Okay so after getting a few reviews on the last chapter so quickly I decided to get the next one out today. Yay! So I guess that just proves the reviews really do lead to more chapters right? Aye aye ;) So let me know what you think about this chapter, I know this ones a bit boring but I really just want to build it up as I'm usually horribly bad at rushing into things. So without further ado... enjoy and let me know what you think!
-Amy xo
When Edward leaves Bella for her own good, she is left vulnerable. Victoria finds her and does the one thing Edward has tried to avoid from the beginning, changing Bella into a vampire. When Bella awakes from her change she discovers she has more power than she had ever imagined.
"It is important to have a goal, even an unreasonable one can be a good motivation."
Chapter 2- Goodbye
I rise from the ground, shocking myself with how quickly I move. I stand still, cautious to make any movement too quick. I bring my hands into my line of sight and stare in awe. My skin is flawless and I'm shimmering in the sunlight. It's beautiful. I take a slow step forward, trying to focus on my speed, my humanity. I have to act human, I remind myself. How else will I see Charlie, I think momentarily. I begin to get angry at the thought of this affecting my relationship with everyone in my life. What will Charlie do when he sees me? He's going to notice something different about me, and who knows if I can contain my thirst.
I realize the burning in my throat with the thought and remember how much Jasper spoke of a newborn's craze to feed. I try to swallow the pain away but it won't relent. I take in a deep breath, closing my eyes, allowing my sense of smell and hearing to expand. A breeze of wind blows a sweet sent through my nose. It smells so satisfying. It's like I haven't eaten in years and someone is cooking a BBQ only a mile away, the sweet scent wafting my way. I open my eyes and run toward to source of the smell. Jumping up into a tree I spot a young and hopeless deer trotting along. I briefly marvel at the beauty of it, before I can no longer resist the urge to pounce. I jump from the tree and break the poor thing's neck. I sink my razor blade like teeth into it's juicy flesh and moan as the warm blood streams into my mouth, cooling the burn in my throat. I drink until there is nothing left. I lay the deer down on the ground, sad to see what my actions have done. I couldn't help myself I was just so hungry. I realize my thirst isn't quite completely satisfied and I hunt down two more deer. Again I'm sad to feed on them, however I'd prefer it be they rather than Charlie.
I wipe the blood from my mouth and give myself a once over, checking if I can get away with seeing Charlie this way. The copious amounts of blood on my clothes tell me otherwise.
I make my way toward the house. Charlie is there, with his entire team obviously compiling a search team for me. I remember then that Edward said the change usually takes about three days. Charlie wouldn't have been home the first night I was gone, as he'd made plans with Sue, however that still leaves me to be missing for two days. He must be worried sick. I decide to wait them out and sneak into my room later to get some clean clothes. After I do that I can wait until morning to come home. I decide to tell him I went for a walk in the woods and got lost, as I didn't think he'd believe me if I say I went camping, my klutziness and all.
"You had me worried sick Bella! I thought you were dead." Charlie stressed when I announced my homecoming the next morning.
"I'm sorry! I got lost and I didn't know where I was. I'm fine though, not a scratch on me." I smile weakly, hoping that he'll just drop it and accept that he has a klutz for a daughter.
"-and when the Cullens' were gone. God Bella, I thought they did something. I mean, they just up and left and you were missing…" he trails off. I wince at the memory of Edward leaving me. I had forgotten. I now realize how bad it would have looked for my going missing the same time the Cullens' mysteriously leave town with no notice.
"Charlie, they didn't do anything. I'm home and I'm fine. Can we please just leave it be. It's embarrassing."
He sighs with both frustration and relief. He gives me an awkward hug and asks if I want anything to eat, as I must be starving. I decline and tell him I'm just going go sleep in my comfortable bed.
I lay in my bed and it takes me almost half an hour to realize that I can't sleep. Never again will I be able to sleep. I began thinking about how I would leave. I don't want to leave Forks. I don't want to leave Charlie. But I know that it's what's best. It was too late now to fake my death, but I couldn't stay. I felt surprisingly okay around Charlie for now, but I didn't want to risk pushing my bloodthirsty newborn limits. I cringe at the image that immediately pops into my head, of every human I've ever loved in a bloody pile, dead corpses, no longer able to enjoy their lives. I'm a monster. I shake the thought from my mind and continue to think of ways to leave. I could tell him I was moving to Jacksonville, but how would he react when mum calls and says I never arrived. There were too many things to decide on, and all I really wanted was for Edward to come back and help me. Although I knew that was out of the realm of possibilities, I wanted to find him. Without my being human I wondered if that changed things. But he didn't leave because of that, I remind myself, he said he didn't love me, he didn't want me, human or vampire. All I know is that I need to be around other vampires. I can't just stay in forks pretending everything is okay.
I decide to make my way to Alaska. The Cullens often spoke about a clan of vampires who lived there. I wonder if they can help me contain myself, and I figure it's just about the only lead to go on as I'm pretty sure joining the Volturi isn't the smartest choice. So with the choice made, I pack my bags and write a note for Charlie.
Dear Charlie,
I know you couldn't ever possibly understand why I am doing this, but I need to leave. Forks just isn't the place for me right now. I promise to keep in touch, to let you know that I am okay. Please don't worry about me; I can look after myself better than you think.
Goodbye xx
That night I leave the note on the kitchen table beside his morning newspaper. I can hear the sound of his heavy breathing whilst he sleeps and I feel a pang in my chest, knowing I'll probably never get to see him or my mother again. I take a deep breath and tell myself to just move one foot in front of the other. Just keep walking, I tell myself. It's for the best.
I take my time walking through the woods in Forks, basking in the last moments I had here. The moon is full and bright, lighting up the entire sky that is scattered with a million stars. Crickets chirp in their hiding places and the whole place feels magical. I start running, letting my vampire speed take over. I laugh and close my eyes, feeling the cold wind fly past me quicker than ever. I start running faster and faster, enjoying the thrill that the speed brings until suddenly I am tackled to the ground by something unknown. I hit the ground hard and I groan at the impact. I roll for a few hundred meters until I slow down to a stop. I quickly jump up, ready for another attack. However I'm not prepared for what stood in front of me. A wolf almost three times my size stands before me, snarling angrily. I'm confused, but I understand that this is no friend. It's already attacked me once, so I suspect it won't be long for the next. I take a step back and the moon shines on my face. Strangely enough, the wolf's expression changes from angry to confused and then to sad. It stops snarling and takes a step backward just like I had done. Quickly it runs off into the trees and out of sight.
"What the?" I whisper to myself. I shake my head and wait a few moments before decided it's not coming back. Tentatively I start on my journey once more.
"Wait!" I hear behind me. I stop in my tracks... I know that voice. I turn to see Jacob Black running toward me, wearing only a pair of shorts.
"Jacob? What are you doing out here? It's dangerous." I call.
"Would you like to explain to me why you're a vampire Bella?" I'm taken aback. I don't know how to respond. He sounds angry but more importantly, how does Jacob know about vampires? I question myself. I wonder if he knows about the wolves too. Because I sure as hell didn't.
He's closer now, only a meter or two away and I notice he's different from the last time I've seen him. He looks stronger, like he's been to the gym every day and he's cut his hair. I think he looks beautiful, but then I think he may have always been that way and I just never saw how beautiful he was when I was comparing him to vampires.
He's looking at me expectantly and I remember his question. I'm confused again. All I can muster up is a single, "What?"
"I said. Why are you a vampire?" I start to question how he knew about vampires but he cuts me off and continues. "Don't you remember the story I once told you Bella? About the cold ones and my tribe…" He seems mad, like it's an insult that I don't remember this.
"Of course I remember, 'bout how the cold ones came to town and killed your tribe members."
"Do you remember the part where I told you that it was said that my tribe were descendent from wolves?" It takes me a moment to process. I do remember, but if the cold ones were true, and he's implying the wolves are real… my thoughts trail off, refusing to believe. He looks at me, happy to see understanding wash over me, and takes another step forward.
"Was that you? Just then?" I ask quietly, scared for the answer.
"Yes."
"Why did you attack me?"
"Because it's what we are born to do. Quileute's are born to kill vampires Bella." He sighs as though I've made things very difficult for him. And I guess I have. If I'm a vampire then he's meant to kill me right?
"Please don't kill me. I'm leaving, I swear." I start to walk away but he grabs my arm and stops me. I look up at him, scared. I don't want to die, not now that i've been able to experience just how amazing this life is. If you minus out the killing part at least.
"You're what? What about Charlie?" I feel relieved. He's worried about Charlie, he's not going to kill you I tell myself.
"I left a note…"
"You left a note? Dammit Bella, do you know what this will do to him?" He yells, frustrated.
"It's not like I said… Hey Charlie so I'm a vampire, gotta bounce. I just said I needed some time, I needed to leave. He will be fine, you'll make sure of it wont you." He looks as though he's about to protest but then a wave of understanding washes over him and he knows I have no other choice. If I stay I either accidentally kill Charlie, or the wolves will kill me.
"So where are you going then?" He says, defeated.
"I'm thinking Alaska, I heard of a coven there that I think may be able to help me with all… this." He nods, but I don't think he's really processing. I step forward and give him a hug, wrinkling my nose and the awful dog smell that surrounds him.
"You stink." I laugh.
"You're not so great yourself." He's face is all screwed up and I smile at his silliness. We stand there for a few moments, no one speaking. The sound of the crickets is louder now, filling the awkward silence. I clear my throat and smile once more.
"I have to go. I'll miss you, keep in touch okay?" He only nods. I take another moment to look at him, to remember him, the way his face, which was once so young, has changed so much in such little time. I realize I mean it when I say I'll miss him. We've only spent a small amount of time together since my being in Forks, but I know he's someone I can always count on.
My thoughts are interrupted as he transforms back into wolf form, his skin and clothes tearing apart. I briefly wince at the idea of shredding my skin to turn into a wolf, but really it's quite a magnificent thing. He runs off into the direction he came and once he's gone I start walking again. I decide to run fast this time, thinking the quicker I'm away from Forks and from wolves that want nothing better than to rip my throat out, the better.
Okay so there you have it! Let me know what you think, any criticism is greatly appreciated as well. I will also be uploaded one-shots etc. to keep the creative flow and all that, so I would really like it if you could jump on over and have a look at those too! Thank you for taking the time to read and review, and I hope you enjoyed it :)
-Amy xo