Chapter 5

"I WISH YOU DIED IN THAT ARENA!" I screamed. On my god did I just say that? I look at my brothers face and see he is crying.

"I wish I did too!" He screamed back then ran to the elevator. I ran after him but the elevator closed. I pushed the button and waited.

"Cato I'm sorry I have to go." I say. He nods.

"I understand don't worry." He says gives me a kiss on the cheek and heads for the stairs. The elevator opens and push 4 and wait. The elevator stops on my floor and I run off of it and see Mags sitting on the couch.

"Mags! Where is Finnick?" I ask frantically.

"Appointment." She mumbles. I sigh and go to my room. I have a shower and change into pajamas and try and go to sleep. Unsuccessfully might I add.

"Katniss up, up, up! It's a big, big day!" Jewel says rushing over to me to wake me up.

"I'm up!" I say. She leaves and I get changed in my training uniform. Private sessions are today. Great. I walk over to Finnicks room and knock on the door when I get no answer I open the door and see that he isn't in here. I close the door and head to the dining room and see Finnick there. He looks terrible. His eyes are red and puffy from crying he has bags under them. 5 o' clock shadow that is unshaved. I walk over to the table and sit next to Gillian.

"Katniss and Gillian today are the private sessions with the game makers! Isn't that exciting!" Jewel squeals.

"Very!" I say sarcastically. She scolds me I just roll my eyes.

"Finnick what's wrong with you?" Gillian asks rudely. I elbow him but he ignores me.

"I don't know just maybe someone told me that they wanted me to die in the arena." He mumbles.

"I'm mean but I would never say something like that!" Gillian says. I can't take it anymore so I get up from the table and run to the elevators. Once I'm in I press 2 and I enter the second floor and see everyone is eating and they all look at me. Not until they all ask what's wrong I notice hot tears running down my face. I see Cato stand up and I run to him and he embraces me as I sob. He whispers comforting words in my ear. I start to calm down and he asks me what's wrong.

"Finnick. He looks terrible! He has been crying and he hasn't slept and he hasn't shaved and he hates me! And it's my fault!" I say with new tears reappearing.

"How is it your fault?" Clove asks. I forgot we were at the table. I got out of Cato's embrace and turned to face Clove, Brutus and Enobaria but Cato grabbed my hand. I saw Clove staring at our intertwined hands in curiosity but I ignored it.

"I told Finnick that... I wish he died in the arena." I choked out and everyone gasped. And I started crying...again. Cato once again held me and tried to calm me down but it didn't work.

"Katniss you have to talk to him." Enobaria says.

"I t-t-tried but h-he hates me!" I sob.

"Ok well we need to get down from private sessions." Brutus says. Cato puts his hands under my back and knees and carries me to the elevator. Once were in he doesn't put me down. I don't complain. I finally manage to stop crying but I know that everyone will tell because of my red eyes but I really don't care. I walk in and everyone turns to look at me. I glare at them and most of them turn around except for the one and only Glimmer.

"So what's got you down?" She asks her voice dripping with sarcasm.

"Fuck off Glimmer." I say gritting my teeth. Of course she doesn't.

"No Katniss I'm a concerned ally. Is it your brother? Is he under stress because if he is he can call me." She says. That was the last straw and hell broke loose. I tackle her and punch her in the face repeatedly. I feel myself being pulled off but whoever it is is t strong enough and I punch her again. Then I feel myself being lifted up by two people. I squirm to try to get out of there hold but it doesn't work.

"I'm fine! Let go!" I scream. They let go and when I turn around I see Clove and Cato. My glare softens immediately. I pull Clove in a hug she freezes for a moment then hugs back. I pull back and hug Cato and give him a quick kiss on the cheek. I turn around to make sure no one say and luckily no one seemed to. Once the medics checked on Glimmer we were shooed away to our waiting spots. I sit down and Gillian starts blabbing. Cato comes over and says,

"Gillian I suggest you shut up before you look like Glimmer." Gillian looks toward Glimmer to see her face is black and blue. He cringes and shuts up. I mouth a thank you to Cato and he goes and sits down. Marvel goes in first. Followed by Glimmer. Then District 2 and 3 are gone and Gillian's name gets called.

"Good luck." I say. He smiles weakly at me. I might not like him but he is from home. 15 eternities later my name gets called.

"Katniss Everdeen please report for individual assisment." The robotic voice calls. I get up and head in the room. The game makers are chatting away. I hear bits of there conversation.

"She hit that Glimmer girl."

"She's the girl that-"

"That poor Glimmer girl." With that I loose my temper once again. I see a roast pig with an apple in its mouth. I go and grab a bow and arrow turn towards them and shoot the apple out of the pigs mouth.

"Thank you for your consideration." I say and leave. Once I leave I see president Snow outside waiting for me. I gulp and I know I'm in trouble.

"Ah Mrs. Odair. Lovely to see you. Now I see that you have got in several brawls with the district 1 girl. Tsk tsk. Well we can't kill your brother the Capitol heartthrob-" Snow starts. I interrupt him.

"Whore you mean." I scowl. He ignores this comment and continues.

"But we have several other ways to hurt you. If you return home you'll here that your friend Oshan has died in a boating accident tragic story really. So I suggest Mrs. Odair you play by my rules." With that he leaves. Oshan. She died because of me. My one and only friend in my district. She was like my sister. And I killed her. Well she was in an 'accident' but I meant as well have shot her with an arrow straight through the heart. I take the stairs and return to my floor hot tears running down my face. I run to Finnicks room. I don't care what's going on between us he is my brother and I love him so much. I knock because the doors locked. I hear him unlock the door and when he opens it I launch into his arms and sob hysterically in his chest. He sits me down on the bed still holding me.

"Katniss what's wrong?" He asks.

"Finnick I-I'm sorry ab-bout what I-I-I said I'm glad you did-n't di-e-e." I sob. I wait a few minutes tell my sobs die down to tell him everything.

"Finnick I love you s-so much and I never wanted you to die. I was just mad with you at sleeping with Glimmer, and is morning she was taughting me about you saying she could relive your stress so I got on top of her and punched her repeatedly. So we got in a fight twice. I didn't think there would be consequences but there was. After my private sessions, president Snow was waiting for me. He don't me he couldn't kill you but if I made it back home that Oshan (he didn't need an explanation of who she was she had been over countless times. He loved her as a little sister.) had died in an 'accidental' boating accident! I killed her Finnick! I killed her!" I say to him. I look up at him and notice he was crying to.

"Katniss Marie Odair. I know you made a mistake. You told me something when you were mad but you can't take the blame for saying that because I acted immaturely. You didn't kill Oshan! It's my fault Katniss I was the one who started it ok? I love you and I'm so sorry about Oshan. I know she was like a sister to you." Finnick says. He just holds me and let's me cry until we are called to watch the scores. Marvel got a 9, Glimmer got a 4! Ha serves the bitch right! Cato with a 10 as well as Clove. I didn't really listen to district 3.

"Gillian Lawerence with a score of... 8." We all congratulate him in his score.

"Katniss Odair very well known! Finnicks darling sister!" I snort at being called darling. Yeah the darling that loses her temper and punches people and shoots arrows at the gamemakers. "With a score of oh my! For the first time in history a score of 11." Eleven?

"Katniss! How wonderful!" Everyone cheers. Once the cheers die down Finnick asks me what I did.

"I shot an arrow at the gamemakers." I admit. Everyone gasps. Then Gillian and Finnick break out in laughter. Jewel scowls me and Mags smiles at me.

"Guess they liked your guts." Finnick says through laughter. He gives me a hug and I smile. Glad we are back to being ourselves with each other again.

"I love you Finnick and I'm glad your my brother."

"Love you too Kitty and I'm glad your my sister. Remember that ok? No matter what happens remember that."

I will Finnick. I promise.

AN: are you guys liking it so far? Review and tell me what you think! ~Finnickxoxo