Where did I get the idea to do this? Um, well deep appreciation, inspiration and other 'ationey' words from reading the good book Dalton by CP Coulter. I'm up to Chapter 17, for my second reading time. And to imagine what life would be like without this book of Dalton Academy or life without Glee, is not ever going to be possible. To think of her writing that book and not sharing it with us, is even harder to fathom. And my loving adoration and I'll admit it: I'm hooked on Glee.

Total Ownership: Glee, lots of stuff but not the copy rights to their show. However, my imagination, yeah it's mine, my words from my heart are mine with full ownership. Maybe a little assistance from another Good Book!

Dedication: To those in relationships, and those who aren't. Love and inspiration to all. (insert more drippy love hearts, all colours of the rainbow and smarties too.)

Serious Rating: M. adult content, language. May have slash/sadomasochistic issues.

Rating: OMG! Help me Lord! This one was so difficult to do. After serious prayers, here is what my heart came up with. I'd like to think that my little author notes are sufficient enough commentary, that you too are inspired to be your best. Prrffrr if not! Care factor lies with you. But, Glee has me loving my life more, has me appreciating what I have, wishing for so much more. Knowing that there is so much beauty and positive vibes coming out of this show. It's more than a show, and one day, I will find the best word to sum up how much this world needs the contributions of Ryan Murphy and co. Everyone who contributes to bringing us this show, are a valued member of my extended existence. Okay, enough prattling on. I'm having such difficulty getting started, but once I do, watch out!

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~ Season 5 Ep 6, gleE 5:16 ~

Glee does BJ, Billy Joel.
Be the best person that you can.
Just take every opportunity you can, and work with it.

gleE 5:16 Make the most of the opportunities that come your way.

Leading up to graduation, reflect but don't dwell on the past.

JE, just entertain me, and don't be so predictable.

GDBJ, Glee does Billy Joel, but tries to squeeze so much into the eps.

GOC, Glee on caffeine.

"I give you so much, but you don't see that it's me giving to you."

Can't you just say thank you, just once?

Take me away from here. Take us to somewhere wonderful and new.

It isn't healthy to stay secluded, held in our own paralysis, not venturing outside.

~ L ~

There is a moment, where Blaine questions his hopes and dreams. And Kurt's dissuading, does not help.

Kurt grabs Blaine by his wrist and drags him to the stage for a song. Just so he's ready for his audition. All the while Blaine is protesting aloud but only so Kurt will hear. "Kurt, No! I don't want to go to NYADA, I don't want to be a performer. I want to be a Doctor." They stand just in front of the seat. Kurt twists his wrist to place him down on the seat, but their eyes are saying more to one another. Kurt's are near to a death stare and Blaine's are soooo the opposite. "Blaine, you're going to be just fine."

"But no Kurt, no. Look, just stop shooting down my hopes and dreams. I don't want to perform. I don't want the spotlight on me. I'm capable of so much more than just entertaining. I feel a drive in me to be using my other talents." Kurt pushes him down and announces "Blaine Anderson everyone, for those who don't know the name, pay attention. Because in a few months from now, He will be the next shining star!"

"Oi!" Calls out a drunk at the bar. "We know Blaine Anderson already. He's like dreamy, sexsh on a shtick, aaannnd uvva great things…." The drunk spills the drink as a glass is raised, to the wonderful gorgeousness Blaine, as he gets ready to tickle the ivories. (could we tell the gender or identity of the drunk?) Kurt isn't too impressed, when the drunk winks in his direction. (prrffrr)

Sam and Rachel are in the audience too. She's had a little too much to drink, so he's agreed to be her protective brother for the night. He has an arm around her, supporting her tiddly-dee state. She's finally smiling and happy. She leans on him, but he's just a big teddy bear friend. However, something in her heart would like him a little more differently.

Sam's thought of his nursey girlfriend are lost, as he becomes more aware of his attraction for Rachel. Feelings that may have always been there, since she and Finn came to save him from his errant ways. She only had eyes for Finn, thoughts and interactions always for Finn. But now Finn's gone, no longer here. He chose to abandon her, not intentionally, but he chose. And as Sam's parents teachings have him believe, and know and trust, a Man must look after the Wife of a Brother, when said Brother shoots through.

After Blaine's song, Kurt just had to do it again. "Oh my everyone, how terrific is Blaine Anderson?" He raises his hands clapping, and has the audience do the same. "He's going to audition for NYADA and he's dreams are going to come true." Stops clapping! "Him and I are going to be so happy. And this is all he wants. And even though he cheated on me, 'cause he couldn't keep his thing in his pants, while I was getting myself settled." Kurt turns his angry eyes at Blaine, locking them in. There is no way, hell on earth, that Kurt is ever going to let him forget. He is going to humiliate Blaine, at every given moment, over this issue. Blaine wanted an engagement, even though Kurt had said many a time it was too soon. He forced Kurt's decision, singing to him in front of the Warblers, the other Glee clubs. In front of bloody Sebastian even! No, Kurt was going to have Blaine pay and pay and pay. "Even though he cheated, and I got hurt, and I took him back 'cause I love him. And even though I was lonely and tempted, I didn't do anything about it. I didn't give in to temptation, did I Blaine?" The room is deafeningly quiet, all waiting staff are trying to ignore this mega-diva Kurt. The patrons are sipping their drinks, amazed by this sudden live drama show.

"Yes! Thishis great theatre." The drunk stumbles at rising, and claps hands wildly. "Come on, everyone? This ish sho good."

Naturally enough, gentleman Blaine, blushes red. This time from embarrassment and hurt. But like the good puppy Lolly-pop, he ducks his head and smiles to Kurt. A relationship, no matter how much bullshit is involved, with Kurt, is better than not having Kurt at all. Later on, he'll make sure Kurt pays the price for this humiliation. And another use for certain pieces of Kurt's wardrobe are being considered.

~ U ~

Kurt's become quite a good cook, since moving out of home. He's prepared a selection of Blaine's favourite dishes. As Kurt knows well, the best way into any guys heart, is through food. So he wines and dines Blaine. Showing he can take care of them. This ability, is one of Blaine's aphrodisiacs! Dessert was intoxicating, walnut infused chocolate pudding with a splash of Frangelico above.

Blaine had only eaten a small portion of the main food, but his dessert consisted of two helpings. Blaine's certain that Kurt would try force-feeding him during the night. "Kurt, wait stop, I have to tell you something." Food issues aside, Blaine decides it's time to come clean about an even more serious problem.

"Oh no, no, no, you've go that look. That look I saw the night of call backs, ..." Blaine pushes Kurt down on the bed, straddles him and holds his shoulders firmly. Eyes locking with Kurt's now, he takes a very deep breath.

"I don't want to audition for NYADA!" Blaine's pleading eyes are screaming at Kurt now. It was such a hard admission. So many sleepless nights, but when he did sleep he'd wake from nightmares. Surely these would all go away, when he could finally tell Kurt, himself and his parents, that he wanted to be a doctor. His grades were really good, and science was a passion he enjoyed.

Kurt coming to Dalton Academy had sidelined his dreams, but he still wanted to be Dr Blaine Devon Anderson, Paediatrician. Dalton had offered him a scholarship for their most prestigious science programme, which he declined. Instead, he chose to transfer schools and be with the love of his life, even though it would mean altering his career path. But the previous year, without Kurt constantly alongside him, Blaine remembered what a smart, independent scholar he really was. Glee club was extra curricular, and his father was warming to him again, especially with high grades.

Pulling Blaine down for a very deep, very telling kiss of demand, Kurt deathrolls him like a crocodile and its meal. Pinning Blaine down now, nipping at his neck and resting alongside his ear he whispers through catching breaths "I can't stop you from failing,…." Kurt nuzzles up and around Blaine's ear, making him naturally thrust up to Kurt's downward pressures. "… but I can promise to make it safe if you do. And ….I'll …take you …just the way….. you are!"

Nibbles, kisses and serious bites take enjoying themselves, through the night hours. Hours of amorous passion that say how much they love and missed one another. The physical bruises and scratches would be left where clothing could hide. Emotional pains and bruises, would be harder to cover up.

~ V ~

The morning brings new light of the situation. It's a daunting new world, this life after graduation.

The note begins with Blaine's two favourite words: Dearest Kurt, How about I consult with my parents, and then I'll decide what I want to do? How about you support me, even if it goes against your desires, of us? You say I hold back, but you speak over the top of me. STOP! You don't want us down that path again, how about you be here for me? How about – you listen, Kurt! He frantically wipes the tears away, he can't read this letter through the tears. He can't understand what went wrong, in such a short amount of time. He can't fathom life without Blaine.

Kurt checks his phone for missed calls or messages or emails. There are none. Looks around his room, for where Blaine's luggage should be. The kettle is still whistling, and the neighbours bang down the water pipes from above. He gets off the sofa and turns it off. Then he sits on the kitchen floor and tries to read the rest of this painful piece of paper, once more. Hoping it will make sense at some stage.

Trust and clear communication, this is what relationships are about. And forgiveness too. A dark purple asterix separates to the next line. You're not hearing me, you're not listening. And I can't forget about Chandler, either.

And Blaine's name was written with his famous love heart above his 'i'.

Painful words, but words of care and demand. Mentions of what really happened between him and Chandler. Blaine had found out what really went down, in the side alley. The next question, who told him?

Kurt dwells on what was to be. It's a two way street, relationships, engagement, marriage. Not seemingly easier for gays, if anything, more thought is put into these huge decisions.

Rachel and Sam had left for brunch and wouldn't be back till the afternoon. Kurt and Blaine were supposed to be enjoying the apartment to themselves today, a rare treat.

He makes his way to the bathroom, and notices that Blaine had left his wallet and bathroom necessities behind. Joy and hope fill Kurt's heart. He lifts the leather wallet and holds it on his right cheek. It smells of Blaine, of course. Kurt feels the miniscule hum of the elevator and quick steps to the lounge room. As he enters, the loft door slides open. And Blaine walks back into his life …..

Extra author notes from a cute little author: If you reading this, have something to do with the making of the real Glee show, do me a favour. Stop with the circling movements of the blasted camera. You're making me dizzy! Stop, stop, stop with the quick talk. We get it, they're in New York. But even in Ohio they weren't talking that fast in season 1,2,3. A little bit in season 4, but honestly not everyone can purchase their own copy and watch at a slower speed. Seriously, leave me a pm or write in the box. Let us do lunch and I can fill you in on what needs helping with for people with movement issues.
And say this like Becky: UGH! But I love this show still. Even through the difficult bits. You broke my heart with the Breakup, I don't think there's much more you could do to ruin me. Okay, live long and prosper.