Mariana
The week was long as always and very uneventful. Im so thankful that it is over. Now a week later Sarah is still living with us and since we really don't have anywhere to put her still is sleeping on the couch. It is now lunch time the following Thursday and its our first official free night and so me, Sarah and Lexi are planning on what to do for the night.
"if you two become that lovey dovey couple im leaving" Lexi said pointing an accusing finger at the both of us.
"What? Since when have we been that couple?" Sarah asked. She gave us a weird look that says, 'don't get me started'
"please you two have been sickeningly romantic for the last couple of days. How would you like it if me and Jesus did that?" she complained. We both faked a grossed out look and faked gaged. Then all of us burst into laughter as Jesus came up to us.
"Talking about me?" he asked sitting down.
"yeah you and Lexi aren't allowed to be sickeningly romantic" I said jokingly.
"Me? like you have a right to talk you and your girlfriend haven't been able to keep your hands to yourself since the day you two decided to 'experiment' together. Seriously its worse than watching moms" he replied back.
"she was the only one that was experimenting!" Sarah exclaimed. Then she said her next words so quickly that it was obvious that she didn't even think before they came out.
"I already knew I loved her" at first the meaning of the words hasn't even dawned on me yet. Only once I realized what the silence that fell over the table whats about did I realize she just told me she loved me. Once she realized that she said that out loud she stood up and left. Leaving me to try to figure out whether I follow her or not. I sat there for a while in shock before Jesus interrupted my internal argument.
"Go after her!" he commanded and I did.
As I left the table I heard Jesus make a comment about being in a romantic comedy.
When I was at the door of the nearest girls bathroom I paused before turning and walking in the other direction.
Sarah
I can't believe I could be so stupid. How could i be so careless to say that? We have only been dating for a week and I'm sure she hasn't even really figured out her sexuality yet. Of course that is going to scare her away, it was way too soon. Shes going to dump me and never talk to me again.
I tried to stop the tears but they keep coming. She doesn't love me back and now I lost my best friend and girlfriend. what am i suppose to do now?
Mariana
I know I need to talk to Sarah and I feel bad for leaving her hanging in like that but I just need to sort my thoughts out before talking to her. I know just who to talk to and she's conveniently in this school.
"Come in" she says as I walked into her office. She immediately looked confused when she saw me.
"what happened?" mom asked as I shut the door behind me.
"Sarah told me she loved me" I said and my voice gave away the fact that I was going to cry.
"What? Then why do you sound like you are going to cry?" she asked hugging me. The door is closed so she's allowed to be unprofessional.
"this is all going so fast and I don't know what to say to her."i said and she just smiled.
"yeah lesbians fall in love too quickly. First of all you are not in the right place, you should be with her. Just be honest. I'm sure she knows that this is going to fast and if she doesn't just tell her that. I'm sure she will be understanding" she said and I smiled. She mouthed the word go and I left. Unfortunately when I went to the same girls bathroom it was empty. Lunch will be over soon, maybe she returned to the table. However when I got to the table she wasn't there and they said they haven't seen her since she left. Throughout the rest of the day she didn't turn up to any of her classes and wasn't at home once school has finally ended.
Sorry I had to go all sad and dramatic on you guys. This is just being, what I believe atleast, realistic. It wont be sad for long, I promise. Trust me I ship them just as much as you do.