Authors Note: This chapter has some memories that may scar some young children, anyway enjoy. HPFANFREAK08 doesn't own Harry Potter or anything assosciated, HPFANFREAK only owns the plot and the Nickel family.

The Christmas holidays arrived sooner than expected and on the first day, Carter realised that she was truly alone now, and she realised that her friends had somehow crept into her system, they hadn't even been gone for a day and yet she missed them. When Carter was walking around the Common Room, she found that it was extremely empty as all the Weasley-Potter gang had gone, and that made up a majority of Gryffindor House. She returned to her bed and started to become the lonely girl that she was before she came to Hogwarts after her family's deaths, she wrote in her journal just to document that she was feeling lonely and realising how much better life was being able to enjoy it. There were no lessons, and Carter barely left the dorm room except for mealtimes, over the first few days she completed her homework, then she poured over the photo album. Her relapses were becoming more frequent and painful, as she had nothing to distract her. When Carter was flicking through the photo album and she remembered the attack on her two sisters:

~Flashback to April 2010~

It was a normal summer's day, Kayla was playing with her dolls in the playroom with Celeste, and David was supervising Ariel and Carter playing peek-a-boo with each other. The whole family was happy, but they had no idea that it would be the last time that they would be together as a family forever. Suddenly the door broke down and chunks of wood flew everywhere, quickly David grabbed Carter and put her in the playpen with Ariel and Kayla following closely behind. Celeste ran into the room, then spells went everywhere David was duelling Dolohov while Celeste was duelling Rabastian and Rodolphius Lestrange. Then a stunning spell went haywire and hit David in the chest, and he fell to the floor, while Dolohov moved towards Kayla, he took her out of the playpen and started biting her, Rodolphuis followed the lead by taking Ariel and doing the exact same thing. Another stunning spell went haywire and hit Celeste, and so Rodolphius grabbed Carter and started biting her.

Swiftly Rodolphius took out a knife and slit Carter's throat, and wrote the words Filthy Half-Bloodin her left leg, and took the knife away to do the same to her sisters. Following her instinct Carter stayed as still as possible, trying to get the Death Eaters to believe that she was dead, but still watching everything. A baseball bat was now being used on her sisters' heads at the same time as the Cruciatus Curse, putting them in extreme pain; they then did the final Avada Kedavra, and killed both Kayla and Ariel.

Before leaving they cast the Cruciatus Curse on Carter to see if she was still alive or not. It burned her insides, and it hurt her in more ways then she thought possible for a three year old, but she told herself not to scream and kept up her appearance. In a state of manic laughter the Death Eaters left and she passed out.

When she woke up she had a fit, everything flooded back to her, and she found her house a wreck, then a team of Aurors appeared, unstunned her parents and took them to St. Mungos to heal. Carter remembered waking up in a hospital and then being bombarded with questions about the attack until a tall man with red hair and blue eyes stopped them from asking her anymore, seeing she was on the brink of tears, and then they went to pester her parents instead.

After remembering this another relapse hit her, and there was nothing that she could do about it, she just lay on her bed until it stopped, and then continued flicking through the photo album also remembering the fact that after the attack on Ariel and Kayla, she never had any freedom, and was always protected, it had always pissed her off, but now thinking about it she realised that all her family was trying to do was protect her from the fate that her two sisters had endured. She then remembered the second Christmas after the attack;

~Flashback Christmas Day 2012~

It was a snowy Christmas, everyone was being joyful and pretending to be happy, it would never be the same, without Kayla and Ariel, and now David's sister Mikayla had been killed in another Death Eater attack and now Carter's paternal grandmother Estelle died last month, but the family tried to make the best of a bad situation, allowing Carter to build a snowman, and trying to keep themselves occupied enough to simply remember those who couldn't be with them.

Christmas in the castle was magical, there were Christmas decorations everywhere, and everyone was singing Christmas songs to themselves. The teachers were busy trying to make the holidays a special as possible for everyone left at Hogwarts. Choirs were singing various songs around the castle, and the snow seemed to make everything more special.

A few days later in the middle of a relapse, Carter remembered the attack that ended up killing both of her parents, which ended up with her being in more pain than the first attack. On Christmas Day, she was surprised to find presents at the end of her bed, there weren't many, but considering she hadn't expected any she was ecstatic, and then remembered that everyone else was with their families' celebrating. She opened her presents and she received a photo frame with a picture of all four of them from Scorp, some Berty Botts every flavour beans and chocolate frogs from Rose and box of sherbet lemons from Albus.

The Christmas dinner was amazing, but there was a down side to it, after the massive feast was finished Professor Longbottom summoned Carter to his office. His office contained a few plants and many photos some of him and his wife Hannah, some of his kids, some with Al's dad, and some other people but they looked younger, and written underneath the photo was Dumbledore's Army , then he entered the room…

"So Carter I was reading your essay that I set and I found the list of people you knew from your family who had died. It got me wondering about how you knew so much about the topic, care to elaborate?" asked Professor Longbottom.

"Some of my family members were killed and I am just simply aware of how death impacts on family members. Why are you asking me this?" answered Carter.

"I'm just trying to get to know a person in my house." He replied, and then he pulled out a photo frame and gave it to her "what do you see in the photo?" he asked

She looked into the photo and saw a black, bony, horse like creature "I see a black, bony, horse like creature, what is it?" Carter asked.

"It's a thestral, they are really gentle, but can only be seen by people who have seen death." Said Professor Longbottom.

"Oh." Was all she said, realising that he was seeing if she had witnessed any of the deaths. Then he waved her away as a sign that she could go, because he was getting a Floo call.

About a week and a half later the other students returned to Hogwarts. When Al entered the Common Room, Carter hugged him, and then Rose and Scorp.

"Hi!" said Carter after the hugs

"Hi Carter" replied Rose, Al and Scorpius at different times.

"Thanks for the photo frame, and the lollies" said Carter looking at them all

"No problem" said Al eating sherbet lemon, and then they talked about their separate Christmas celebrations. Secretly Carter was thinking about how lucky she was to have her friends back and how lucky they were to have families that loved them and were waiting their arrival at home, where as Carter had no one that was related to her.

Authors Note: Ok that chapter done, I felt that it was necessary to write some of the memories, and I will write the attack in a different story, so that will be up in a few days. Please let me know what you think, either in a review, PM, favourite, follow and I can't think of anything else, I hope you enjoyed this chapter.