex tugged at her shirt, she lifted her arms so he could take it off her and sank down on the mattress again afterwards, feeling Alex' lips starting to kiss his way down her neck and shoulders and between her breasts, before shoving the silk away a little bit and licking over one of her nipples.
April reared up, letting out a soft moan. "Oh God... more... Alex..." One of her hands entangled in Alex' hair while the other was clinging to the bed sheet, while Alex started licking and sucking at the sensitive nipple, causing April to press against him. "You're... driving me crazy..." she moaned, feeling the wetness between her legs. She wanted more. So much more, and she couldn't wait to have it all.
One of her hands slid down between Alex' legs and she started rubbing his erection through the fabric of his jeans and shorts, and god, even that felt good. "You're so hard for me," she whispered into Alex' ear, causing him to take in a sharp breath.
"I know I said I wanted to go slow, but you're making it very hard for me," Alex admitted, and April couldn't help the smile that was appearing on her lips. "I'm not fragile... you don't have to treat me like I'm made of glass," she replied, starting to massage his manhood. "And I think we can take the next step now."
Making out was beautiful, and she felt like she was the most important person in the world with Alex touching her, but it just wasn't enough anymore. She wanted to feel him. Like now.
Alex Karev POV:
April was so much more forward then he had imagined. It only served to make Alex want her that much more.
"I'm not fragile... you don't have to treat me like I'm made of glass and I think we can take the next step now"
"Are you sure?" Alex asked. He knew she wasn't a virgin anymore, but he still felt like he should be careful with her. She might not consider herself glass, but Alex still felt she was too important to break.
Reaching inside of her pants Alex gave a gentle rub to the woman's clit. He was surprised to see she was already wet and if Alex wasn't hard before he definitely was now.
"You're so beautiful" he said as he heard her moan at his contact.
"Alex" she whispered "please, more" and the sound of her breathless and wanton made his skin feel like it was on fire. Pushing a finger inside of her he felt the tightness surround it and he imagined how good his cock was going to feel buried in there.
With his other hand he pulled down the girl's pants and started to kiss his way down her stomach. Reaching April's most private area he inserted another finger and watched April's body writhe in pleasure. Alex may not have been good at many things, but he was good at this.
Moving the digits back and forth he found the small bump that caused April to grab hold of his forearm.
"Alex I-" April tried to say.
"Shhh...Let me make you feel good" he said and removing his fingers he moved down between the girl's legs and placed a soft kiss on her clit.
Inserting just the tip of his tongue inside of her he held her hips firm as she bucked up. The deeper he went the more April seemed to respond and it made Alex feel proud that he could bring her to the brink.
She tasted just how he imagined. Sweet and enticing and as Alex continued to consume her he felt like it hadn't been this good in such a long time.
"Stop Alex" he heard April say and looking up he saw the lust in her eyes.
"Something wrong?" he asked concerned and she shook her head no.
"I don't wanna… not like that" April said and she sounded a little embarrassed "I want to feel you, all of you" and Alex got the message loud and clear.
With a smile he stood up and unbuttoned his pants and followed that by pulling down his boxers and stepping out of them.
He suddenly felt awkward standing in front of April completely naked. He didn't have a bad body, but the only other man she had to compare him too was Jackson and the man was built like a lean stone statue.
Sitting up on the bed April made her way over to Alex and grabbed his hips "Make love to me Alex" she said and wrapped an arm around his neck to bring him in for a kiss.
The fear was gone as quickly as it arrived and laying the woman down Alex moved until he is on top of her.
Reaching into his nightstand he pulled out a condom and before he opened it he looked at April one last time.
"Are you sure?" he asked.
"More then anything" she told him.
April Kepner POV:
April almost couldn't believe that this was really happening. She had wanted Alex for so long, even though her feelings had kind of vanished for a while, or at least she had locked them somewhere in the back of her mind, but now they were back full force and she wanted nothing more than to finally feel him. To really have him inside of her and be with him, even though she didn't really know where this would end since they hadn't talked about this. But she didn't care right now. All she cared about was to be with him. She didn't want to think about later, she wanted to enjoy the here and now.
Slowly she spread her legs again and looked up at Alex, who still looked kind of insecure.
"Listen, Alex, if you don't want to..." she started, but he cut her off with a kiss.
"It's not that..." he replied quickly, stroking her cheek. "I just don't want you to regret it afterwards."
April shook her head. "I won't. I promise I won't..." she whispered and propped up a little bit. Slowly, she moved a hand downwards Alex body and took a hold of his erection. "I want you... Now." She said into Alex ear, before she guided his erection to her entrance and looked Alex in the eyes again. "Please." She knew she was pleading right now, but she needed Alex to be inside of her.
And finally he pushed in with one long thrust that made April buck up and cling to him.
"Oh my god," she moaned, closing her eyes and holding onto him, until he was completely inside of her. The feeling was incredible and almost too much to bear and it meant so much to her. So much more than the thing with Jackson could have ever meant to her.
She pulled Alex down and opened her eyes again to look at him, before kissing him gently. With all the love she felt inside of her.
"Are you okay?" she heard Alex ask once they tore apart.
April nodded with a smile. "More than okay..." she assured him before moving her hips as a sign for Alex to get going, and he understood immediately and slid out of her just a little bit, before pushing back in with a little more force than before.
He started out a slow and steady rhythm, but when April squirmed underneath him, he also got this hint and started moving faster. It was just so unbelievable good and within minutes, Alex had her panting and moaning. She clang to his shoulders and always tried to meet his thrusts halfway by bucking up and it felt awesome.
"Alex... Alex..." Again and again his name rolled off her lips and she felt the orgasm building up within her, felt it coming already, even though she didn't want to. She wanted it to last as long as possible.
She opened her eyes, only then realizing that she had even closed them, and looked at Alex, literally watched him making love to her.
His whole body was glistening from the sweat and he never had looked sexier in her eyes.
When Alex hit that one spot inside of her, the spot that made her going crazy within seconds, her nails buried inside of Alex' shoulder blades, scratching lightly, and she was sure, she would leave marks, but right now she couldn't help it. She let out a stuttering breath, almost screaming when Alex hit that spot again.
Her whole body was shaking already and she knew she wouldn't last very much longer.
"I... I can't... oh god..." she stammered, trying to hold on, trying to make it last that much longer. Her lips found Alex' and they kissed ever so passionately, kissed like there was no tomorrow.
"Come for me, April..." she heard Alex whisper into her ear and it was almost too much already.
"You're so unbelievable beautiful right now... I wanna see you come undone..." Alex went on and his hands went underneath her body, so he brought them together even closer by pulling her against him, while his tongue was leaving a wet trail by licking down her neck and between her breasts and up again.
April slung her legs around Alex' hips and her arms around his neck, feeling Alex thrust into her one more time and that was it.
"Alex..." she cried out and came with a loud moan, her whole body shivering underneath the orgasm that rolled over her like a big wave of pleasure.
She felt Alex thrust into her one or two more times and then following her with her name on his lips, before collapsing on top of her. And April welcomed him in a tight embrace, just holding onto him, not wanting to let go just yet.
She was panting and sweating and she felt kind of dirty. But in a very good way, because she had just made love. With the man she was in love with.
"You know..." she started after she finally gained some of her breath again.
When Alex lifted his head to look at her, she went on. "...this was all I ever dreamed about for my first time... I... I always imagined it like that... with a man I am in love with... with candles and music... and... perfect... and even though it wasn't literally my first time, it felt like it. Because it was the first time it meant something."
Before Alex had the chance to reply something, she had already captured her lips in a kiss that was ever so gentle and loving and she hoped he would feel how much that meant to her. How much it had meant to her that he was the one to give her those moments. That he was the one to make love to her for the first time.
With Jackson it was just sex. Yes, he was her best friend and he did everything to please her. To make her feel good, but it was different. It was sleeping together... with Alex it was making love. And she didn't want this to end. She wanted to be with him. Really be with him.