"So, basically what you're saying is that we have the footage. We have the proof, but it's useless." Lena growled. "I want my fiancée back, Alex!"
Alex frowned sympathetically and nodded her head. "I know, Lena… I know. But if we show her the footage or try to tell her the truth without having a reversal serum, she's just going to get sick. It'd be like forcing the truth on an amnesiac patient… The only thing it will accomplish would be harming her more than the Gray Mercy has already."
Lena let out a shaky breath, her world had been ripped away, and even though Kara was still alive, it felt like she'd lost her forever… What the hell was she supposed to do without Kara?
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Alex swore that she was going to try everything she could to find a way to revers the Gray Mercy's affect on Kara's brain, so all Lena had to do was wait… But that was the hardest thing in the world for her to do when it came to Kara.
Kara was her world. Kara was her smile. Kara was her everything, and she currently had nothing without her.
Sure, she had CatCo. Sure, she had L-Corp; but neither of those were things could make her laugh when all she wanted to do was cry. Neither of them could hold her tight and never let her go. They couldn't cuddle her, kiss her, or love her.
But Kara could… if she didn't currently believe that Lena broke her trust and betrayed their love by sleeping with another.
She sat down with a huff, at her computer and wrote a note… A note that accepted responsibility for the dream-Lena's actions… A note that she hated writing, but a note she hoped would win Kara's love back.
She crossed her fingers in hope that Kara would actually read it instead of throwing it away, because she was losing hope that Alex would ever find a cure.
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Kara was walking through the door when she saw the mail lady placing a few envelopes into her box. She sighed, figuring that it was her usual bills, but thanked the woman anyway.
She used her key to unlock her box, and frowned when she saw a letter from someone she hated to even think of… someone that broke her heart.
Sadness and heartache scoured through her as she focused on the name. She had to fight in order to contain her tears. She rushed up the stairs, and through her door before she opened the letter and began to read.
My dearest Kara,
It has been almost a month since I've been able to hold you, and it kills me every second of every day to know that it is my fault. I hurt you. I hurt you in a way that I can't even begin to apologize for.
I know that what I did was almost unforgivable. I know that I hurt you, and I hate myself for it every second of every day. I messed up, horribly, and there is nothing I can do to express how utterly sorry I am, Kara. I love you; I miss you, I need you… So, tell me whatever it is you need me to do to earn back your love, and I'll do it in an instant, because I can't live a life that you aren't in.
Please, Kara. Please give me a chance to earn your forgiveness. I know I don't deserve it. I know I don't deserve you, but I can't live my life without fighting for you, so please, Kara… Tell me what it will take to get you to at least smile at me again.
Eternally yours,
LKL
Kara had tears cascading down her face as she ripped up the paper in her hands.
She couldn't do this. Not now at least.
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Every day for two weeks, Lena checked her mail box religiously, only to receive bills and advertorials… and every day she was left disappointed.
Finally, after sixteen days of being let down, she received something… something that Lena had been desperately waiting for.
There was a little pink envelope, addressed to her, and sent by KZD… Kara Zor-El Danvers.
Her heart flipped in excitement as she tore open the envelope and read what was inside.
Miss Luthor,
Although it is refreshing to see that you are finally willing to own up to your misdoings, I will not take you back. Not as a lover, or girlfriend...I could never trust you enough with my heart for that again. I will, however, try to forgive you. But there are some things that I would need to happen in order for me to be able to do so.
The first thing that I would need, is for you to end whatever it is you have going on with your secretary. I don't think I'm a big enough person to look past your unfaithfulness if you're still sleeping with the person you cheated on me with.
Secondly, I'd really like to never have hear her name.
Lastly, I think we'd need to go to group counseling, just you and I, so we can try to work out the issues that we have.
However, even though I am willing to do these things, I am not ready to do them yet. I am still incredibly heartbroken, and angry. I will try to be strong, but as of right now, I am not capable of looking at you in the face without wanting to cry.
I appreciate that you are trying to make up for what you've done, but I can't just flip a switch and forgive you, nor could I ever truly be with you romantically again.
I promise you that I am trying, but it will be one large process…
Sincerely,
KZD
Lena's heart cracked in her chest… she thought for sure that this would work. That Kara couldn't possible still hate her for cheating after Lena took responsibility for "her" actions, but it seemed as though she miscalculated just how devastated Kara was.
"What the fuck am I supposed to do now?" She asked herself as tears fell from her eyes.
This was the most devastating torture she could have imagined, which is why she knew it had been planned, and she knew who to blame for it all…
Lillian.