She had let Alex go to Kara, to comfort her, and to get more information about what was going on.
But when Alex sent the text explaining everything, Lena's blood ran cold…
Alex: Dream was bad… really bad. Thinks she walked in on you and Jess… fucking… Not good. She's devastated… Needs space. Will try my best to help when I can. Talks soon. -Alex.
What was she supposed to do now? How could she ever win Kara's love back? Cheating was unforgivable, and the fact that Kara's worst insecurity was not being enough for Lena was horrifying to her… Had she been too busy for Kara recently? Had she not been clear about how much she loved Kara?
And how the hell was Lena supposed to live, when she knew that Kara hated her? When Kara didn't want anything to do with her… When Kara wasn't even a part of her life…
This wasn't fair… To either of them. Kara was heartbroken for no reason, and Lena was being punished for something she didn't do.
She didn't know what was worse, but she did know that there had to be something for her to do, that would be able to convince Kara that she hadn't cheated… She just didn't know what.
XXX
A week… One long, miserable, drunken Kara-less week.
That was how long it was before Lena ran into Kara and her friends at the bar.
They all knew the truth, but they chose to pick Kara's side until they figured out how to make Kara realize that the Gray Mercy was the reason all of this was happening.
They all gave Lena sorrowful looks, Winn the most remorseful of them all. They all chose to send a slight wave, but continue on with their night, all except Sam and Alex.
Sam went and sat with her, and Alex tried to play the mediator, but Kara wasn't having it; which was why Lena was currently chasing Kara down the alley way, trying to just get Kara to look at her so she could speak.
"Kara! Wait! Please!" She called out after her; because chasing a Kryptonian that had superspeed was fruitless.
Kara stopped at the end of the alleyway, refusing to turn around. "What?!" She demanded.
"I-… I miss you." Lena declared lamely. "I miss you, I love you, and I need to know why you'd think I'd cheat!"
"Because!" Kara raised her voice. "I CAUGHT you!"
Lena shook her head, desperate to break through to Kara…. She was done being forced to live a life without Kara. "B-but that's the thing, Kara. Think. Think about that. You didn't catch me cheating because I didn't cheat."
Kara turned around slowly, a deadly glare printed on her face. "I never thought you'd stoop so low as to cheat… but this is even worse, trying to manipulate me, to make me think I'm the wrong one? Vitim Blaming?! That's some Mon-El level toxicity, Lena. Leave me the hell alone!"
Lena's heart tore in half. Kara really, truly, hated her. "What do I have to do?" Lena choked out, resigning to having to take responsibility for actions she didn't commit. "What do I have to do to prove to you that I'd never hurt you. That I want you and only you for the rest of my life? What do I have to do to earn back your trust, to make you love me again?"
Kara searched Lena's face for sincerity, she seemed to be pleased with what she found and shook her head. "If you want me to be happy, you'd leave me alone. Live your life with your knew girl toy, and I'll try to live my life. You and I are over, Lena. There's nothing you can do to change that. IF you really loved me, you wouldn't have even thought of cheating. If you didn't want to hurt me, you would have stayed loyal. You didn't love me, because you don't destroy the people that you love, and Lena… you destroyed me."
Lena let out a strangled sob, hating how heartbroken, and hurt Kara looked as she lifted into the air… What could she do? She just wanted her fiancée back, but it seemed that no matter what she did, it failed.
Giving Kara space failed. Confronting Kara failed. What else could she do?
She was just about to walk home, when a firm hand gripped her shoulder. She turned around to face the owner and fell into open and waiting arms. "She hates me, Alex. She hates me." Lena cried out, her heart thoroughly beaten.
Alex stroked her back comfortingly and spoke softly. "Shh, Lena. I got you, I got you."
Sam was standing right next to her, gently caressing Lena's arm. "We've got a plan, Lena… It might not work, but it will at least show Kara that you're willing to respect her wishes, but also fight for her."
Lena looked at her, hope flooding her system. "Whatever it is, I'm in. Anything."
Sam smiled and nodded proudly. "Then let's get to work."
XXX
"Are you sure this isn't going to make things worse?" Lena asked worriedly. "She already hates me, pushing her might just be poking the bear."
Alex sighed. "She loves chocolates, so why would receiving them, regardless of who their from, be an issue? Food is life to Kara."
Lena huffed, and nodded her head as she clicked the 'order' button on the 1800Flowers website. "So, they'll just deliver them with my note? Just like that?"
Alex smiled. "Yep. I should warn you though, this might not get a reaction out of Kara… But as long as you keep sending them, she should eventually come to you. In the meantime, I'm going to try my hardest to fix this. Hopefully it will reverse on its own, but she doesn't even remember that asshole throwing the Gray Mercy on her, so it's highly unlikely to happen on its own."
Lena nodded, swallowing back the fear in her heart. "I hope whenever it happens, it's soon… I miss her Alex."
Alex nodded. "I know you do. But whatever happens, I'm sure she'll take you back as a friend… someday."
Lena rose her brow. "If Sam cheated on you, would you ever want to be her friend again?"
Alex's hopeful smile diminished. "I… No."
Lena chuckled. "Exactly. Cheating is unforgiveable, and this is no exception."
Alex shook her head. "But you didn't cheat on her."
"I know, Alex… but to her, my affair with Jess is as real as they come. I understand why she's hurt, but it's killing me. Every time I look around my apartment, all I see are places where we kissed, or cuddled or… y'know…"
Alex made a face of utter disgust. "Agh! Lena, stop…ew! That's… That's my baby sister!"
"Sorry." Lena laughed sadly. "But I can't help it. I need her, Alex."
Alex nodded. "We will get her, Lena. We will."
XXX
Kara was sitting at home, watching re-runs of Dexter, when there was a knock at her door. She furrowed her brow, confused about who it could be… Sam and Alex were out on a date night, Winn was at a comic con, and Clark always used the balcony, so the only other person that it could be was James… and they weren't that close anymore.
She x-rayed the door to see a Delivery Man standing there, and immediately zoomed to the door.
"Kara Danvers?" He asked professionally.
Kara nodded, confusion the only thing she felt.
"This is for you." The man stated as he offered her a pink box with a white bow and a with a red note on the top.
Kara thanked the man, handed him a tip, and then shut the door behind her as she stared at the box.
Had James heard about her break-up and come crawling back?
She opened the package first, deciding to read the note after, and was thrilled to see a box of Godiva chocolates.
She sighed happily as she shoved one into her mouth, humming when she tasted a cherry inside. As she chewed happily, she took the note off of the lid of the box and read it.
Want to know how much I love you?
I know that you opened the box before you read the note.
I know that you ate a chocolate before too.
And I know that you have that confused little furrow in your brow as you try to figure out who this is from
I love you so much that I know exactly what you did… and I miss you, Kara..
I'll never stop fighting for you.
All my love,
Lena
Kara's heart ached… How could Lena claim to love her when she went out and cheated?
Tears were spewing down her face, she missed Lena, she loved Lena, she would've died for Lena… but she could never forgive her. Could never give her another chance… not after this.
She was hurting, she was aching and she needed Lena to know exactly how she felt… So she took out her phone, and searched for the song that perfectly described exactly how she felt.
When she found it, she copied the link, and sent it to Lena… Hoping she'd take the hint.
XXX
Lena was sitting anxiously by her phone. She was hoping that Kara would call her, text her, something to show her how she felt.
It'd been five hours since she placed the order, and she was impatiently waiting for any sign of life from Kara.
She was terrified that this had only made things worse between them, should she have sent chocolate covered strawberries instead?
Just as her worries were starting to run rampant in her mind, her phone rang out, alerting her to a text message. She instantly grabbed it, and opened the message… Shocked when she saw a Spotify link instead of Kara expressing her wishes to be left alone.
Hope flooded her heart as she clicked the URL, and listened to the song.
Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live
Oh take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever ask
'Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah)
Oh whoa oh
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same
No no no no
Black, black, black and blue
Beat me {til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said hey when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman that's just what you are
Yeah you'll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever ask
'Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah)
Oh whoa oh
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same
If my body was on fire
Ooh you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you love me, you're a liar
'Cause you never ever, ever did
But darling I'd still catch a grenade for ya (yeah yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah yeah)
Oh whoa oh
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No no no no no
Tears were pooling down Lena's face, sobs were wracking her body. Every single word of that song was like a cat-of-nine to the heart. Her heartache was overwhelming her, and all that she could think to send in reply was one simple text.
Lena: I would do the same, Kara. I swear on my life I would.