Now for Blue, disclaimer I own nothing.
White Diamond can be heartless at times, she sees even her fellow Diamonds as mere extensions of herself. At first I thought it was just her being demanding or maybe I was wasting her time with pointless calls about my problems so I limited them more and more until I finally accepted that White just didn't want anyone wasting her time with anything. Sometimes she calls me or leaves a message but I don't respond, if White can't have any of her time wasted then I can't have my time wasted responding to her. I thought that maybe she was changing when Pink emerged, Pink was so small and we were getting tired of wasting resources by shattering off colored Gems so I thought that maybe her purpose was to find some use for them. When I saw her manipulate plant life I became more convinced that White Diamond had some huge plan for her. When Pink came to her with the plan for a colony with defective Gems she had shown her true colors. White didn't even try it out nor did she consider the resources we'd be saving on if we took Pink's offer. I doubt we'll ever be close.
Yellow was my guide, she allowed me to learn on my own with some small tips. Yellow always supports me, even regarding White Diamond. We formed a bond that would allow us to know how to calm the other down. Sometimes Yellow is strict, sometimes she can get overly angry. Sometimes it feels like Yellow doesn't care about Pink but then I remember that she's just putting up a front. She's been a great comfort to me these last five thousand years. Even now, Yellow is helping me look for Rose Quartz so we can learn the truth behind Pink's shattering.
I was the closest with Pink, during our visits I made sure that she was with me at all times and that she never left my sight without an escort. But perhaps I was too controlling, looking back she sometimes looked a little sad. I taught her everything I knew about diplomacy, how to sway Gems to your side with a few words. I drilled the history of Homeworld into her for hours on end; I had her sit in on meetings that would often take all day. When she got her first colony I was so worried that something bad would happen that I made plans for all of the buildings and even her zoo. About a day or two before she died Pink begged me to just let the Crystal Gems have the Earth. I told her that she couldn't back out of the war; she needed to finish the colony. Pink then insisted that I at least allow her Amethysts and Beta Gems to live in her zoo, I explained that the Amethysts and some of the Jaspers would be a part of her army. Pink argued that she didn't want an army or a colony; she just wanted her Gems to be happy. I told her that she'd get an army and a colony just like the rest of the Diamonds. Pink then said that they were her Gems and if she wanted them in her zoo then she had that right. I tried to get her to calm down; I told her that she needed to take responsibility for her colony. Pink snapped back that despite it being her colony she had little to no say in anything regarding it. She wanted to design her structures but she couldn't, she wanted to just let the Crystal Gems have the Earth but she couldn't, she designed the zoo but I changed the plans, and now that she wanted her Gems to live in the zoo she found that she couldn't do anything. Before leaving the room I remember hearing her whisper, "If you and Yellow wanted this colony for yourselves then you should've just taken it." Mere moments before I got news of her death I got a message with one final plea from Pink to allow her Gems to live in the zoo and for the perfect Jasper to be given to Yellow. Before I could reply I got the call from Yellow. I still remember that day perfectly, I must've listened to a hundred different reports on what had happened. When I finally had a moment of peace I cried, I had never cried before but I did that day. I constantly think about how I should've just given those Crystal Gems the planet, how I should've told her how proud I was of her and how much I loved her, how I should've been there with her that day! Now all I can do to even begin to atone for that is by protecting her legacy. I will take care of her zoo and her Gems and maybe someday I will find peace.
Now the trial is over and Yellow is launching an investigation into what had really happened that day. We have to be discreet about it; we do not want to cause our Gems any undue stress especially not the Gems who had been there that day. We start by finding her Pearl, find her and we'll at least have a clue. Yellow decided that if we find that Rose didn't do it and if we find her then we'll negotiate a deal with her. My Pearl's outside my room, she's trying to see if she remembered where Pink's Pearl went. That's alright, not only will she inform me if anyone comes to see me but Pearl will tell me what she remembers. Right now I'm in my room, thinking about Rose in her new form and what Zircon had said. No one knew Pink would be where she was, her Gems had been setting up the campsite and where checking the perimeter and when they came back Rose shattered Pink and ran off. They didn't even know how Rose got past the Agates. Now I'm sitting here, my aura has flared up again. I close my eyes and try to calm down but I see Rose's new form showing me her gemstone. Why can't I get her out of my head? Why am I shaking and crying harder than I did when she was shattered? And why won't this aura dissipate?
I think that Blue also kinda realizes that she essentially saw Pink again but like Yellow it's subconsciously. Hope you enjoyed it; I might do a sequel to this when Steven reveals the truth to the Diamonds.