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MYABY Chapter 17

~Kahoko's POV~

That shut him up. Stupid gay. I wasn't planning on really hurting him but I couldn't help it anymore. It's not like he's going to use that thing of his to get children. Right?

But then again, who will take over his family's company in the future? I started dreading. This is bad.

Len has been curled up on the ground since a while ago, not moving at all. Did I kick him that hard? I kneeled down then tapped his shoulder. "Len?"

He didn't answer.

Oh my God… I tried shaking him but he didn't respond. "H-hey… I'm sorry. It's just that…" I frowned at the first thing that came to my head. "I was emotional," I admitted. It's not like I hate him to core. Maybe the exam's pressure is getting into me… I'm such a horrible person. To think I'm blaming someone who has nothing to do with my life.

Well, he was deciding things on his own. I didn't tell him I was quitting. I was just considering it. I won't get anywhere anyway if I continued. Then again, he was offering to help me improve my music… that actually sounds good. It's pretty hard to look for someone to help me with my music. Shinobu's always overseas. The teachers prefer looking after talented students… My work doesn't involve music at all.

I covered my face with my hands. Well, Kahoko, there goes your chance to be taught. To think he's actually a world class violinist. Why?! Kahoko, why?! Why did you have to kick him out of frustration?!

He looked up at me. Somehow I found him adorable with tears sitting at the corners of his eyes. Okay. Hold it. He is NOT ADORABLE.

"When is your exam?" he asked me before I start apologizing again.

"Why do you want to know?" I asked.

He gave me a look as if the answer is obvious. Well, smarty pants, I'm confused at the moment. I wouldn't ask if I knew the answer.

"I'll be in the country for a month so if I'm going to help you I'll have to know your schedule."

"My exam is next week," I answered.

"You're going to fail," he said with a look that says I'm hopeless.

I sighed and resisted twitching my hands and going out to slap his beautiful face.

I noticed him lean away from me. He could probably feel I wanted to slap him. Good. He can read me. He should know I'm not the same as before… when it comes to him at least. Somehow I've got negative feelings towards him from the way he treated me before.

"Are you free after the party?" he asked.

"Yes."

"Do you mind skipping the party?"

I raised my brow at him. "Why?"

He mumbled something and I only caught, "Again with the 'why?'" he sighed. "So I can teach you soon. At least help polish the song."

"Okay…?"

"You sound unsure. Do you want me to help or not? I'm not the one with the problem graduating here."

I glared at him. Where did that come from? It's none his business whether I'll graduate from music or not.

He stood up unsteadily. "I'll take that as a yes," he said then went to get my violin.

"You're manipulative."

"Got used to it."

"You're annoying."

He turned to face me. "I don't care." He grabbed my arm then started pulling me again.

~-oOo~

I'm not sure how long I've been standing here with my violin on my shoulder, playing the pieces I'm supposed to play for the practical exam. I have three songs prepared for my practical. One of them is fairly easy so after playing that for one hour Retsu/Len… I'm not sure which to call him, let me off it and made me play a new piece. While I play he just stood there, holding a copy of the music sheets I've been trying to play and writing something on it with a pencil. He made me play part by part of the song and whenever I made a mistake, he says, "Again." He would sometimes give out comments and advices, which I appreciate.

When I heard my cellphone ring, I paused and felt my muscles start to ache. It's been a while since I last practiced this long. I also lack exercise. I looked at Len and he nodded to give me permission to my phone.

Since when did I need permission to check my phone from him?

I laid my violin on Len's bed… yes, I'm in his bedroom. I'm actually in the hotel he is staying at. I thought I would feel awkward but no. I went for my handbag which carried my cellphone.

"Hello?" I answered after getting my phone, not bothering to check the caller ID.

"Kahoko, where are you?" I hear the unfamiliar voice ask.

"Who is this?"

"Damon."

"How did you get my number?"

"Your resume. You disappeared."

I completely forgot about him and the party. "I'm sorry…"

"You're just at Len's place," Damon cut me and somehow I imagined him smirking. I felt my face heat up.

"How did you-"

"I'm taking Shouko Fuyuumi home. Please tell Len not to worry about her. Also tell him to take you home."

Oh God… Damon dodged my question. I sighed, looking at Len only to find him watching me. I dragged my eyes somewhere. Somehow I find it embarrassing to look at him.

"Okay," I answered. "I'm really so-"

"Happy valentine's day, Kahoko. Make sure to at least give him something if you have no chocolates," Damon said then hanged up.

I stared at my cellphone. That's weird. Today is Valentine's Day? I checked the date in my cellphone.

Kahoko! You forgot to make chocolates for Shinobu! What to do? No wonder last night after seeing him at the airport he said that we'll just hang out somewhere today since it's a special day. But I already made plans with Damon before I saw him. What should I do? Buy a chocolate cake?

"You and Shinobu Ousaki are dating?" Len asked out of the blue making me blush. I know I'm blushing. I just need to convince myself I'm not.

My heart is like a drum… boom boom boom. Kahoko! "Wh-why would you think that?" Do you know I have a crush on him? Wait, how will you know?

"You said you forgot to make chocolates for him," Len answered, looking annoyed.

I said that out loud? "Forget it. It's none of your business."

"Since when?" he asked with a serious expression.

Oh God. Is this where the gay gossips about relationships and later we'll go Kyaa-ing? No offense. I don't generally hate gay guys. Just the thought of Len kyaa-ing and gossiping makes me want to throw up. He looks hot in his jeans and white shirt and to see him bouncing on his bed with an interest to talk about boys just doesn't look good to me.

"We're not dating," I answered, hoping he'll drop the topic.

"Then why are you giving him chocolates?" he asked. He didn't drop the topic.

Oh why won't you just go to your bed and start squealing? "Obligatory. He's been good to me and I want to give him chocolates as an appreciation."

Somehow he looked relieved and dropped the topic. Good.

OH GOD! I just remembered he has a crush on Shinobu!

He gave me a weird look. "What?"

"N-nothing!"

"That doesn't sound like nothing," he said then placed the sheets he was holding on the table beside him.

"Seriously! It's nothing!" Crap… he might be jealous! I don't want him to drop our lessons just because I have a crush on Shinobu. I'm actually enjoying the lessons despite the muscle aches!

He started taking steps towards me making me step backwards.

"Len! I need to go soon. I can't go home late," I said so I can stop him. Well, it didn't work and he doesn't look like he's listening to me.

"Why the hell did you look at me like you did a while ago?" he asked while walking.

I kept on stepping backwards while trying to think of an answer. He looks terribly angry. I can't think of a lie! I'm not good at lying! He was starting to get closer and his eyes are very scary. A chill went down my spine.

"I just remembered you have a crush on Shinobu. I won't give him chocolates if you want," I told him the truth, hoping he'd stop staring at me like that. Despite the chills I'm getting, I feel like I'm heating up. What's happening to me?!

I felt the back of my leg hit something making me fall backwards on something soft, which I assume the bed. Thank God I didn't end up lying on my violin. Not only will it break but my back will also ache.

"Good". He placed a knee between my legs then climbed up the bed, securing my wrists on either side of my head with his hands.

He's on top of me… he's too close! Wow, he's strong and handsome up close. KAHOKO! YOU'RE TRAPPED!

"Wai-"

"What made you think that?"

"Think what?" He smells good.

"I have a crush on him," he scowled.

"You do?!" Wow he admitted.

He frowned down at me. "No! That's not it!"

Oh… "No?"

"Where the hell did you get that stupid idea?!" he snapped.

I wanted the bed to just suck me in. My wrists aches with him holding it so tight. He's scary and hot.

Okay, where did that come from?

Someone just kill me now!

I froze as I felt something soft and warm against my lips.

I said someone kill me…

He sucked my bottom lip making my body heat up as if it's on fire. It's not unpleasant… I closed my eyes, trying to think straight. What should I do?

The bed shifted a bit as he pulled away making me open my eyes and look straight through his golden eyes. I haven't sorted my thoughts yet when he leaned back down again and kissed me again.

Shit. I said kill me not kiss me.

Hurt me not pleasure me…

Why does he have to smell so good?

I closed my eyes. I'm not sure how this goes but I tried to imitate him. I tried to free my wrists and he let go of them giving me the opportunity to pull him closer and wrap my arms around his shoulders. He moved his hands to my face, caressing my cheeks with his thumbs. That's so soothing. I ran my fingers through his hair. They are silky and soft…

This is wrong… but it feels right… awkward…

Wait…

I pulled his hair as hard as I could, making him wince and pull away from me.

"What the-"

"What do you think you're doing?!" I asked, almost shouting, trying to glare at him but I'm not sure if I'm successful because all I could feel is heat and I'm being aware of it.

"Isn't it obvious?!" he asked with a pained tone. I loosened my hold on his hair but I didn't let go.

"You are not kissing Shinobu like that," I announced.

"I wouldn't want to."

Okay. Kiss me.

He leaned back down only to stop because I tightened my grip on his hair.

Why do I want to kiss him?!

He groaned and removed my hands from his hair. "Woman, you're frustrating! You're going to kill me."

He trapped me again by holding my hands against the bed and pressing his body to mine.

Shouldn't I be screaming and saying, "Rape"? But I can't find myself doing so. He's gay… he's practicing his kissing with me so he could… ugh. I don't want to imagine!

HE TOOK MY FIRST KISS JUST FOR PRACTICE!

I felt his breath across my face when he sighed. Mint… Why am I suddenly nervous and excited? This is wrong! Struggle Kahoko! Why isn't my body cooperating?!

This is wrong! I don't want to be a practice buddy! I don't want this! I-

"I can assure you. I'm not interested in guys," Len said in a low voice.

What?

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