The Endless Summer?

Chapter Four: Week Three; Isolation, self-pity and Moving On

As the pain subsided, I had finally com to accept that we were over. That whatever we had once had ended. It took everything out of me, finally accepting that we obviously was not meant to be. This was where I had to start dealing with everything. I had to cope with the realization of the dissolution of my summer relationship, the one that I thought had a chance of becoming something more. Evidently not. I was wrong. Error of judgment on my account. Apparently I gave him my heart too quickly. He never had to fight or even ask for it. I just handed it to him, like a dollar bill.

I spent a lot of time trying to pinpoint exactly where the relationship went wrong, the only places being near the start. Perhaps I was to full on? Maybe I should just accept that it wasn't supposed to be. He just was not my knight in shining armor. In fact that must be where I am going wrong. Because those kind of people do not exist. The just don't and I have to accept that. I'm waiting for something that does not exist.

My Heart was completely broken. Everything I did made me think of him. Every call I got I thought it was him. I learned that what I was currently going through was withdrawal. I had gone from spending every waking moment of my perfect summer with him, being consumed by him being so close completely. And it hit me hard. It hit me like a ton of bricks. That he was no longer going to be there with me every minute of every day. That made me sick to my stomach with loneliness. Realizing that the one person I had come to share everything with was no longer going to be there. That he had basically disappeared from my life. That made my stomach hurt and my head spin. Loneliness. Complete loneliness.

Loneliness. I had not talked to my friends since the ending of that chapter in my life. They had called... A lot. They had also texted... A bit. But they had definitely left loads of voicemails. Not that I listened to any of them. The icon had became a permanent part of my phone screen. Telling me that they were still unread but still not making me want to listen to them.

I had resulted to closing my blinds, locking my door and cutting myself off from the outside world, to help me come to this realization. Many people came by trying to get me to see realise that cutting myself off, was making myself ill. but it is very hard for you to come to that conclusion by someone else pointing it out to you. Nine out of ten times, you have to come to the conclusion your self. And I was not willing to come to that conclusion. I was not making my self ill. I was perfectly fine. I was still eating. Ice cream. I was just in a state of numbness. I was cutting all ties in order to cope. Although it did not really help.

It took those three weeks to realise this. I had to move on with my life. I had to get myself a job and pay my bills and just live life. Continue with my life as if nothing happened. Get back some normality. Create a new routine for myself that did not revolve around him.

I got myself a job at a new restaurant in town. It was quite an expensive looking restaurant, this translating into good tips and big wages. The uniform was the only down side to the whole job. The uniform consisted of a white blouse, a ocean blue cravat, a pair of pleated black, cotton pants and lastly a compulsory pair of hideous black loafers, with a giant brass buckle on the top of the shoe and a black blazer that made me look old and frumpy. But I would take anything thrown at me for the wages and tips, and also the people I work with.

'What are you doing?' I asked, as I felt his lips graze across my pulse point in my neck.

'Isn't it obvious?' He chuckled into my neck, causing a shiver to run down my spine.

'Well yes, but you've got to stop.' I said seriously.

'Why? I don't want to stop.'

'Because I'm trying to write a new song, and it's stressing me out and you're really not helping!'

'Well may be I can help relieve some of that stress.' He whispered as hit bit down gently on my pulse point.

'No. Now stop.' I said, gently pushing his head away from my neck and crawling down to the other end of the couch we were currently sitting on.

We had spent most of the afternoon out, him showing me different places he liked to come when everything got to him. The last place he took me to was the most beautiful lake, you could see the bright, beautiful fireflies buzzing around, creating the most enchanting light across the lake, it was truly the most stunning place I had ever been and yet I had been living here now for about four years and did not even know it existed. We came back to mine after and it led to us sitting of the couch together while I wrote a new song and Austin watched the television. But apparently Austin had got bored and decided to bug me.

'Come on Ally! Please.' He pleaded, looking into my eyes with his adorable puppy dog look.

'Fine.' I sighed, closing my journal.

He crawled along the couch, following my previous movements, until he reached my ankles. He grabbed a hold of them, pulling me down towards him, so that my back was flat against the couch and his face was directly above mine. He wasted no time in capturing my lips with his, pushing his tongue past my lips and connecting it with mine. Our tongues danced together, as he trailed his hand up my shirt and started to feel my breast, squeezing it slightly, while his other arm wrapped around my hips and his hand landed on my ass, squeezing it lightly.

It was safe to say that we had a lot of fun that night.

A/N -

Hey Guys, I hope you like this update, obviously it's not the same sort of writing as Ausllylover97 but I do hope that you like it, I'm trying to keep the flow of her 7 stages of heartbreak, but I hope you all liked the flashback, I don't really want to get into any heavy sexual content yet, because I don't feel like Ally would want to relive that bit of their history because she is still going through all the emotions that comes with a break up. Sorry about the long A/N and sorry if I babbled a bit, but I hope you like it! Please read and review!

Xxx

Kyna