Author's Note: Thanks for reading and reviewing! Sorry that it has taken so long to update. I have been busy. Now, I am not a doctor so don't take my word for the medical things. I mean there isn't a lot anyway so. Thanks and Enjoy! Please, review.

I heard a constant, steady beeping. It was pulling me out of the darkness, getting louder, fading in. As my hearing adjusted, I heard her voice. She was here. She was ok. Or was this all a dream? Was I dead? She was talking to someone, I heard a man's voice. I tried to focus on her voice, but it was all too much. My body ached. Everything hurt.

I felt a warm weight on my hand. I tried to move, my body not responding or listening to my head. I had to let her know that I was here, that I was ok. I attempted to open my eyes. It felt as if my eyes were glued shot, heavy bricks laying upon them.

The pain in my abdomen was unbearable. I had to get someone's attention. I mustered up all the strength that I had and tried to move my hand. The most I got out of it was a twitch of my finger. She did not notice. I tried something else. I pushed my eyes open a bit, being met with bright lights that stung. I opened them farther, the pressure around my eyes growing.

"Jasper?" Her voice sounded like a dream.

I looked over to her. She looked tired like she hadn't slept in days. Her normal red hair had no shine, her eyes not twinkling. She must have lost weight because she looked frail. I was staring.

"Here. Do you want water?" She said bringing the cup with straw to my lips. I opened my mouth slowly and took the cold water in. She put the cup down and grabbed my hand again. "You keep staring. Do I need to get a doctor?"

"No…I just never thought I would see you again." I croaked.

A tear escaped her eye, "You can't ever do that to me again. Ever."

"I had to do what I did. I wanted to make it safe for us." My voice getting stronger with every word.

She ran her hand through my hair, bringing it down my jaw line.

"How did you guys find me in time?"

"After you hung up, I got in my car and drove up here with Kate, Esposito, Ryan, and Dad. We had Gates track your last known location and we ended up in front of the compound. Esposito and Ryan went inside, but by then the fire started…I thought I lost you. Gates called and said that GPS on your father's phone was in the vicinity. We tracked you guys down and Kate stopped by the alley. I saw you slumped against the wall. Dad called the ambulance." She swallowed hard. "There was so much blood. So much. I tried to stop it, but I couldn't. You were cold, your pulse weak. Your eyes were swollen. You were unrecognizable to me."

"You don't have to continue." I said seeing that the subject was hard for her.

"I'm going to go get a Doctor." She said standing and walking out of the nurse station.

Alexis came back shortly, a doctor trailing behind her. He explained to me what they had to do. I had no idea what he was talking about so I tuned him out. I kept my eyes on her. She was listening intently to the Doctor. I had so many questions, but I didn't want to push her. I'm sure that it is painful to think about for her.

After completing his lecture, he left the room to tell the nurse that I needed more morphine.

"Is he in custody?"

"Out on bail."

"Bail?" I said as the nurse walked in with a syringe.

"Yea. He is on house arrest though. Kate is building a case around him. The media is having a field day. They're waiting outside the hospital as we speak, they are going to go nuts when they hear that you are awake." Alexis explained as the nurse inserted the syringe into the IV.

"Great." I said quickly feeling the effects take over. 'Why don't you go home and rest? I'll be fine here."

"I'm not leaving you."

"I'll be fine. I'll be asleep."

"Jasper…"

"Go. Come back when you are rested."

"Ok." She said standing and kissing my forehead. "I love you."

"I love you too."

After a month of being stuck in a hospital, I was happy to be discharged. It was boring sitting in a bed all day watching T.V. or reading. I wanted to get outside, exercise, anything. I just wanted to get out of the painfully sanitary building. I was standing in the bathroom of my hospital room, changing into my clothes that Alexis had picked out for me. I threw on my jeans and was getting ready to put on my shirt when I found myself staring at the scars. The scars from the knife. My breathing started rapidly increasing, my heart beating out of my chest. I could see blood pouring from the wound. Rolling down my abdomen and seeping into my jeans. I stepped back away from the mirror and hit the wall.

"Jasper, are you alright?" She asked knocking on the door.

I didn't answer. I slumped down the wall and landed on the ground. I brought my knees up to my chest and held them there.

She opened the door slowly and saw me on the ground. She got down on her knees and grabbed for my hands.

"Jasper, look at me." She said softly. I kept my eyes on the wall behind her. "Jasper, look at me." She commanded, her tone completely different. I looked up to meet her gaze and she cupped my cheek. "You're alright. Calm down." She wrapped her arms around my upper body.

"I felt it, Alexis. I felt everything. I felt the knife." I cried.

"I know." She said and whispered sweet nothings into my ear. I soon calmed down and let go of my knees, relaxing in her embrace.

"Let's go home." I said breaking the silence.

The press were all over us, shouting questions, pushing, shoving to get a picture. We managed to get back to our apartment in one piece. Alexis seemed giddy as we walked down the hall and towards the front door. She opened the door and inside, my closest friends; no, family were standing there waiting to welcome me home.