An Thanks again for the support everyone and your kind words for continuing this story. It really means a lot. As I said in previous AN as long as I have some people interested then I'll keep on writing, I don't care if that's 10 people or 100, so I thank you

CHRISTIANS POV

I was kind of glad to be back from the honeymoon, but the selfish part of me wishes we were still over there where Ana was solely mine and I didn't have to share her with anyone else. I must admit we had a pretty good honeymoon until I got that phone call in our hotel room that day. I still can't believe that their relationship was going on for that long, not that I can blame them of course, I myself haven't been much better. Going and whipping other woman. It's just the need within me the fire burning inside I have to get it out. I know I can't hit Ana the last time I did that she ran from me, so I take it out on Ana lookalikes. Of course I feel guilty but can't help but feel so much better after these sessions. The demon gets released once more.

As we arrived we are greeted by the members of my family. I know Ana is putting on a front, she is so angry with me and I'm angry with her, but we can't show that in front of our family. If only they knew the secrets hidden, they would be devastated. Oh well no time to dwell on that, best be telling everyone our news, there's no way Elliot's going to jump up and shout that these babies are his. Ana is mine!

"Ana and I have some news".

Everyone is looking at us in anticipation. "Well come on spill Christian".

"It seems that Ana here is pregnant, we are going to be parents and you know the best thing, not only are we having 1 baby but there is 3. Can you believe it?"

I see Elliot put his head down as mum, dad and Mia start whooping and cheering.

Mum, dad and Mia and rush over and are giving me offers of congratulations asking how I feel and asking for the details. I look over and I see Ana quickly rushing over to Elliot and them having a hug (get her hands off her you asshole she is mine). I see them quickly have a conversation, then I hear a "what the fuck?" coming from Elliot.

Hmm seems that Ana has filled Elliot in, of course she has they are fuck buddies for crying out loud. I hear them whispering a bit louder, not that I can hear too much, but clearly Elliot is pissed and Ana is trying to restrain him.

Next thing I know Elliot comes storming over to me and starts laying on the punches. What the Fuck?

I take a few hits before I realise what's happening, I quickly start hitting him back. I can hear mum, dad and Mia yelling at us to stop and asking what the hell is going on. We both just keep pushing the hell out of each other. Gosh this feels good to get this out, this asshole might be my brother but he's slept with what is mine and that deserves him to be beaten to a pulp.

I can hear mum screaming for Taylor to breaks us up. The next thing I know I'm receiving a huge blow just as I give one back and we both fall hard to the floor and that's the last thing I remember before I black out.

The next thing I feel is that I'm in a bed, I open my eyes to all white walls and roof. Where on earth am I? I then hear a voice, Sawyers voice.

"Oh sir glad to have you awake".

"Where the hell am I?" I grunt, man my head hurts.

"In the hospital sir, you and Elliot really did a number on each other. You have been out for a couple of hours. Forgive me for speaking out of turn, but what the hell happened? Your mum, dad and Mia have been going frantic for answers. I know T and I haven't said anything, but someone is going to have to give them something".

"It's none of their fucking business, it's between Elliot, Ana and I. Speaking of Ana where is she?"

Sawyer looks at the ground then at me before saying "That's why I've been sitting here waiting for you to wake up sir, It seems that she is missing".

I feel myself break out in a cold sweat and quickly breathe out "what do you mean by that?" Why is my chest hurting so much? I feel like I can hardly breathe.

I hear Sawyer say "she's gone sir, without a trace. Taylor has managed to track her car just outside the city all that was in it was a note with:

"Please do not find me, just leave me alone, you need to get help and I do to. We are toxic to each other. I need time and space to figure out what I want and again DO NOT FIND ME. I promise you that I am safe and will look after these babies. Ana".

The next thing I know, my breath is coming out in short pants, my whole head is swimming. I can hear Sawyer yelling at me, though it's all a mixture of words. I need peace, I need quiet, I need Ana and with that thought I once again black out into an unconscious state.

ANA POV

The trip with my daddy has been a pleasant one. Daddy has taken me to Australia to a little town in western NSW. It's quiet here only around 15,000 people, a lot different to where I've come from.

I have told daddy everything. I needed someone to confide in and someone who will be able to help me sort through my life and figure out what I want. My daddy was disappointed in me and well who wouldn't be? I'm disappointed in me too, which is why I had to get away. I hope Christian honours my note in not finding me. We do need time to sort ourselves out. There is no way I could have survived this pregnancy if I stayed there. We would have slowly destroyed each other and I would have lost the babies. I need to figure out if I can even live with Christian again? Who is the father of these babies? If I can even ever go back? Who would I choose to be with? Christian who I love with all my heart, who has pretty much destroyed me as I have destroyed him, or settle with Elliot who yes would give me the stable life, who I love and he loves me. But it's not the 'all consuming' love I have for Christian. I do know that the first thing I need to do is to write letters to everyone, Christian, Elliot and the Greys letting them know that I am ok. That I need time and space and that I promise I will be back. Of course I don't know when that will actually be. For the time being I'm happy here. I still have a lot to work through and a lot of demons I need to face. I need to heal myself and get myself healthy and happy for these babies. They are my life.

AN thanks again everyone for taking time to read it, if you haven't gathered, Australia is where I'm from. Have no idea about the places in USA so thought I'd try for a place that I do know a bit about.

Next up will be Ana's letters and how Christian and Ana are sorting through and dealing with life without each other.