Chapter 25: Calmness

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She felt like she was flying… She always had dreamed of wanting to fly, letting the cool wind brush her face and let the wind take her to different places. It was all she had wanted… maybe this is why she was so close to the seekers?

…Although, don't get confused if she tells them she loves them. It was just how she is. The love she holds is not for a single being.

There are a lot of underlying reasons on why she loves all of the Decepticons to bits. This love was what she had kept from others but had been willingly given to these aliens.

For her, they weren't just aliens though. They were her first ever family even though it they had a rough start at accepting her. Her family also loves her to her organic molecular structure; she likes to think of that. But there was this nagging thing at the back of her mind that tells her that soon, this would all be just a dream because it was too good to be true.

After giving up on having a family once more when she was thrown in an orphanage to grow feeling distasted, she never had expected them to change that point of view and to give her a purpose of living once more. She would be lying if she says that she wasn't terrified at them at first but then again, that time, she was so accepting of death that she didn't care who they were.

She just wanted someone to end her misery.

But then again, when she decided to open up her heart once more, isn't that like signing your death certificate? Her brain was telling her that these aliens will only use her up then when they are done, they would kill her or slowly torture her… but her heart was still yearning and full of hope that something good will happen if she kept on living and surviving.

Then, turned into this… she had been accepted by them. She all but gave everything she could to them, wanting to try another chance but with another specie. They were not humans… so she shouldn't place them on the same category… Whatever will happen to her after her experiment is finish will be the judge of that.

Time had proven her that they were worthy of her placed hope, love and kindness. They were what she could ever want… They may be made out of metals and tins but they had a heart… or as to say, a spark.

She deciphered each and every one of them and concluded that she was wrong to think that they are different from her species. They have two arms, a head, a pair of legs, a face, a body, a brain, a stomach and they could reproduce…. although reproduction should be the used on them.

They have their own quirks, characters, personalities and habits aside from their universal want for power. She had observe them every day and had realized each day that they were of no difference.

After a lot of thinking, she thinks she could just be crazy and had just lost her mind but what else was she going to lose? She gave and gave… Now, she just thinks that Primus was giving her a platter to get what she could… For that, she was grateful.

Love was what she had needed. These mechs were all what she needs and she wants to contribute to them in any way she can. She was theirs to protect. They were hers to guide.

The feeling she had for them always overflows and she couldn't help wonder the what ifs… What if she was like them...? What if she could form true bonds with them? She has too many what ifs but she was spared of getting a headache when someone familiar entered her mind.

'Query: Awake?' His voice echoed in her dream state and she couldn't help be confused as to why had he suddenly appeared.

'Hi, Wave…' She greeted warmly. Her thoughts now drifted on how in the pit was Soundwave here in her mind? But really, she shouldn't be that surprised, right? The mech was a technopath…

With that in mind, she got an idea. With all her curiosity, she experimented on what she could do about the bonds thing. She imagines putting her feelings in a ball then to a letter and tried to send it to him… Was it wrong for her to want something so foreign and immaterially illogic?

But just then, she felt warmth seep into her. Like what she had experience with Shock, this was not of her own. It was like a reply

'Is that you, 'Wave…?' She asked him with tenderness.

'Affirmative.' was all she got before the white background suddenly disappeared as she felt something was shaking her and curling up to her. Another was near her head and was practically trying to wake her up with all those clicks and whirls.

She let her hand drift on top of the youngling that would likely be on her head as she felt him meet her hand half way. The one curled on her stomach was still chattering loudly and soon she understood what they were talking about.

"Shein is a strong femme! I knew it! And she belongs to us! The Autodolts won't take her away! She is ours!" It was Lazerbeak and he sound frustrated and really angry as he keened on her midsection.

Shein twitched and wondered why the youngling thinks that she would be taken… As far as she could remember, she was not at all that protected so that she would not be noticeable and get taken by the Human Government.

She opened her eyes slowly to let it adjust to the light as she rubbed the sleep away. Her body felt like she was still floating but then again, she was on the floor. She got up to a sitting point and saw the little mechanical bird she hadn't seen for so long, clutched the fabric of her blue t-shirt like it was the last thing he would do.

The sight just made her heart ache as he keened even more. He might be bigger than her but the way he was trying to make himself as little as possible… something was really troubling him.

"Lazerbeak? Oh, youngling… What is wrong?" She didn't think for a second about where in the pit she was or how come she had woken up there. All she could think of is the question on why he was sad and how to make it better again…

It has something to do with the other faction… she concluded but as much as she want to give them a piece of her mind for making this youngling sad, she couldn't because she knows that acting irrationally would not be the best solution.

"Lazer, honey?" Her voice was softly and inviting as she placed a hand on his helm and stroke it. She held the flinch she was about to make as he keened again. That slightly had taken her aback as he opened his wings and engulf me in a hug of some sort.

"I'm alright… I am right here… Don't be like this, Laser…" She hushed him like a child which he was and that managed to do the trick. She smiled at him and gave him a pat in the helm as he didn't let her go immediately.

Soon, she found herself being helped up by large wires that came from none other than her friend, Soundwave. She thought it was just a dream… but seeing the mech now, she knew that she had mistaken, making her blush madly and gave him a sheepish smile.

But then, a pair of shoes clucked behind her making her turn and raise an eyebrow at who she knew would be the only person to have a resident Decepticon on his property.

"Nice seeing you again, Gould…" She scowled at him but then when the expression of horror came on the man's face as he paled gratefully, she blinked.

He tried to get a word out as he pointed at her. Sweat dripped from his forehead and his eyes were bulging from their sockets. It was like the man had seen a ghost.

She sighed and decided to give the man a break, she slowly walked towards him but his feet took a step back. That confused her very much as she slowly tested it again.

"What in the pit is wrong with you, Gould?" She asked irritated but as soon as that left her lips, he had scrammed with a few tumbles here and there while yelling like a girl. Okay… that was not what she had expected of their meeting. She knew that she was off property and that any Con would kill whoever wronged her but Gould should have been like that. What? Did Cadey have the go on torturing him while she was out cold? That mech was no fun…

She was about to turn again and leave whatever the man was to think when suddenly Soundwaves large wires wrap around her body and carried her to mech's alt mode that was seating so innocently at that garage.

There were no screams and no struggles as she was slowly placed in front of him and the little younglings again. She was really accustomed to things like this. There was nothing that would surprise her now. She thinks…

Standing there like a statue and letting him examine her was all she could do. He felt him poke and prod her old and new scars as well as do a scan. It was cold and very ticklish unlike Hook's that was kind of deep and really thorough… And that other feeling, a soft, warm and ticklish scan. Now, where had that come from?

Soon the big wire again wrapped around her body and she was deposited into the mech's alt form while she knew that the four of them were conversing. She sat there silently and she frowned at how Soundwave didn't want her to know what they were talking about.

But then, when the air turned warmer and the air-conditioning suddenly started working double time. She knew that something was wrong…

She was then bundled up with the wires and was left besides the younglings as they crawled to her and curled. They weren't disturbed when Soundwave suddenly had transformed and begun smashing the vehicles all around them. He had also managed to destroy the garage door as he let out a shrill war cry.

Gould must be an idiot when he came back storming in to see the mech like that. Before he could even speak, he was pointed with dozens of the wires aiming to kill.

Shein knew that he was very truly angry for when his optics landed on Gould, without hesitation, the man was made to evade and scream or plead for his dear life to be spared. Poor man walked away after she had coaxed the mech to leave him along, limping.

Soundwave didn't transform back to his alt mode and grab her as he laid her on his servo near his spark. He was silent but awfully deadly. She didn't know what was running on his mind but if she could maybe she would be able to help him.

She tried that connection again and did the exact same thing with sending her concern to him.

Immediately, he perked up and seemed to calm down. Her vision became blurry from using her energy as she fell asleep. At least, Soundwave was happy and the younglings look satisfied for some reason.

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