Chapter 16: Thinking of You

I could feel it. Less than 13 hours left then I will be married and become a princess. The deep blue sky always reminds me of someone, Zen. My heart, my brain, everything is thinking about you and tomorrow. All my focus was on the starry sky before someone tickled my feet.

"Cora!"

"Sorry, Miss. But I couldn't help it. My hands suddenly moved by themselves." Cora explained faking guilt. Cora loves to tickle. I just turned to looked at her and also faked an annoyance.

"Wow, Miss! You really look like a mother, when you do that."

"I do?" I asked. Cora nodded her head. "Is it in a good way or bad?" I asked curiously.

"In a good way, of course," Cora said smiling.

I looked at her for a while and realized she wasn't lying. I turned back. Do I look like a mother? The idea of being a mother never really came to my mind. I blushed lightly as I imagined what Zen and my children will look like and how they will be like. More of Zen or more of me? Or together combined? I gently shook my head not wanting to imagine anymore.

Staring at the moon just calmed me down. As each day passed by, trembling became a normal thing. But now I can feel my entire body trembling. The wedding is tomorrow. I have been to ceremonial practices. It's a practice test that tells me what to do and what not to do during the ceremony. Even Zen had the same thing. But we did it individually.

Today was the last of everything. I won't be attending manner studies anymore. Nor will I be having riding lessons anymore, ceremonial practices, going up and down because of my wedding dress. I totally wanted to focus on my dancing steps, in heels today. I had to learn five different dancing steps. But only three were the most important. I had been dancing in heels since morning and because of that, my legs became sore.

Cora insisted on massaging my feet because she didn't want me doing anything a day before my wedding.

"Did you ask the messenger today about the letter? or have you personally received any letter concerning the matter?" I asked Cora. She immediately looked at me and slowly shook her head. I nodded, assuring her to continue what she was doing.

I sighed. He hasn't replied. Maybe, he hasn't gotten the letter yet. Let's see, if tomorrow comes and there's no reply, then I will choose someone else. It's not that hard.

"All done, Miss," Cora said happily at what she has done.

All the bruises had faded away. And my feet weren't looking red anymore.

"Thank You," I mumbled, she heard.

"Anytime." She took the pan full of water, towel, massaging ointments and left.

I took my light-colored robe, given to me on my first night being a fiancee to Prince Zen, and put it on. I walked to the balcony. From where I was standing, I could already see the decorations for tomorrow. The carpets had been changed and cleaned, flags were been ready to blow. I heard some wedding visitors had arrived already. Visitors I barely know them.

12 hours left. I should be sleeping, but I don't feel tired. Well, maybe a little. I wonder, what Zen is doing right now. Is he thinking of me as I am of him right now? As I was thinking, I heard someone knock on the door.

"Enter," I said softly, trying not to wake anyone, even though I was the only one in this quarter with countless guards around me.

I was standing there as I saw Kiki peeking. I immediately smiled and left the balcony, closing the balcony doors.

"I was told by the guards that Cora had just left. So I thought, you would be asleep by now." Kiki said making her way to me.

"Well, I'm not sleeping not even resting. I don't think I will be able to sleep anyway." I said walking towards her. She gave me a gentle, small smile, which I also returned.

Kiki was wearing a formal dress, her sword in her hands.

I gestured for her to sit down as I sat beside her. She put her sword beside her. She gently patted her lap. I got the idea and laid my head on her lap. She started gently caressing my hair. Slowly, gently and carefully.

"How are you?" Kiki asked concern in her voice.

"Good, just a bit nervous that's all." Although I wasn't looking at her, I could feel her nodding her head.

"And on which part are you nervous, tomorrow's ceremony or a lifetime being a Grand Princess?"

"All." I simply said

"Everything is being prepared. I went to take a look at your wedding dresses if everything was oka," Kiki informed.

"Thank you very much. Thank you so much for everything."

I heard Kiki giggling. "No problem. Besides as your future servant, I need to respect my future princess' orders."

I couldn't help but giggle too. I'm so grateful Zen made a friend like this.

"Have you been practicing your signature?" Kiki asked pointing on the center table with papers full of my name signature.

"Yeh."

"I like this one."

"Mm, so do I." I agreed. "I was thinking of using it anyway."

Kiki was still caressing me. I could now feel sleepy.

A/N:

Hey!

This is a small, short chapter.

This chapter wasn't included in my list of chapters, but I wrote this because I've been/would be so busy, that I won't be able to write.

Am I the only one fangirling over the wedding?

Hope you enjoyed ;3