Disclaimer: I don't own the Vampire Diaries nor the characters. But, if I did, I would so put Damon and Caroline together! DAROLINE FOREVER!
A/N:
I shall not share any excuses. None. Nada. So I'll just simply start with the chapter… let you read…
Okay, well you all read while I go be ashamed in the corner! :)
Here's the newest chapter to Altered Love!
Enjoy!
Damon's jaw clenched as he forced himself from speaking a word, eyeing a tense Caroline who sat at the center of her bed. He watched as she stared off into space, clearly not ready for what was coming her way as a vampire. Gaze falling, Damon stared down at the patterned floor, his eyes travelling the patterns, the wanting of disappearing constantly torturing Damon. He felt stiff against the cold side of the white dresser.
Stefan eyed both of the tense figures in the room, as his eyes softened at the lack of communication in the space. Sighing, Stefan tried to break the deafening silence, "Caroline, I know you don't want this… but there's no going back now, is there?"
Caroline's eyes drifted from her sheets to the younger Salvatore whose facial features arose with concern. Her mind wandered for a bit as she tried her best in trying to understand where his words were coming from, There's no going back…
Caroline nodded her head slowly, and slightly unsurely, only to have Stefan follow by with his words of reassurance.
"It may seem difficult in the beginning, but eventually… it'll get better…"
Caroline's brows arched at that, it gets better? That was coming from the vampire that barely controls himself around human blood because of the fear of turning into 'The Riper'…
Damon continued to listen to the constant words that were escaping Stefan's mouth; the words of understanding, words of wisdom, things Damon clearly couldn't do. Damon didn't do wisdom-like thoughts…
"Have you fed yet?" Damon asked his voice expressionless, as he finally let his gaze meet Caroline's slightly worried one. She nodded her head to the side in disagreement, "No. No. I haven't…"
Damon looked over at Stefan who nodded slightly, before both of the Salvatore's put their attention back on to the confused blonde. Stefan was the one to break the silence, "Well, in order for your transformation to be complete… you have to feed-"
"What if I don't?" Caroline asked, interrupting Stefan, because she couldn't imagine hurting someone. She couldn't dream of hurting someone like that; killing them…
Stefan remained silent, only to have Damon's low voice echo through the room, "Then you'll die."
Caroline nodded her head slowly. She wasn't exactly surprised at that outcome, which definitely intrigued and confused both of the Salvatore's, "So the only way to turn is to drink human blood?"
Stefan huffed in a breath before legitimately answering Caroline's question, "Yes, but, you don't exactly have to take drink from the vein… there are blood bags."
Damon watched as Caroline's body loosened up a little, almost as if she were relieved over the fact that she wouldn't exactly be hurting anyone when feeding for the first time. In honest truth though, it kind of relieved him as well… he couldn't imagine the bright, and bubbly Caroline carrying a grudge over herself for the rest of eternity because she were to hurt someone by accident, just because she was a monster now. A monster. Like him. But who was he kidding, its forever, and forever is a long time… which vampire's survive eternity without draining at least one innocent human being? That's right, none.
None.
And that's what scared Damon. He couldn't imagine Caroline not being herself no more… he couldn't just watch and wait for her innocence to be snatched away from her, simply because she was no longer a breathing individual. He couldn't. He wouldn't.
Standing up straight, so that he was no longer leaning on to the white dresser, Damon huffed in a breath before walking towards the bedroom door, ignoring the questioning looks from Stefan on the way out.
"Where are you going?" Stefan asked, having Caroline's eyes shoot up towards the exiting Damon.
Damon stopped in his tracks, his eyes shutting close before he turned around to face two who sat on the bed, "I'm leaving."
Caroline's eyes shone with no emotion, as her expression was unreadable, almost as if she knew where Damon's thoughts were heading, unlike Stefan, who was simply confused with everything that was happening. Damon could feel the anger rising through his veins, he knew it wasn't right for him to be getting angry but he couldn't help it.
"I'm leaving because I can't just sit here and watch you coach her through all of this!" Stefan's brows only furrowed more, as his confusion deepened, "Becoming a vampire is nothing that someone can simply learn to cope with! It never goes away! The thirst, the constant feeling of just draining someone whole, it never ends!" Damon exclaimed at the top of his lungs, "And I'm not going to stay and watch both of you fail!"
Stefan's eyes softened slightly, he knew that Damon had many other reasons to his anger, and the part where Caroline was the one who was going through all of this, is exactly what was bothering his older brother. Damon may not admit it to himself, but, Damon loved Caroline, and Stefan couldn't imagine how much that must hurt Damon. It's like imagining Elena getting turned into a vampire because of him…
It hurts.
"Damon, look we can—" Stefan started, but was interrupted by a soft voice that rose from the blonde, her voice barely above a whisper and completely expressionless, "Let him go."
Damon's jaw clenched at Caroline's words, as he stared at nothing in particular, his eyes wandering over the bare floor.
Stefan's head shot towards Caroline's direction, "Caroline—"
"Stefan, please…" Caroline stated, slightly pleading, as she never let her eyes travel towards Damon's direction.
Before Stefan could respond, everyone's attention was brought up to Damon who stood at the door. Huffing in a loud breath, Damon walked out of the room, leaving both Stefan and Caroline with a loud banging noise that came from the front door of the house.
Caroline jumped at the loud noise that echoed through the house. Eyes softening slightly, Caroline sighed internally as she tried to process what Damon had said before. One thing was for sure, she wasn't going to give up on this, and she was not going to fail. Fail him.
Damon's knuckles were white and numb. He held onto the steering wheel harder and harder; surprisingly it didn't burst unto pieces. Damon's eyes were cold. Icy eyes staring at the deserted road. His face and body tense. His jaw clenching every time a thought of her came into his mind. Every time it did, his jaw clenched and his hand fell harder onto the steering wheel. Damon forced his mind not to wander; he didn't want to think of her. His foot downed further on the race, speed of the car nothing for Damon's hard figure.
-x-
Damon looked Caroline in the eyes, causing her to stare back at him dazed, "You will not feel guilty about Vicky's death. With everything I did, after treating you, I didn't apologize. You hate me… you don't love me…"
"I don't love you…" Caroline repeated back, dazed.
-x-
Clench jaw. Tighten hand. Ice cold eyes.
-x-
"What? Not going to compel me to forget your apology?"
-x-
Clench jaw. Tighten hand. Ice cold eyes.
-x-
Caroline stood onto her feet, running towards Damon, as her arms wrapped around his neck, as her arms rested on his shoulders, her feet practically off the ground as she stood on her toes, grabbing hold of Damon in an embrace, as she continued to cry at the croak of his neck.
-x-
Jaw loosened. Hand loosened. Blue eyes warm and sea-like. Body slightly warm.
What was he doing? Caroline needed him. She needed all of the support she could get, and Damon was here, speeding his car through a deserted street.
No. She didn't need hishelp. She had Stefan, Elena, and Bonnie; everyone she needed. She didn't need any help, especially not from him. And so what if it was slightly his fault that she was a vampire. Damon didn't care. He didn't care.
Damon's eyes softened slightly at the thoughts of Caroline crying—
No he didn't care.
A/N:
You: That's all? You leave for so long, and not update only to come back with this?
Me: I know I promised you guys that there would be more of Daroline, and more of Caroline's training. But I thought that it wasn't exactly the time for that yet. Caroline and Damon are still in hard terms and I wanted to have a chapter where Damon actually got the chance to think about the whole situation in front of him.
Yeah. A lot of words. Either way I'm sorry for taking so long to update. I'm trying to get all my stories updated before the end of next week. So yeah, WISH ME LUCK!
Anyway, how'd you guys like it?
Any ideas/comments that you'd like to share?
Review!
"Some girls just can't resist my good looks, my style, and my charm… and my in flinging ability to listen to Taylor Swift."
- Damon Salvatore