Dear Diary 3/05/2006

Today was the day Rachel was coming. I'm so excited. I haven't seen my sister in a long time. We're planning a Bonfire for her. She should be happy. Last night me and Paul went on a date. It was so romantic. And of course we ended in with a hot ass make-out session. Then he did the one thing I never expected. No he didn't propose. He gave me a necklace with a dragonfly pendant because I was his dragonfly. He promised to never leave me and to love me for as long as he lived. But I had a feeling in my stomach that something was gonna go wrong. Maybe I'm over-reacting.

Well I'm off.

J.

Jessie's POV

I got dressed and headed down to the beach. Everyone was there except for Jacob and Billy. They were at the airport retrieving the precious cargo.

"Hey baby. What's up?" I shouted jumping on Paul's back and kissing his cheek.

Paul caught me and swung me around until I was in front of him and pulled me into a kiss."Do you really want an answer to that question?" He asked, kissing me again.

"Oi you two cool it. The elders are here." Sam yelled, slapping Paul in the back of the head.

Paul looked at Sam and glared. "Don't you see I'm busy here?" Paul kissed me again and looked into my eyes fondly. "So how's my dragonfly?" He kissed my nose.

I smiled. "Doing just fine but I missed you." I looked right back into Paul's eyes. I hugged him and then he set me down.

We talked holding hands while everyone around us laughed and played. I looked up when I heard Rachel's name. I smiled at her sister and called her over. "Rachel." I jumped up and ran over to her hugging her tightly. Then I dragged her over to Paul. Paul looked up and suddenly everything changed, though I didn't know it at the time.

"It's nice to meet you Paul." Rachel stuck her hand out for Paul to shake it.

Paul grinned and shook it. "It's a pleasure." Paul looked down. Though I didn't know it, he just realized that he was about to go back on every promise that he made to me.

Paul avoided me all that week.

I'm so fucking pissed.

Everyone seems to know something I don't because they all give me this look of pity. As of now I'm running patrol with Leah. Suddenly Leah stopped and we phased back. "Jess. I can't take this anymore!" Leah exclaimed, making me stop.

I frowned. "What're you talking about Leah?"

Leah sighed and there were tears in her eyes. "Jess you're my best friend and you need to know this. I can't stand how they all lie to you." Leah looked me in the eyes.

I felt a rise of panic. "Leah tell me," I didn't look away.

"Paul imprinted." Leah whispered, looking down.

"Wh-What do you mean?" I stammered.

Leah let out another sigh. "Paul imprinted on Rachel. Everyone knows and they didn't want to tell you. They are having a party at Emily's for those two. Sam told us not to tell you because he was afraid you'd go off the deep end. I wanted to tell you believe me." She emplored with me to believe that she did.

I felt my own tears fall and nodded slowly. "I believe you Leah. I'm not mad at you. So that's why Sam wanted me to run patrol." I looked at the ground with a lost gaze, I felt so betrayed.

I took one last glance at Leah and took off running to Emily's house. Instead of knocking i kicked open the door and walked in glaring at everyone.

Everyone froze.

I saw Paul with Rachel in his lap. "So it's true?" I choked out. "You imprinted on her. And you all knew." I shouted my English accent picked up from childhood slipping out in my anger.

I watched as Jacob stepped forward. "Jess just stay calm." He said softly.

I turned on him. "Stay calm! You want me to stay calm. My boyfriend is being taken from me by my sister. How the bloody hell am I supposed to stay calm? Plus to make matters worse the people that I supposedly can trust lied to me like a bunch of baby-faced pussies!" I looked around the room at the traitors.

"Jess look stop acting like you're a victim." Rachel stepped forward and looked at me, like I had no right to be upset or hurt. "Paul and I love each other and you should be happy for us. He's found his other half and it's me. Just accept it. We didn't mean for it to happen." She said with a smug voice and look on her face.

I slapped her. "YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU MAN STEALING TART. I FUCKING HATE YOU. I HATE ALL OF YOU. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A FAMILY. FAMILY DOESN'T DO THIS TO EACH OTHER!" I went to slap Rachel again but Paul got in my way and grabbed my hand.

"Now look Jess we can talk about this." Dad tried to talk to me calmly."It's not that bad." He rolled his wheel chair and tried to grab me hand but I pulled away.

My vision clouded with tears. "You're my dad. You were supposed to tell me. Jacob you're my twin and you didn't even tell me. After everything I've done for this pack you all betray my trust. I mean Quil who always covered for you when you couldn't run patrol? Jared who always ran longer so you could spend time with Kim? I did right. So please explain to me how I found out about this from Leah after a week of being ignored. How could you all do this to me?" I said quietly.

Everyone looked down.

I looked directly at Paul. "Did I mean nothing to you? Was it all just a sick game? Was it a ploy to get down my pants and when it didn't work you moved on? Huh? I built a life around you Paul. And now it's all crumbling down." Tears were falling freely from my eyes.

I turned her gaze to Rachel. "You're my fucking sister. How could you look me in the eye and lie to me?" I questioned.

"I'm sorry Dragonfly." Paul tried to reach out and hug me.

I stepped back shaking furiously. "Dragonfly? Oh now I'm your fucking Dragonfly. You know what fuck you Paul." I pulled off the necklace he gave me and threw it in the dirt at his feet. "Fuck you Rachel. As a matter of fact, fuck all of you. I'm done." I turned to leave but I stopped in front of Emily, giving her a hateful glare. "I should have let Leah beat you're arse when she wanted to. I'm regretting my decision now. And as for your face. You got what you deserved before hand." I was halfway out when she realised what I said and so did Sam.

"Jessie as your alpha I'm commanding you to stay. You WILL NOT leave and you WILL take back everything you just said." He shouted at me.

I stopped moving and looked back at Sam with a deep hatred in my eyes. She smirked and circled him before stepping forward. "I want to see you try to stop me." I snarled.

Everyone looked shocked at seeing me stepping toe to toe with Sam.

I snorted. "See I don't have to follow you. Don't you remember who I am. I have more say so than Jake in this pack being the oldest in our family. S you can take your orders and your pack and shove them right back up your arse." I spat at his feet.

No one moved until I reached the forest line.

"Jess please. You can't turn your back on this pack. On family." Jacob pleaded.

I looked back with cold eyes. "I have no family. As of today you all are dead to me. You can all burn in the deepest pits of hell."

With that I phased and took of running into the woods. I didn't stop until I reached a clearing where I phased back and laid in the grass while the rain poured down.

I sobbed and let out the most heart-breaking scream anyone has ever heard. I just laid there sobbing yelling to the sky. "WHY ME. WHY FUCKING ME. KILL ME NOW. PLEASE!" I continued to cry until I passed out.

I was so broken I didn't feel the strong pair of cold arms picking me up.
This was the day Jessie Naja Black became alone in the world.