I huffed, trying to keep my annoyance in. Elsword stood next to me in casual clothes, looking extremely uncomfortable. I jabbed a finger in his face, chuckling absently when he reeled back, surprised. "It's our last date, buttface! You'd better act like you're kinda happy, at least! Don't crush your poor ex-fiancée –" I choked a little on my words at this point, something Elsword noticed, "'s heart," Gulping, I finished my sentence with a random flourish of my arms.
He sighed, one emotion flashing in his eyes. It annoyed me, it broke my heart. That emotion, there in his eyes, it wasn't something I wanted to see.
Pity.
No, Elsword, I'm not desperate for your love. I know it's long gone, and I've accepted that. I'll continue on as a bystander… But if I could have one more moment with you. And Eve has generously provided me with that time. "Right," I said, tucking a lock of hair behind my ear. "So, we're wasting time here in the parking lot. This was the amusement park, right? Man, if I knew it was going to be such a hot day, I'd never have chosen to go here," I berated myself. He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, but didn't say anything.
Jerk.
He could've at least made this day feel more special, couldn't he? We entered the amusement park silently, and I knew the girl selling tickets knew something was off. She blinked, looking back and forth between Elsword and me, and then offered me a sympathetic glance. I didn't give her another glance back. I didn't want her empathy.
"Look." I spun around to face him, putting my hands on my hips. I couldn't take much more of this pity crap. "This is pointless if you aren't going to cooperate. Eve, no, your girlfriend gave me one last chance. Now, don't think I'm going to try to make you love me again, because I realized now that it's pointless."
"Pointless?" He echoed questioningly.
"Pointless," I affirmed, and said nothing more of it. He didn't say anything else, either.
No matter. The whole day turned out to be pointless in the end. He wouldn't talk to me or even look at me the entire time, and the only word I'd gotten out of him the whole day was 'pointless'.
Just like our now nonexistent relationship. I wonder, maybe it was me. Maybe I was being too clingy with him. But then I realized that I was being selfish, and it wasn't just me. It was both of us. We had both considerably changed from the first time we met up until now, and as it turned out, the two of us weren't meant to be.
I don't know if that means that he and Eve are, but it's certainly not us. As we walk out, he stops when we arrive next to his car and looks at me directly. "I'm sorry our relationship had to end like this, Aisha. I never meant for it to be like this."
I forced a smile, although I knew that he knew me too well to be fooled. "You know what? Elsword," I sat down on the curb next to the car. "You taught me a lot of things when we were together." He stiffened behind me, but I ignored him. "You taught me what happiness was, what it meant to live. But I figured out something. During all that time, I never really understood the concept of love." A tear slipped down my eye, and I blinked rapidly in a vain attempt to rid of them. "Now… Now, when it doesn't even matter anymore, I realized it. What love was. I don't know if you felt the same, or maybe you never really even felt remotely the same, but I feel like I spent too much time investing in my happiness towards you to even realize that I wasn't feeling love."
"Aisha – "
"Shhh. I don't want to hear it. All I'm trying to say is that you've taught me a lot of things. More than my parents have, more than my teachers have. And I'm really, truly grateful. I understand it's time to move on now. I'll admit that I admire you for your ability to move on so quickly, without any regrets. That's all I want to say today." Standing up, I batted at my cheeks to rid of the tearstains and turned to the car. "Let's go."
He drove in silence, and I watched the road in silence. I could literally see the heat waves in the middle of the street. When we arrived, I felt my eyes getting hot with tears and quickly left the car, determined to never see him again when he grabbed my wrist. "Who said I didn't have any regrets?"
What…? "Ehehe… Stop joking and let me go."
"I'm not joking." He let go, and this time I turned around to face him, aware that he was dead serious. "It's the same with me, Aisha. Being with you… it's improved me. I'm really thankful for that. You're the better person in this relationship. You faced it all on your own, and I was too cowardly to even talk to you about my feelings for Eve. This 'love' feeling… you've taught me that, too." He shook his head sadly, crimson locks fluttering. "But I can't deny the fact that my feelings have changed. But I also admit that you were once part of my life, and the changes you've made to it was permanent. I'm happy that you're willing to watch me date another woman, even when you still have these feelings for me.
I know what a jerk I've been, and you've been kind to me still throughout it all. Thank you, Aisha. I'll never forget you."
His revelation left me shocked beyond words as he got back into his car and left my driveway.
Once, Elsword Sieghart was my life. Once, he was my happiness.
Now, he's my love.
And far out of my reach.
I apologize. This too much longer than I had first anticipated. Thank you everyone for the kind reviews. But there is one thing I'd like to mention:
Classes are completely up to you, the readers, unless explicitly stated.
I don't like to trouble myself with such, as Aisha could be any one of her three classes really, but I feel as if Elsword is leaning towards Infinity Sword, no? Huhu.