The doctor walked away and Zoe sat down in the chair behind her with her hand over her mouth and tears falling down her face, Tess hugged her and she dried away the tears.

2 days later it was nicks funeral and fletch, Charlie, max, Tess and zoe were all dressed in black, nick had his funeral all arranged which was a surprise to zoe as all she could think was that there group of 6 which were having a great holiday 3 days ago had now turned to 5 depressed people going to a funeral, to zoe the worst thing was knowing that nick had planned his funeral and knew he was going to die but of course everybody knew that he didn't have much time left but it only kicked in for zoe when she placed a red rose on nicks coffin as she watched it go deep down into the ground and that's when she knew that she had lost one of the few people she loved not in a romantic way but in a friendly way. Nick was someone she could reply on and confide in and he was the one who was taking her pregnancy secret to the grave. All those things that nick and zoe had said to each other throughout the years that they had known each other were going through her head as max held her hand walking up the grave yard and into the car "I love you always have and always will", "nick Jordan never get it wrong", "I love you" the last one in particular went through zoe's head "I love you" how could nick love a selfish person like me, zoe thought to herself perhaps love is blind. One thing zoe was sure of was that for as long as she lived she would never forget the last thing nick had said to her and perhaps she would never get over it, zoe was glad that she had confided in Tess as Tess now knew what zoe was feeling like and Tess would not judge her and most of all not tell anyone. The finial emotion zoe felt was guilt as the man she once loved nick Jordan the person who would never let anyone in or show his emotions had told zoe that he loves her and zoe had literally threw it back in his face by telling him that she is pregnant with another man's child and perhaps that is the thing that zoe will find it hardest to get over as she plans her family with max and remembers that she was doing this with nick just 3 short years ago.

"Zoe" said max knocking Zoe out of a trance

"Oh em yea sorry" said Zoe who realised she was staring at her hotel celling

Zoe watch as max packed away the stuff and bent down to kiss her, Zoe was still in a trace so didn't react

"Zoe" said max

"Sorry" said Zoe kissing max "I was in a world of my own

"I could tell that" said max "are you ok"

Zoe half smiled but that didn't convince max

"zoe I know it's hard as you and nick were very close" said max "this might not help but your can have it anyway"

Max handed zoe a photo album with a picture of her and nick outside the ED the day they got engaged on the front, zoe opened it and it was filled with photos of nick in the ED then zoe got towards the end whack was filled with pictures of the 6 of them on holiday together and one that made zoe laugh, nick and Charlie drunk, zoe give max a more convincing smiled and put the photo album safely in her hand bag as all her bags were packed for the airport.

"Max I have something to tell you" said Zoe smiling

Max took Zoe's hand

"I'm…" said Zoe

Zoe was interrupted by a knock on her and max's door, Zoe noticed that it was fletch, Tess and Charlie when max answered it.

"You were saying" said max

"Oh em nothing that can't wait" said Zoe

Tess knew what she had interrupted and mouthed sorry to Zoe who just smiled at Tess. All of them walked out and got to the airport and on a plane where they made their way back to holby unaware that none of the 5 of them had texted anyone from the ED after telling them about nick going in for an operation.