(Break)
I had finally came out of my room when Quinn was leaving with Huck and Harrison for the airport. Teddy was going to drive them over. I walked out of my room to see Fitz. I quickly took a step back but squared my shoulders as he took a step forward closer to me.
"I'm sorry Liv"
"It's fine" i nodded once and left to go downstairs. He followed and we stood in silence as his parents said goodbye to my friends.
"Bye Fitz, nice meeting you finally" Quinn hugged him
"You too Quinn"
Huck and him spoke while Quinn pulled me off with Harrison
"Did you two finally do it?"
"Do what? Oh! No" i laughed "just an argument, no big"
"You don't do arguments" i laughed, it was true i normally told people off.
"It's fine"
I watched as Teddy noticed i was awake and came to stand behind me, wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
"Lunch date when i get back? We haven't hung out. Just the two of us in forever"
"Sounds good"
We stood there watching everyone say goodbye until it was time to go.
"Liv?" Fitz called as i came back from a ride.
"Yeah?"
"You didn't let me finish apologizing"
"Fitz, i just don't want to really hear your apology. You were an asshole because you wanted to take your anger out on someone and you chose me. I'm fine, we're fine and let's just leave it at that" i started walking away as i saw Teddy pull into the estate
(Break)
"So, what's going on with you and Fitz?" Teddy asked as he sat across from me in the booth
"Nothing, why?"
"There's a lot of tension"
"We had a fight" i shrugged
"Is everything okay?"
"Nothing i can't handle, he apologized i just need to let it go"
He narrowed his eyes but changed the subject.
"The apartment is ready whenever we want to go back to Washington, your furniture was delivered today" he said nonchalantly
"I didn't order any-"
"Teddy! You really have to let me start doing things on my own!" I said annoyed
"Libby, you are my sister and i am looking out for you" he rolled his eyes
"I'll pay you back"
"How about you pay for my drinks for the next 6 months?"
"Only?"
"You know how much i drink"
I laughed loudly and nodded. We talked about everything and anything until his phone started to ring.
"It's lex, she wants me to meet her"
"Go ahead" i smiled as we exited the restaurant
"You sure?" I nodded "Take my car, i'll get a ride"
"Bye" i drove around the city for a while, stopping when i saw stores i liked. I bought some things but when i got back to the car i realized i had a lot of missed calls from Emily or Big Gerry.
"Emily? Is everything okay?"
"Liv, we need you at the condo"
"Okay, i'm on my way. Is Fitz and Pop's alright?"
"We uh, we'll tell you when you get here. Drive safe"
I bit my nails as i maneuvered my way through traffic. I parked the car and got the elevator upstairs.
"Hello?" I called as i saw Emily holding Big Gerry's hand.
"Hi Liv" she whispered
"Hi"
"Darlin, we need you to speak to Fitz... Pops.. He's gone" Big Gerry's face fell and Emily rubbed his back.
"I'm so sorry" i hugged him
"Fitz is on the balcony"
"Okay" i whispered going out towards the doors. Fitz sat on a chair with his head between his knees. He was huffing out trying not to cry. I sat down beside him on the lawn chair and put my hand on his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry Fitz" i whispered and he looked over at me. His eyes were filled with so much tears and it hurt me to see him sad. I started to feel my own tears coming to my eyes. I held his hand and moved closer as he hugged me. He just kept quiet as i put my head into his neck.
"I was right beside him.. I watched the whole thing" he whispered
"He's not in pain anymore Fitz, i know you are hurting but he's at peace and now you just have to put him to rest peacefully"
"I can't-"
"You can, i'm right here okay?" I held his hand
"Okay" he croaked and i finally got him to stand. He looked down at me and wiped my cheek. I pulled him inside and watched as his parents hugged him. Eventually Emily convinced everyone to go home. Kate rode with her parents while Fitz drove Teddy's car. I watched him and he looked sad but he wasn't snapping at the traffic.
"Did someone call Teddy?"
"His phone keeps going to voicemail" i whispered. He gripped the steering wheel and nodded. I bounced my knee and surprisingly he reached his hand over the console and held my hand.
"How's your dad?" He shocked me
"What?"
"No one has spoken about him, i need my mind off of everything"
"Oh, uh he's fine. I call him every day. Someday's he's great, someday's not so great" i shrugged "but he's fine"
(Break)
"Where were you?!" I heard Fitz yell as i got ready for bed. I had just taken a shower and everyone was downstairs. I threw on a t-shirt and left my room.
"I was with Lex Fitz! My phone died!" Teddy tried
"You were fucking your girlfriend -" he suddenly stopped when i came into the room. He relaxed and i watched with everyone else in amazement as he just stopped yelling. He calmed down and walked out of the room back up to his bedroom. I spoke to Teddy for a bit before i went back upstairs. I opened my bedroom door and surprisingly saw Fitz looking at my bristol board that Emily had got me one day. There were millions of pictures posted on it. I walked across the room and went to sit on my bed.
"You're packing?" He eyed the clothes on my bed.
"No, just some laundry" I shifted as he made his way over to my bed "you should apologize to Teddy"
He shot me a look "you were mean to him"
"Fine"
"Fine?"
"Fine Livvie" he chuckled as he laid down on the bed.
"You're too tall" i noticed his feet were hanging over the end of the bed
"You're too short" he mumbled. I reached over and ran my hand slowly through his hair as he faced me. Eventually he fell asleep and i left to go do some laundry downstairs.
"Liv, we are going to the funeral home for a meeting. Do you mind staying with Fitz?" Emily asked
"Of course not" i waved as the four Grants left.
(Break)
It had been a week of tension filled meals when Fitz was home. When he wasn't home he was often getting into trouble drinking or doing reckless things and I would always pick him up without anyone noticing. The church was packed on the day of the funeral and i somehow stayed beside Fitz the entire time. He delivered the eulogy and stopped speaking to everyone once he was done.
"You shouldn't be drinking" i said as we got back from the funeral. The wake was at the estate and the house was filled with people telling stories about Pops.
"Well too late" he gulped the rest of his scotch glass and glared at Mellie as she spoke to him about something.
"If you'll excuse us" he grabbed my hand and led me out of the room.
"Fitz" i pulled his arm as we reached the upstairs floor of the house.
"What?" He sighed "i just want-"
"What?"
"I want you" he stared at me
"What?" I whispered as everything changed
"You" he lunged forward and i tasted the scotch on his lips but i somehow knew he wasn't drunk. He was fully aware of what he was doing. We eventually got into his bedroom and he ripped his mouth away from mine. I was lost in the moment as he removed my underwear in a matter of seconds but left my long sleeved dress on. He ripped my hair out of the clipped bun.
"Fitz" i screeched as he lifted me into the air. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he pressed me against the door.
"Livvie" he kissed me again until his pants were suddenly around his feet. He stepped out of them and deposited me on the bed. I watched as he pulled open his beside table and got a condom. I closed my eyes and tried to relax as i heard the wrapper opening and him shifting above me.
"Look at me" he said roughly
I looked up and stared as i felt him enter me roughly. I groaned and watched him start thrusting into me. He was so angry, it was like he was trying to catch a moment of bliss. He slammed into me over and over again, gripping my hips so hard and he moved his head to my neck. I watched as he made me let go first before releasing roughly. He rolled off of me and caught his breath and stared at the ceiling.
"Livvie" he whispered "why did you let me do that to you" he got out of the bed and went into his bathroom, locking the door behind him without even looking back and i suddenly felt like a piece of garbage.