When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep ~ Fix you, Coldplay
I guess I'm going to update.
It had been a week since I had broken up with Blaine and a little over a week since the rape. I was wreck. I felt awful. My stomach hurt, migraines got worse as did the bullying, And I was so fucking tired. So tired of everything. People are starting to notice that something is wrong. As in people, I mean my glee friends. And then there is my teachers. And then dad. I have to be more careful of hiding things now.
"Kurt?" I heard Blaine's voice. I was so distracted I didn't even know class ended. I felt him shake me a little.
"Kurt." He repeated. His eyes were full of worry still.
"What?" I asked. Blaine stepped back to give me space. Then he spoke up again.
"It's time for Glee... You're coming right?" Blaine asked. I stood up and put my satchel over my shoulder.
"I don't think so, I don't feel to well." I replied. Usually that was the typical lie I used now a days. But this time it really wasn't a lie.
"I could drive you home..." Blaine offered. Immediately, I shook my head no.
"No you don't have too." I told him.
"But I insist." Blaine said. I let out a long sigh.
"Kurt, I know we broke up. But we can still be friends. Whatever happened, I wanna help you get better." Blaine took a step towards me.
"What are you talking about? Nothing happened." I lied. Blaine frowned. He knew when I lied, He knew something was wrong. Blaine changed the subject.
"Come to glee, today. Please Kurt? Everybody is worried about you and they want you to come back to glee. If you go today I won't make you go again." Blaine said. I sighed again.
"Fine. As long as the don't ask me the same old questions then I guess I'll go today." I gave in. Blaine smiled. I loved his smiles, They were so sweet. His smiles made me want to smile. But I couldn't smile, I just felt, too broken.
Glee
We had gotten to the choir room. I don't really talk to the new directions anymore that much so I wander what there reactions would be since I hadn't shown that much.
"Kurt!" Brittany exclaimed excited and got out of her seat, she ran up and hugged me. I flinched a little. Mercedes and Rachel had looked over seen. I slightly smiled at Brittany.
"Hey..." I said.
"You're staying for rehearsal today?" Brittany asked.
"I guess I am." I told her. I could Blaine smile.
"Let's go take a seat." Blaine said to us. Mr. Schue came in with a smile.
"Hey Kurt, I was beginning to think you quit on us." He stated. I shrugged and took a seat by Brittany, Santana and Blaine. He smiled.
"Well It's great to see you back." He said.
"I'm only coming once." I said. Everybody looked at me.
"Why?" Rachel asked.
"Because I don't wanna come here anymore. I'm done singing." I told them.
"Are you crazy Kurt? You love singing." Finn said.
"And now I don't." I simply said.
"Kurt, Are you sure?" Blaine asked.
"I'm absolutely positive." I told him, crossing my arms and leaning back in my chair. Mr. Schue looked a little worried but didn't say anything.
"So, Does anybody have anything else to say or do so I can move to the lesson?" Mr. Schue asked. Blaine rose his hand.
"I have something to sing." Blaine said. Mr. Schue nodded.
"Floor is all yours." Mr. Schue said. Blaine went up, and nodded at the piano player. The piano began to play a familiar tune.
"This is for Kurt."
Blaine's voice began to sing.
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
I looked into his eyes as he sang. It was beautiful. Maybe I did need his help. Maybe I should tell him what happened. But I can't it hurts. I never want to speak of that event ever again. I hope it stays that way.
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...
I really wanted to cry right there. I felt someone hold my hand and give it a gentle squeeze, I looked over and it was Brittany. I gave her a half-smile, and held her hand right back.
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
The song had ended. I didn't know what to say. I felt eyes stare at me. My mouth opened to say something but nothing had come out. Blaine sat back down at his seat.
"That was good Blaine." Mr. Schue said.
"Very good."
Glee!
That night I laid in bed. Thinking about what Blaine had song to me. I could not sleep. If I closed my eyes all I could see was him (Mason). I sat up in my bed and grabbed my phone. No text messages. I scrolled through my contacts and found Blaine's number. I called him.
"Hello?" A voice said quietly.
"Blaine?"
Ending the chapter there. On a cliffhanger. Do you think Kurt is gonna tell Blaine what happened? What do you think will happen in the next chapter? Oh speaking of the next chapter, I'm having it in Blaine's point of view.
But anyways, Sorry to leave ya on a cliffhanger but that's what I decided to leave it at, Any suggestions for the next chapter PM me. Bye ttyl! Love you all. REVIEW and you will get a cookie.
~ Scout.