A/N: I know last chapter was a little different from the previous, but I though it was important to show that to Quinn her dad was still her dad and that she despereately looks for the good in him and that every once in a while he rises to the occassion, but is that enough? Will he rise to the occassion again when she needs him too? Not sure yet. Hope you like this chapter, we are starting to get into some of the major angst. Thank you for your reviews, the are truly appreciated and please continue to do so. Disclaimer: I do not own GLEE or any of its characters. GLEE is property of FOX and its creators.
Quinn sat on the doctor's examination table her gaze on the picture of a country farm but she wasn't really seeing it. She was back sitting on the porcelain throne in her bathroom staring a little stick that had just changed her life. Her heart beating so fast it felt as if it would leave her chest. She hadn't believed what she saw, so here she was to get the answer she wanted and needed to get.
"Quinn?" the doctor came in and walked up to her giving her a sympathetic smile. "Quinn the test was positive. Your pregnant." Blood rushed to from her head, her head felt dizzy, and her breath shortened. The small room that had only been a slight annoyance was now pressing in. She felt has if she was going to suffocate.
"Quinn, calm down honey…" said a soothing voice, soft hands began rubbing her back and a paper bag was put into her hands, "breath into this Quinn, nice and slow. Three seconds in and three seconds out." Quinn tried to do as she was told but it was hard and she felt herself panicking more.
"Quinn you need to calm down, you're having a panic attack. Close your eyes. Slow deep breaths. Think of a happy place and imagine it."
Quinn forced her eyes shut as she continued to try and slow down her breathing. She picture the tree house up at the cabin her parents used to take her and Frannie to when she was real little. She saw a fourteen year old Frannie calling her telling her to come up. Smiling Quinn chased after her big sister climbing the ladder an laying down. Frannie was laughing and Quinn couldn't help but join in. The sun was bright and warm. It was peaceful. Quinn felt her breathing slow as well as her heart. The dizziness disappeared.
"Good Quinn, open your eyes." Reluctantly Quinn took her eyes from her and Frannie's younger images and focused back on the doctor standing in front of her.
"Alright?"
Quinn just nodded. The doctor smiled again, "I know this is scary for you. You do have options Quinn. Abortion and adoption are available. I can set up an appointment for next week if you want to go the abortion route."
Quinn shook her head no. "No, I couldn't that , it's murder." Quinn's hand instantly going to her abdomen. She may have only just found out she was pregnant a few moments ago but shed' suspected for two weeks now, since she missed her period. When the home pregnancy test had been positive she had promised herself not to panic until it was confirmed by a doctor. But she had thought about what she would do if the doctor confirmed her pregnancy, and though she didn't know exactly what she would do, there was one thing she definitely would never do and that was get an abortion. Not only was her religion against it, but she as a person had a moral code against it.
"Are you sure? Teen pregnancy is difficult."
Quinn eyed the doctor with a hard stare, "I am aware of that. But I will not kill this baby."
The doctor nodded, "Alright I will give you some pamphlets on adoption and the stages of pregnancy. Here is a prescription for pre-natal vitamins, and you need to make an appointment for an ultrasound in your third month. You're approximately six weeks along now."
Quinn nodded. That was spot on with her night with Paul. How could she have been so dumb to trust him to use protection? If she hadn't been so drunk she might have noticed he hadn't used anything, but she couldn't be positive as she'd never seen a condom before nor would know what it felt like for a man to have one on. "Thank you."
Quinn threw up her hood as she walked out of Mellville's Planned Parenthood. Mellville was a good half hour north of Belleville and she doubted anyone she knew would be here but she had to be cautious. No one could see her and tell her father before she did. It had begun to rain as she got into her car and threw her bag in the back. Staring at the rain roll down the windshield she began to cry. This could not be happening to her. She could not be pregnant at sixteen. She'd be the laughing stock of the school, she'd probably have to quit cheerleading, and her father, oh God her father would kill her.
Sobs rocked through her body as she let out the pain and fear she was feeling. "Frannie, oh Frannie what am I going to do?' Quinn called out for her sister who would never answer her. "I need you Frannie." Quinn let her grief consumer her until she couldn't cry any longer. Then she whipped her eyes clean and set a strong face as she pulled out of Planned Parenthood's clinic. She had to be strong, strong for her baby. She'd go home make a plan and then tell her father.
Judy sat on her couch in the little den she had in her apartment in the Berry's garage reading the newest Nora Roberts novel when she heard the door separating her apartment from the main house bang close. Sighing she glance over her book to see Rachel dramatically strutting towards her and then flopping onto the couch with an exasperated sigh. Judy contained the chuckle that threatened to leave her throat when she saw the overdramatic girl's face. "Something wrong Rach?"
"No." Rachel folded her arms her chest and slumped further into the couch.
Judy shrugged her shoulders "OK" and went back to reading. A few moments passed before Rachel finally exploded like Judy knew she would.
"Why are boys so confusing?"
Judy arched her eyebrow in question. Rachel turned fully to Judy, "You know how Finn joined Glee club last week?"
"Yes."
"Well he is actually pretty good. And well I realized how cute he is."
"Yes"
"And well I noticed that he's been looking at me a lot."
"While you're looking at him?" Rachel blushed at Judy's comment.
"Anyway so we were supposed to work on our song in the auditorium today. And I thought it would be nice to have like a picnic."
"In the auditorium?" Judy said suspiciously.
"Yeah. I thought it would help break the ice you know, being new partners and everything."
"Oh course."
"So we started practicing and it was really nice. And then we had this moment. It was like everything just stopped and it was just him and me nothing else, of course there wasn't anyone else but, you know what I mean."
Judy nodded, Rachel could be dramatic at times but she knew the feeling that Rachel was talking about. She'd had it with Russell when she was young. Of course he had changed too much from that boy she'd fallen for.
"So there I was staring up into his eyes and then he leaned in and I tiptoed and we kissed." Rachel smiled brightly at Judy who was trying not to frown at the moment. "It was so great Judy. Amazing. Fireworks. It was like we were meant to be. But…"
Judy moved closer to the young girl who looked like her favorite balloon had been popped. "But what?"
"He pulled away and ran. Why? It was so great."
Judy ran her hand throw her hair trying to think of how to word what she was going to say. Rachel was a strong girl but could be sensitive. "Rachel, honey I am glad that the kiss was nice but, sweetie doesn't Finn have a girlfriend?"
Rachel looked down suddenly, "Ugh yeah. Marsha Williams she's a junior and on the Cheerios."
Judy nodded, "So don't you think that Finn ran because he realized what you two were doing was cheating on Marsha?"
Rachel audibly swallowed and looked away from Judy before raising her chocolate brown eyes to meet Judy's light green ones. "But she is so mean to him and hardly pays attention to him."
"Honey that doesn't matter. Finn is still Marsha's boyfriend. It is not right or nice for you to kiss him when he is with someone else."
"I didn't mean for it to happen." Rachel whined. Tears coming down her cheeks, "I'm not a cheater."
Judy pulled the girl closer to her and hugged her close, "I know your aren't. It happened in a moment. But Rachel, you can't pursue Finn no matter how much you want to or think Marsha is a bad girlfriend. As long as he is with her, you can't be with him. You can be his friend, but no more kissing." Judy looked sternly at the girl now. She wanted to get this point across. Cheating was never right, no matter what. "Understand?"
"Yes, thank you Judy." Rachel leaned in and kissed Judy's cheek.
"No problem, Sweetie. Now off to do your homework."
When Rachel was gone Judy laughed and returned to her book. Teenage girls.
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