Chapter Two:
Old habits die hard
The first thing she came to understand is that she is awake the second thing is the memories of her encounter with the nameless one are vanishing. Memories of their conversation and the information that had been given to her. She could feel the way it's sucked out of her body the second thing is that she's falling down.
She had been human but even that knowledge is devoured by the beast. Only the memories of her life before remain intact. It doesn't want to manipulate my choices she realized numbly as she laid head first in what appeared to be warm sand.
She hadn't fallen onto the sand its more as if something had gently placed her there. A part of her knew that without the information she'd been given would her progress stand? Old habit do die hard, she stood up spitting sand.
A beach the god, herself had deposited her on a beach because it couldn't make up its Goddamn mind. Already the faces and the words crawled through her skin causing her to shake. The memories are disappearing how long until she's gone?
What place could she go to worse then the one she'd been at? The face already became distorted as if she's standing in a house of mirror. The white version of herself lunged at her just seeing herself is like an imminent pulse of static and pain.
Revulsion, disgust that's what she is the embodiment of humanities filth. A shriek of defiance built inside of her as she rounded on the beach. "Fine I don't need you! I don't need the filthy memories!" She screeched clawing at her face.
She didn't need to know that she use to be human. Most of all she didn't need the pounding of memories that clung at her. A series of harsh protests burst through her lips between large sharp breathing.
How could she be alive, how could this be happening again? Is she even happy about it? What would it do if she decided to kill herself again? Send her back? The notion it self made her feel numb what is the point of all of this?
What is the point of releasing herself from those memories? Not that she had them they remained locked in a sealed vault. Did she even want them? No she didn't the thing could keep them. Stiffly she sat their dejected for several minuets letting the last bit of memories being devoured in silence.
"I don't need them! You can keep them!" at the last bit of her memory she could see herself looking back at her almost remorsefully.
It simply shrugged it's shoulders as the last vision it self is consumed by the burning fire she started. "I hate you!" She snarled back at the image.
"Hate!" She howled even as she came to half stumbling at first theirs the leftover feeling of resentment. But of what and of who? Being the living embodiment of the emotion of Envy she'd always felt that way towards them.
A maddening sound escaped her sometime between a shriek and a shrilly cry of rage. Back to this place? But where and how? Last she'd seen that human Edward had struck a 'nerve'. Burning with frustration her fists are curled as she plumbed them until they bleed.
"Stupid," she cursed with each punch she felt a little bit better. With each hit she had to be sure that this absolutely wasn't a dream.
Wait fists? She really is back. A maddening chuckle burst out of her throat forcing herself to her feet she stood up. Rejecting what she is what the humans want her to be. It's easy the choice she had made she'd become a disgrace.
But she wouldn't let it stop her now standing at the hill of the beach she looked down staring more anger on her face. She's too recognizable this way if the humans find out where she is they'll probably hunt her down and kill her.
Or worse keep her alive, Edwards club couldn't be still working. At this point they should be at each others throat she stood their looking at her reflection. You didn't need a psychiatrists to tell her that she's mad.
She looks utterly terrifying the wind snarling at her hair like an angry child. The memories shattered her stubborn pride replacing all sense. What is she to do with herself? No one else is left now. The notion it self made her sigh.
Her grip on reality fractures all she remembered is being alone in the darkness hearing her own pitiful wails and a big bright light. Covering her face with both hands her maddening glee she suddenly stopped her shoulders went limp her hands fell to her side.
"Where the hell am I?" she snarled in frustration kicking at a rock and scaring at least ten thousand birds away from her. Alright maybe not that many but theirs a lot of fucking birds here. Fuming she stares at them and transforms at once.
She's not sure how her bodies returned to her but why should that matter? Chasing after them she tries to shut down the weakness remembering her lessons. Old habits do die hard after all it's nice to fly like a bird.
Out of all the animals she enjoyed them the most she flapped her green wings gaining altitude and shoving the main leader out of the way. The bird squawked in a panic nearly ending head first into the ocean below.
But it didn't matter she'd take it all of it. She deserved it after all Homunculus are superior to humans what had she been thinking. She didn't want to be a human! It is the humans who should bow down to their kind.
A wave of rush of emotions humans are the stupid ones they slaughter each other over a single death pathetic worms! Their the ones that should squirm beneath her feet! She let the thought rush over her the faces of her enemies.
They would pay for making her feel weak how could they have defeated her? She would make sure that it would never ever happen again. It took her an hour to reach the mainland by this time half the bird flock already separated fleeing from her and avoiding her.
They know whose boss already she thought proudly as the ocean finally decides to end. Fuck that was long enough she thought her eyes studying the thousands of people who had flocked to the ocean sides. Entire families what looked to be the entire race of ants.
Idiot humans they'd be wasting the time playing when they should be preparing for the end game. Already a boiling feeling of hatred like angry fire the only emotion she had now. The nature of her name she wouldn't admit it outright not like last time.
At least it is a beautiful day she thought memories of the sun and playing running the faces had become lost to her. The memory seemed so real now but she didn't let it in the taste of sand, the smell of the ocean the sound of happiness.
For some reason she thought of him that brat of a boy that insignificant worm who had dared to defy her Master. Not that she felt any loyalty towards him his entire plan ended with the world being dead what then? How would the Homunculus rule if their had been no planet left to live on?
Edward had her begging for mercy crying out in pain she had twisted the memory so that he's much crueler laughing at her. Mocking her with that fake sadness and pity on his face, how dare he feel that way towards her.
How dare any humans think that they are better then her! How dare she let them manipulate her like that? What had she been thinking?
'She'd' been the one who had started the war in the first place. It had been her Father's wishes she wasn't looking for a new Master either. What she wanted she hadn't decided quite yet perhaps revenge or punishment of some kind.
No human would want to meet her in a dark alley in the middle of the night. She flew passed buildings and the busy streets. Passed litter as if on a mission passed towers and traffic lights she knocked over a flower pot scaring those below her.
Now she's alone with no one left to be afraid of her. None of the other birds had followed her she twitched her wings getting use to her appearance. A green bird tropical of some kind cute looking but the color wasn't right.
Something she struggled with when it came to animals. Sitting at one of the lights she watched the people beneath her. This place is familiar she is in Central City that she's pretty sure theirs a roar and stink of vehicles.
Not even a years worth of screams could remove that from her memory. No about of denial she let her confidence settle in. Lust and Gluttony would like this siting at the cafe sharing a meal thought Gluttony might like eating the waiter more then the meal.
She hopped along the traffic light staring at the people on occasion. Theirs a small child walking along pointing at a shop. It's Mother is not paying much attention and looks to be rather frustrated. Both of them look a like with brown hair similar shapes of the face.
The Mother had darker brown eyes white the brat child has blue ones. Somehow the pair managed to snag her attention. What is she waiting for she dose not know yet. "Momma look its a puppy!" Pipped the girl.
A pet in a cage is that's what this is all about? "Not this again," her Mother scolded her. "I already told you no I'll be the one that ends up taking care of it when you get bored of it."
The entire city is dirty place marked by streets and garbage busy to the brim. Theirs people over flowing in every corner. That's what a city is that's what humanity is more confidence flooded through her the longer she remembered why she hates humanity.
Flapping her wings she landed on a mail box watching them from her spot. The little girl blinks turns her attention away from the woman and runs straight for her. The girl dances in spot and points hoping up and down at her.
"Wow, wow, wow!" The little girl giggles stupidly in amazement clapping her hands with excitement.
Imminently Envy shrinks back and lets out a chirp or the best fake chirp she can manage. Dose she not know that she just pointed at the one who would end their world.
"Mommy can I keep it?" The girl begged turning to look at her Mother who blinked then smirked.
"Only if you can catch it in the next five minuets" smirked her Mother. "And no running in the streets!"Her Mother looked proud of herself. Obviously believing the dumb girl had no chance of capturing her.
No votes of confidence from Mom the little girl turned and pounced trying to catch her. "We'll be best friends forever!" Called the girl reaching out with both of her hands. Before the girl could catch her she shot into the air well out of reach hovering curiously.
The girl let out a cry of surprise reaching up with both arms she hovered well out of reach watching the girl cry and shout. Standing on her tiny toes theirs no way this human would ever be able to reach her not ever.
Humanity at its best this sniveling baby at least that's what she'd always thought. Human children always want everything always want what they cannot have. A grin grew on her face as she flew a little closer then shot away.
The girl had no way of catching her, she even felt her arms reach for her before she shot past the glass of the pet store flying along side of it. Desperately the girl called out to her as she let out a loud cry falling to her knees.
Absolutely broken that's how all humans should be this one would grow up to be the same. Never getting a pet, alone, just like her. She could never be a humans pet a toy their play thing she would never be subservient to humanity.
By now another war should have started. Somewhere anywhere conflict would be there she flew well over the streets stealing what ever she wanted. Their would always be divisions in humans those with less and others with more.
Not naturally the best designed to survive but those with the most money those with the best company. She watched them she'd been watching humans eighty percent of the time. By the time Father allowed her to 'fight' it could take months if not decades to pass. If her body wasn't burned attacked stabbed it would remain that way.
She leaned back settling alongside of a stand watching humans waiting for something. Most of the humans are well dressed with some place to go. She needed nourishment it wasn't as if she could get a job. Humanity probably didn't even know she existed at a large she dive bombed the nearest hot dog stand smelling the food.
Only she didn't take just a hot dog she took the whole bloody stand transforming into a giant bird growing larger in her more cute parakeet form. Only she didn't look so cute now she let out a shriek all the humans fled before her but she got what she needed.
It had taken her less then an hour to find a spot she liked. Envy imagined it would be all over the news in less then an hour. She'd taken up roost at a large tower. Whatever it's for she has no clue she settles inside of it having shoved at least ten hotdogs down her throat.
It wasn't enough Homunculus need a lot of fucking food especially when theirs nothing left to do but sit there. She found ketchup, relish, mustard even mayonnaise and cheese. This should be enough for a few days at least.
She loved ketchup the best Lust always told her she didn't have a refine pallet. Perhaps it didn't come from sleeping with humans. Usually she'd get them to dine and dash her, despite Lust name she'd always known her to be the most well adapted out of all the Homunculus.
Probably because she'd been the most accepted by the humans. She missed their conversations most of all Gluttony hadn't been up to the task. The three of them had been raised as siblings she picked up another hotdog this time putting it in the bun and eating it more dignified.
Remembering how Lust would talk that table manners are important when trying to manipulate a human her style. The idea of doing that made her shudder it wasn't that Lust had sex with all the humans. Probably wasn't what you were thinking.
Lust never actually had sex with her humans what she did is lure or tempt them with her beauty once their guard was done she'd either kill them or rob them of their valuables. Or let them extract information from them.
The threat of being eaten by Gluttony had very good affects on the human tongue. She ate a bit slower getting tired already of the hotdogs. Even if it made more sense to eat them first inside of the hotdog cart are chips and other snacks.
The kind Lust had liked the best had been the dill pickle ones she'd never been a fan of them. Yet she found herself picking one up and sighing. What had she been thinking? Lust always scolded her when ever she did an Envy.
Placing a hand on her stomach she propped hers leg up against the hotdog cart and swallowed the rest in one large ravishing bite. It's clear she's not lust she transforms into a wolf and tears at the food devouring it and not slowing down.
Wolfs could eat their food without chewing of course they had to throw it up and eat it later. But she had no intention of doing that. Her body would consume it faster then should could make the nutrients to eat.
Pacing impatiently a low growl burned in her throat as the green wolf stopped and sat down rolling into her back she just flopped their staring at the sound of footsteps. Her fur began to stand on end foot steps here? What are the chances? The entire place is dirty it is a new building she knows that a giant watch tower.
No one should be up here that's why she picked it. Running onto her stomach she barley got to her feet before the door opened. She stared at her lifting her head and bearing her razor sharp teeth a growl burning in her throat turning to look at the door.
Fuck! Is the first thing that rain into her head she hadn't thought she'd be discovered so soon. Perhaps it wasn't best to rob a food cart in the shape of a giant green bird. Not that she'd ever admit to making a mistake. Homunculus don't make any their superior smarter, faster than any human.