Mariana

I spent the next hour and a half pacing the house and freaking out. I have cried like six times and puked three. What if we don't find her? She will be wandering the streets alone and then forced to spend the night outside. The streets are dangerous, she could get hurt.

"What if we don't find her or we find her and she's dead" I said to my other mom who sits me down.

"Listen I know you're worried but we will find her... alive" Lena said. "I trust that your mom is doing everything to find her and she will" That's just not enough for me. My girlfriend is out wandering the streets probably feeling lonely and scared.

"Yeah well that's not enough... im sure cops say to the love ones all the time that they will find her" I said and mom gave me a weird look.

"Mariana..." she started.

"I know moms doing everything she can but I just feel so helpless. This is all my fault..." I said as the feeling a guilt grips my stomach harder. This is all my fault if I just would have went after her at lunch none of this would have happened.

"this isn't your fault..." How can she believe that? This is so obviously my fault.

"of course its my fault if I wasn't stupid and realized I had to go after her she wouldn't be missing" I said.

"I love her mom and she doesn't know that and thanks to me she might never know" I said and she took me into a hug. I love you, the words were so easy to say. unfortunately the weren't said to the right person.

"She will know" mom promised and I want so badly to believe her. My phone rang and I picked it up without even seeing who was calling.

"Sarah?" I asked hopefully. I have called and texted her so many times and she has yet to answer me.

"No its Jess. Sarah is with me, shes fine" she said and I finally let go of the breath I didn't realize I was holding. I can finally breath she is fine.

"where is she?" I asked and smiled at mom.

"We are at the park..." she kept talking but all I could focus on is she is safe and I will get to see her again.

"I'm coming" I said probably interrupting her but I don't care right now. I hanged up then told mom we need to go to the park. Mom called Stef immediately as we headed down to the park.

The car drive down there was tortuously long even though I know its only about a five-minute car ride. When we got there I practically ran to her. Sarah is holding her sleeping two-year old baby sister and not wanting to wait I hugged them both.

"Don't ever do that to me again" I whispered in her ear and then pulled away and kissed her. She pulled away and I tried to keep the heart-broken expression from my face.

"I can't be in a relationship with someone who doesn't feel the same" she said and I knew she thought I didn't love her. She had tears in her eyes and I immediately felt the guilt return. I hurt her, the first person I loved like this and I hurt her.

"No honey. I love you. I'm sorry I was to stupid and scared to realize it before but I know I love you. Please im so sorry" I begged and she kissed me.

"I love you" she said. I don't care that everyone is watching us I almost lost her. our youngest audience member started waking up.

Sarah

"Mommy" the half asleep girl said. Great as if this day wasn't dramatic enough now it looks like she's my daughter.

"Mommy?" Mariana asked her one eyebrow raised accusingly.

"Shes half asleep she doesn't know who's holding her" I explained. "I swear she's my sister"

I attempted to hand her to Jess but she wouldn't let go.

"Don't go, I miss you" she said hugging me tightly. Yet again, tears raced down my cheek. She might be my sister, technically, but I raised her. I have been her mama since way before she called me it. Part of me wants to kidnap her and run away with her but I can't. I know she's better off with them so as much as it hurts I have to return her to Jess.

"honey, you'll see me soon" I promised kissing her head.

"stay" she said and I wanted so badly to.

"I can't, baby" I said but she refused to let go of my neck.

"stay with you" she said and I looked at Jess for help.

"honey we have to go ill take you to see Sarey tomorrow" Jess promised. Sierra only held me tighter, "NO!" I sat down on the bench and looked at Stef and Lena.

"Shes making this to hard" I explained. I could easily pry her off me but I don't want to lose her. The hardest part of being kicked out of my house was losing her. I have always had the responsibility of taking care of her. I was always there for her... since the beginning. I was there for her first word, her first steps. She went to me when she had nightmares and now im gone. in her mind im her mom and its only natural for me to feel like she's my daughter even when she's not. When they finally got her off of me and with Jess, she screamed and cried and carried on the entire time, I had to turn and walk away. I hate my parents how dare they take her from me.

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