PART TWO
"I don't know, Siwon. It's just—"
"Shh… It's okay. I'm sorry to make you cry. I just can't stop myself." Siwon shushed Kyuhyun in his embrace. Kyuhyun hugged Siwon back. He buried himself in Siwon's muscular chest. He missed this man, too. But he just couldn't let it go. The pain was too strong. The pain didn't allow him to let go. He hated the fact that he couldn't accept it.
"It's painful… I can't… I just can't accept this. It hurts too much to be left. I… I try to erase the pain but it won't go. I don't know what to do, Siwon. I'm sorry…" Kyuhyun gripped the edge of Siwon's shirt.
Siwon understood. He always did. He felt the same pang when the latter was gone. He felt stupid and cruel towards the other man. He didn't blame Kyuhyun. He never did. Because it always him that made both of them hurt. But he couldn't help but silently cried his heart out when he knew that the pain was too much for Kyuhyun. He knew he shouldn't be selfish. He wanted the man in front of him to be his. Again. Hearing that Kyuhyun couldn't accept him was the most painful words. If only he could return the time. But who was he to draw the fate?
Siwon cupped Kyuhyun's face and looked into those beautiful orbs, "Give me one more chance, Kyu. I promise I will make it up to you. Just give me one more chance, please… I don't want you to go. I am willing to die to get you back in my arm. I just want you…"
Kyuhyun shook his head vigorously, "Don't promise me this time. You promised me that you will never left me years ago and you break the promise. It's hard for me to believe it again…"
Siwon closed his eyes, tears fell on his cheek. Kyuhyun was right. He broke their promise. What should he do then? To make Kyuhyun believed him.
"I'm so sorry. I don't know if I make you like this. I know I shouldn't be selfish. But please… I beg you; give me one more chance, Kyu. If I mess up with this one, no, no, I will not mess up with this one. I swear. Please give me one more chance…"
Kyuhyun blinked his eyes few times to adjust his blurry vision. He gulped hard. He didn't know what to do. Deep in his heart, he wanted this man back, but his mind didn't let it go easy.
Kyuhyun's hand found its way to Siwon's cheek. He wiped the tears and cupped Siwon's face. "Fine… One more chance, and please don't mess up with this one. Because if you left me again, I don't know if I can survive this time."
Siwon opened his eyes in shock. He didn't believe his ear. Kyuhyun looked into his eyes with that warm smile. Siwon burst into tears. Too happy at the moment. He hugged Kyuhyun tight. He would never let go. He would never.
"I love you, Kyu. I love you so much."
"Please don't mess me up again."
"Never."
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It became a routine since a month ago, where Siwon would pick Kyuhyun up from the café and drove him home safely and Kyuhyun would deliver Siwon's breakfast and lunch because Siwon would spend the dinner at Kyuhyun's café.
And that day was no exception; Kyuhyun delivered Siwon's lunch at the office. Kyuhyun passed the workers and Siwon's secretary. Seems like everyone already knew about Siwon and him because whenever he came, the staffs would smile at him and Siwon's secretary would let him went to Siwon's room directly.
Without knocking the door, Kyuhyun entered the room. He was surprise because he could hear Siwon's shouting on the phone.
"Listen, I don't want to hear about this anymore. You clean your mess, you get that? That's your job to check it, if you can't do that, better you get out."
After that, Siwon threw his phone to his desk. It seems like he didn't know Kyuhyun's presence. He sat on his chair and rubbed his face harshly. He eased his tie down. Kyuhyun knew Siwon was that type of person. He would never have second doubt to knock his staff down when they messed up with work.
"You need some break, Siwon."
"Jesus Christ!" Siwon opened his eyes and met Kyuhyun's gaze. "You scared the hell me out, Kyu!" His voice was calmer than before. Kyuhyun came closer and handed Siwon the boxes.
"Thanks… You will eat with me right?"
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes, "Looks like I have another choice. I'm full but I will wait for you until you finish your meal."
Siwon chuckled a little. Kyuhyun never failed to make his mood better.
"Siwon…"
Siwon looked up, "Yes, Kyu?"
"I am not kidding about relaxation. You look like shit now."
Siwon sighed, "I will think about it okay. I need to arrange my schedule first."
No, he couldn't let that happen. Kyuhyun couldn't let his man frustrated. He had to make sure that Siwon would take a break. He went to Siwon's back while Siwon was enjoying his breakfast. Kyuhyun wrapped his arms on Siwon's shoulders then rested his chin on one of his arms.
"What are you doing, Kyu?"
Kyuhyun pouted, "I just think how to make you take the break."
Siwon laughed a little, "I will take the break after I finished my job, okay..."
Kyuhyun leaned in, "Hmm… You remember when we used to spend holiday in my hometown?"
"You always get excited when we go there." Siwon chewed his food again.
"I think it will be fun if we both can take a break together and go there. Just you and me."
Siwon stopped right away, it sounded tempting. "You think so? How about your shift?"
"I can handle it, I need some break, too. I think tomorrow is perfect."
"Fine then, we will go there tomorrow."
Kyuhyun smirked, "I thought you were thinking about work first."
"No when it comes to you."
Kyuhyun blushed when he heard Siwon's answer. He used to Siwon answering like that, but he didn't know that it was more beautiful to hear it straight next to his face. Kyuhyun kissed Siwon's face lightly.
"That was your first kiss to me."
Kyuhyun blushed even more but rolled his eyes, "You know it wasn't."
Siwon smiled, "I decide to count our first time in everything from the day you give me one more chance."
Kyuhyun smiled back, hid his face in Siwon's neck. "You always smell good."
Siwon laughed a little, brushed his fingers in Kyuhyun's hair. "It was the same perfume label you gave me for my birthday years ago."
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He drove Kyuhyun home that day. Nothing changed too much in their life. They both wanted to make it slow. The gap was bigger than they realized it before. Sometimes there would be awkward moments between the two men. But they knew it was part of the process.
They were lover, five years ago. When Siwon met Kyuhyun for the first time when the latter entered his university, Siwon knew he couldn't get Kyuhyun off his mind. He would approach Kyuhyun when their class over and asked Kyuhyun to accompany him whenever Kyuhyun didn't have class. The latter seems don't mind it. Being friend was always being the best way to get someone's attention. Despite Siwon wasn't a pro when it came to love stuff, he knew how to do. How to get the latter's attention. Siwon was Kyuhyun's best listener. Sometimes Siwon would ask about Kyuhyun's personal life. From the action he knew everything about Kyuhyun's background. Kyuhyun was the type of person that would talk naturally and act casual in front of everyone. And it seems that Siwon didn't mind it. The other way, Siwon was the type of person that would act politely and formal. His family had big influence to his life. He always got what he wanted. That was why he respected his family so much. He knew that his parents want the best of him.
And Kyuhyun was another thing. The man would play hard to get when it came to love. It took a long time to get Kyuhyun's attention. Kyuhyun was independent, which was why he never depends to other. Kyuhyun didn't like it to cross someone's path. He never thought about love before. He thought that love for him was gone coincide with his parents death. That was he thought before Siwon came into his life. The man would pamper Kyuhyun with his care and attention. Until Kyuhyun's nineteenth birthday, Siwon told him about his feeling and Kyuhyun without second doubt accepted the man. That was all it took to change both of them. They became a great lovey-dovey for the next two years. But fate had his own line. After Siwon graduated, his father sent him to Canada and Kyuhyun knew nothing. Kyuhyun was being left and dumped. He felt stupid about it. He felt betrayed. The pain was unbearable so he gave up. He moved house, he changed his number, and he became someone new. Someone that Siwon would never know. And somehow it worked. It worked until the other man came back. Until the other man met him in the café. Maybe it was fate, but Kyuhyun wouldn't make it easy. His darker side wouldn't let it. But Kyuhyun couldn't deny that the love was still there. He knew he wasn't the one that being broken. If it wasn't love, then Siwon wouldn't ask him to give him one more chance. If it wasn't love, then Kyuhyun wouldn't give him one more chance. Both of them were the broken men.
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"Sure you won't come in?" Kyuhyun said in front of his house.
Siwon smiled and fixed Kyuhyun's hair, "Nope, I have to prepare my stuffs, too."
"Okay, then… See you tomorrow?"
"Yeah, I will pick you up at nine okay… Good night, sweetheart."
Kyuhyun blushed at the nickname, "You, too. Good night."
Siwon smiled sincerely; slowly he pulled Kyuhyun closer to him. "May I kiss you?"
Kyuhyun hit Siwon lightly, "Don't ask me such a question."
"You shy?" Siwon laughed a bit.
"Blame you for abandoned me… After you left, I really can't move on."
Despite it was hurt a bit, Siwon smiled. He knew Kyuhyun mean it in a good way. Siwon looked into Kyuhyun's eyes deeply. He knew Kyuhyun was the only one. He could see his future in the beautiful orbs. Siwon leaned closer when Kyuhyun closed his eyes. Siwon closed their gap with his lips. He cupped Kyuhyun's chin and the other hand wrapped around Kyuhyun's slim waist. Their heart beat faster. In a very beautiful rhythm.
Siwon knew he couldn't control himself. He brushed his tongue over Kyuhyun's soft lips and Kyuhyun willingly parted his lips. Kyuhyun brought his hands around Siwon's neck and pulled him closer. Siwon's tongue swept Kyuhyun's hot cavern making Kyuhyun shivers. He teased Kyuhyun's tongue and danced together when Kyuhyun's willingly accept his teasing. Kyuhyun gripped Siwon's hair when he lost his balance. He missed this. He missed the touch and the closeness. But mostly, the love. He could feel love from the kiss.
Kyuhyun pushed Siwon lightly, warning him to stop because he needed air. Kyuhyun bowed his head when Siwon kissing his temple.
"It was our first french kiss." Kyuhyun commented. Siwon couldn't help but chuckled.
"Yeah, and it was amazing. Now better you enter the house before I do something illegal to you."
Kyuhyun hit Siwon's chest for the second time that night. "Good night, Siwon."
"Good night, babe. Have a nice dream."
Kyuhyun closed the door behind him. He touched his lips; he could feel the sensation still there. He smiled sincerely and bit his lip. He missed the man more than he realized before.
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Siwon rent a house for both of them. Just like the other times when they came here before. It was always the same house. He didn't like crowd. He didn't like when people looked Kyuhyun on his way. He wanted Kyuhyun all for himself.
The othe hand, Kyuhyun observed the house. His heart beats faster when he thought about the room. Would he sleep with Siwon in one room just like the other time? No, it was better. He meant would he sleep with Siwon in one bed just like the other time? He blushed at the thought but didn't dare to ask.
"We will sleep in a different room, no need to worry." Siwon said like he could read Kyuhyun's mind.
Kyuhyun jumped a little, "Huh? Oh y-yeah. Sure."
Siwon laughed a little, "Yours is on the left side and mine on the right. I believe you still remember the house."
"Of course. Uhm… I will put my stuff first."
"Sure. I will call for food as usual."
"No! Don't call… I will cook for us; I know where the market is. I will buy the groceries and cook for us. It will save a lot of money. You know, I don't like it to have debt to other people and I know this house is expensive as hell. Since you never let me pay the house, I will pay for food."
Siwon smiled, "I don't mind it, anyway. Better you save your money for your rent house, you know? And please stop act like I am no one, okay."
"But, Siwon I—"
"No protest! I think we are here to relax. This is the deal, we spend our break here, and I pay for everything and you… just cook for me, okay?"
Kyuhyun pouted, "Aish! You never change that habit, forcing me for this kind of thing. Sometimes I feel like I'm burden to you, you know."
Siwon comes closer, hugging Kyuhyun lightly and whispered, "I don't mean it like that. Sorry?"
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes and hugged back, "Stop being sorry. You are sorry enough. And thank you."
Siwon kissed Kyuhyun's hair, "No need to thank me. Now put your stuff and we will buy the groceries, okay?"
Kyuhyun nodded and headed to his room. But he stopped when Siwon called him again.
"Yeah?"
"I think you are right about being burden, Kyu."
Kyuhyun furrowed his eyebrows, "What?"
Siwon smiled innocently, "You were a burden when we were on bed."
And Kyuhyun couldn't help but blush, and choosing to ignore the laughed man. Somehow he felt loss for not being in the same room with the other man. He slapped his face when he realized what he was thinking.
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They spent the night by eating and chatting. Remembering the moment when they were there. Siwon praised Kyuhyun's cooking skill and Kyuhyun couldn't help but laughed at how childish Siwon praised him. They told how they were doing for the past five years without each other. Felt like they didn't mind to show how they truly felt when the other gone. Siwon would throw a joke and Kyuhyun played it all along. Something that missing for the past five years began to return. It was familiar for them.
They thought that they would never be like that anymore, but they were wrong. They both enjoyed the moment. When they spent their time by talking random stuff and the other would listen and joined. Siwon would smile sincerely and threw comments when it needed while Kyuhyun enthusiastically telling his life stories. How the café workers would treat him kindly, how he finished his study and begun to work as a painter, and many other thing. It felt perfect, it felt right for Kyuhyun.
He wasn't the type of talker after Siwon left him but amazingly he found himself being comfortable with the other man. It reminded him at how he felt towards Siwon five years before. How Siwon would treat him gently and lovingly. He didn't like it when people being too nice to him, but Siwon were another thing. He enjoyed being pampered and loved. He felt somehow that he could trust the man again. Someone that he could depends on. After all the thinking, Kyuhyun felt stupid for doubting Siwon. He knew that their problem wasn't Siwon's fault. Moreover, he felt guilty. He was the one that missing. He tried to avoiding Siwon by his entire act. Maybe if he didn't moving and changing his number, Siwon could find him and came. He had the blues in him.
"Maybe it was my fault after all."
"Huh? What are you talking about?" Siwon sipped his tea.
Kyuhyun smiled wryly, "You know… If only I didn't move and change my number, we can still keep in touch for the past years."
Siwon got the point, he held Kyuhyun's hand and caressed it gently, "No, it wasn't. Maybe I will do the same if I was in your position."
Kyuhyun looked into Siwon's eyes, "No, you won't. You are not such an egoistic person like me. I was stupid."
Siwon smiled genuinely, "Trust me, I'm a psycho when it comes to you. And stop calling yourself stupid."
Kyuhyun melted in Siwon's words, "Honestly…"
Siwon waited for Kyuhyun to continue his sentence. Kyuhyun wiped his tears on the edge of his left eye, "I think I've fallen in love with you for the second time, Siwon."
Siwon choked hearing Kyuhyun's words, he couldn't believe his ear. After a brief silent moment, Siwon chose to keep silent and smiled sincerely to Kyuhyun. He held Kyuhyun's hand a little bit tighter, staring into Kyuhyun's eyes.
"Why are you staring at me and not saying anything?"
"I just feel too happy to say anything right now. And you are so beautiful that I can't stop staring at you."
Kyuhyun couldn't hide his reddening cheeks, he tried to release his hand from Siwon's held but Siwon didn't let go, "No. Just for a moment, Kyu. I like it this way."
And Kyuhyun obeyed. "And do you love me, Siwon?" Kyuhyun dared to speak.
Siwon kissed Kyuhyun's hand, "I did love you, I do love you, and I will love you. That's my answer."
After that Kyuhyun smiled sincerely, didn't bother when his tears rolled down his cheeks. "It was always your answer." Kyuhyun said remembering Siwon's answer every time he asked the man about how he felt towards him.
Siwon chuckled heartily, "Because you are always the same person."
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"What are these, Siwon?"
Siwon smiled widely, "Painting tools? I think you know it already."
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes, "I know it. But what are these for?"
Siwon rolled his eyes, too, putting his hands on his hips, "To paint of course."
Kyuhyun sighed. What were they? Five-years-old kids? "And why are we here?"
Siwon chuckled lightly, "You said you can't paint anymore because you always end up painting dark scene, so I bring you here. I think painting a waterfall in the morning will give you a bright inspiration."
"I can't paint anymore, Siwon."
"Yes you can if you start it. Now go for it, I will wait for you."
"What if I make it bad?"
"I don't care. I will put it in my room, anyway."
Kyuhyun was about to protest when he realized Siwon's words, "You really are a pushover."
"You know I am. Tehehehe~~ Now go paint and I will wait for you. I miss this place."
Siwon walked towards the waterfall and observed the scenery. It was beautiful. Always. It was Kyuhyun's favorite place when they were in Kyuhyun's hometown.
Kyuhyun sighed and looked at the tools on his hand and the canvas in front of him. What should he paint? Something bright? He didn't know how to do it. Maybe it would be failed. He threw his gaze to the scenery in front of him. He spotted a thing. He smiled genuinely. Maybe he could do it this time. He was sure he could do it. He decided to make sketch rather than painting.
Siwon looked at Kyuhyun behind him, he smiled secretly. He knew that Kyuhyun would never object when it came to painting. He remembered when Kyuhyun said that painting would tell you how the painter's personality was. Siwon didn't want it, Kyuhyun's personality became dark. He wanted it back, the bright Kyuhyun. And Siwon knew exactly what to do.
It took about thirty minutes to finish his job. Kyuhyun smiled proudly at his work. He thought it was perfect. Siwon walked closer to Kyuhyun.
"How is it?"
Kyuhyun handed the sketch to Siwon. Siwon furrowed his eyebrows, "I don't get the point. Is that waterfall?" He referred to the sketch.
"Yes, and it's you and me who starring the waterfall."
"It's beautiful. At least you are not making a sad and painful thing anymore."
Kyuhyun chuckled, "I can't get you in a sad painting, you know… And I make it colorless. You know what this sketch means, Siwon?"
Siwon shook his head and Kyuhyun smiled, "We found love in hopeless place."
Kyuhyun looked at Siwon for a while and continue his statement, "The two men loving each other although there's only colorless life for them and they see something beautiful in their life, the never ending love that flows like the waterfall."
By that, Siwon kissed Kyuhyun sincerely. He pulled Kyuhyun closer. Kyuhyun wrapped his arms around Siwon's neck to deepen their kiss. Dancing their tongues together. Siwon trapped Kyuhyun's body on the nearest tree. He kissed Kyuhyun passionately while Kyuhyun pulled Siwon's hair lightly. Siwon pulled himself from the kiss and moved to Kyuhyun's neck. Sniffed it and begun to kiss the skin. Brushed his tongue onto the soft skin and bit it lightly. Kyuhyun looked up to give Siwon a better access of his neck. Siwon sucked at the skin making Kyuhyun groaned. Siwon brought his hand under Kyuhyun's shirt and caressed the other's hips.
They both became impatient. Siwon lifted Kyuhyun's body and wrapped Kyuhyun's legs around his waist. He caressed Kyuhyun's back making Kyuhyun whimper. They could feel the atmosphere getting heated up. Kyuhyun brought his hands to Siwon's shoulders and kneaded it. Siwon moved his hips intentionally to feel the bulge between Kyuhyun's legs that start growing hard. Siwon lifted Kyuhyun's shirt up and threw it on the ground. Kyuhyun could feel the coldness on his bare skin. He looked into Siwon's eyes when he pulled Siwon from the kiss.
"N-not here…"
Siwon buried his face in Kyuhyun's neck and sucked the skin, "Here is perfect, in front of the waterfall just like your sketch."
"I don't want our first time in this p-place… nghh.."
Siwon looked up, "I won't take you now, I'll give you a blowjob."
Then Siwon brought his lips back to Kyuhyun's upper body. Licked his tongue over the skin. He left a few hickeys on Kyuhyun's collarbones before moved their body onto the picnic carpet they bought. Siwon was on top Kyuhyun. He licked Kyuhyun's nipple and bit it lightly making Kyuhyun moan. He sucked the bud hungrily while Kyuhyun's pulled Siwon's hair sensually.
"S-siwonhh… Wh-what if people see? It-it's public."
Siwon answered Kyuhyun's question by touching Kyuhyun's member and rubbed it outside the fabric. "Let them see who is your owner, babe. You are so beautiful under me. I've missed you."
Kyuhyun pushed Siwon's forward and gripped Siwon's shirt, "Take it off, too. I want to touch you."
Siwon obeyed. He quickly pulled his shirt off and threw it. Kyuhyun blushed at the sight. It was his first time saw Siwon's upper body. Nothing changed. It was perfect. Siwon had broad shoulders and chest and muscular body. The defined abs matched perfectly with Siwon's tan skin. He looked away when Siwon caught his gaze.
Siwon smiled and brought Kyuhyun's face to see him, "It's okay to look. I'm yours. Look at only me and no one else."
Kyuhyun pulled Siwon to kiss him passionately while his hands roaming Siwon's perfect body. He missed the man. Definitely. He played with Siwon's nipple and pinched it making Siwon's shudder. He brought his hand to undo Siwon's jeans when Siwon stopped his action.
"Not there, babe. I can't stop myself if you do it."
"You don't want me?"
Siwon brought Kyuhyun's hand to feel his hardening member under the fabric. Kyuhyun bit his lips shyly. "There's no way I don't want you. This is your present for making me too happy, I'd please you."
Siwon attacked Kyuhyun's other nipple and sucked hungrily. His hands unbuttoning Kyuhyun's jeans and pulled it down in one swift move. Kyuhyun moaned loudly when Siwon's hand grabbed his member and played with the slit. He rubbed Siwon's member harder in revenge making Siwon stopped his action with his nipple.
Siwon closed his eyes and enjoying Kyuhyun's action for seconds. But then he replaced Kyuhyun's hand and made Kyuhyun's grabbed his own member together with his hand. Kyuhyun moaned when Siwon guided his hand to stroke his member firmly. Siwon kissed Kyuhyun for the last time before he brought his mouth to Kyuhyun's member. He removed Kyuhyun's hand and kissed the tip.
"D-damn! Si-won… pleaseh ngghhh…"
Siwon got the point and engulfed Kyuhyun's member with his mouth. He could taste the precum dripped from Kyuhyun's slit so he decided to brush his tongue over it.
"Anghh… su-suck it already…"
Siwon smirked and sucked Kyuhyun wildly. He bobbed his head multiple times. Kyuhyun arched his back and pulled Siwon's hair tightly. He closed his eyes tightly and bit his lip preventing his moan. Siwon pulled his mouth from Kyuhyun's member.
"Don't block your moan, scream my name and look at me when I please you, babe…"
Siwon sucked at Kyuhyun's member again. This time he brought his hands to play with Kyuhyun's nipple. Twisting Kyuhyun's nipple sensually.
"Aghh… Si-siwon nghhh…"
Siwon brought Kyuhyun chin down so their gaze could meet. Kyuhyun couldn't hide his embarrassment when he saw Siwon took his member. Siwon smirked when Kyuhyun's face reddening hard. He loved how Kyuhyun acted that way. He sucked Kyuhyun harder. He licked his tongue over the skin. Siwon teased Kyuhyun's hole by brushed it lightly with his finger made Kyuhyun thrust his hips on Siwon's mouth.
"Fuck my mouth, will you?" Siwon asked mischievously.
Kyuhyun ignored Siwon's question when Siwon deep throating him. He threw his head and felt dizzy. He could feel his member hit Siwon's throat perfectly. He pushed Siwon's head harder. He knew he was close.
"I'm c-close Siwon… Fasterrhhh… and deeper… ngghh…"
Siwon deep throated him beastly. He held Kyuhyun by his hip. He sucked Kyuhyun harder and deeper. He could feel Kyuhyun's member hardening. Kyuhyun pulled Siwon's hair when he was about to come but Siwon refused. Siwon played with Kyuhyun's balls few times before Kyuhyun's cum hit his throat making him choked a bit.
"SIWON!"
Siwon sucked Kyuhyun until his orgasm finished. He swallowed Kyuhyun's come pleasurely. He licked his lips sexily. Kyuhyun panted hard after his orgasm. He closed his eyes with his arms. He could feel Siwon on top of him and he couldn't hide his embarrassment. Siwon whispered while brushed his tongue on Kyuhyun's ear, "You always taste sweet."
Kyuhyun pushed Siwon's body aside. Pulled his pants back and laid there until he breathed normally. Siwon observed Kyuhyun's body and his thought slapped him on the face, "Fuck!" He said quietly and rubbed his face harshly.
Kyuhyun looked at Siwon and furrowed his eyebrows, "Did you say something?"
Siwon stared at Kyuhyun blankly for few seconds before he answered and smiled softly, "Nothing."
Of course Kyuhyun wasn't a dumbass, "You… regretted it?" he asked carefully. Scared of the answer.
"No! Of course not. It's just… I just… I shouldn't do this. I think I messed up this time." Siwon answered directly but he said the last sentence in a whisper.
Kyuhyun sighed. He knew what Siwon means. He placed his head on Siwon's leg and played with the fabric. "Please don't feel like that, it makes me sad, you know… It's okay."
Siwon played with Kyuhyun's hair lovingly, "Did I force you?"
Kyuhyun shook his head, he kissed Siwon's inner thigh. "Don't feel bad about it. Honestly I… uhm… kind of happy." He said quietly.
Siwon smiled sincerely. He knew Kyuhyun wasn't the type of person that openly says his feeling when it comes to sex stuff. It must be hard for Kyuhyun to say it. Siwon felt loved.
He caressed Kyuhyun's hair, "I'm sorry for the insecurity. I love you, Kyuhyun."
Kyuhyun curled his body and snuggled to Siwon's leg. Hugged it tightly, "I ngwuff yuu fuu."
Siwon laughed hard, "What did you say, babe? I can't hear you." He teased Kyuhyun.
Kyuhyun pouted and looked at Siwon, "I know you heard it and I won't repeat." He crossed his arms above his chest.
Siwon fixed Kyuhyun's hair and smiled sincerely. It was his first time hearing Kyuhyun answering his feeling. He was too happy. He could feel his tears in his eyes so he looked up to the sky so his tears wouldn't roll down. But Kyuhyun really wasn't a dumbass. He saw it and felt his heart melted. Only by hearing those words and Siwon be like this? Somehow Kyuhyun felt special. Was he really important for Siwon?
He woke up and placed his head on Siwon's shoulder, "I love you, too, Siwon."
"Huh?" Siwon looked at Kyuhyun and his tears finally rolled down.
"You want hear it again? Fine. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love—"
He was stopped when Siwon kissed him. He wiped Siwon's tear by his hand.
"-you…" Kyuhyun finished his sentence.
Siwon smiled and kissed Kyuhyun's hair, "I'm willing to die to hear it."
Kyuhyun chuckled, "Then I won't say it again because you will die."
"I'm okay to die because of you."
"But I don't. You promised me not to leave again, remember?"
Siwon chuckled, "Die together?"
Kyuhyun hugged Siwon tightly, "It's better."
And Siwon couldn't help but cry. He was too happy. Too happy till he could die of it. He would never let this man go again. Never. Because Siwon had fallen in love too deep and nothing could break his bond with Kyuhyun. Not even death.
THE END