Shadows
Disclaimer: I don't own anything from the Kingdom Hearts games, Final Fantasy games or Disney. They belong to people very lucky and rich.
Warnings: Homosexuality, sexual situations, plenty of casual swearing, drug use, physical abuse later and others I'll put up when they come around.
Pairings: Sora/Riku, Sora/Various, Axel/Roxas and multiple other pairings.
Summary: AU. Sora is sent to a Christian Boys School because of his salacious ways at his previous school. Instead of purging his sin, he finds that this school encourages it via a mysterious and rather lecherous organisation.
A/N: Sorry for the very very late update. I'm currently going through the most crazy semester of study and teaching! I hope you enjoy, and thanks for the support!
Chapter Four
"So…are you going to tell me about Sephiroth?" Roxas sat across from Sora under the blissful shade of a tree in the main quad.
It was lunch now and the sun was out in full force, forcing most of the students to take off their jerseys and loosen their ties. Sora frowned at Roxas and his cheeky looking grin.
"Look, I can guess what happened, or you can tell me." Roxas looked at Sora expectedly. "You know I already know, anyway."
Sora sighed despondently, not telling Roxas himself, and therefore opting for Roxas to guess. "Then tell me what you think."
"You fell in love with your maths teacher. His name was Sephiroth. Am I right?" Roxas was sporting a playful grin on his face. "It's not that bad. I've never been with a man that much older than I am. It must have been something special."
Sora's heart lurched and he felt a little sick. It was more an empty feeling in his heart. "Yeah, I think I did fall in love, but I never meant to."
"Was he hot?" Roxas looked a little too giddy for Sora's liking.
Sora smiled lightly, reminiscing. "He was incredible. Riku…is a lot like him, looks wise."
"I can see why you were so taken with him, then. Riku is quite the looker." Roxas agreed.
Sora felt a little better after talking about it, but it didn't help the ache he felt. "Their personalities are different though. Sephiroth is more graceful, loving, gentle…Riku has a fire inside him."
A smirk played across Roxas' lips. "I don't want to encourage you, but I saw it too. When you two were playing basketball, it was like nothing else existed. There is a lot of… something… between you two, enough for your gaydar to go off."
Sora smiled, his heart fluttering with the memory. It certainly was intense, and the feeling he got when he took Riku's hand was indescribable. "What place does he have in the organisation?"
Roxas shrugged, which surprised Sora. Normally he knew everything about anything. "I don't know. He's just there some nights. Certainly a mysterious person."
That made it much more thrilling for Sora. He loved guys like that. The ones that were the hardest to get made the prize much more precious. "He was pretty nice at P.E. today."
"They're all nice when it counts. He might only have been like that to encourage you into the organisation. Then again, some of them are genuinely okay, some are only manipulated and aren't fully evil. I didn't know Riku too well, though." Roxas smiled a little wistfully.
Sora understood that look. Axel was good at heart, but he was just too far gone into the group. "Do you think I have much chance of staying out of the organisation?"
Roxas' face didn't change. "A little, but I think you're the type to be easily taken in by handsome men. That doesn't help your chances at all."
"I know." Sora smirked and stretched out onto the grass. That would be his downfall, he knew it. "I guess this last period will be our last chance to really hang out."
Roxas smiled happily and stretched out beside Sora, turning his head to face him. "Don't be like that. I know we'll be friends at some point."
"Yeah." Sora grinned and looked at the blue sky above them. "You still have to show me your technique."
Tonight, 11pm, be there. Axel will show you the way, was all it said. Sora looked down at the note confusedly and stared at the back of Saix's head. They were making their move already? They saw something special in him, alright.
What if I don't want to go? Sora scribbled under Saix's note and placed it on the desk in front of him. This was a daring move, but he didn't know exactly how dangerous the organisation was yet.
Saix seemed entertained at the note and chuckled a little. He started writing and then put the note back on Sora's desk. With a quick smirk he returned to his work.
You will go. You're too curious not to.
Well, that was true. Even though the organisation was something a little dangerous, he had never let that stop him before. And Roxas had said that it wasn't that bad, so what reason did he have not to go? Roxas had told him to watch out and be careful, but he could do that and still have fun. Besides, he was trying to make new friends here and, if possible, a boyfriend. At least he wasn't whoring himself out.
Oh dear god, and he thought he was past that point in his life. A particularly bad memory of him with 4 other men plagued his mind and he willed it to go away. He had been excessively drunk and started playing with this group of guys from the bar…
O…okay. He had to concentrate on science. Concentrate. The note was still there, alerting him that he did want to go tonight just to see what it was like. He didn't have to go again if he didn't like it. It wasn't like he was obliged or anything. He wondered what they got up to, if it was a mass orgy or just drinking or a mix of both. It couldn't be too harmful, and Sora had seen it all anyway.
Curiosity killed the cat. Should I fear for my life? He wrote back, feeling playful, only to know Saix's response. He didn't know anything about him, but he wanted to know more for future reference; to see if he should avoid him or not.
Another note was dropped on his desk. Only if you're disobedient.
Sora smirked. So this guy did have some spark to him. Where's the fun in obedience? He wrote down, debating over whether to give it to him or not. He had always been a notorious flirt, and this was no exception.
He put it on Saix's desk. Sora watched him read it, his pen in his mouth, waiting for a sign of life. Saix chuckled again and scrunched up the piece of paper. Nothing else was written after that other than science work.
Their teacher was an older looking man than the other teachers with blonde hair and a rugged looking face. He wasn't attractive in a youthful way, like the other teachers he'd seen so far, but he had quite a grizzly and mature sort of handsomeness to him.
Roxas sat beside him, silently writing down some chemical formulas. How did he get out of the organisation so easily? How should he know what they were like if he got the impression that they were just a gang that had fun and let people come and go? They seemed a lot more serious than that. Should he be worried? Was there another element that he was missing? What made Roxas so special? How did he get away with telling the principal that Zexion raped someone?
Too many questions and no answers. He wasn't going to get them anyway. It was 10 minutes until his time with Roxas was up. He was about to pull out his hair with frustration, but he was a little excited about tonight. He found that he wasn't scared at all of Saix and his friends, but he had no reason to be…yet.
Roxas had quickly said his goodbyes as they left the science classroom; his reason for that being he didn't want to face Organisation X. Just as expected, Demyx and Zexion had swooped to Sora's side, not long after he said goodbye to Roxas.
"Hey Sora, how's your first day going?" Demyx patted him on the back. "I hope it wasn't too hard, the transition and all."
"Everything's fine." Sora said shortly and continued to walk back to his dorm room. He didn't really understand why they kept pursuing him, he was going tonight anyway.
Zexion didn't say anything like usual, he just kept his eyes on Sora, which was a little creepy.
"Come on now." Demyx put his arm around Sora's shoulder. "We're not all bad, as Roxas undoubtedly told you. We're here to support you at your new school."
Sora rolled his eyes. These guys were so stupid; did they really expect him to digest this shit? "I was doing fine on my own, thanks."
Demyx raised his eyebrow. "You don't have to be rude, you know."
"What am I supposed to believe? Two different people telling me two different things about each other aren't making things very easy for me. So I'd appreciate it if you let me make up my own mind. Okay?" Sora shrugged off Demyx's arm. "Besides, I'm going tonight, so you don't have to put on the act. Don't make the mistake of thinking I'm impressionable, because I'm not."
Demyx chuckled at Sora's serious face. "Geez, you need to lighten up, man. When did you get so deep and meaningful?" Demyx grinned wildly and pinched Sora's cheek. "Besides, Organisation X isn't about being serious. It's about enjoying yourself."
"At other people's expense?" Sora asked, becoming quickly annoyed. He simply wasn't in the mood today.
"Not exactly. We don't hurt anyone." Demyx trailed off and inspected the ground.
Zexion just kept staring at Sora. "We humiliate them."
"And more…" Demyx trailed off again. "But it's not about hurting people, unless they're asking to be hurt. That in itself is an entirely different story."
Sora was now walking so fast that Demyx was struggling to keep up with him without jogging. Zexion was managing it just fine. He didn't look like he was struggling at all in anyway, like he was a ghost or something.
"I don't care. I'll see you tonight." Sora opened the door to the dorm corridor and shut it quickly behind him, in Demyx's face.
It was hard to be indifferent in this place where everything had an emotion tied to it. It was hard to act like a shadow when everyone saw you and nothing was sacred. He missed his home for the first time ever. He was able to do whatever he wanted here, but at least at home nobody important was watching. He didn't miss his parents, fuck no, but home was special to him. Home was a lot of things, his bed, the privacy and security… he almost felt like all of that wasn't his anymore. His parents didn't care even a little bit about him if they had just dumped him here. His father was a rich businessman and his mother a gold-digger; all they needed him for was someone to pass on the family name. He considered children with loving parents lucky. Maybe his had loved him once, but they most definitely didn't now.
He was far away from it all now, anyway.
The dorm was a large two-storey building to the side of the school with impressive interiors and furnishings. He was on the second floor, so he joined the rest of the students and climbed the stairs trying hard just to forget about his family, or lack thereof.
His room was surprisingly empty when he opened the door. Axel was nowhere to be seen. Sora figured he was probably planning with the others for tonight
Back at his old school no one ever went out on a Tuesday night. Was everything backwards here?
Sora plopped down on his bed and reviewed his day. What a fucking mess. There was no one here that he considered a friend. Someone who wasn't bound to anyone else; someone who he could talk to in confidence. There was no one he could vent to.
Unless… No. He couldn't do that. Of course, he would be at home by now marking homework or something like that, but they had ended it already. They had both agreed that they would never see each other again, let alone talk to each other. Then again, what was that about Cloud knowing Sephiroth? Did Cloud know about their relationship? Surely he wouldn't have told anyone about it, but that was just weird.
The telephone on the table in the middle of the room that he and Axel shared stared back at him. Normally, if he had a problem, he would go straight to Sephiroth about it.
And then the phone started ringing.
He had never called anyone or taken a call in his room before, so he hesitantly lifted the receiver.
"…Hello?" Sora greeted the person and swallowed. Who would ring him? No one would likely call for Axel, he was already with the organisation, or so Sora suspected.
"Sora…how are you?" A particularly recognisable and gentle voice was speaking to him.
Why would Sephiroth call him after they swore not to speak to each other? Sora's heart thudded in his chest as he tried to summon the will to talk. Nothing was coming out of his throat though, he was momentarily stunned.
"I know we promised not to talk, but… I'm just worried about you." Sephiroth said in that same tone he always used when he was concerned about something.
"Sephiroth…" Sora said sadly, hating the way his body betrayed him. He told himself not to let this get to him. "I'm okay, really," was all he could manage.
Sephiroth paused. "I'm just checking up on you to see how you're coping at your new school and…"
Sora was desperate to be wherever Sephiroth was now. He was happy that Sephiroth still cared but it tore him apart that he could never be with him again.
"…I talked to Cloud this afternoon." Sephiroth sighed. "I've heard about this infamous organisation. It seems that they're after you. Whatever you do, don't join them."
Sora chuckled darkly. "I've only been told that, what, 10 times today?"
"You made a promise to me, remember? I'm sure you know what they're like now." Sephiroth countered.
"Is that promise still applicable?" Sora felt himself smiling. He had actually gotten his wish; someone to talk to. It wasn't the most ideal person, but it was good enough.
Sephiroth was now talking as though he was smiling. "I hope so. Stay good for me."
"I was never good as such." Sora pointed out.
"You know what I mean!" Sephiroth said quickly but paused. "…You know I still love you, don't use it against me."
Sora's smiled disappeared. Those fated words. "I love you too," came out anyway, like habit.
"I'll see if I can visit you at some point. Goodbye, Sora." Sephiroth didn't wait for an answer; he hung up.
Sora put the receiver back and sighed, falling back on his bed and clenching his eyes shut. Oh god, it was like old times again.
"You never told me you were involved." Laughing green eyes were suddenly in his vision.
Axel was standing over him and with that look on his face it was like he had just won the lottery. Sora hadn't even heard him enter.
Sora scowled. Once again he was reminded that he had no privacy here. "Who said I was involved with anyone?"
"That phone call was enough evidence." Axel removed his shirt and started fanning himself with a book. "It makes things a lot more interesting, you being in a relationship. You're going to be so much fun."
Even though he wasn't facing Sora, Sora knew a grin was firmly planted on his face. Sora was trying not to lower his eyes to Axel's muscled back and was winning the battle for now. "I'm not in a relationship. Just because I love someone, it doesn't mean I'm involved with them."
Axel turned to face Sora and pouted comically. "Jesus. Are you always so defensive?"
Sora smiled and sat up. "Is it so wrong for me to make sure that people don't assume things of me that aren't true?"
Axel ruffled Sora's hair. "Of course not, but people do it anyway. You should know that."
"Yeah, I guess." Sora took Axel's charming face and combined it with his body. Impressive. Why was he taunted like this? He was already thinking of running his hands over Axel's chest and playing with his-
"-I know I'm hot but you don't have to make it so obvious." Axel ran his fingers down Sora's cheek and cupped his chin. "It's no fun that way."
Sora breathed deeply and tried to quash the battle his hormones were having with his rationality. "Your vanity is a major turnoff." Sora smirked and congratulated himself on his save.
"Hmph." Axel closed the curtains abruptly. "I take comments like that seriously."
Sora eyed him sceptically, making a beeline for something he could evade with. He didn't really like where this was going. Well, he did, but something felt wrong about it.
"Oh no you don't." Axel snatched away the bag Sora had grabbed and threw it to his side of the room. With a predatory grin he trapped Sora by straddling his lap. "I want to rectify this."
Warning bells rang in Sora's head as Axel ran his fingers through his spiky brown hair. "I was kidding!" He said. He didn't think Axel would take it so seriously.
"I don't care." Axel said with a sexual smirk and gently yanked Sora's head back by his hair.
All of a sudden Sora was awash with sensation as his neck was devoured by Axel's searing lips and tongue. All rational thought flew from his mind. It had been a while since he'd felt this.
"I've been thinking about doing this to you all day." Axel admitted huskily into Sora's ear. "Now who's a turnoff?" He finished his comments with a little nip behind Sora's ear. Any sensation in that erogenous zone was doomed to send Sora from semi-self-controlled to completely possessed.
Sora felt completely powerless against the red-head's ministrations, as though all his shields had been destroyed. Axel's lips were burning hot as they ran a line down his throat. He didn't care who was doing this to him or what exactly they were doing, he just didn't want it to ever cease. He felt his shirt being taken off and the skin under it warm with lightning speed as he moved against Axel's broad stomach. The touch alone was enough to drive him completely crazy.
"Stop…" Sora moaned in a slight moment of awareness and looked straight into Axel's green eyes. They were almost the same hue as Sephiroth's. The determination in Axel's burning eyes was obvious. Sora almost faltered as he realised that Axel was determined to make Sora his in any way possible.
"No." Axel laughed quietly and ran his fingers down Sora's chest, digging his nails in slightly as he went. "I don't see any reason to."
Sora bit his bottom lip as the red-head rolled his nipple with his fingers. God he was so confused, so aroused, so in need. What was the point in stopping anyway? He wasn't cheating on anyone or doing anything wrong… Axel's lips crashed against Sora's and they fought for dominance and sensation, each trying to feel as much flesh as possible.
"If you're this wild now, I can imagine how you'll be tonight." Axel licked Sora's earlobe and bit down on it, causing Sora to cry out. "You're already hard."
Those words sent need spiralling down his body to his core. He had missed this, but it still didn't feel the same. What he had with Sephiroth was totally different.
At this point Sora was absolutely fine with letting Axel do whatever he wanted. That was, until the door opened and several people barged in.
"Oi! What the hell do you think you're doing, Axel?" Demyx didn't look disturbed though, he actually looked rather interested. "You know you're not meant to claim them before they're initiated!"
"I haven't claimed him yet. As you can see, his pants are still on, and so are mine." Axel stayed sitting on Sora's lap, as if it didn't bother him one bit.
The gravity of the situation was starting to hit Sora. They had just been caught making out by no more than 3 members of organisation X. Behind Demyx stood Zexion and Riku. The thought of Riku looking at him just after he had been in a rather heated sexual situation with Axel turned him on more than anything, like it was a thrill to be watched. Riku was straight, yet he was so used to seeing this happen. Sora made it his mission to turn him over to the other team.
"Just save it for tonight, anyway." Demyx blatantly took a good look at Sora's physique. "It's going to be fun. A new recruit."
"You're sick, Demyx." Riku was smirking with his arms folded.
Demyx put his arm around Riku and kissed his cheek sloppily. "Don't knock it until you've tried it."
Riku shoved Demyx away harshly and wiped his cheek. "I think I'll pass."
"You're not a man until you've fucked a man, Riku." Axel finally got off of Sora and put his shirt back on. "You know it's true."
Sora realised quickly that, even though the others were distracted by conversation, his tent was standing proudly for all to see. Axel didn't seem to mind about his. In any case, he hurriedly covered his groin with a pillow.
"It is not." Riku snorted. "Besides, I have a girlfriend and I'm happy with her."
Axel grinned lecherously. "Sure you are. Why don't you join in tonight?"
"No." Riku frowned. "I'm only in the organisation because of my father's influence."
Sora furrowed his eyebrows. "You mean… your parents actually know about what you do and condone it?"
"They encourage it." Zexion spoke for the first time, his icy blue eyes chilling Sora a little.
Axel smiled and kissed Sora tenderly on the lips. "You must have figured that out, at least. And I took you for a smart boy."
The other members of the group laughed a little, except for Riku who was solemnly frowning and concentrating on something down the corridor.
Sora was still sitting on the bed, so he was feeling rather intimidated by the organisation looking over him like this. "How am I meant to know these things?"
"You were so perceptive yesterday." Axel brushed his long hair back and yawned. "Anyway, our parents think that debauchery is the way to set our souls free before we start a strict life. They let us be teenagers and act like them before we become adults. It makes sense, doesn't it?"
"So you fuck and drink your nights away before you domesticate. I see what you mean." Sora pulled his shirt back on once his tent had collapsed, receiving curious glances from Demyx and Zexion.
"Basically, say goodbye to your boyfriend because you're going to experience more sex than you can handle. That's a promise." Axel summarised it and rubbed his stomach. "Man I'm hungry…"
"Boyfriend?" Demyx asked, curiosity and excitement written on his face. "That makes things interesting."
"Exactly what I said! What was he like, Sora? Sweet? Loving? Compassionate?" Axel sat back down next to Sora and caressed his back. "Did he whisper sweet nothings in your ear?"
Sora growled and shrugged Axel's arm off. "Better than any of you any day." That wasn't exactly true. He had no idea what Riku was like in bed.
"Is that a challenge?" Axel waggled his eyebrows suggestively.
"There's no challenge about it." Sora said bravely. "He had years of experience on you guys."
Axel just didn't want to back down. "Experience is different to passion. Not everyone has both. Isn't it time for a change anyway?"
"I don't have time for little boys like you." Sora said staunchly and watched carefully for the reactions of the organisation.
Axel wasn't smiling any more. "Biting words for a newbie. We'll see how you hold out tonight and separate the little boys from the men."
Sora's courage slowly faded, but he was bolstered by his experience. The challenge was on.