It's been a month and WOW. First I must say I've been busy with a lot of nonsense and school. Other than that i just haven't had time. Working until mid-night and almost everyday takes a lot out of a gal. Anyhow here's a new chapter. I hope you guys like it. I thought it was about time you guys got a bit more out of Angelle than heartache but beware this is not the end muhahahaha. Yup there's more to come and it's not going to be pretty. Alright then, enjoy this chapter, and please comment. I would love to know what you guys think about this chapter and their relationship.
-Maloraerrrday out!
The blonde connected their fingers, holding onto Angelina as if the woman would slip from her hold. Her bright blues remained on the slender fingers that entwined effortlessly with her own. The warmth she felt radiate from Angelina was heavenly. In all these months they had been apart, Elle had nearly forgotten the aspects of this beautiful brunette that always takes her breath away.
From her sweet vanilla scent, to the softness of her voice and warm touch. Everything was just so beautiful Elle just wanted to stand there, in the empty lot of the expensive living room and gaze at the connection she had missed so badly.
"Elle," Angelina spoke, her voice waking the youth from the trance she fell in. Those big blues gazed into warm forest. As the seconds passed a small smile of embarrassment formed on Elle's lips, causing her to shyly look away.
Just Angelina's smile could make her feel butterflies and everything that has to do with being too in love with someone.
"We should get going..." An even bigger smile formed on Angelina's lips as she caught a glimpse of the warm pink that spread across the blondes cheeks. "Don't you think?"
"Y-yeah." Elle started moving, her hands still tightly wrapped in Angelina's.
"Are we both driving Elle?" The older woman joked, her perfectly arched brow rising as she viewed the blondes reaction.
"We might as well," Elle shot back, a joking grin playing on her delicate features. She didn't want to be apart from Angelina for a moment.
Although she wasn't certain about her emotions and how she felt about all that has happened in these past months, the one thing she knew was that she wanted to cherish every moment and every second with this gorgeous woman.
"My lap is a perfect cushion."
"I bet..." The brunette laughed softly, completely entertained by Elle's familiar comments. The entire scene was sweet and Angelina hadn't realized how much she missed Elle's smile and sweet words. Just looking at her lo... co-star made her hard swell.
The artist didn't want to let herself slip into the realm where her desires overwhelmed reality. She had let that happen in Paris and knew better than to let it happen again...at least that's what she hoped. But watching the vibrant blonde in front of her made it even more difficult than she predicted.
All night the words that Elle had said replayed in her mind, over and over again. And it took all the willpower she had to not kiss the youth back when she felt those warm hands touch her skin under the table. When Elle left the restaurant it took her only seconds to get up as well. In that moment she couldn't take it anymore. It was like her sense of reality had slipped away and all that drove her was a need...her need for Elle.
And now here she was. In the parking lot with the only person to take her breath away in years. If she said it hadn't been difficult these past months then she would be lying. Watching Elle almost everyday and not being able to have a full conversation with her or even maintain eye contact made her stressed out and sad and...lonely. Unbelievably lonely.
She has her family, Brad and the kids, but without Elle there seemed to be a big hole in her chest. A hole she never knew was there until that day she told Elle that she didn't love her.
Snapping out of her thoughts Angelina held onto Elle's hand.
"I believe in safety first."
As the youth slowly pulled her hand away, the older woman took it back. Bringing Elle's pale hands to her lips, Angelina kissed the top of her hand softly and then smiled at the youth.
"It's just a drive...trust me I really...really don't want to let go either."
Stepping closer to end the gap that had formed between them when she attempted to pull away Elle gazed at the dazzling brunette. Her heart wanted to believe Angelina so bad but then her mind reminded her of the moments they had spent together. Those few minutes when her heart seemed to break into thousands of shreds, like broken glass; scattered and messy.
She allowed her free arm to wrap around Angelina's waist and pull her in, bringing their bodies even closer. Lowering her face, blossom lips pressed against Angelina's jawline kissing her way up to the woman's sculpted cheek.
Moving her head back, Elle gave a smile that didn't completely reach her oceanic eyes.
"Let's hope by the end of night you won't have too."
With that she pulled herself away from the beauty in her arms and moved around the car, making her way into the driving seat. Sitting down in the seat and putting her seat-belt on she waited for the passenger door to open.
It took Angelina a moment before she decided to finally move. Elle's soft words seemed to crash into her already swollen heart. "If only I could guarantee her that." She thought, biting back her desire to throw all of her caution away.
Slipping into her co-stars cozy car, the brunette settled in, her forest green eyes focused on the youth next to her.
"Off we go." Elle smiled, leaning over so that her lips kissed Angelina's cheek once again...but this time more carefree. "If I could show you the world Angelina..." She spoke as if in a dream, those vibrant eyes hazy with hope, "oh how I would." But then they darkened with slight despair.
"I would show you every and anything." She smiled, her cardigan falling over her shoulder like the sadness in her eyes. The wistfulness that was there disappearing like quick sand.
Taking down the lump in her throat, the brunette leaned against the car seat. Directing her eyes to the road the began to move like a motion picture outside the cars glass windows, not once did it cross her mind to ask Elle where they were going. Instead she enjoyed the blondes presence, just the pure energy that came from the woman she fell so deeply in... love with?
Maybe it was from being in the presence of Elle that made her believe in the things, the emotions she worked so hard to forget. Or rather the emotions she pushed away. But now she knew, if only just a little, that it wasn't just her dealing with all these emotions. She knew that Elle felt something...even if she didn't show it much.
The road seemed endless and time seemed to overlap, but it all was seamless. Angelina wasn't thinking of anything but the woman next to her, with her blonde hair that blew with the heat that circulated the car.
She listened to Elle's gentle humming and watched as those blue eyes would gaze at her at every stop sign and red light.
A small smile would form on her lips unconsciously, and those green eyes would meet striking blues every once in a while and both women would stop and just look at one another.
The entire ride seemed surreal. As if they weren't supposed to be with each other, as if that moment was not meant for them and yet there they were. Together.
Pulling into the drive way of a small building that resembled a diner, Elle parked. Angelina watched the area, wondering why it was open at such a late hour but before she could ask her eyes caught onto the 24-hour sign. Peeking through the large windows, she saw a few people who were dressed casually and seemed to be having small conversations.
Before she could make anymore observations, her ears caught onto the sound of a door closing. Looking at the driver seat the brunette realized that Elle had already left the car. Taking off her seat belt, she moved her hand to open the passenger door. Before she could the door was pulled open, and there was Elle.
The wind picked up her golden locks and gently swept it to the side, decorating the strands with a layer of silver tint.
"Come on." Her smile was dazzling and her outstretched hand looked so inviting to Angelina.
The older woman couldn't help but smile after viewing the youths glee. She allowed her hands to rest in Elle's and moved so that her body was no longer on the car seat. Once she was out of the car she felt herself being pulled suddenly.
Shrieking at the sudden action, her worries were calmed by Elle's laughter and hold. The youth held her tightly, her long arms wrapped around Angelina's slender body while her head rested on the brunettes shoulder. Allowing her nose to gently move against Angelina's neck, the young woman took in a familiar scent of vanilla and cider wood, the scent causing a warmth to wash over her body. In this moment her heart beat speed from just being able to smell and feel the Angelina again.
"We're going to have so much fun playing mini-golf," Elle nearly sung, her lips pressed against Angelina's soft neck.
A shiver of pleasure moved through her body as she felt the blondes tempting lips against her skin, soft and inviting.
"Mini-golf! I though we were just going to have some food?"
She moved her body back so that she could look into Elle's gorgeous eyes that seemed to be alive and...happy.
"Yeah...dinner and you know some mini-golf,"
"No Elle I don't know." Angelina smiled, poking the blondes cheek and then hiding her face in her chest. She was too happy to be with Elle to even be angry. Plus Mini-golf wasn't such a bad idea.
"So...is that a 'yes' to burgers and mini-golf then?" She ran her pale fingers through long silky strands of mahogany, savoring their warmth that contrasted so well with the crisp autumn cold.
Instead of a response, Elle was met with a beautiful smile and nod. And if the world could feel what she is feeling at this very moment, there would be world peace. Her chest felt like it would burst out her rib-cage so was so awe-struck. Angelina was just so beautiful and the joy that seemed to radiate from within just amplified that.
Moving her face closer to the older woman's, Elle leaned in but at a pace that was slowly killing Angelina. All the woman wanted was to feel Elle, to just taste her but the way the youth took her sweet time was nearly agonizing.
"Kiss me goddamn it." Angelina groaned, her hands moving lower so that they were wrapped around Elle's waist. "Feisty aren't we."
"Yes. Now kiss me."
Elle laughed as she pressed her lips against Angelina's, feeling the older woman's tongue enter her mouth almost immediately. The move took her by surprise but she wasn't at all displeased. Leaning in even closer, the blonde deepened their kiss, enjoying Angelina's eagerness.
Pulling back from their short but intense make out cession Elle smiled. "It's not a good idea to get me riled up in public Angelina. I might just skip golf and get straight to..."
"We should get going," the brunette smiled, interrupting Elle's comment.
Watching the elegant woman move toward her childhood diner made Elle smile big, although the way Angelina's hips swayed did nothing to calm the heat raced through her form.
As she pushed the door open, a small bell rung but no one seemed bothered by it. She waited until the bell rung again and Elle walked in
Making their way in, Angelina stayed close to Elle who had her arm automatically wrapped around Angelina's waist.
"Elle," The older woman whispered, not sure if she was completely comfortable with the display of 'affection'.
"Don't worry there's no paparazzi here. They don't hang around this area."
"I wasn't worried about that." Angelina smiled as bright blues looked at her and then her waist. "Oh sorry."The youth giggled.
Angelina didn't respond, she simply smiled and sat down at a small table next to one of the large windows. There was only two seats and as she watched the cars outside she could hear the movement of the chair across from her.
"I usually come here." The blonde spoke, her head resting in the palm of her hand while her arms supported her. "I used to come almost every day when I was in elementary school."
Moving her eyes from the sight of boring cars passing by, emeralds settled on the most enchanting sight.
Elle.
Her blonde locks pushed behind her ears, a soft smile playing on her lips while her eyes remained on the older woman. Though simple the sight was made for movies.
"Oh really?" The words came from Angelina's lips without her truly processing them. It was like her mind knew she needed to say something so it just stringed out a few word.
"Yup. My go to meal was a burger, fries, and a giant slushy."
"Oh my, how big is that slushy?" The brunette smiled, her eyes widening as she saw Elle show the size by pointing to the front of the diner. On one of the stands where a few cups and all of them were beyond the normal large serving.
"I'm guessing you got a brain freeze after drinking that."
"Yup and it hurt like hell. But it was worth it."
Laughing lightly at the blondes excitement, Angelina came to a quick resolution. "How about golf before eating, I don't think I would be able to handle that much food with all the 'excitement'."
"Are you trying to say mini-golf isn't fun?" Elle rose a slight brow, a small smirk forming on her lips.
"Well coming from a professional player like me...then yes."
"Ahh I had no idea I was dealing with a professional." The blonde joked back, flipping her hair to the side in an unbelievably sexy manner.
Biting her bottom lip to stop the moan that threatened to escape from just watching Elle, Angelina abruptly stood up.
"Lets go love..." Elle rose a brow at the lovely name Angelina called her so nonchalantly "I-I mean.."
"Lets go..." The brunette seemed to hold her breath as Elle rose from her seat, both women unaware of the people around them who paid no attention to them either. Their bodies nearly touched as Elle stood up straight, her golden locks moving lightly with the action. Staring at one another, both women holding their breaths, wanting but holding onto that something.
The blondes hope being drowned by events that tore her heart apart.
Angelina's wants being blocked by her rationality and fears.
Together they seemed to never be able to fully give themselves to one another. Other than those nights spent in the Paris hotel, nothing really made them feel free. Nothing in this clouded city, this industry of entertainment, their lives. Nothing allowed them to be able to fully love one another like they truly wanted. And the more they held back, the more frustration, tension, and undisclosed love built, and like a dam the cracks began to from.
"Yeah...lead the way."
Smiling back, Elle swallowed the words that threatened to spill from her lips. Words of endearment, of desire.
Turning her body from Angelina's, she made her way to the back area that lead to the mini-golf room.
All through their short journey, the youth was very aware of the figure next to her. Treasuring each moment, her uneasiness not allowing her mind to rest nor her heart to truly embrace the moment.
"And here we are," Elle spoke, breaking the silence that had grown between them. Making her way over to a small stance where an elderly man stood, his lips wrapped around a cigarette and gray hair nearing a ghostly white. Angelina stood behind and watched as Elle spoke to the man for a few minutes. After the youth handed him a few dollars and took two putters, one pink and the other lime green, she returned to Angelina's side with a smile.
"Ready!?" Her smile radiated like sunlight, the expression bringing a smile to Angelina's face."Always"
"Wait," Elle stopped, her hands taking Angelina's own. Their fingers entwined as if it was only natural for them to hold one another like that, as if instict only dectated their movements.
Emeralds looked down at their hands and then up into bright waters that sparkled with playfulness.
"Lets make a bet."
Smiling in response, Angelina tilted her head of thick mahogany locks.
"Okay...who ever wins gets um..."
"What ever they want." Elle finished her sentence.
The older woman looked into those eyes a bit longer, noticing the shift of colors to a darker blue that just revealed her hidden wants.
"Anything." Angelina stated, her forest eyes scanning Elle's body quickly before returning to her dashing face that was decorated with a smirk.
"Lets just say you got lucky." The blonde joked, wrapping her arms around Angelina's waist while the older woman attempted another obstacle, not that it would be challenging to her. "I warned you."
"Hay," The blonde pressed her lips against the Angelina's neck, "I never knew how professional you could get."
Giggling Angelina gently pushed her back, a smile forming on her lips as she felt the gentle sensation of Elle plump soft lips. The action causing her body to burn and her desire to grow.
She turned her body, getting into a stance. Angelina noticed that the youth didn't back away but moved in closer to her.
"Elle I can't move with you holding me this tightly."
"Just move your hips, I promise not to get in your way." The blonde pressed her figure closer, their skin nearly touching beneath the fabrics that covered their bodies.
"It's not that," Angelina whispered, her voice husky with lust.
"Oh really...?"
"Y-yes..."
"Then what is it?" Her lips were now close to Angelina's ear, her voice enchanting and seductive while her finger held onto the older woman's waist.
The sound of the club hitting the floor was all that Elle heard before plump lips were pressed against her own. Long arms wrapped around her neck, and Angelina's slender form pressed against her own. In that moment the older woman couldn't take the little game any longer, all she wanted to feel was Elle's skin, those feelings she only got from being with the young actress, from being in her beautiful body.
"You Elle." Her lips captured rosy blossoms, taking the youths breath away in mere seconds. Pressing their lips together and allowing her body to slowly grind against Elle's soft form that pressed against the wall, Angelina's fingers roamed the actresses figure. From the curve of her waist, to the swell of her breast that felt delectable in her hands, to the softness of her pillowy lips against her skin. Those lips that kissed and nibbled her lips back, sucking on her neck and moaning softly into her ear.
"I've wanted you for a while now..." The brunette moaned, her fingers slipping into Elle's blonde locks and pulling her closer. "I j-just couldn't."
"Sssh. Lets talk about this later. Right now I just want to enjoy you and this time." Her hands cupped the older woman's shapely bottom, savoring the softness and round shape that made her nearly drool.
"Mmmph Elle." Angelina moaned, her body nearly melting into the younger woman. Closing her eyes and letting Elle kiss her all over, the brunette could feel herself growing impatient. Yearning for more.
"OH OH LOOKS LIKE YOU DIDN'T MAKE IT. WANT TO TRY AGAIN!?"
The machine sounded, causing both women to break from their make out cession and freeze. Elle groaned, allowing her arm to remain wrapped around Angelina's waist while her fingers ran through her blonde locks that looked tousled but sexy nevertheless.
"Really?" Elle spoke more to herself than Angelina who laughed at the incident. Biting her bottom lip, she brought her hands up to the youth who was a bit taller than her. Wrapping her hands around her face, she moved Elle's head so that their lips pressed against one another and a simple message of want to transmitted.
"Can we go somewhere else? Where it's just you and me Elle?"
Looking into the deep emeralds, a familiar feeling rose in Elle's heart. One that struck down the hope she had and made her face the possible reality of what days beyond this night might hold.
"We can," she rose her hands so that they were wrapped around Angelina's own and moved them from her face. "But what for Angelina."
Giving a weak smile, the youth continued. Deciding that months were enough to give her the strength she needed to face reality or the bits of it that are inevitable. Looking into Angelina's deep eyes she moved her hands from the woman she so badly wanted to love.
"After tonight you'll tell me to give up again. To go through the same pain I've been battling since the moment you said you didn't...don't c-care about me."
The pain in Elle's eyes where mirrored in Angelina's as she stood there, motionless, her thoughts racing but body unresponsive.
"I don't think...I know I can't go through this a-again. And I want to love you so badly..."
"I'm sorry Elle."
The blonde froze, her eyes focusing on the brunette in front of her, the woman who seemed as broken as her. The woman's who's deep green eyes spoke louder than the words that had moved past her lips months ago.
"To come here, to actually take that chance took so much out of me. I've wanted to avoid you," her hands took hold of Elle's, holding them close to her. "To forget how you make me feel...but I can't. I don't want to."
"But then I think about you. Your future...Elle this, us, loving me comes with so much risk and you're young. Free. I just don't want to stand in your way. I don't want to ruin you."
"Leaving me has ruined me Angelina. I don't care about what people say or do. I just need you to not be afraid of this...of us." Her hands held on tighter to Angelina's. Elle's voice was a whisper that was laced with all the desperation and sorrow she's been experiencing. And with every plea Angelina could feel her wall of 'rationality' crumbling.
"I just want a chance with you. Not denial. I know you want this too so why can't you just believe in the feelings you have for me."
"I do believe in them..."
"Then just give me a chance. I can't function without the thought of you racing through me mind. I can't think, eat, sleep, and I've been like this for months. I can't get over you...I don't want to get over you."
"..."
Looking from their hands and back to the brunettes magnetic eyes Elle spoke.
"I know you lied when you said you didn't care for me but...it still hurt like hell. I know you want me as much as I need you so please don't be scared of us."
"Elle I..."
"Please Angelina." The blonde moved in closer, her hands slipping between the spaces of Angelina's thin fingers, fitting in perfectly. "Please don't be scared of us."
"I love you."
The words fell from her lips like a waterfall, without a thought.
Blues looked into her own with shock and glee. "You do!?"
A rosy pink burned her warm skin and the older woman couldn't help but hide her face in Elle's shoulder. "Yes. I've been trying to deny it but I can't. I love everything about you Elle. I just want to continue getting to know you...I just put everything before what I truly wanted and hadn't realized how much I hurt myself by denying you repeatedly. It broke my heart every time I tried to push you away Elle."
Wrapping her arms around Elle's neck, Angelina moved her head so that she was nuzzled into Elle's soft neck, the blondes fruity smell taking over her senses.
"I-I'll try not to be a coward because...because I need you Elle." Pulling away from her comfortable position, Angelina looked into Elle's eyes that looked brighter than they have ever been. "I promise not to be scared. There's nothing I can do to stop these feelings I have for you and I don't want to see you hurting anymore."
"Neither do I." Elle moved her lips to Angelina's own, savoring the softness of her full lips and willingness to kiss her back. To reciprocate their feelings.
A long moment of comfortable silence passed between them, and in that time they held one another tightly with content. The undercurrent of tension seemed to dissipate with there admissions.
"Can we leave now?"
Kissing Angelina forehead, Elle smiled hoping Angelina would be willing to spend the rest of the night with her.
"Yes."